Just got back from the gym on my day off and it looks like it's time for an update. Writing my story was slow at first but it's proved to be addictive. It's interesting how the details flood back to you when actually have to write them down. Although I admit I'm not sure how much is too much in terms of detail without sounding like I'm dragging on.
Even after confessing a second time and talking about it thoroughly the next day, I was still careful not to push the idea of hotwifing/cuckolding with Maria. I did this for a number of reasons.
1. I wanted to seem in control of my desires. I didn't wanna seem so obsessed with the idea of this lifestyle that I had to bring it up constantly. Even if constantly thinking about Maria being slutty with someone else, I was careful not to reveal too much to her.
2. Since I had already put the idea in her mind, I wanted to see how it would resonate with Maria. She made it clear she didn't plan on acting on it but if she always had it in the back of her mind, maybe one day she met someone else and just give in. That’s a lot of guy’s hotwife dream. Throw the idea of hotwifing out there, to have it initially turned down, then the idea festers in her mind until she wants to try it just as much as me.
3. She already proved that she would entertain the fantasy when she gave me a handjob/blowjob after my tipsy confession. I figured that was enough to work with for the time being.
So, I waited. It's interesting to note, there were subtle differences in how we interacted with each other after I told her about my fantasies. We played this game where I'd see a guy and get Maria to rate him out of 10 in terms of attractiveness. She'd get me to do the same about girls, but I was almost always the instigator. This was interesting because it gave me a sense of her type. Some guys that I thought she'd be into would get a mediocre score, while others scored higher. One thing I started to realize is that Maria likes taller guys. It struck me as odd that I didn't realize this before. but I suspect it may have been because Maria was being sensitive towards me. At 5,8/5,9 I'm definitely not a tall guy. I'm not short, but I'm not tall. So If I asked her what her type was, she may have avoided outright saying that she likes tall guys. The fact that she was being more honest now, even if it was through some silly game, felt like progress.
Another moment that sticks out was the day she was talking about a colleague. She was saying how much better at his job he was than the guy he replaced. Since I make stupid jokes I said "well If you like him so much why don't you bang him?"
to which she replied
"I would but you would enjoy it too much"
Woah. She threw that right back in my face. It was a sexy thing for her to say but we just laughed it off. Also, spoilers, she's never slept with that guy, apparently, he’s kind of ugly.
As manipulative as it sounds, I usually waited until after we had a few drinks before bringing up anything related to hotwifing/cuckolding. Like I've said before and will probably say again. Drinking. Makes. Maria. Horny. Every single time. So if we were to ever try anything new and exciting this is the time to bring it up. I remember we had a couple glasses of wine and after fooling around on the couch for a little, we decided to continue in the bedroom. We had most of our clothes off at this point and I started rubbing her clit outside her underwear. She was reeeeally into it. She tried to reciprocate by giving me head, but I actually stopped her. I wanted this to be all about her for now. Pretty soon later Maria had an intense orgasm, and almost instantly got me to lie down. It was my turn. She slipped off my underwear and deep throating me immediately. Maria does this sometimes, other times she can be a complete tease but right then she was blowing me with an intensity that I still don't often get to see. But before she could do it for long I got the courage to ask her something.
"Can you do something for me?"
"Okay" she said with a smile. Dick in hand.
"Can you talk dirty to me?" I asked
"Okay" she said, without losing her smile, (we've done this before so it was nothing new). She started to jerk me off but I spoke up again
"Except um.." I started
"Yeah?" She said, attentive, putting the handjob on pause.
"Can you…” I was nervous, I couldn't do it. I couldn't bring myself to ask. I had my eyes closed at this point, I couldn't stand to face her but thankfully, Maria knew what to do.
"Yeah?" She said seductively and started to stroke me again, "What do you want me to do?"
“Can you…” I started. I regretted bringing it up. I went quiet again. I just wanted her to finish me off until…
“Tell me.” She said with just enough authority in her voice.
“Can you talk about another guy?”
She didn’t stop stroking. She simply repeated my request back at me
“You want me to talk about another guy?” She had a curious and mischievous tone in her voice.
“Yeah” I said, breathing heavily.
There was a moment of silence while she continued stroking. What she did next was less dirty talk and more inquisition but for me it still served the same purpose.
“You get turned on when you think about me and another guy?”
“Do you jerk off to me and other guys?”
“What do you picture me doing?”
“You get turned on thinking about me giving head to someone else?”
“Do you want me to give someone else head?”
but all I could muster out was
A few more moments passed and then she asked me this.
“Do you think about me sleeping with someone else?”
I was so turned on at this point, I wasn’t going to last much longer. Maria escalated this in a way that I didn’t expect but to be fair it was a logical question. If oral sex turned me on, what about sex sex? I didn’t speak at all. I just let out a moan and wanted my pleasure to speak for itself. But she didn’t let me off the hook that easy
“Do you think about me sleeping with someone else?” She repeated her question.
“….some-Yeah” I was so close. She quickened her pace
“Yeah?” she said, confirming what I just told her.
“Yeah” I said.
Just like the first night we talked about this, Maria then put me in her mouth to finish me off. She was done talking. She had all the information she needed.
Afterwards, we cuddled but I didn’t want to go to sleep. I told her how hot and sexy she was and how that handjob/blowjob was the hottest ever. She was happy with my praise. We talked a little longer. She told me how she looked up some things online and learned more about the hotwifing/cuckold lifestyle. One thing to note is that all throughout her education, Maria got good grades. It didn’t surprise me she did her research. Maria said that the community was a lot bigger than she expected. And while she is kinky, this lifestyle went under her radar until now. I think discovering the community gave her a bit more appreciation for my fantasies. Initially it just seemed like some weird kink her boyfriend had but lo and behold, here’s this entire world of people that actually do this.
She then asked me if she actually would want to hook up with someone else. I thought long and hard about how I wanted to answer this. I said it’s not like I wanted her to go out and find a guy tomorrow but with enough communication and in the right situation, it would be a huge turn on for me and even something that could bring us closer together.
She then said when I initially brought it up, it felt like I was trying to push her away. To illustrate, Maria asked me to imagine what it’d be like if she told me she was okay with me sleeping with other girls. I admit one could assume that she was apathetic towards my fidelity and therefore apathetic towards our relationship. She said after me explaining it more and discovering the community, she realized I wasn’t apathetic, but still made it clear she wasn’t ready to do anything and wanted to keep it to fantasy. I understood that. You readers may remember that shortly after discovering this fetish, I didn’t wanna practice in my real life. It took me a while to come around to the idea of actually doing it so I understood it could take a while for Maria.
Either way I was happy with the progress we were making. I really felt like this was bringing us closer together even if we just kept it fantasy for now....
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