cjslk550 wrote: ↑Mon Aug 13, 2007 12:23 pm
You appear unable to differentiate between fantasy cuckoldom and true cuckoldom. A cuckold is not supposed to be an equal participant living out a sexual fantasy, but a husband who is fully under the control and whims of his wife. As such, his pleasure, enthusiasm or lack thereof is wholly irrelevant. I am sure some of the cucks on this board can enlighten you regarding true, lifestyle cuckoldry. For some, it is real life and not a living paradigm of a penthouse letter.
I been married 22 years and together 24, she is 3 years older,we married when she was 36 and I 33, In the beginning I thought I ruled, well she is a alpha type female and Through the years has humiliated me for real by stealing money and sending it to a ex boyfriend in prison whom I knew nothing about, He got released 7 years into our marriage and the beginning of her secret affair..
Not only did I eventually find this out she was fucking a co worker at the same time,Fights, separation occurred and I actually begged her to return to the home...Bad move! That was the end of any alpha I had left in me, She gradually became more dominate,And if I threw any affairs in her face I could expect a Battering of fists on my head...So I relented and became more submissive as the years rolled by, Several affairs I caught her in as well,Today, she is 61, I'm 58, I wear night gowns around the home and No intercourse in 5 years,I do the cooking and serve her meals to her,She is not mean to me all the time but when she is she humiliates me such as fag, suck dicks queer ect...We have been in separate bedrooms for 5 years as well she does allow me to give her oral but she will not touch me...
She is distant and quiet, I didn't sign up for this and all of this progressed through the years and As I look back I ask myself wth happened here...I think she loves the control over me,I guess I allowed this to happen to stay with her but In real life, This is not at all fun for me...She has NO respect for me as a husband or man,I get called Pussy or worse if she gets mad, which I try not to get her angry,It is to late to turn this around and I am having thoughts do I want this the rest of my remaining days? we are so tied together with the Home and everything... Is she going to get even worse with the power and Humiliation? Im asking myself this..The last Time that I know of she was fucking someone was about 2 years ago and there is no doubt I think she is on the hunt but @ 61 It is getting harder for her to find another lover then it was when she was younger...She absolutely goes insane when I bring up her past affairs so none of this is talked about...THIS is real life Cuckoldry...It is not all fun and games for me.