Wife bringing it up over time

[Colliercuck]

So with my wife, I brought it up , it was in our 10th year of marriage give or take.
She had already told me her ex was bigger and that I was small.
I fantasized about her getting fucked for our entire marriage and while dating, but I thought I was some freak or weirdo, what would other people think! I thought I was the only one with these thoughts.
I found cuckolding on the computer while looking up “fuck my wife”, the flood doors opened and I felt this weight lifted………she found my computer history and confronted me, she thought I wanted to fuck other women, I explained that that isn’t even a thought, that I fantasize about her with another man, she was pissed and in disbelief.
Then wanted to know who I fantasized about her with (the list was long) she was pissed
Then I started telling her that other men were inside of her while making love, telling her they were filling her pussy with there big cocks and cumming inside of her……she had amazing orgasms, sucked my cock and we were fucking ALL THE TIME, I thought I was in heaven!!!
Then one day she said I hurt her heart and that she never wanted to hear it EVER again.
I took her at her word (dumb man I guess) a couple months passed, she tells me that our son’s teacher is very handsome and she thinks he is sexy
Then a week later tells me that her friend at work told her a cuckold joke, do I want to hear it (of course)

I’ll continue later if you’d like, gotta step out

Yes. More of this please!

So she was working at the Ritz, and won 5 star employee of the year, we went to the awards thing at the ritz and then out with her co-workers to blue martini, she was looking sexy!!! And drinking, we were sitting with her friend/coworker (the one that told her the cuckold joke), and this guy walks up starts talking to my wife, she turns towards him and they are now face to face talking , really close and I’d say she totally forgot about me…..(I’m turned on, I mean all I want is to be a total cuckold).
So her friend leans across the table and tells me not quietly either) “that guy is hitting on your wife”, I told her that I’m okay with that, she says “you’re ok with guys trying to pick up on your wife “, I said yes, she deserves that. She gets a big shit eating grin on her face, and turns to her husband and says something in his ear, and then they both look at me giggling.
My wife and this guy quit talking and we leave, on the way home, I find a place just off the road, not obvious, but you can be seen by passing cars……..we start making out and we get in the back seat, I take her panties off and start eating her pussy, and she is soaking wet!!!! I enter her and am feeling good about shoving my dick deep inside of her, and she says, “tell me when your inside of me”, I said, I’m inside of you, she the says “I wonder why I can’t feel you at all!”, I said because your husband has a small dick, and she starts giggling.
Over the next couple months, she would tease me about needing a boyfriend, sometimes teasing me right in front of our kids or other people.
I was timid about bringing it up, because she told me how it hurt her to the core, so I want te respect my beautiful wife’s feelings.
Life goes by and periodically I would bring it up, and she would tell me , I don’t want to hear it.
I played with her panties for awhile, I would imagine her being fucked and I would cum in the crotch of her panties, sometimes putting them back (and I want to add that a couple times I found Huge creampies in her panties, I’m talking HUGE. THICK musky smelling, and she usually had them hidden) so anyway, one weekend, we go to the Marriott on Marco Island, we are sitting by the pool on lounge chairs (and it is packed!!! Everyone is crowded in, so conversation is not private if you know what I mean) out of the blue, she looks up at me , and says “have you been playing with my panties????”, I’m caught of guard, and several shades of red as people have obviously heard her, I sheepishly answered yes, she continues to look at me, and loud voice “ well when you beat of in my panties, put them in the dirty laundry, I don’t want to get a yeast infection because you got my panties dirty, ok”, I was so embarrassed and humiliated, but damn, this is what I want….is she doing it knowing that

More later, sorry