Not a Cuckold, but Thought I'd Share My Situation

[jratt85]

Sounds like he's an insecure little manchild that everything is about him.. probably why his relationship was on the rocks before he hooked up with your wife.. She really needs to find a way to move on from him and find someone more respectful and not childish.

[drstrangelove]

Update:

So we had a really good talk tonight that was needed following some uncertainty about where things stood after last night, so I’ll start there.

We had a low-key VDay; date night won’t be until next week. But we shared a bottle of wine and went up around 8 am to take a bath together. We chatted and relaxed and the bath was good.

After about a hour my wife began to get sexually aggressive and we had some light petting in the tub for 5-10 minutes. We bout out of the tub and headed to bed to have sex.

A few minutes in, I saw her switch off. She went from hot and horny to lifeless and half asleep. I attributed it to the alcohol as those swings for her are predictable.

She got herself out of it and we had a relatively boring sex session—she didn’t cum and wasn’t into it and I was left a bit confused.

We woke up in the morning and initiated again, this time it was hot and passionate and we both had a lot of fun.

I wasn’t sure of what to make of it until I checked her texts msgs and saw she had told him Friday was looking good to get together in the morning (we had decided that our son was too sick to leave on Friday for ski trip).

No issue with that, but I noted she sent the text at 9 am, which was right when we were getting out of the bath. Felt a bit crappy knowing she snuck that text to him while we were in the middle of being intimate on VDay.

But I honestly just wanted to better understand what was happening—wasn’t upset, just confused as it often feels like I’m being gaslit.

So tonight we chatted and I explained that I’m down to lean into the cuck stuff or not, depending on day or our mood, but I just want to be on same page and I felt like she wasn’t being honest with me because she didn’t want to hurt my feelings.

And she came clean and we covered a lot of ground. She admitted that she will sometimes lean into her fun with F to get turned on with me; and last night was exactly that. She began thinking about him throwing her around and handcuffing her on Friday and it got her going to be intimate with me—and then when I was soft and loving, she lost her excitement.

But she also noted that she wants that from me—she doesn’t want me to be rough and dominate because she doesn’t see me that way and likes that she always feels loved and safe with me.

It was a long convo, but that was the idea—she really loves the feeling of “cheating” on her husband and being dominated by another man and then coming home to her husband.

She also admitted that she was really turned on about going on BC (she’s having an iUD installed on March 6) because him cuming inside her is a huge turn on for her. I asked why and she said it just feels so dominate to her; that he takes her from me, fucks her how she wants, and then cums deep inside her. And then she comes home to me and I still love her.

She was terrified telling me that, but I told her it was ok and it turned me on. She was relieved and she agreed to let me in on the kinks going on in her mind and she wanted to not make me feel bad because she was manipulating a situation to hide things from me.

So things are on for tomorrow—it’ll be short as we have a busy day, so my guess is she’s only with him for about an hour in the morning.

[whosbeensleeping]

What an amazing amount of progress you are making!

[drstrangelove]

Update:

Ok, so holy shit, guys. Holy fucking shit lol.

Before my wife left, I asked if she could call me and leave the phone on and she was fine with it. So she left wearing lingerie and a see through white long shirt.

She got there, called me, but didn't say a word--then five minutes later I heard a big bang: presumably her purse with the phone being tossed on a dresser and her being thrown on the bed. No words were exchanged. A minute later she started to moan. The moan built and my assumption is he was eating her out. I've never heard her make those sounds. She came for sure.

Right now it's mostly silent, but I can hear her light gulps/moans so I'm guessing she may be blowing him.

This is so fucking hot and I wish I had planned in advance to record it, but I don't want to risk messing around with it now and accidently drop the call.

Her plan is to be back home by 10 a.m. or so, but I can update this post if anything crazy happens while I'm listening.

Edit:

He’s fucking her now. Holy shit. I heard the slapping sound and her moaning. I think he may have cum because I can hear them chatting, but it’s too muffled. But holy shit the sound of him fucking her was the hottest thing I’ve ever heard. I feel so emasculated like it’s pointless for me to fuck her.

Edit 2: Holy shit they went for round two and he is fucking slamming her and she she screaming out with moans. I signed up for a call recorder and tried to get end, so we will see if that worked.

