Two emails from my wife this morning.

[Bluetoed]

***UPDATE***

My wife and I just spent Friday and Saturday night in a hotel downtown for a weekend get away. First one for us since I revealed my fantasy to her.

As I may of mentioned before, my wife was a late bloomer physically, so she has self image issues. It doesn't help that she usually weighs around 180+ lbs. Thing is, she is not fat. Her weight is due to her being just short of 5'11" with long, athletic legs (she used to competitively swim and play volleyball), and a very well endowed 38" D chest. With her height, legs and breasts it's just not possible for her to have the number on the scale that she wants to be comfortable, so she is never comfortable with her weight, and that drags her self image down. She has a slight tummy, that I actually find really sexy. If she lost 5 to 10 lbs it would likely be flat and barbie doll like, which I don't like. I love her curves, especially her breasts and legs, but also her ass, which has perfect curves in all the right places. Her ass is the only thing she feels good about, saying she thinks it has gotten smaller as she has gotten older.

I said all of the above because this weekend was a HUGE breakthrough in her self image. On Friday night she wore skin tight black leggings, with a push up bra that barely covered any of her cleavage, and then a small sleeveless white sweater top that showed a good three to four inches of her 38 D cleavage. She looked hot, and even she admitted before we went out that when she would look down, her breasts looked really impressive and she had never seen them that impressive before. I responded "I KNOW!!!" to which she just laughed.

We started the evening with an hour show at a Jazz lounge, It was in the middle of a HUGE snow storm, but it was a quick Uber ride from our hotel. She wore a coat, and taking it off at the Jazz lounge was the first opp she gave the public to see her. Not much opportunity here though as the only people moving around during the hour show was the two female waitresses. But after the show we had about 90 minutes to kill before our dinner reservations.

At the bar she took off the coat and sat at the bar. I could tell the bar tender had enough experience to keep a poker face and not let her know what he was thinking. I told her she should go to the restroom to give the four 20+ year old guys over playing darts the opportunity to see her (she is 47). But just before she decided to do it, a well built black man around 6'2" and probably in his 30's came up to the bar right behind her. She was talking to me at the time, but she told me later that he put his hand on the brass rail of the bar and pressed the rest of that arm into her back. She said it made her uncomfortable so that is why she decided to take her stroll to the bathroom. I watched the guys playing darts, and they were too focused on playing darts to even throw an eye at her.

While she was gone, the large black man started talking to me. I didn't focus too much on him because I wanted to watch the guys when my wife returned. However, the guy was adamant about talking to me, so he did end up distracting me of my wife's return, to which put a huge smile on his face. He then focuses his entire attention from me to her. I am 52, and have already lost hearing in one ear, so not only was it hard to hear him in the bar when he was talking to me, but it was even harder to hear him talking to her. I kept watching my wife use her "entertaining smile" that she uses to be polite to someone she has no interest in. Then he nodded at me as he said something to her. She then said to him "Yes he is... I think I will keep him."

Immediately I hear the guy say "oh you two are married?" to which she responds "yes" He then starts speaking to me, which again was hard to hear, but I distinctly heard him say "sorry, I wasn't trying to take your wife from you", which I immediately thought that is someone who was trying to pick her up would say after learning she is my wife. Later my wife said she thought the same thing when he said it, adding that his entire demeanor changed, and he made the same apology two more times before taking off.

After he left, my wife, who was trying to keep a straight face, suddenly said "OMG I can't believe that just really happened!!!" and her face turned to beaming!

I told her, "now will you believe me that you are really hot!" She just started at me with the look of "I'm not going to give the pleasure of telling you that you were right look". Later she told me that before her "I think I will keep him" comment, he was telling her that he was busting my balls and I took it well, and I am a "good guy". That's why she said "Yes he is..." first. I told her, I couldn't hear him so I had no idea he was busting my balls, but I am pretty sure he was trying to figure out what my relationship to her was, given I am 52, but look 60, where as my wife is 47 but looks like she is in her 30's. He was probably hoping I was her dad.

A group of three girls came in and sat right next to the guys playing darts. My wife told me the guys did not look at her on her way back. She didn't admit to being disappointed by that, but I could tell she was. We watched what the interaction would be between the guy group and the new girl group now right next to them, and after a half an hour there was absolutely zero interaction from the guys, despite the obvious attempts by the girls to get their attention. It was then my wife's comment " they must be gay" that explained why she got no look from them.

