When did your cuck fantasies start?

[Findingourway]

For me, this all started 30 years ago at 19. I had a high school sweatheart long distance girlfreind that went to a different college. We were each others first. Took her 2 weeks while there to cheat. She confessed over the phone. I found I couldnt stop asking details and secretly jerking. She told me he was bigger and she came on his cock. (she never had with me.) I instantly exploded with the most intense orgasm I ever had. I was hooked forever. So confusing a the time, as it was pre internet. Wish all this was around back then.

For many years held this desire as my little secret. Lots of wife seduction stories, cheating stories were my porn of choice. (Kristens archives is still my favorite) Lots of time lurking here and all the great journeys.

Got married to a different girl at ..always holding on to my little secret desire. Normal sex for many years. Finally decided to tell her after 25 years. Hasn’t gone great, but at least she knows. Such a relief to have it out. Maybe one day it will progress to something.

How about you? When did it start?

[hubudig2]

I'm not a cuck but they're still cuck fantasies, just the other side of the coin...
Back when I was a virgin, I was at a friend's girlfriend's house party.
When it had ended and most people had gone home or to other rooms; I was still in the lounge, on a sofa with my friend at the other end and his girlfriend kinda laying across both of us. There was another friend in the room still but he was asleep and the friend next to me was either asleep or pretending to be.
His girlfriend was getting a bit touchy feely with me, eventually taking my hand and pushing it down her pants. This was only my 2nd time touching a girl's pussy and she was much wetter than the first. She starts stroking my cock and taking down my jeans/underwear to get her hands around it. At this point she was getting quite noisy and making the sofa rock. I saw that her boyfriend had woken up and realised what was going on but she hadn't noticed and didn't seem to care. He then pretended that he hadn't woken up and was still asleep. At this point I stopped feeling so guilty because he chose not to do or say anything about it. She gave me my first blowjob and then we fell asleep.
The next evening she invited me over alone and I lost my virginity to her.
It turned out her boyfriend had a small cock and couldn't make her cum. I'd always assumed from what I'd heard that it was difficult to make women cum but she seemed to keep cumming over and over for me, I assumed she was faking or something to make me feel better about my first time.
A couple of weeks later, she broke up with him, she wanted to continue fucking me but I lost interest for some reason.
When she got a new boyfriend (a different friend of mine), I ended up alone with her again somehow (a quiet/public outdoor place near her house), she begged me not to make her cheat on this boyfriend. I'm pretty sure she was driving it but she ended up giving me a blowjob. As I walked away afterwards, I came across her new boyfriend looking all dazed and confused. I assume he had just seen what we were doing and had backed away. It was as if he wanted to confront me but just muttered some questions about what my "intentions" with her were. I pretended not to know what he was talking about and walked off. In hindsight, I think it's possible in both of these situations that these guys were realising they were turned on by this for the first time?
Whenever she had a boyfriend I seemed to be interested in her and she was always up for it with me.

The original friend from before now seemed to always invite me to be around girlfriends of his or girls he was trying to get with. It became a bit of a joke and a sport to have his girls lust over me in front of him.
There were a few other situations with other friends' girlfriends along similar lines but I was also meeting up a couple of times a year with my first (and only serious) girlfriend who had moved away when we were young. Each time we met up she had a boyfriend back home but it always felt like we were still together.

I was now 22 and had only had sexual experiences with girls that were in relationships with other guys. I felt like an asshole and didn't really understand why I was drawn to those situations and why single girls weren't interesting to me. I got into a relationship with my first girlfriend again (we're now married, been together 14 years). When I was around 25 I first stumbled upon cuckold porn. I'd never heard of cuckolding, didn't realise it was a thing, thought maybe it was some made-up porn genre and that no guys would actually want to be cucked. I found the videos intoxicating but couldn't put my finger on why because I had no interest in anyone fucking my girlfriend. I eventually realised I was looking at it the wrong way and that I was turned on by fucking wives/girlfriends while boyfriends/husbands submitted & watched. I then started remembering past experiences and piecing it all together, it all started making sense.

