New and still figuring it all out

[rascalnvixen]

2UP, I offer my deepest sympathies for your losses and pray that your sorrow will not be overwhelming. I fully understand your feelings. As my Dad said, it is the natural process for the kids to survive their parents and experience the pain of separation through death. It is part of living and gives us chance to honor our parents as they should, with friends and family. Good luck in your grieving and just remember their love for each other for the rest of your life. That way, they will really never be far from you.

Rascal

[2inUPMichigan]

Thank you to everyone for your kind words

I am starting the journey back to "me". I have decided to reinvent myself a bit as I have done a couple times before in my life. The question is.....what will be the end result?

I know I don't want to live with regrets and want to enjoy life and live it to the fullest.

Will I still be a hotwife? Of course! I am a non-monogamous woman, that fact isn't going to change. It is the lens through which I view the world.

I have several men waiting for me to give them a date when we can meet.
The only question is, when will that be???

Tomorrow is day 1 of the new fork in the road

[weluvtoodoit]

I am so glad for you. So many things to deal with and happy that you "can get to me". Enjoy the new fork in the road!

[Her number1]

"Two roads diverged in the wood, and I,
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference."

I know we will love you whichever fork you choose.

[farmerJ]

I hope you find what your looking for 2up, You're a beautiful woman and you deserve happiness!

[Lookingforadventure]

Thank you to everyone for your kind words

I am starting the journey back to "me". I have decided to reinvent myself a bit as I have done a couple times before in my life. The question is.....what will be the end result?

I know I don't want to live with regrets and want to enjoy life and live it to the fullest.

Will I still be a hotwife? Of course! I am a non-monogamous woman, that fact isn't going to change. It is the lens through which I view the world.

I have several men waiting for me to give them a date when we can meet.
The only question is, when will that be???

Tomorrow is day 1 of the new fork in the road

Good for you. I remember when my grandmother passed away and my mom told me how untethered she felt now that she was parentless. It can be disorienting, no matter how old you are when they passed. I am glad you have found a way to channel your grief and that disorientation in a positive way.

Whatever comes next, I wish you the best. I appreciate both your empathetic ear for everyone, and also your willingness to be an advocate when it is needed. You are amazing and the site wouldn't be the same without you.

Blessings to you as you figure out this next chapter.

[R_H_NC]

Thank you to everyone for your kind words

I am starting the journey back to "me". I have decided to reinvent myself a bit as I have done a couple times before in my life. The question is.....what will be the end result?

I know I don't want to live with regrets and want to enjoy life and live it to the fullest.

Will I still be a hotwife? Of course! I am a non-monogamous woman, that fact isn't going to change. It is the lens through which I view the world.

I have several men waiting for me to give them a date when we can meet.
The only question is, when will that be???

Tomorrow is day 1 of the new fork in the road

Wish you and your husband luck on this new journey. I look forward to hearing it's details............

[curcpl32]

2inUP, hope everything is going good for you. Missing you!

[2inUPMichigan]

Hello my friends

My time lately has been mostly filled with healing and focusing on my health overall. My doctor was amazed at the progress that I have made and as a result I have been able to reduce some medication
So maybe all those detox shakes were worth it?
Thanksgiving was spent with my siblings who traveled up to spend the holiday with us. We plan to make it a new family tradition

All sounds quite vanilla, doesn't it?


But underneath it all is the desire (that is getting stronger) to start playing again
It never left completely because eventhough I haven't played in awhile I am still a non-monogamous hotwife and it was just a matter of timing and circumstances.

I want the flirting, the anticipation, the getting ready and saying goodnight to hubby as I walk out the door to meet up with a man. I want the kinky hot sex that makes my mind stop racing and just be in the moment. I want to drive home sexually satisfied and crawl into bed with hubby where I can just breathe because I am home- he is my rock and my home

Yes, I think the time to schedule a play date is getting closer

[Whosbeensleeping]

Great to hear your positive news. May your well-being continue to root and blossom and your vanilla get shaken and stirred, with a twist.