We went to dinner and as the young white male host sat us my wife saw him take a good long look at her chest and then look embarrassed as he realized she caught him looking. He was right behind me waiting to hand me my menu, so I didn't see the look, but my wife was more than proud of it to tell me just seconds after he left.

After eating and before we left the restaurant she decided to take the stroll to the restroom. I turned to look at the crowd as she walked through. A black couple probably in their early 60s was seated half way between our table and the restroom, and I saw the husband's eyes locked on my wife's chest the entire time she approached them and finally passed them. His wife was sitting right next to him, and did not notice. But my wife did.

After dinner we went back to the hotel and I made her cum 5 times that night. We we woke up in the morning I made her cum 2 more times. Needless to say, she is totally turned on by the attention she got.

On Saturday night, this is what she wore out: https://www.amazon.com/GOBLES-Womens-Sl ... 082PM44CK
And yes, other than a slight 1" tummy on the front, she looks like the default mode picture.

Went to a bar, had a drink and as she turned to get off her bar stole so we could leave, a black gentleman a few seats down took a good long stare up and down her body as she exited her seat at the bar.

Went to dinner and she decided to talk to the hostess about our reservation, and the tall black gentleman hostess, who despite being an employee, took a good long look at her cleavage before looking at her eyes to talk about our reservation. When we were done, on our walk to the front door, she counted no less than four different men checking her cleavage and body out. As we walked back to the hotel she said that not only is she loving all the attention, that now she is entirely tuned in to look for it as she walks by any man because she doesn't want to miss it.

Later at the hotel, she finally admitted that I was right.

My wife now realizes for the first time in our 23 years of marriage how hot she really is! And she has become insatiable sexually as a result!

She then admitted to me that her sister's husband, who is black, has told her many times over the years that she and her sister (his wife) have bodies that appeal to a lot of black men. They are both tall and voluptuous. She felt the need to tell me this because we both noticed that the majority of men who got caught checking her out were black men, and we don't live in an area where there are a lot of black men. I told her, "well, I am not black, but I do love your curves, and I don't like barbie doll bodies". She just smiled at me.

I told her, now that she knows she is hot and desirable to a lot of men, I am not going to push for her to wear reveling clothing to prove my point anymore. My point is proven now, so I don't want her doing something she doesn't want to do, or is uncomfortable doing. She looked me dead in the eye and said, "Oh, I like it, and I am going to continue doing it!"

YES! I can't wait for our next date night so I can show her off some more. especially when it's not a snow storm and 15 degrees outside!

[superb101]

Sounds like you might offer to take her to buy some sexy clothes for a new "look"

[Bluetoed]

***Update***

So my 3/4 night long business trips are better than ever now that I typically spend one or two of those nights watching her on whatsapp being pleasured with her toys while she makes me believe it is another man taking care of her flesh and blood needs while I am away.

We've also added an edging/denial aspect to it. She commands me to start masturbating before I start watching her, but she denies me orgasming. I can only orgasm with her permission now, while she has the freedom to orgasm whenever and however she wants. I will edge numerous times while watching over whatsapp and when she is done she tells me it's over, and I sometimes have to go take a cold shower to bring myself back down.

By the last day of the trip I am horny as hell, sometimes getting hard in the middle of work. Sometimes she will text me something sexy just before I teach a class and she says she loves knowing the people I am training can see that she makes me hard. Even if I ignore the text, I still get hard knowing she has texted me something sexy.

When I come home, the sex is hotter than ever, and all the edging and denial I've been through for the week results in me having an earth shattering orgasm.

So I got home last night and saw she moved a chair into the bedroom. I asked her what it is for, and she just gave me a sexy look. I said "is that so I can watch you like I do over whatsapp?" She said yes, and gave me a long, deep french kiss. She told me no sex last night, and just a minute ago she sent me this text:

"I will touch me, you will not
I will orgasm, you will not
I will lick you, you will not lick me
But I might be swayed..."

I am hard as a rock right now!

[RuleEmAll]

Your wife sounds fantastic! Any updates?

[philxxo]

Sounds like you guys are having a lot of fun on the journey!

[shadowtantra]

Hey there,

I just came upon your thread bluetoed and this is such an incredible and sexy story you are sharing with us. Knowing that life gets in the way, I hope that you can give us an update when you have time knowing that there are ups and downs, curves and twists not only in the lifestyle but in life in general - hope you are both doing well!

[Bluetoed]

Your wife sounds fantastic! Any updates?

