Hotwife going out alone/why is it too difficult for me?

[BallSpanking]

Let me see if I got this straight...
This thread now becomes Mr Reese's main source of information abut your dates?

[mrs_reese]

Oh BS< I am having fun with this!!
No, Mr.R will get to hear all about my dates not only on this thread but when he re-claims me!
And boys, when hubby re-claims me, dont ever forget, I still love that feeling!

[reese]

I have a time and place to meet my wife!
I will be working till around 7 and she plans on meeting D around 730pm.
It'll be exciting as ever to walk in and see her there with D.
I love this!

[reese]

Jr...ladies night??
Oh my friend..this will be a night to remember for me as well!!

[bubbalapagos]

I'm so happy to hear from the two of you again! It's been a long time. When I read about your experiences, I feel like I'm right there with you. It's funny...my heart is racing in anticipation as if I was in your shoes right now Reese. I look forward to the next update.

I'm glad your both back!

[reese]

My night.....

Before I arrived at the bar, in the parking lot, I felt nervous!
I felt all those unusual hard to explain feelings coming back to me.
The energy...the rush of that burning sensation overwhelming your body was back!!
As I walked inside...the crowd was upbeat...the mood was fun!
I stood next to the bar and ordered a drink.
Standing there...I was watching ESPN and wondered where SHE was....I casually looked around but could not find her!
I had no idea how D looked...so I kept watching Sports Center and kept glancing around the crowd to find my hotwife.
There she was................OMG! MY heart raced...I was feeling like I do now...full of mixed up twisted feelings...!
I missed you my old friend...anyone who has watched their hotwife play understands what I mean right now..
My wife...was with this man who was younger than me...very good looking and charming!
She did well...picking D!
She was different...not acting...not pretending...and in charge!
As much as we both have emphasized that my hotwife wants to play by her own rules lately...I saw her in action and she seemed different to me!
Happier...and confident...and again, she was not acting... or playing a role!
She seemed content on taking her time..and letting the mood strike her!
She was so beautiful to me!
She had on knee high black boots...her face and hair looked perfect...she had on a black top that exposed most of her breasts.
We ignored each other...no contact whatsoever!
Once she did text me telling me that she told him that she needs to check her text messages in case I was trying to reach her.
He still understands that she is cheating on me...and I find that so hot as I was standing near my hotwife and D!
Time went so slowly...I was so hard as I sat looking at the TV...knowing that I had a secret that probably no one else in the bar would understand.
I had another moment when I thought to my self that NO one other than my wife and I were probably in our situation...we were most likely the only married couple playing like this right here at this bar!

I saw her kiss him a few times..they were feeling more relaxed as the beers were coming...
I watched him dance with her...she had her arms around his neck as they danced slowly...kissing a few times.
Again...the energy was overwhelming to me!

She texted me telling me not to worry...that she was going to a hotel..and that I could not come.
She told me to stay at the bar as they were about to leave.
She was in the bathroom texting me..as I was replying in some frantic word search...I was looking at D....
I felt so damn jealous....because I wanted my wife so badly..right now at this moment...I didnt want to let her go...
She teased me and tormented me so much at that moment....I realized that I was in a comfort zone with her.
I realized that I was OK..that I worked through my hotwife sexual desires and I was OK with just having my wife as my wife....
These were the emotions that I felt....then I watched the most sexiest woman I have ever laid eyes on walk past me...looking at D and grabbing him by the neck as she kissed him...
He put on her coat..and they walked out of the bar!
OMG!!
I lost her for this night.
I am writing this now...NO WORD from my wife other than a text at 3am...explaining that she had sex with him and she thought I should know.
She must still be sleeping right now....I have NOT jacked off today...just last night after I read her text....
I DID not sleep...I am exhausted...but I want to reclaim my wife right now... I need to fuck my pussy....OMG.... I love this horrible feeling!!