[Mr1SexyGILF]

Hello my friends

My time lately has been mostly filled with healing and focusing on my health overall. My doctor was amazed at the progress that I have made and as a result I have been able to reduce some medication
So maybe all those detox shakes were worth it?
Thanksgiving was spent with my siblings who traveled up to spend the holiday with us. We plan to make it a new family tradition

All sounds quite vanilla, doesn't it?


But underneath it all is the desire (that is getting stronger) to start playing again
It never left completely because eventhough I haven't played in awhile I am still a non-monogamous hotwife and it was just a matter of timing and circumstances.

I want the flirting, the anticipation, the getting ready and saying goodnight to hubby as I walk out the door to meet up with a man. I want the kinky hot sex that makes my mind stop racing and just be in the moment. I want to drive home sexually satisfied and crawl into bed with hubby where I can just breathe because I am home- he is my rock and my home

Yes, I think the time to schedule a play date is getting closer

Mr GILF

[Farmgirl]

Hello my friends

My time lately has been mostly filled with healing and focusing on my health overall. My doctor was amazed at the progress that I have made and as a result I have been able to reduce some medication
So maybe all those detox shakes were worth it?
Thanksgiving was spent with my siblings who traveled up to spend the holiday with us. We plan to make it a new family tradition

All sounds quite vanilla, doesn't it?


But underneath it all is the desire (that is getting stronger) to start playing again
It never left completely because eventhough I haven't played in awhile I am still a non-monogamous hotwife and it was just a matter of timing and circumstances.

I want the flirting, the anticipation, the getting ready and saying goodnight to hubby as I walk out the door to meet up with a man. I want the kinky hot sex that makes my mind stop racing and just be in the moment. I want to drive home sexually satisfied and crawl into bed with hubby where I can just breathe because I am home- he is my rock and my home

Yes, I think the time to schedule a play date is getting closer

So happy you're feeling better, you had a lot to deal with!

[rascalnvixen]

It is SO good to hear from you again!!! Thought about you over the holiday but didn't feel comfortable reaching out to you, not knowing how you would feel about that. There will be some happy men to know that you are looking to re-engage the hotwife life again!!!! Good luck with re-engaging!!!!

Rascal

[2inUPMichigan]

I spent quite a while last night deleting most of the men's profiles that I had saved on SLS, looking forward to going in a different direction.

It's a new year, time for some different scenery

Any guesses? 🫣

[Mr1SexyGILF]

I spent quite a while last night deleting most of the men's profiles that I had saved on SLS, looking forward to going in a different direction.

It's a new year, time for some different scenery

Any guesses? 🫣

No guesses, but you definitely have my curiosity piqued.

Mr GILF

[R_H_NC]

I too, am curious in details of the 'different direction'. No doubt it will prove interesting...........good luck

[Lookingforadventure]

I spent quite a while last night deleting most of the men's profiles that I had saved on SLS, looking forward to going in a different direction.

It's a new year, time for some different scenery

Any guesses? 🫣

Oooooooo exciting! I want to know more.

[Wistful]

Guesses as to a change in “direction,” “different scenery”—a new target focus?

Well, some stabs in the dark:

Maybe you’ve found a wonderful new website beyond SLS or AFF, a social network of clever, classy, warm and engaging life-stylers open and eager to welcome new participants—a platform whose AI unerringly matches you with (as Erica Jong once described) the perfect “zipless fuck?”

Or perhaps you’ve decided to engage very locally, ignoring any approbation from busybodies while approaching and flirting with any interesting neighbors?

Or maybe you are considering traveling widely, maybe on vacation, and have decided to embrace more casual sex—at swinger clubs, swinger resorts, lifestyle cruises?

Or perhaps you’ve given a nod to the the route of paid help. Some form of masseur, or male escort?

Or are you thinking of becoming the paid help?

