Sharing my wife has been my number one fantasy for as long as we've been together. I've always gotten incredibly turned on thinking about it.
This year we finally took the plunge. If you read my initial thread you will know that I watched her first experience through my phone using FaceTime. When it finally started happening I felt excitement in my chest. There was an element of shock with me thinking "oh my god, I can't believe this is happening. It's really happening!" The odd thing was, I did not get hard. I didn't feel angst. I felt really excited and shocked, but I did not get hard.
That continues to be the case. Our second experience I could hear my wife having really huge orgasms. When I heard this I would feel my dick twitch a little and would get semi hard for a few seconds, but not fully hard. I was again very excited and still felt shocked by the whole experience. I could hear the bed squeaking and knew he was fucking her. Then I heard him grunting and knew he was coming inside of her. I found this to be incredibly exciting, but still didn't get hard. When he left I was excited to get real sloppy seconds for the first time. I tried to enter her quickly, but was only half hard so I had to jerk it a few times in order to enter her. (It was amazing)
Everything about this lifestyle turns me on, but when it's actually happening I don't get hard. This past week I heard her coming on a cock harder than she ever has. It was overly exciting for me, but again I only got semi hard.
It's very odd to me that this lifestyle turns me on so much all of the time, but when it's happening I don't get hard. I read so many stories of guys who have a hard time not masterbating when their wife is fucking another guy and how hard they get. That doesn't happen to me.
Has anyone else experience this or have any thoughts? Am I overly excited? In shock?
When we started I wanted to watch live. My wife was not comfortable with that, so she made videos instead, which I love. Eventually, she did start letting me watch, and it did not turn me on nearly as much as the videos. Not sure why. Maybe in nervous... angst... mind racing.. whatever... sometime I would getvhard and sometimes not. Ultimately, I concluded the videos were way better than live. I could watch when I was turned on and I could watch over and over and over. I've got a huge collection of the hottest shit there is