Seekingmore12 wrote: ↑Thu Mar 28, 2024 1:47 pm
While I await capture, thought I would let everyone know that I have created a ask me anything thread in the misc section.
Over in G's "Ask me Anything" thread (AMA in the Miscellaneous forum), someone asked if he's monogamous with me. G had a wonderful response and will definitely be getting laid when he returns from his vacation
But the question also had me thinking, so I thought I'd share a few random thoughts that have been running through my mind or have been part of conversations with Adventurer.
First: With my husband, Adventurer, I have tried swinging and have given him a hall pass to have sex with other women. I have learned that I don't get any sort of sexual thrill from seeing him with someone else, but I don't mind it either. I enjoy giving him the "gift" of whatever sexual exploration he wants to do. I'd want him to be honest with me about it, but otherwise I'm ok with it. I think this comes from a very deep sense of trust in him and in our relationship. I'm not easily threatened by some other woman.
Second: With other partners, I think that I quite like being their "only". I recognize that this isn't fair, but it is how I feel. I had a dream that G had sex with a female friend while he was on vacation. Subconscious me didn't feel angry about it or jealous, but I woke up thinking "Maybe I'm replaceable and not that special." This is obviously on me, not G. I think that even if he had sex with lots of other people, it wouldn't change how he feels about me. I trust him to be 100% honest with me. I think I could be ok with it...but, for some reason, not having that long history that I have with Adventurer makes it feel different. I would have more self doubt. This is something I will need to work on.
Third: Sir has never promised me monogamy and I have never expected it of him. He has told me that there aren't other women lately...but I think that's mostly been because he's been busy. If previous play partners reached out to him, or someone new reached out, I think he'd be open to it. I've always known that, but liked that I was his one BDSM outlet for right now. It made me feel special. Recently, I've gotten the feeling that he might be talking with someone else too. I could just ask him and he'd tell me, but since we haven't played in person in half a year it seems silly to mention it. I can say that my gut feeling that he's exploring other options makes me less excited about future play times. I wonder if other hot wives feel this way too?
Lastly, I will just share a funny anecdote. Adventurer and I were talking about this and he said something along the lines of, "Well, I can tell you one thing, G is completely smitten with you and committed to you." I responded (while smiling big) with something like, "True. And I don't think he'd actively go out and pursue other options, but if a hot woman came up to him on vacation and propositioned him, I don't think he'd say no". To which Adventurer replied, "Is it bad that I wouldn't either?" LOL
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