Or maybe you’ve changed your focus to women?

Aah the possibilities . . . but almost certainly nothing I’ve guessed.

However, I am as intrigued as the others.

[2inUPMichigan]

Guesses as to a change in “direction,” “different scenery”—a new target focus?

Well, some stabs in the dark:

Maybe you’ve found a wonderful new website beyond SLS or AFF, a social network of clever, classy, warm and engaging life-stylers open and eager to welcome new participants—a platform whose AI unerringly matches you with (as Erica Jong once described) the perfect “zipless fuck?”

Or perhaps you’ve decided to engage very locally, ignoring any approbation from busybodies while approaching and flirting with any interesting neighbors?

Or maybe you are considering traveling widely, maybe on vacation, and have decided to embrace more casual sex—at swinger clubs, swinger resorts, lifestyle cruises?

Or perhaps you’ve given a nod to the the route of paid help. Some form of masseur, or male escort?

Or are you thinking of becoming the paid help?

Or maybe you’ve changed your focus to women?

Aah the possibilities . . . but almost certainly nothing I’ve guessed.

However, I am as intrigued as the others.

Wow! awesome guesses and very creative!
Did you guess correctly? Not exactly but you got close on one guess

[Farmgirl]

I spent quite a while last night deleting most of the men's profiles that I had saved on SLS, looking forward to going in a different direction.

It's a new year, time for some different scenery

Any guesses? 🫣

Oooooooo exciting! I want to know more.

Me too, me too!

[BlackandKinky]

Hubby and I will have our 20th anniversary this year and have a solid relationship. We are both in our 50's and I never thought this was something we would consider but our circumstances have moved us in this direction.
My husband had prostate cancer at the age of 50, and with all the treatments we are unable to have sex (penetration). Due to other health issues he is unable to take ED meds.

He loves me so much that he told me, "Just because I can't have sex anymore doesn't mean you should go without too." So we are exploring the option of a hotwife experience as he is very interested in watching me with another man.

I have been reading a lot and started joining a few sites, lurking mostly. I signed us up to go to one event in a couple months to give both of us time to prepare and also time to back out if either of us needs to.

Him giving me this option has lifted some of the devastating loss of our sex life. However the worry over what this could mean for our relationship makes me nervous.

bravo!

[2inUPMichigan]

Hubby and I will have our 20th anniversary this year and have a solid relationship. We are both in our 50's and I never thought this was something we would consider but our circumstances have moved us in this direction.
My husband had prostate cancer at the age of 50, and with all the treatments we are unable to have sex (penetration). Due to other health issues he is unable to take ED meds.

He loves me so much that he told me, "Just because I can't have sex anymore doesn't mean you should go without too." So we are exploring the option of a hotwife experience as he is very interested in watching me with another man.

I have been reading a lot and started joining a few sites, lurking mostly. I signed us up to go to one event in a couple months to give both of us time to prepare and also time to back out if either of us needs to.

Him giving me this option has lifted some of the devastating loss of our sex life. However the worry over what this could mean for our relationship makes me nervous.

bravo!

Thanks, BlackandKinky, and welcome to my thread
It's hard to believe I wrote that 4 1/2 years ago. Time sure does go by fast!

[2inUPMichigan]

I have already started a bit of flirting

Paid work will never be an option for me either giving or receiving

Discretion will remain as always important to us

Not sure if that helps for those that are wondering......

[Mr1SexyGILF]

I have already started a bit of flirting

Paid work will never be an option for me either giving or receiving

Discretion will remain as always important to us

Not sure if that helps for those that are wondering......

She’s going to become a professional tease.

Mr GILF

[2inUPMichigan]

I have already started a bit of flirting

Paid work will never be an option for me either giving or receiving

Discretion will remain as always important to us

Not sure if that helps for those that are wondering......

She’s going to become a professional tease.

Mr GILF

Ooooh that would be a good fit for me! I have had so much amateur practice after all