Nothing extraordinary. She still loves to play with my mind and fantasize with me about it. She lets me use the large dildo on her more frequently, and the faces and noises she makes when I do are unique to when I use it.

She can orgasm whenever she wants and however she wants, but I on the other hand only come when she lets me, which is usually about once every two weeks.

Sex has been awesome for the past nine months ever since I shared my fantasy with her. I know a lot of people will say that she will want to do it for real eventually, but knowing her the way I do, I doubt that. And knowing me the way I do, I'm not sure I want it to be real either. I still maintain that some things are better left to fantasy.

[Bent_n_Twisted]

On Saturday night, this is what she wore out: https://www.amazon.com/GOBLES-Womens-Sl ... 082PM44CK
And yes, other than a slight 1" tummy on the front, she looks like the default mode picture.

Went to a bar, had a drink and as she turned to get off her bar stole so we could leave, a black gentleman a few seats down took a good long stare up and down her body as she exited her seat at the bar.

Damn, I would be staring too. I also have a thing for tall, strong, well-built women who are not 'barbie dolls'.

I think it's funny that the description of the dress says "...also suitable for work." Yeah, no not unless you are planning to sleep your way to the top, or work as a Playboy bunny or a cocktail waitress in a casino. Professional office job like accountant or lawyer, no way.

[aztd]

Any updates

[safado]

This story is similar to what my wife did in real life while I was working outside of the country. I would be away for months on contract. She had my encouragement to play. I had told her years before that I wanted her to fuck other men, either alone or with me present. That led to us role playing a bit, particularly her playing a single MILF or cougar by standing by herself in bars and dance clubs while I watched from a distance as men approached her and flirted and danced. When I was away, we did a lot of streaming calls about it, masturbating together. She sent me nude photos she took with her web cam. I sent her stories about hotwives. In the old Yahoo chatrooms, we chatted with bulls and doms. She had long chats with one dom who explained the psychology of cucking and how it gave her domination over me.

When she finally got fucked by other men beginning when I was away, she would take a picture of how she was dressed for her date and email them to me, and then hours later another email telling me what happened.

This is from one of those emails:

I was so wet driving there and thinking about how naughty I was being. It was embarrassing! I felt like a kid going to do something that I wasn’t supposed to do. My heart was pounding and I was excited and worried at the same time. Why worried? Because I had made up my mind before that I was not going to do that anymore. But as soon as I saw him smiling and happy to see me (he told me he was worried I would change my mind because of what he had done before with the other woman). I stood there looking at him sheepishly my heart beating and my mind telling me “this is wrong but what the heck! So I grabbed the bulge saying “hmmmmm is that for me baby?” “Yes” he says, “all for you” How exciting!!!! I rubbed it tenderly, and could feel it vibrating Wow, what excitement to think he really wants me, I thought. I am going to make him want me badly and no one else. So we kissed passionately, and he was all over me trying to get my blouse off and then my skirt. I had taken my panties off in the car(a naughty trick). His fingers were under my skirt, touching me between my legs. He stuck his finger between my lips and was rubbing through the wetness. I was dripping. Yeah, it felt soooooo goooood. I just want to spread my legs and let that thick dick into me but he took his time. We were moving slowing while all this was going on toward the bed. He threw me on it and continued undressing me. Pulled down the skirt and went down, licking off the wetness. I was soooooooooo ready…………But he wanted to play some more. BUT it was too much for both of us and before I knew it he was in me pounding into it and moaning like he had never had it before. It was intense and I was f…ining horny and hot. The rest is history. We came like an explosion! For me it was such a turn on knowing he hasn’t had anyone a long time before coming over. He must have poured a gallon of his juices into me. We lay there exhausted!

[Bluetoed]

It's been about 7 months since I posted an update. If I didn't mention before, my wife is a teacher. And this past fall due to a levy failing, her position was eliminated and she had to transition into a new role in the district. When my wife's "mental load" is high, her sexuality drops. And being in a new role put her "mental load" on overload for a while.... I'd say pretty much for the entire school year. So our sex life has been hit and miss for the past 7 months. And low and behold as the school year came to an end, this is the text I got from her while I was out of town this past week (note - Juan is her name for her vibrator, and Tate is the name of her large realistic dildo):

