Hello and welcome back,
Sorry to leave you all hanging, I honestly have a blast writing about these entries but they do take a while. Also, once I sit down to write one I feel like I have to finish it on the spot. and as you guys know I shouldbestudyin
What’s unique about this entry is that it takes place pretty much exactly 1 year ago. Early April. Spring was just around the corner (for most people in Canada spring is already sprung but we’re not so lucky). I’m not sure how many of you will be able to relate but I tend to feel some anxiety with the onset of summer. It’s hard to explain, something about the pressure to enjoy yourself and making the best of the time you have off. Will it live up to last summer? Am I going to make the best of it? Etc. Summers are great but every year I feel this “what’s gunna happen this time round?” feeling.
This year however, Spring 2017, I had a more unique reason to feel anxious about the summer. Maria and Gus started having casual sex with my consent and things seemed to be really taking off. Not only that, they’ve gone on dates, she’s sent him nudes, they talk on fb chat and most recently, she’s spent a night at his house. I also have never seen them get intimate with each other besides a quick make out. Maria loves to give me details afterwards but likes her privacy when she’s with him.
In my last post, I said there were some days it really hurt, and while it is technically true, I don’t mean to imply that I wasn’t enjoying myself. In fact, it was a bit of a dream come true. There was real chemistry between Gus and Maria, and I got the ride the emotional roller coaster complete with its ups and downs. That being said, I needed to talk things through with Maria. Between their first time and now, we hadn’t had a thorough discussion on what’s going on. This would be the first of many times we would try to define Maria and Gus’ relationship.
We started by talking about our feelings towards the newfound lifestyle. I had mostly positive things to say. So did Maria. We said how it has brought us closer emotionally in a lot of ways. It was good hearing Maria say that because I was feeling a little vulnerable after her sleep over with Gus. At some point, she said it’s all very exciting. I asked her to elaborate about what she found exciting. She went quiet for a bit. Then answered best she could.
I remember her saying she thinks about me a lot while she has sex with Gus. She says she thinks about telling me about it afterwards and watching my reaction. She also loves the taboo aspect of it and how it makes her feel naughty. It turns her on so much doing something that she feels she shouldn’t. Maria went on to say that she also just likes sex because sex is great. To Gus’ credit, he doesn’t disappoint. Maria didn’t say either one of us was better, but that sex with Gus was “worthwhile”. Even though she was kind of downplaying it with her word choice, it still irked me. Hearing her talk so openly about why she pretty much likes fucking my friend was sweet torture.
I told her all about how I found it exciting too and all the reasons I enjoyed them having sex. I told Maria that just by listening to her explain why she enjoyed it was such a turn on. That being said though, we were still playing with fire. And if we were to continue, we had to make sure no one got burned. Maria understood completely and implored me to say whatever was on my mind. I assured her I was still having fun and trusted her (and Gus), but I was just feeling anxious over how we were going to proceed in the future. I tried to explain that I honestly wanted Maria to do whatever she wanted to do, and that this is a turn on because she just takes control and acts on her own accord sexually. That being said, I wanted to be guaranteed just two things.
A) I’m still the main boyfriend.
B) This whole Gus thing is temporary.
Maria seemed surprised. For her, it went without saying. Of course, I was the main boyfriend. Of course, Gus was just a temporary thing. Turns out, she straight up told Gus he’d have to find “his own girlfriend” at some point. To which he solemnly replied “ I knooow”. It was a relief to find out all three of us were on the same page. Maria said she thought I was going to say that she wasn’t allowed to sleep over his house again. I laughed nervously and admitted it kind of “took the wind out of me”. Maria gave me the sympathetic look.
“I don’t have to sleep over at my bull’s house, if you don’t want me to.”
I laughed nervously “No, it’s okay.” And in this moment, I was being honest with her.
Maria asked me why I laughed. I said it’s because she hadn’t referred to him as her bull until now. I added it was kind of a turn on for her to use those terms.
“Bull and cuckold, you mean?”
“Yeah.” I affirmed.
Maria had a smug look of satisfaction. For the rest of the conversation, Maria dropped those terms whenever she could. Referring to Gus as her “bull” and their antics as “cuckolding”. It was really hot. At some point, Maria asked.
“So, to be clear, Gus is my bull for the foreseeable future?”
“Yes, that’s okay with me, I trust you both”
“And you just want me to do what I want? That’s what makes it so hot? Me acting on my sexuality with no inhibitions.”
“Yes.” I said plainly.
Maria and I then spoke at the same time but she insisted I go first. I told her about the first time when they went out to dinner. I told her about cleaning up and how it felt borderline submissive. Maria was intrigued by that. I then added I did it to keep my mind occupied and that Maria needs to stay sensitive to my feelings if we’re going to continue. Maria quickly assured me she would.
We then proceeded to define our arrangement in a bit more detail. First and foremost, Gus and Maria are allowed to have sex for the foreseeable future. She’s allowed to spend the night at his house and they can go on dates if they so desire. I’m not allowed to watch, Maria wanted to keep the privacy thing going, I thought it made sense. But Maria did promise to tell me everything and hold no details back. She also promised to be 100% honest about her feelings. If she was growing out of it, I wanted to know. Maria reminded me that the same should apply to me. If I was uncomfortable, she wanted to know. I thought that was fair. To be honest, I’d gotten a lot more comfortable since the first time, but there were times when I’ve downplayed how much it’s hurt. After all, I started this.
That about wraps up one of the first of a few important talks I’ve had with Maria. It always helps to talk it through when proceeding into the future. Reminds me that what Maria and I have is strong and what we’re doing is all just fun and games.
Just to cap this entry off I’m going to write about the first night Maria slept over Gus’ apartment.
Maria was really tipsy from the party, and hadn’t seen Gus in a while. Apparently, when she got in his house, it didn’t take more than a minute for her to be on her knees, blowing him. I’m familiar with this type of enthusiasm from Drunk-Maria. It hurt for Gus to get to experience her drunk and horny side, just like I have in the past.
Being so tipsy, Maria doesn’t remember much from the evening, other than they ended up in Gus’ room. She said she remembers being on top for a while, but Gus said the condom was giving him trouble so they did it doggy until he came.
The next morning, She woke up to Gus playing with her tits. She was completely naked except for her socks. Maria said she was a little too hungover to reciprocate, but just let Gus have his way with her. He started groping her ass, and then made her cum by rubbing her clit from behind. Gus then put on a condom and fucked my girlfriend one more time before sending her home. At some point, the word “vocal” was used. Maria got a lot more vocal with Gus that morning.