I need a real man to tell me what a pussy I am for paying $200 to have a 12 inch bull fuck my wife in front of me while I was in the corner. He told me I couldn't watch unless I paid him. Then he made me jack off with his used condom while she laughed. I cried while I came. What is wrong with me??
And I shared the video with random guys and I can't stop jacking off every time I know they are watching her and laughing at my sissy ass. Am I gay?
No, you're not gay, you're simply a submissive cuckold. All of us sub cuckolds enjoy humiliation, but in various different ways. While I wouldn't ever feel the need to pay a man to fuck my wife, I've certainly paid for many, many dinners for my wife and her men, and for the hotel rooms where they would enjoy themselves afterwards. I don't suppose that's much different, is it?
I've had my wife feed me the cum from her men's used condoms, and also push it out onto my cock to use as lube while I jerked off and she laughed at the size of my cock compared to the one she just had. Your wife obviously enjoys your submissive nature just as mine does.
So..as has been said...go with the flow and enjoy it. You'll probably find even more submissive things you enjoy as you go along....