It’s been a while since I’ve written. I can’t sleep and I’m trying to calm my thoughts by using Juan. I’m not even sure you edge anymore while traveling. We haven't really talked about it lately. Whether the thoughts and fantasies still are in your head. I imagine they are. I keep having one that plays out in my head. It involves two dicks. I imagine yours and another. There is a way that I have one inside of me and one in my mouth. I’m not sure which to put where. I think I might have to try them both, both ways. Which one feels the best inside my pussy? Which one feels the best on my tongue and tastes good? When you come home I want to try and play it out. I’ll start with Tate in my mouth and you inside of me. I’ll moan and groan and slide over your cock, but I don’t think you’ll be big enough or thrust deep enough to satisfy me. Tate fills my mouth but doesn’t taste as sweet as you. I’ll have to switch. I need him inside of my wet pussy. He goes deep and fills me up, thick and strong. As he pleasures my clit, I’m going to suck your dick so hard. Use my tongue and swirl it around so that you moan and groan. You wanted to be inside of me, but you didn’t provide what I needed so you will have to be content with an amazing blow job. I’ll make it good because I’ll be pleasured at both ends. Both holes will be filled and I will like it. If I’m really up for the challenge, I can make you both cum at the same time. The bed will shake and there will be such a release. That would be amazing.

A few days later, I felt the need to clarify for her that her not knowing if the thoughts and fantasies are still in my head is because I don't want to treat her like my "kink dispenser". I told her when I feel like I burden her with my need to have this kink stroked, it actually fails to stroke the kink. I told her my kink is that I get turned on by her being pleased, and if I feel like I am burdening her, then I don't believe she is being pleased, and it doesn't work. That's why it had been so long since I even mentioned it.

She said that makes sense. So I thanked her for writing such an awesome text for me without me having to encourage her to do it. And that is when her response shocked me!

She said "Oh, I didn't write that for you. I wrote it because I used it to make me cum! I couldn't sleep and I thought a good orgasm would help me go to sleep, so what I texted is what I had in my head to make me cum."

This is the first time she has ever admitted to me that she has masturbated and cum to any fantasy. She's always wanted me to believe she doesn't masturbate to fantasies, and that she always thinks about us when she masturbates to cum. I always responded to her claim, "I don't believe that". I pointed out this first admittance to her, and she said "well... yeah... it's not the first time." Then smiled like she knew she was caught lying to me for years.

We talked a little more about her fantasy, and given I am focused on her pleasure, I wanted to know what turned her on about what she wrote, and she says "what turns me on about it is pleasing two men at the same time. The thought of that excites me." She is a people pleaser by nature. Whether she is at work or with our family, she is always in people pleasing mode. So to learn she gets sexually turned on by pleasing more than one man was not a shock to me at all. Made complete sense to me. But this is the first time she admitted it to me.

Again, my wife is a very conservative evangelical christian. I used to be one too, but I deconstructed about 10 years ago. She will probably always remain a conservative evangelical christian, but she is now coming out of that sexual purity culture shell she has always existed in, in a way she never has before. The more she comes out of it, the more beautiful she is to me.

As for where this is going for us, given she cums to thoughts of us being in a threesome, and the same thoughts make me hard as a rock, I told her that in the past year I've come to realize that I don't want to gamble my marriage just to experience getting really hard and cuming really hard in reality. She responded "good" and gave me a big hug.

Both of us are happy knowing this about each other, and enjoy fantasizing about it. And now that it is summer and her mental load is low, it should be a lot of fun for both of us!

[Dream Weaver]

Thanks for posting an update. I have been following and it’s fascinating reading your journey and you are good at it. I feel sexual tension!

[Bluetoed]

I know I just posted a recent update, by this past weekend was too awesome to not share. We decided to travel to Chicago to catch my favorite baseball team playing at Wrigley Field. But despite the Reds getting shutout and only getting one hit, as well as shelling out $17 for a beer, it was one of the best weekends I have ever had. I bit more later about the significance of the $17 beer.

On the drive up, we had a lot of time to talk, about everything... including my kink. By the time we arrived at our hotel we were both pretty turned on, and as soon as the door closed behind me I ripped down her pants from behind, bent her over of the bed while getting on my knees so I could bury my face in her crotch. She was already soaking wet from all our talking while driving, and I literally could have made her cum in just 20 seconds... So I stopped and said "not until after dinner". Her intense moaning immediately switched to disbelief.

Our talk up made it apparently clear that we are both naturally submissive in our sexual natures. So doing what I did to her as soon as the door closed got her more sexually excited than maybe at any point in our 20+ years of marriage. She was on fire and on the verge of cuming. Not only was she going to wait until after diner, but I wasn't done with her yet. My pants came off and I rolled her over on the bed, put my legs on each side of her head and fed her mouth my hard cock. She ravished it, like a woman starved for it.

