A few things, bits and pieces of things have happened over the last few days that I hope I remember them. Her silver metallic dresses finally came in and she eagerly went to pick them up, only to find out that one did not fit properly and the other she didn't like. A bit disappointed, but the good thing is she hasn't stopped shopping for things to wear as she has three other dresses in mind that are satin mini dresses. One that is red and a tight mini dress, which I told her, her new black bra would look great under and she perked up and agreed. An interesting thing happened on Monday, I already had something I had to do that was planned days in advanced, so she had no plans until one of her girlfriends invited her over for a BBQ. Her girlfriend is married, but as it turned out, that I heard from my wife, it sounded like there were many men there, some single or there without their wives, and reading between the lines and knowing a little about them from my wife they sounded like her "type". She even bragged a bit about one of her conversations with one of them. Not telling me in a teasing way, or sexual way, but simply telling me a conversation she had with one guy there and bragging to me about what he does and how he seemed like a sweet guy. I was overcome with jealousy and a rush, but again she didn't say it in a way to purposefully arouse me, I don't even know if she realized the cuckolding aspect of what she was telling me.
So given it felt like it had been a long time since we had any sort of serious talk about cuckolding, the other night I felt like I needed to talk about it some more try and figure out where she was with it all. Since her actions of late seemed to point and feel to be in the direction of it going somewhere and since our last talk she said she'd do it, I wanted to see where she was with it. So I decided to bring the topic up. I opened it up with telling her that I wanted to talk about the whole cuckolding thing. I reiterrated to her that Yes, I wanted her to cuckold me, and I would want it to happen. I told her that unlike when I first introduced the fantasy of thinking it would be hot to be tied up, locked up in my chastity cage, sitting in a corner watching her while she verbally humiliated me, that over time my turn on of it all and hotness of it had changed. At this point she was intently listening and asked me what had changed. I told her that I found it hot that i'd have enough confidence in my relationship to her for it to work, and that i'd be a great husband to her and always be there for her no matter what. And to pleasure her in every aspect and if I couldn't pleasure her in certain ways, bringing up that my stamina in bed was bad, that I found it incredibly hot to know she was getting the pleasure she deserved and it was hot to know she knew what she wanted and went and got it. She pondered what I had to tell her and she told me she understood what I was saying. She told me the issue she was having was the feeling of cheating on me. That's when I told her it wasn't cheating if I approved of it and encouraged it. She smiled and nodded her head and in a sweet voice said, "Yeah, true." I could then see her thinking to herself about it and just sort of left it there letting her ponder what I had said and waited to see if she was going to continue the conversation. She didn't and time just went on before we were on to something else. It felt great to get that off my chest though, as it feels good to every so often be open and just try and explain my emotions and thoughts to her.
Later in the night while she was getting ready for bed, I decided to go to the gym again. When I got back, as I usually do, like to see if she used her toys at night, and especially after any sort of cuckolding talk. To my delight I saw she used her vibrator, and my mind immediately went to thinking about who and what she must have been thinking about, especially after our conversation.
So yesterday when we got home she had stopped by the store and got herself a bottle of wine. I found it extremely interesting because I have not known her to ever drink wine so I was surprised she bought herself a bottle, and it made me wonder if she had wine at the BBQ she went to? She told me in a bossy way, "When I want a glass, I want you to pour it in one of these glasses." As she showed me which glass she was referring to. I said, "Whoa" surprised at her demanding attitude out of nowhere. She smiled and with a laugh asked, "What?" I told her about her demanding ways and thought it was hot. She laughed and said, "Well...." She didn't stop with that, throughout the night she would occassionally tell me to do things in a demanding way, then laugh at seeing how I melted and immediately responded to the task.
