Back again

[BBWcuckold]

Hey,

Haven’t been on in forever, but I left after I got scolded by members for an admittedly bad idea. I deserved it, and it was wrong of me to consider it. So I’ll just do a quick re-introduction.

Wife and I have been together for 30 years, married for 24. Didn’t really think about her with other men till Ike 2011, by 2013 was obsessed with the idea. In that time I have suggested, hinted, asked, begged and pleaded with her to, to no avail. I've finally come around to acceptance, so I’ll keep it a fantasy. I realize that, though I can still dream that one day it will happen.

Every once in a while something happens and I think, “ok this is it!” Very naively. Like the time she and a friend went to a Magic Mike show and one of the dancers basically grinded on her. Or just the other night she went to a country concert and I teased her “hey if you go home with some cowboy just text me so I can turn the porch light off”. Or she will tell me about some woman in a Facebook group she’s in talking about dating a guy with a big dick and I’ll joke, “hey, you had your chance!” I try and keep it light hearted and playful now. Jokes with a hope for reality still.

My favorite is her weekly appointment with her massage therapist. He comes up to our house and we have a massage table in our bedroom. She always showers and makes up the bedroom before he comes over. I usually have to leave before he gets there for work, but sometimes I’m still there when he comes over. We are friends he’s a nice guy. They always close the door(relaxation thing) and put on soft music.

And despite her claims otherwise, he is totally her type(he is married, and we are friends with his wife). The drive to work I usually have a reading erection, fantasizing about what I wish they are doing, though I know they aren’t. I even check the bed when I get home(it’s always still made) and check the massage table for wet spots(never is any).

So, long story short, unless someday it happens on her own terms, I’ll just fantasize about it happening while jokingly prodding her into doing it. I accept it, begrudgingly. I’ll just have to live vicariously through stories here and envious of those that finally took the leap.

Or who knows-maybe if it happened, I’d end up regretting it. I’ve thought about that part a lot, which helped me realize maybe it’s better as a fantasy.

But god, the idea of her going home with some cowboy looking muscular guy after a country concert after dancing spontaneously all night with him….mmmmm….

So again, I’m glad to be back, hopefully wiser.

[Her number1]

Welcome back.

[BBWcuckold]

Welcome back.

Thanks.

Side note-she has those massage appointments on Monday mornings, and I just texted her “there are clean towels on the dryer if you need to take a shower before he comes over”.

Now I need to find a empty parking lot somewhere on the way to work to relieve THAT image out of my head