Now I feel like a cuckold and holy shit is it exhilarating.

[Guhunkadorn]

Love it.....hope you can focus reasonably well on any work you have to tackle today.

[Bomerang43]

Exhilarating!!

[drstrangelove]

Exhilarating!!

Yes indeed. So here’s the update.

She got home and I was ready to cum while still in my cage. She unlocked me and told me what happened.

As soon as she opened the door, he was there naked, as she requested. He took her purse off and threw it on the floor and then picked her up and threw her onto his bed—which explains why the sound was so awful—the phone was out in the hallway.

He immediately began eating her out through her lingerie underwear and she came fast; which I heard clearly on the call.

Then she flipped him over and kissed all over his body and worked her way to a BJ for 10+ minutes. Then she straddles him and rode him cowgirl—no condom. I suspect I didn’t hear most of this as it didn’t get noisy enough until she picked up the pace and he was about to cum.

Right before he came, she hoped off and put him back in her mouth and swallowed every drop, to which he commented that she had no idea how good that feels. (Of note, I think cowgirl into a bj/swallow is the best feeling thing possible.)

After he came, she took my advice and just chilled rather than pushing for a round two. She lied quietly next to him for about 10 minutes and then his hands started to wander to her ass and she knew round two was coming.

He rolled on top of her and began fucking her hard missionary. He was going really rough and she had her legs wrapped around him—this is the part I clearly heard over the phone because she was screaming and came hard on his dick.

After she came, he sat up and flipped her over doggy. He went hard and fast from behind until he pulled out and came all over her ass and pussy.

She had been giving me a HJ the entire time and I kept asking her to stop so I wouldn’t cum. But once we got to the end of the story, I had her straddle me so I could lick his cum off her pussy and ass—she worked into 69 and put my dick in her mouth and I came buckets down her throat.

The plan was for me to reclaim her, but she’s bleeding a bit (she had a pap yesterday and he was really rough with her during the hour+). She told me she’s too sore for sex and I’ll have to wait, but we also discussed we’d both prefer she see him again soon if he’s free rather than wait until next Friday.

She also asked me how it felt to listen to another man make her cum all over his dick and asked if I now understood why she needs this so badly. And honestly, now I do. Hearing it really made it clear how good the sex is with him for her—it was animalistic and entirely different than even what I thought was good sex between us. She was like a porn star and absolutely lost in lust with him.

It would be absurd for me to try to prevent this from rolling onward—she needs this in her life for sure and I need to adapt to being a better cuck. And honestly, it wasn’t that bad—I got to listen and she is fine doing that again—and I got to cum in her mouth.

Only downside is it only lasted 10-15 minutes because I was so horny and I’m a bit bummed I can’t have sex with her, but it’s worth it.

[Rogueuser1]

Wow --- that is so hot!!! Hopefully she leaves the phone on again for you!! Glad that even through the up and downs you guys are finding a way to make it work. Remember to focus on the ups and don't let yourself get dragged into the downs too much --- your own head seems to be your worst enemy sometimes.

[drstrangelove]

So we went to bed last night and both woke up super early to pee (around 5 am). We started cuddling and my wife commented that she was sorry, but she was still really sore down there after her visit with F.

Knowing I couldn’t fuck her was a big turn on and we initiated masterbating each other. She lied on her back over my chest and stroked me while I massaged her clit until she had an orgasm. She then curled next to me to finish the HJ and we talked dirty—she talked about how good he fucked her yesterday and how soon he’d be cuming in her pussy all the time. We also discussed how he should be the first person to cum inside her once she has the IUD in.

I asked to finish in her mouth and she obliged and it felt amazing.

Then we went on with our day and for me it was my return back to normal. I think what I’m learning about myself is that the cuck stuff is a turn on I can lean into, but it’s not a lifestyle I can become 24/7. I suppose on the whole, I am more of a stag, but then in the moment, I like to play the role of the cuck.

Honestly, I’m still figuring it out. It’s heavy stuff and I’m doing my best to sort through the emotions.

I do think that’s a confusing dynamic for my wife to navigate as well—when should she lean into the cuck teasing and she should she be compassionate and respectful, or build me back up. As others have pointed out, my ego is the issue and we are tossing it around without a lot of clarity.