Nearing the end of the night, she hinted at there would be some bedroom play, so to please her I put on my numbing spray long before we went to bed so that she wouldn't have to wait the time for it to settle in. We sat on the couch a little longer, me rubbing her feet and she occassionally forcing her foot toward me nose and mouth. Eventually it lead to me asking her if she wanted to be naughty and she replied with, "You cum too fast." I told her with excitement that I had already put on my spray. She put on a big smile and said in a complete normal tone, "You're so pathetic." She kept her smile and shook her head and again said in a normalcy, "Wow you're so pathetic." I told her that was why I put on the spray so she wouldn't have to wait. Her smile grew even larger and she glanced at the clock and replied, "I'll wait."
Finally the time came and she told me we were going to bed. By this time the numbing spray was in full effect and I was confident I would have no problem lasting. I had also already relieved myself earlier in the day. As she got into bed she took a look at me and again told me, this time with a little excitement in her voice, "You're so pathetic." I got on top of her and told her I knew and that was why she needed someone who could fuck her without all this. She gave me a, "Mmmmmm" response and when I entered her she was already wet. We had about 5 minutes of great sex, just simple sex, the only real dirty talk was my comment at the beginning. But then I started feeling like I was going to cum and had to stop. She began to be frustrated and I told her we needed to change positions or I'd cum. She shot back that she knew because I wasn't hard enough and could tell I was trying to hold it back. From there the issues began with trying to last and pleasure her, I'd switch to oral from time to time, but she'd get annoyed with the stoppage. Although I lasted for probably 25-30 minutes, and in all honesty felt I was hard enough for that time, she just wasn't getting the satisfaction because I couldn't hit the right spot. We eventually were just going through the motions. Then it happened, most likely the spray wore off and there was no turning back. I pulled out to try and stop, but I ended up just dribbling out onto her thigh. "Are you cumming?!" She asked frustrated. I hung my head and told her I was, but that if she gave me a few minutes I'd get hard again. Since it was a ruined orgasm the arousal was still there. "Ugh" was her response and I went for clean up. I started licking my cum off her thigh and then went to oral. She grabbed my head and brought me up to her and wanted me inside her. I did and I felt hard but after awhile she wasn't getting anything from it and stopped and got up from the bed. I felt terrible and sat there as she got her clothes on and I apologized to her. She said frustrated, "It's fine. Whatever." As I continued to sit there with feeling of disappointment she regulated me to condoms from now on. Telling me that I last longer when I wear condoms. I didn't know what else I could have done to prepare for the night, although I did last quiet a long time, I wasn't hitting the right spots to please her to get her to orgasm.
So this morning I got up early and did some chores for her. She woke up and to my surprise was cheerful. After a bit she said, "I'm not mad at you." I looked at her and she smiled sweetly and again said, "I'm not mad at you for last night." I hung my head and told her I was sorry and I was disappointed in myself that I can't last. I asked her how could it be that after so many years of having sex with her that my stamina has gone down and I can't last more than 2 minutes. She told me not to worry and confidently said, "You're going to wear a condom from now on." God, not sure she was intentionally trying to portray a D/s moment there, but the disappointment in myself grew knowing now I will have to wear a condom and can't fully enjoy her. It most certainly felt and is a punishment. She also said, "You're going to be giving a lot more oral too." She smiled and before I could respond she said, "I bet you like hearing that." I told her I did. She did credit me acknowledging that I did last a long time last night, but said girls aren't like guys where they can get off in two pumps. I told her I knew that and knew it can't be satisfying to her to try and rush an orgasm, or not get one at all. She just replied with, "It's ok babe, don't worry."
Before we left she brought up how she was not looking forward to cleaning the bathroom and laundry when she got home. I went to her and asked, "How about I clean the bathroom, and do laundry tonight and while I am doing that you get a manicure/pedicure?" She perked up and asked, "Really?" I told her she deserved it. She told me that was sweet and nice and she would love that. I told her when she got home she could just relax. So today I was able to get her a bottle of wine, and got her a gift certificate to a nails salon for her mani/pedi that I'll give to her this evening when she gets home.