[BallSpanking]

[bubbajack]

The reservoir of cum left in Mrs R's pussy and ass by D is about to get flooded out by what reese's tormented mind has caused to be stored up in his balls

This is hotwife grand opera!!

[mrs_reese]

My hotwife just arrived home...I am on pins and needles...
I am so horny right now...
Btw, she called me on her way home and told me that there is so much to talk about but she wanted to wait till she arrived home.
I asked her if she had a creampie for me..and she just said, "baby, wait till i get home"
She is keeping me in suspense...

Ok, she here...I gotta go!

[allengt]

My hotwife just arrived home...I am on pins and needles...
I am so horny right now...
Btw, she called me on her way home and told me that there is so much to talk about but she wanted to wait till she arrived home.
I asked her if she had a creampie for me..and she just said, "baby, wait till i get home"
She is keeping me in suspense...

Ok, she here...I gotta go!

Why are you logging in with her username?

[mrs_reese]

sorry, my own section of the family computer was still logged on and hubby told me he did not intend to use my username/ he just logged on and wrote/
But it was my mistake! I didnt close it out last time I used it.

[mrs_reese]

I have a lot to talk about!
Taking care of hubby now!
Be back soon!

[BallSpanking]

Hubby must have needed a lot of pleasin'...

[mrs_reese]

Hi everyone!
Sorry about the delay in writing, as I had a busy weekend!
I wish I could tell everyone that I had amazing sex with D this past weekend, but it was a little different.
He reminds me so much of my husband, I cant believe they look alike.
He is not as muscular, but he dresses like hubby, wears glasses like hubby, has the same hair style, gottee, brown hair and eyes.
I like him a lot! We are fast becoming good friends!
After we left hubby, we actually went to another bar and had fun dancing and kissing.

Eventually we arrived at our hotel.
I was spotting and didnt feel comfortable having sex with him.
But we kissed, He kissed my breasts a lot,
In the middle of the night we both passed out.
I preformed oral sex on him.
His cock is a nice size, not large and thick but just right.
I felt sexy doing that to him.
He kept pushing for sex, but i didnt want my first time like that!
In the morning, he ordered breakfast in bed and he kissed a lot.
I stroked his cock while kissing him a lot.
He orgasmed finally when we were kissing, as I was stroking him.

I like D a lot!
This situation is different for me.
Nothing is rushed or forced.
He is single and I plan on dating him.
We have a lunch date set up for Saturday.
I am not sure that we will have sex yet!
I kind of like making him wait for me!
Hubby told me that we will be more than Fuck buddies, I told him he is probably right.
I just want to say, D is different!

[BallSpanking]

That's a first...
You can honestly say a-la Bill Clinton, 'I did not have sex with D'... lol

[mrs_reese]

Well, it was a start. BS, that was too funny!
Lunch this Saturday, I am sure will be exactly what D is expecting, I am nervously excited!
It was nice to just hang out with him. He is a real nice person.

[mrs_reese]

I am going to meet this Saturday, he asked me a few times if I would rather come to his house and order carry out and ?????
He keeps talking about my twins!
He loves my boobs! Lol!
I think it's gonna happen Saturday!
I want to make love to him!
Hubby is unusually calm!
I will never understand what possesses man to encourage his wife to have a lover in her life!!!

[BallSpanking]

I was wondering, Ms Reese, if in your new self directed HW mode you will want to have only one steady BF, or whether you remain interested in dating other guys too?

[HerLittleGuy]

It's nice to see you two back home here at OHW.

I was surprised to read this:

I feel in control for the 1st time ever as a hotwife!!

I'll admit that sometimes your stories read like a roller-coaster was running out of control, but as we peaked between our fingers and prayed, you always had the breaks on at the right time and brought it nicely and safely back to the platform. And I know that it struck ME that Mrs R seemed to be the one who had her hands on the controls. Just sayin'

Anyway, glad to see you back here, with the real-life drama settled, and among friends.

Cheers.