The result, unfortunately, is a lot more heavy moments with my wife than I’d like. As I sort through how I’m feeling, she feels that energy and begins one of her spirals (when I’m down, it activates her anger, etc.). It’s really a pain to deal with as when I’m down, it’s also when I’m least prepared to deal with her bull shit lol. Actually quite the opposite; when I’m down, I’m hoping she’s going to go the extra mile to comfort me.

Nothing new though; and I’m still doing my best to figure this all out.

As of now, we have a full week ahead of us: long weekend with the kids, date night (delayed VDay) on Thursday with dinner in the city, then another meet planned with F on Friday morning. Then we are off to our delayed ski trip next weekend. I’m not anticipating many updates until the latter half of the week.

[Carrienlarry]

It’s whatever y’all want and like! I’m not a cuck either. We only play together. And I keep full control telling her what to do and say. And we put my cock in a cage so I don’t touch my cock and cum too fast before I reclaim her used pussy. I enjoy sharing her more than she does

[drstrangelove]

Also, for those who want to hear the recording, here it is: https://recordings.tapeacall.com/t/w2DE4rHmeeGa

So for context, I began recording nearly an hour into the session and captured the last 20 minutes she was in his house, but only the first 4.5~ minutes of the recording are sex. If someone more savvy with audio editing can assist, in the future I can trim these, but I have no idea how to do that from my phone. If you listen past 4.5 minutes you’ll largely have silence, then her getting dressed and eventually saying goodbye (but it’s all muddled).

Anyway, the recording picks up toward the end of their second round—most of the second round had been quiet on the call as they were having slow, passionate missionary sex. The recording captures the very end as she’s building to an orgasm with her legs wrapped around him.

You’ll hear her laugh as well—after she cums, she whispers in his ear that he can cum anywhere he wants, so he gives an excited expression that makes her laugh. He then flips her over and starts fucking her hard doggy style, which is clear on the recording. She also noted at first she was expecting him to put it in her ass to cum, as his dick circles her ass before delving back into her pussy.

I only have tried listening to it once and I came in 30-40 seconds lol. I hope others enjoy!

[scarfolamew]

God bless you for posting the recording. Your wife sounds blisteringly, unbelievably hot. Like, I would unhesitantly ruin my life for this woman. It puts your entire story in a whole new context.

[armyguyot1]

Welcome to the forum carrienlarry.

[drstrangelove]

God bless you for posting the recording. Your wife sounds blisteringly, unbelievably hot. Like, I would unhesitantly ruin my life for this woman. It puts your entire story in a whole new context.

LOL. She is. And once I get to share a photo it’ll give even better context—but not pushing for that right now.

As for the recordings, I’ll keep posting them—she agreed to keep recording; however in the future, it’ll be silly to post a 60-90 minute recording, so I need to trim it. I was able to do it and upload to Google Drive, but I don’t know if sharing that will reveal any of my personal info. So yea, before Friday, one of you needs to help me sort through how to do this efficiently and discreetly.

[scarfolamew]

You can create a google account that doesn't use your real name and upload it there. I can help you edit and trim, although I'm inexperienced at doing any audio processing that would help isolate and clarify their voices.

[residueS]

Thanks for the hot update, I think feeling a bit down after release is expected?

Btw, Most audio enhancing methods are optimized for talking voice not other sounds ... haha. I can give it a try.

[drstrangelove]

Thanks for the hot update, I think feeling a bit down after release is expected?

Btw, Most audio enhancing methods are optimized for talking voice not other sounds ... haha. I can give it a try.

Oh I’m not looking to enhance the talking—she told me what was said and none of it is exciting (she was largely talking about how she took off work for a mental health day, so they both laughed at the end).

What I am looking for is an easy way to get a lengthy recording from TapeACall trimmed and linked to a URL from my phone anonymously.

As suggested above, I could create a separate Google account, but that’s a bit annoying—is there another service I can use where, unlike Google, I don’t have any personal investment in it?

[residueS]

Thanks for the hot update, I think feeling a bit down after release is expected?

Btw, Most audio enhancing methods are optimized for talking voice not other sounds ... haha. I can give it a try.