I look back on all of those times as missed opportunities. I always felt guilty about it, if only I had known those friends were probably into it, all the clues were there but I guess they were ashamed to spell it out.

Being married meant I couldn't live out this newly realised desire but I enjoy the psychology of it and put it to good use where I can, helping others.

[Bluetoed]

Probably around 15 years ago. Had been married for around 8 years, and my wife was out late with her friend Heidi from across the street. They told me they were having a girls night out.

It got late... later than I expected her home. So my mind began to wonder... is something wrong? Were they in a car accident, etc... I could have called, but my concern wasn't that serious. It was just initial stages of wondering.

And for whatever reason, my mind wondering why she might be so late took an unexpected turn... the thought that maybe they were late because my wife has a secret that she is bi-sexual, and she and Heidi are naked enjoying each other somewhere and lost track of time.

It made me hard... I was shocked. Why in the world would that thought make me hard? But questioning it only made me harder. Long story short I masturbated and came to an incredibly powerful orgasm.

In my mind, I had concluded it was the thought that my wife was bi-sexual that turned me on. It wasn't until years later that I even heard of hotwifing. Eventually that led to me masturbating to hotwife stories, and having my best orgasms to them. And then I realized it wasn't the bi-sexual thought that turned me on that night many years ago. It was simply that she was having sex with someone else that did.

[jw_kk]

During my undergrad years in college - KK and I were engaged, early, the summer before our freshman year. The fall of our sophomore year, she unexpectedly broke off our engagement.

During that time, the only way I could get hard and cum was visualizing, imagining her fucking another guy.

Eventually we got back together, and got married as planned. Ever since KK broke off our engagement, this has stuck to me, an inseperable obsession.

[scarfolamew]

I mean I've been getting regularly cucked since I was 15. Read my thread lol

I'd say I started actively seeking out and enjoying erotica that centered around cuckoldry in my early 20s.

Started sharing my fantasies with my wife in my early 30s but maintained that it was strictly fantasy, and I would never actually want to go down any sort of polyamorous path with her in real life.

I didn't start actively wanting it to happen in reality until like, a year ago when my wife and I did molly together and I just completely came unglued. I would have jacked off my male buddies and guided their hard dicks into her pussy. I begged her to tell me she's been cheating on me and earnestly wished for it to be true.

She thinks I'm nuts

[hubudig2]

And then I realized it wasn't the bi-sexual thought that turned me on that night many years ago. It was simply that she was having sex with someone else that did.

Did you never consider how you might feel about her with another guy back then?
Or was the idea "shielded" by jealousy and reading hotwife stories unlocked that for you?
Did the idea of her with a woman not provoke the same jealous reaction?

[Bluetoed]

And then I realized it wasn't the bi-sexual thought that turned me on that night many years ago. It was simply that she was having sex with someone else that did.

Did you never consider how you might feel about her with another guy back then?

Never considered it then.

Or was the idea "shielded" by jealousy and reading hotwife stories unlocked that for you?

It definitely was not unlocked until years later when I began reading hotwife stories, and they resulted in my best orgasms.

Did the idea of her with a woman not provoke the same jealous reaction?

It probably did provoke the same jealous reaction, which I now know is highly erotic and arousing. It was a long time ago, so hard to remember the exact feelings. But I do remember the overwhelming need to masturbate. Almost like I could not control myself and had to do it. But I am pretty sure I concluded in my mind that all the turn on, arousal and eroticism was in thinking she was bi-sexual and enjoyed a woman as much as I did. Today, knowing how much it turns me on thinking of her having sex, it doesn't matter who she is having sex wtih. Man or woman doesn't make a difference to me.

[Shadnaster]

I'm not sure if I ever had a cuck fantasy because I never really knew what it was. A long time ago, I dated a girl. Her boyfriend had gone out of the country for a month or so. They always had a rocky relationship. While he was away, she broke up with him. That's when we got together. When he came home, she still met him at the airport. She confessed to me that they went back to the apartment and had sex that night. I should have been angry but, I wasn't. I was oddly turned on by it. I didn't know what it was. We eventually broke up.

