I think it's natural to have all sorts of feelings, desires, lusts, fears wash over you as you walk through a new uncharted world for you and your spouse. None of it changes who you essentially are. But don't deny yourself the opportunity to experience any of them either. Only someone who's going to be judgmental regardless would try to judge you for anything that sprang from this very healthy and natural process of exploring this new trail.
You said this so well! When I discovered my wife was fucking a man who was her boss and who I had known and enjoyed
in many social situations. He and I, enjoyed handball a few times a week. When I found out it was an adjustment. First I
realized that my wife who is and has always been my friend and confident hadn't shared this important change. My dad
of all people told me to go slow, dont make demands and dont run to an attorney.
Once I saw how she was pleasured with him in ways I had never given her, I felt we had to make this work. She needed
him and me. So it has evolved. We know folks gossip we dont care. In life I have always been an aggressive, alpha male
who needed to win at all times. This has taught me the joy of submission. Several weeks ago, she was away for a week
and after several brandies I was on my knees and for the first time my mouth became his pussy. Feeling his cum in my
mouth, tasting it, feeling how much there was made me cum almost instantly. At first didnt swallow, then he said with
humor, swallow it all ! I did looked up yes i was kneeling he was standing, his hands on my shoulders and I said
THANK YOU SIR! We both laughed and went for a swim