[mrs_reese]

Bs, I want to focus on D!
I am looking for more of an affair!
He has a lot of my attention right now and I'm sure once we make love I will feel even more into him! But if it matters, this past week, with hubby around I danced w a few cute guys at a bar with all hi friends watching! I really like this feeling of slutty cheating wife

[mrs_reese]

Herlittleguy! Thanks for your kind thoughts!
I was scared at times for my marriage!
This stuff I went through w my ex kind if woke me up but also made me realize that I really want other lovers but with more control!

[Mandy]

This has been an amazing journey. I can't believe I read this whole thing. Good luck with your endeavors.

[mrs_reese]

Mandy, that's a lot of reading! Lol!
Thank-you for your kindness!
What about you? Are you a Hotwife?

[mrs_reese]

D and I texted all night!
It's so sexy to me, in bed, learning more and more about this gorgeous man while hubby is asleep next to me!
So far, we're meeting around 2 pm for lunch on Saturday!
He told me from there he will surprise me!

[reese]

I am home taking the morning off....and I want to post some random thoughts..
First of all...............I want to apologize for posting on my wife's account last weekend.
No intentional misguided motive was on my part...we have 4 personal users on the computer..I just picked her's by accident.
One thing about my wife and I...............we have absolute trust....and WE do not violate each other's privacy.
I don't pry....it's more fun for me to learn things about her life when we are having sex.
She will usually inform me of new secrets while sex in on our minds!!

To my wife......................how fucking sexy is this....I miss these days.....texting your new hottie right in front of me while I was sleeping.

To our friends:
I hope you can relate to my feelings right now....But since we stopped hotwife play a few months ago....I had to cope and the only mechanism I knew at the time was to completely erase all hotwife fantasies and reliving real life hotwife encounters out of my mind.
I have had one other addiction in my life...and that was gambling a few years ago.
I gambled every day just about ....fortunately, I realize very quickly that I was doomed if I was to continue!
I went "cold turkey" and it killed me for a while.
It took about 2 wks to lose that urge to gamble...I was healed!
When my wife pleaded with me to eliminate HOTWIFE play from our lives...I realized that I could not ask her to do that....I had to stop all thoughts of her being my hotwife.
I adjusted and again worked my magic....As sad as this seems...I stopped thinking of her as a hotwife...I was able to cope and moved on.
Sex was different...it was more conventional with less frequency.
I stopped jacking off.....and saved my orgasm for our 1 to 2 times a week of sex!
I forgot how boring "vanilla sex" was.
I will admit...My mind wandered from time to time...thinking of my wife as a hotwife.
But "compartmentalizing" is a perfect word to explain how I worked my mind.
I promised myself to store the memories deep in my mind...and I did!

Back to the present......NOW that she is slowly becoming active again...I have a serious problem!
I am more jealous.....of D than any man who she has pursued in a long time.
I lost that ability to have the "balls of steel" as some of our friends would describe.
I have talked to my wife about this...and I am stuck.

Putting those years of memories deep in my mind has caused me to lose that ability to turn that jealousy into erections that needed to be released!
After last weekend.....I thought that I would be pushing her into D's arms....telling her to deny me....pushing her as I always did....but I didnt!!
She has all the control now...and I believe now that I lost that...along with my ability to turn that jealousy into eroticism has caused mixed feelings for me!

I know she will read this...and I want to be clear..that my no means am I asking her to stop!
Our agreement is just that...IF I ask her...she will consider my request.
But in order for this to work...I had to promise her...that if she became a hotwife again....that no matter what I ask...ONLY SHE will make the final decision.
So if I am fearful of D.....and she wants to continue....I have no voice.....she will determine if she wants to continue!!

Yes...this is amazing....and very erotic...and once this moment of weakness leaves me...I am sure that I will be fine!
But....I never thought I would be feeling the same emotions that left me years ago right now!

These concerns and emotions....I forgot how it made me feel!!