Years later, my wife and I started swinging but, I got way more turned on by seeing her with other men than I was with being with other women. I was still clueless about what it was. Now I know

[JackRawls]

My cuckold fantasies started when I read a hot wife’s post on the old lovingyou forum. One wife posted about how her husband always wanted her to sex other men while he jacked off.

Those posts turned me on so much and began to realize I’m a cuckold and want a wife like this.

[PaNic]

Blutoed,
You reminded me of how the fantasy started with me: “maybe they were late because my wife has a secret that she is bi-sexual, and she and Heidi are naked enjoying each other”

I had a similar experience, must be 25 years ago now! It started with feeling jealous that I thought my partner was having a bisexual fling, then found to my surprise that the idea really turned me on. I put that down to the classic male fantasy of watching/joining in with lesbians (though that had never really been one of mine)

At the time we were going through a difficult and protracted, though fairly amicable, splitting up process and it also really surprised me to find I was turned on by the idea of her fucking other men. I’d never heard or thought of this as a fantasy and my first thought was it must be some kind of repressed bi side of me coming up!

Time went by and I fairly much forgot about it until several years later, very much in love with a new girlfriend, I started having the same fantasies again. This time I shared my excitement with my girlfriend. She got turned on by the idea but was disturbed any time I suggested actually doing it for real, and to be honest I felt pretty uneasy about my own fantasy, it seemed so “weird and unnatural.” However she talked about it to her female friends one of whom laughed and said “All men have that fantasy” That made me feel a good bit more comfortable about my kink!

I’m still a wannabe though, so far…

[Fapster69]

Broke up with my GF because we were young and each others first, I thought we should sleep with other people.

We got back together and she found out I had sex with a few girls and was extremely pissed off!

She said she never had sex with anyone but I found out she was lying and fucked another guy, I'm convinced it was more than one but she denies it to this day!

I was extremely jealous even though this was what I wanted.

I kept picturing her getting fucked in my head and wondered what it must have looked like, what positions did they do etc?

Eventually my jealousy turned to horniness and here we are!

[Gmor]

My story shares certain similarities as what others have written about.

It started off with a real life situation with a long term girlfriend (my first) and her infidelity near the end of this multi-year relationship. While we both knew the relationship was coming to an end I was still overcome with jealousy, anger and some humiliation (based in part on not being able to stop her but also some of important details the act itself). But at the same time I immediately realized I was aroused beyond anything I had ever experienced up until then and the intensity of my orgasms while fantasizing about her actions were incomparable.

I certainly had no idea what being a cuckold was at the time.

Id also say that my feelings built over time. After the first incident this fantasy was still far from fully developed in my mind but it would continue to pop up over the next few years and grow until there was another ‘incident’, with another girlfriend years later and then it really accelerated and started to take shape.

All along I continued to deal with the paradox of on one hand the confusion, guilt and shame that these feelings produced and on the other by the fact these thoughts would arouse me far, far beyond anything else possible.

I certainly don’t have any feelings of shame or guilt anymore but I also absolutely find it is just as arousing today when fantasizing about my wife with other men as it was that first time when I learned that my girlfriend had been with another guy.

[vanquished005]

sort of a weird journey for me. a few years back i discovered that my catholic wife is cheating on me. she has fucked 2 guys from our local parish, including a priest that she went to for counseling. although i was hurt and angry, i was also so turned on by this.

i started to watch cuckold porn and got hooked. i then started trading intimate wife pics and vids with guys on-line. when i found out how arousing it was to show my naked wife to another guy, i got further hooked and started to fantasize about being cucked.

i am afraid to approach my wife and tell her that i know about her affairs, and i am more afraid to tell her that i'd like to be cucked by her and her BF.

i would love to chat with like-minded guys about my situation.