Still a "Wannabe" but it seems Inevitable Now
Posted: Sun Mar 23, 2025 11:52 am
Hello -- Really excited to be a registered user here, posting for the first time. My amazing wife has not yet cuckolded me, but at this point (after years of discussion, experimentation, and online play) it seems pretty inevitable.
Backstory: we are both in our early fifties, second marriage for both of us--met in 2012 and married in 2016. Our sex life was sometimes pretty uneven, shifting from periods of high-intensity and frequency and kinkiness to long periods of dormancy, in which we were both frustrated and not communicating well. I am not well endowed (6" fully erect) and B would often express frustration with the inability of my "average" cock to satisfy her, and would end up talking at length about previous boyfriends / lovers (as well as her first husband) who were much better endowed and much better in bed. And she would muse aloud about looking for sex outside of the marriage. Obviously this sort of talk stung, but she could she that it really excited me as well--hence the entry of SPH and then HotWifing into our sexual dynamic.
I started buying her bigger and bigger dildos, a thrusting dildo, and finally a fucking machine--and THAT really spiced things up, as she went for long rides on 8, 9, 10, and even 11-inch cocks, that would pound her mercilessly (often while I serviced her orally or with a wand on her clit). That would have been 2018. We were having less and less PIV sex, as she rode the fucking machine more and more often (for longer and longer sessions), and as this progressed she decided to lock up my "inadequate" cock in a cage, which she began doing as of Valentines Day 2019. (I loved the idea, and still do--and while not caged 24/7 at this point, that is my default state--happy to say more about that if anyone is interested.) I didn't quite realize it at the time, but this was the beginning of my becoming pussy free (not there yet, but that too seems inevitable.)
With my useless cock now out of the way, B broached the idea of setting up an online profile to see about finding a "real man" to satisfy her. We'd been talking on and off about this for several years, so it didn't come as entirely a surprise, and I was finally able to admit to her that I was extremely excited by the idea of her fucking other men and becoming her chaste cuckold. While I continued to be humiliated by my sexual inadequacy when it came to fucking her, I was more and more turned on by the idea of her fucking other men--as was she.
However this was February 2020, and with the swift onset of the Pandemic, these plans were suddenly shelved. To my surprise, B seemed to put the entire idea of her as a HotWife the shelf, and our sex life (now much more regular, if not daily) went back to the fucking machine, oral sex, and a lot of masturbation (for her--I was in a cage more and more, and in panties, another way in which she had begun to emasculate me).
Fast forward to the fall of 2024, when I was travelling for nearly a month, and B was at home. We had phonesex a lot (for all my other sexual shortcomings, it turns out that I have a good erotic imagination, or at least one that excites her), and she would send me photos of herself in sexy outfits (often latex) or masturbating. When I returned, B seemed more sexually revved up than ever, had bought all sorts of new clothes and makeup, and was always dressing in provocative ways (even to go the grocery store), and we were having sex A LOT, everything but PIV (although she did allow me twice to penetrate her anally (apparently I'm the right size for that), and was suddenly giving me occasional blowjobs again). One night lying in bed she returned to the idea of creating some online profiles to see about securing what she still called "real cock," and I agreed wholeheartedly.
What happened next changed everything: she admitted that she had already done so, without consulting me, and that during my absence she had not only been sexting, and having phone and video sex on pretty much a daily basis, but had in fact made plans on several occasions to hook up with several of the men that she had been flirting with. She said that in the end she didn't (wanting to consult with me about that and explain things), but I'm still not sure whether or not she did. She said she felt more sexually vital than she had in years--and that there was no going back at this point. I was so overwhelmed by everything she was telling me that it took me the entire weekend to process it, and some long anguished conversations between the two of us. From B's perspective (and the way she outlined it), this was the logical development of our entire sexual relationship--and the next step was cuckolding me, her devoted husband who was / is unable to satisfy her sexually. I agreed (did I have a choice? I too was excited about taking the next step we had so often discussed and fantasized about), and simply asked her if we could do this slowly and deliberately. No problem--B wasn't going to settle for just any random fuck.
Now three months later, B is very much an online HotWife, sexting on a daily basis with who knows how many men (and several couples), having phonesex multiple times a week, and masturbating for various men on camera. (She likes me to watch--she's a total exhibitionist at this point--so I am often in the playroom with her, caged and plugged and photographing her and so turned on and yes jealous and humiliated ... and so happy that B is more and more sexually satisfied). We've met up with four men so far (drinks or dinner), but none of them has intrigued her enough to proceed. She wants there to be an imaginative connection as well, something beyond a nice cock, and the possibility of a regular hookup, and that is proving to be elusive. But--again--it seems inevitable at this point that she will click with somebody. (We may be meeting someone else next Friday ... TBD.)