Oh I’m not looking to enhance the talking—she told me what was said and none of it is exciting (she was largely talking about how she took off work for a mental health day, so they both laughed at the end).

What I am looking for is an easy way to get a lengthy recording from TapeACall trimmed and linked to a URL from my phone anonymously.

As suggested above, I could create a separate Google account, but that’s a bit annoying—is there another service I can use where, unlike Google, I don’t have any personal investment in it?

You probably need to download the audio file to your phone then use an app to do the trimming manually then upload to site do anonymous file sharing. So quiet a few steps. I don’t think there is a site can do automatic rim and sharing.

[drstrangelove]

Thanks for the hot update, I think feeling a bit down after release is expected?

Btw, Most audio enhancing methods are optimized for talking voice not other sounds ... haha. I can give it a try.

Oh I’m not looking to enhance the talking—she told me what was said and none of it is exciting (she was largely talking about how she took off work for a mental health day, so they both laughed at the end).

What I am looking for is an easy way to get a lengthy recording from TapeACall trimmed and linked to a URL from my phone anonymously.

As suggested above, I could create a separate Google account, but that’s a bit annoying—is there another service I can use where, unlike Google, I don’t have any personal investment in it?

You probably need to download the audio file to your phone then use an app to do the trimming manually then upload to site do anonymous file sharing. So quiet a few steps. I don’t think there is a site can do automatic rim and sharing.

I did all that! So once I have the trimmed version on my phone, what site do I use to create a free URL for it?

[residueS]

Thanks for the hot update, I think feeling a bit down after release is expected?

Btw, Most audio enhancing methods are optimized for talking voice not other sounds ... haha. I can give it a try.

Oh I’m not looking to enhance the talking—she told me what was said and none of it is exciting (she was largely talking about how she took off work for a mental health day, so they both laughed at the end).

What I am looking for is an easy way to get a lengthy recording from TapeACall trimmed and linked to a URL from my phone anonymously.

As suggested above, I could create a separate Google account, but that’s a bit annoying—is there another service I can use where, unlike Google, I don’t have any personal investment in it?

You probably need to download the audio file to your phone then use an app to do the trimming manually then upload to site do anonymous file sharing. So quiet a few steps. I don’t think there is a site can do automatic rim and sharing.

I did all that! So once I have the trimmed version on my phone, what site do I use to create a free URL for it?

Some site like these, however these sites usually won’t last long and kind of sketchy.
https://anonymfile.com/

[drstrangelove]

Oh I’m not looking to enhance the talking—she told me what was said and none of it is exciting (she was largely talking about how she took off work for a mental health day, so they both laughed at the end).

What I am looking for is an easy way to get a lengthy recording from TapeACall trimmed and linked to a URL from my phone anonymously.

As suggested above, I could create a separate Google account, but that’s a bit annoying—is there another service I can use where, unlike Google, I don’t have any personal investment in it?

You probably need to download the audio file to your phone then use an app to do the trimming manually then upload to site do anonymous file sharing. So quiet a few steps. I don’t think there is a site can do automatic rim and sharing.

I did all that! So once I have the trimmed version on my phone, what site do I use to create a free URL for it?

Some site like these, however these sites usually won’t last long and kind of sketchy.
https://anonymfile.com/

Let me know if this works for everyone: https://anonymfile.com/JXAZ/02-16-24.mp3

[drstrangelove]

Update:

So last night we did our own things for a bit and then met up to connect and chat before bed. We were both in good places and we discussed an array of things, including how happy we are overall with the dynamic, despite the bumps along the way.

She did note to me that she was still lightly bleeding, but I told her it was fine as long as she wasn’t hurt. She was appreciative I wasn’t pushing for sex and she felt bad—she said she felt like she owed me great sex for letting her do this with F and how sweet I was for accepting she may need a few days to recover at times because of how rough the sex can be. She said it was some of the best sex of her life—she felt totally carefree and had a blast—and was so happy I was being supportive.

We also discussed her sister, who she admitted she told about F last month while we were fighting. I wasn’t mad as I knew she was going to do it; but a bit disappointed she wasn’t transparent about it with me. She didn’t go into details; just told her that she’s seeing F and I’m ok with it. Her sister is very non-judgmental and didn’t have a negative reaction.

