Wannabe cuck

[Wiggy]

Hi all, I recently found this forum and have thoroughly enjoyed reading everyone's posts. I have wanted to be in a cuckold relationship for years so reading these posts has been nice cuz its nice to know you're not alone. I brought the idea up to my wife about her being with another man about 3 years ago and was immediately shut down. Since then, she will dirty talk to me about her "boyfriends" and what they do together and we do chastity play as well. Just the other day, for the first time ever, she sent me to work in my cage and wearing a dirty pair of her panties. It was crazy erotic.

I love it when she does this and she has gotten more comfortable with the dirty talk and chastity but as time has gone on, it's also leaving me wanting more. I do respect how she feels about cuckolding/hotwifing and I'm not at all mad or upset that this won't happen, but it sucks to have an itch you know will never be scratched. I respect how she feels and would never pressure her into doing something that she doesn't want to do.

It took a long time for me to accept this of myself and I struggled with the "why do I want this" and "am I gay/bi" and I have come to terms with it. There is nothing wrong with me and no I'm not gay/bi but the thought of cuckolding/hotwifing turns me on to no end. I agree that there is no shame in liking what you like and you should let know one ever shame you for it. Only my wife knows I want this, I haven't told anyone else. She doesnt know the extent that I want this, only that I think it'd be hot to see her with another man. I figured if she shot down that idea, she'd lose it if she knew the full extent that I want.

I know people say "never say never" but I've come to the realization that yea, this'll probably never happen. How do you deal with it? How do you accept that you'll most likely never get something that you want so badly? I appreciate all feedback and look forward in talking with you all. Thanks for reading my story.

[Bogdan]

Welcome Wiggy, seems to me you are already in a good place. Enjoy what you've got, try to find the maximum enjoyment in what you can or can't have and go from there, it only can get better for you and your wife?

[Flcuck4herand]

I will say never say never. We were like that for years until one day I told her she really deserves this and she started thinking. Then we went from fantasy to trying it out and the rest is history as they say. Don't push her but don't let it go either.