So that's where we are in March 2025. I didn't realize this would be such a long post! If anyone is interested in hearing more, I'll be happy to add to this thread. Thanks for reading.
Backstory: we are both in our early fifties, second marriage for both of us--met in 2012 and married in 2016. Our sex life was sometimes pretty uneven, shifting from periods of high-intensity and frequency and kinkiness to long periods of dormancy, in which we were both frustrated and not communicating well. I am not well endowed (6" fully erect) and B would often express frustration with the inability of my "average" cock to satisfy her, and would end up talking at length about previous boyfriends / lovers (as well as her first husband) who were much better endowed and much better in bed. And she would muse aloud about looking for sex outside of the marriage. Obviously this sort of talk stung, but she could she that it really excited me as well--hence the entry of SPH and then HotWifing into our sexual dynamic.
I started buying her bigger and bigger dildos, a thrusting dildo, and finally a fucking machine--and THAT really spiced things up, as she went for long rides on 8, 9, 10, and even 11-inch cocks, that would pound her mercilessly (often while I serviced her orally or with a wand on her clit). That would have been 2018. We were having less and less PIV sex, as she rode the fucking machine more and more often (for longer and longer sessions), and as this progressed she decided to lock up my "inadequate" cock in a cage, which she began doing as of Valentines Day 2019. (I loved the idea, and still do--and while not caged 24/7 at this point, that is my default state--happy to say more about that if anyone is interested.) I didn't quite realize it at the time, but this was the beginning of my becoming pussy free (not there yet, but that too seems inevitable.)
With my useless cock now out of the way, B broached the idea of setting up an online profile to see about finding a "real man" to satisfy her. We'd been talking on and off about this for several years, so it didn't come as entirely a surprise, and I was finally able to admit to her that I was extremely excited by the idea of her fucking other men and becoming her chaste cuckold. While I continued to be humiliated by my sexual inadequacy when it came to fucking her, I was more and more turned on by the idea of her fucking other men--as was she.
However this was February 2020, and with the swift onset of the Pandemic, these plans were suddenly shelved. To my surprise, B seemed to put the entire idea of her as a HotWife the shelf, and our sex life (now much more regular, if not daily) went back to the fucking machine, oral sex, and a lot of masturbation (for her--I was in a cage more and more, and in panties, another way in which she had begun to emasculate me).
Fast forward to the fall of 2024, when I was travelling for nearly a month, and B was at home. We had phonesex a lot (for all my other sexual shortcomings, it turns out that I have a good erotic imagination, or at least one that excites her), and she would send me photos of herself in sexy outfits (often latex) or masturbating. When I returned, B seemed more sexually revved up than ever, had bought all sorts of new clothes and makeup, and was always dressing in provocative ways (even to go the grocery store), and we were having sex A LOT, everything but PIV (although she did allow me twice to penetrate her anally (apparently I'm the right size for that), and was suddenly giving me occasional blowjobs again). One night lying in bed she returned to the idea of creating some online profiles to see about securing what she still called "real cock," and I agreed wholeheartedly.
What happened next changed everything: she admitted that she had already done so, without consulting me, and that during my absence she had not only been sexting, and having phone and video sex on pretty much a daily basis, but had in fact made plans on several occasions to hook up with several of the men that she had been flirting with. She said that in the end she didn't (wanting to consult with me about that and explain things), but I'm still not sure whether or not she did. She said she felt more sexually vital than she had in years--and that there was no going back at this point. I was so overwhelmed by everything she was telling me that it took me the entire weekend to process it, and some long anguished conversations between the two of us. From B's perspective (and the way she outlined it), this was the logical development of our entire sexual relationship--and the next step was cuckolding me, her devoted husband who was / is unable to satisfy her sexually. I agreed (did I have a choice? I too was excited about taking the next step we had so often discussed and fantasized about), and simply asked her if we could do this slowly and deliberately. No problem--B wasn't going to settle for just any random fuck.
Now three months later, B is very much an online HotWife, sexting on a daily basis with who knows how many men (and several couples), having phonesex multiple times a week, and masturbating for various men on camera. (She likes me to watch--she's a total exhibitionist at this point--so I am often in the playroom with her, caged and plugged and photographing her and so turned on and yes jealous and humiliated ... and so happy that B is more and more sexually satisfied). We've met up with four men so far (drinks or dinner), but none of them has intrigued her enough to proceed. She wants there to be an imaginative connection as well, something beyond a nice cock, and the possibility of a regular hookup, and that is proving to be elusive. But--again--it seems inevitable at this point that she will click with somebody. (We may be meeting someone else next Friday ... TBD.)
So that's where we are in March 2025. I didn't realize this would be such a long post! If anyone is interested in hearing more, I'll be happy to add to this thread. Thanks for reading.