She also told me how she wished she could muster courage to get a tattoo because she finds them so sexy and mentioned how F is covered in them. I was surprised as I had no idea, but now her attention to him makes so much more sense. She loves tattoos/bad boys and I’m the polar opposite as I’m so clean cut.

We went upstairs and started to fool around and I locked her for a bit, but she wanted her vibrator and for me to watch—which I did, me licking her nipples and her teasing my cock for about 30 minutes, but she couldn’t cum.

We repositioned to her across my chest and I gently worked her clit and nipples with my hands while she stroked me. I couldn’t get her to cum and she wouldn’t let me cum—it went on for another 40~ minutes with me begging her make me cum.

Finally, and suddenly, she pivoted forward and stuffed my cock down her throat—she’s never deep throated me before and it felt like magic at that moment after an hour of teasing me. I let out a scream and grunt like I possessed lol. She sucked me deep for like 30 seconds until I exploded down her throat.

I commented about her deep throating me and she laughed and told me it was a benefit I gained from letting me practice so much on a smaller dick. We went to bed cuddled and feeling good.

My wife woke me up around 6 a.m.; she got naked and her hands roamed so I knew right away she wanted to cum because she didn’t last night. I used my hands on her and kissed all over her body, telling her to relax and imagine herself at his place Friday morning. She was soaking wet and I could tell she’d cum easy. We discusses how badly she wants to blow him in his car again and the possibility of her one day doing a sleep over at his house. And of course, how he’d be cuming inside her soon.

She came hard and then started giving me great head again. After about five minutes, she wanted sex; I was worried and didn’t want to hurt her, but I went gentle in missionary. We made passionate love and she had multiple orgasms as I fucked her awhile before pulling out and cuming on her stomach.

We lied there for a bit, discussing other things and I was about to get up to go deal with kids (it was around 8 a.m. now) but she wanted more. She told me how much her pussy had been there and asked me to gently lick her for a bit. I asked how she felt about having a husband who lets her go get railed by another guy and happily soothes her aching pussy with his tongue when she’s home—she replied how she feels so loved and that I’m the perfect husband.

I ate her for 15 minutes until she came hard in my mouth. I then moved up to fuck her, noting I may not cum again. I fucked her missionary while upright and she came again. Then I flipped her over and went doggy—I ended up going fairly hard trying to cum and she was begging me to cum all over her, but I couldn’t quite get there and called it quits to go make breakfast for kids.

Overall, it was an awesome evening and morning and we were both well satisfied (physically and emotionally). Things feel really good right now. She still has plans to see him Friday and we have our date night on Thursday.

[Robinpost1]

I think you should have your date night Thursday but instead of taking her home after and heading up to the bedroom, surprise her and send her to his place for a sleepover.

Be the loving husband that wines and dines her. Then let another man enjoy the payoff.

[drstrangelove]

I think you should have your date night Thursday but instead of taking her home after and heading up to the bedroom, surprise her and send her to his place for a sleepover.

Be the loving husband that wines and dines her. Then let another man enjoy the payoff.

That would be really hot, but a few complications—unsure he wants a sleepover as he hasn’t suggested one yet. He also works late, so he likely won’t be home until after 11 p.m. tonight. Generally speaking my wife likes to be in bed early, so she hasn’t accepted any of his offers to come over that late. Another issue is that he handles school drop off in the morning for his kids, so not sure how that shakes out exactly.

I can mention it to her and see what she thinks though.

[mf2hd82]

I think you should have your date night Thursday but instead of taking her home after and heading up to the bedroom, surprise her and send her to his place for a sleepover.

Be the loving husband that wines and dines her. Then let another man enjoy the payoff.

That would be really hot, but a few complications—unsure he wants a sleepover as he hasn’t suggested one yet. He also works late, so he likely won’t be home until after 11 p.m. tonight. Generally speaking my wife likes to be in bed early, so she hasn’t accepted any of his offers to come over that late. Another issue is that he handles school drop off in the morning for his kids, so not sure how that shakes out exactly.

I can mention it to her and see what she thinks though.

You know this is real life when being in bed sleeping is more important than being in his bed fucking. lol