Part of what we agreed to while driving up was that I was to spend the entire weekend in denial so that every minute of our trip I would spend horny and feeding her my sexual energy with zero break. So she had every intent of getting my sexual energy to it's max and then stopping leaving me begging for release. And that fact that I just did the same to her motivated her even more.

After a long drive my back was tired, so despite how good that position felt to my dick, my back was killing me. So I collapsed on the bed. She took no time at all climbing on top of me in a 69 and resuming her devouring my cock. Her hot wet pussy above my face was heaven and I pulled it into me, dancing with my tongue and her clit while I buried my nose in her hole. Within 30 second I hear her say, "I want to cum!". I reply, "not until after dinner!" She pulls her pussy up off my face and starts panting in disbelief. She puts my dick back in her mouth, but not to pleasure me, but more so to say silently "be careful... or you will pay."

She realized had better stop any sexual activity if she had to wait until after dinner. We got setup in the hotel and headed out for some deepdish pizza.

Upon return, I was not allowed to touch her. I was only allowed to watch her as she used her vibrator to reach her first orgasm. I then got to watch her use her large realistic dildo between her legs while kneeling between mine. She wanted to have my dick in her mouth while she bounced on her dildo, an activity that brought her to orgasm number 2 within 20 seconds. I then pushed her to lie back on the bed while I dove into her pussy with my mouth. Within a minute she had orgasm #3. I then put my hard cock inside her, which made her say "OH! You definitely aren't as big!" This was in reference to a question I asked in the ride to Chicago where I said I wanted a honest answer. I asked if there is anything about her dildo that she enjoys that I don't provide. In the car her "honest" answer was "no, not really". Her reaction when I just put my dick in her said her answer has changed. That just motivated me to pour on the domination. She definitely reacted to it. Again, I'm naturally submissive, so her experiencing me fucking her in a dominant fashion brought our orgasm #4 within moments.

We collapsed. Again, I'm not allowed to cum until she allows me, which will probably be Sunday. This is Friday. But not only was allowed to edge anytime I wanted, she encouraged me to do so. So about 90 minutes later, still horny and hard as a rock, I just randomly without saying anything to her, started edging. She smiled and kept reading her kindle lying next to me in bed... kept smiling... kept reading... smiled a little more... read a little more.... and then her vibrator appeared. I was edging while she was using her vibrator. I put my legs over her body, one over he stomach, the other over her legs. She could feel my ass and crotch on her leg as I moved it up and down stroking my cock. She was feeding off my sexual energy. As much as this doesn't seem like me dominating her, to her it was. Her knowing I was edging to keep my sexual energy high... FOR HER was putting her libido on fire despite cuming 4 times 90 minutes before. Within 10 minutes she had orgasm #5. When she finished I dove between her legs and 3 minutes later, orgasm #6. I again, hadn't orgasmed at all yet, and we went to sleep.

I woke up about 6 AM hard as a god damn rock. And given I knew I wasn't going back to sleep, I decide to use the opportunity to edge again. I didn't plan on waking her up, but it did, and again, her knowing I was doing it for her fed into her desire to be dominated by me. After watching me for a few minutes, back out came her vibrator, and the evening before repeated itself. Including my following up her seventh orgasm with me buried between her legs to bring her to orgasm 8. But I went even farther. After #8 I put two fingers in her pussy and stroked them while using them to hit her g spot. #9 soon resulted.

We went to the Reds/Cubs game, ate at Wrigleyville, roach the Red Line.... blah, blah, blah. We had the day to talk about what we liked, what stroked my kink, what was feeding her libido, etc. And that evening my mind was given memories I will relive in my mind for years. Such as my lying on my back with her over my head, her pussy inches from my face while she used her vibrator to make herself cum. I wasn't supposed to touch her, but I could not help gently rubbing her ass checks and blowing my hot breath into her crotch as if to say "I am sharing this moment with you and whoever it is bringing you this pleasure!". Instead of telling me I broke the rules, she came hard.

Another moment that night, as I was edging she was lying up huddled next to me, her in my right arm as I stroked myself with my left. She had her dildo shoved inside her while her vibrator was held in place on her crotch. She whispered into my ear "Another man is behind me. I am sandwiched between you two. He is buried inside of me, pleasuring himself and me, while you stroke your cock for me." Maybe she was saying this to stroke my kink, but her orgasm it brought out is evidence the thought turned her on too.

We finished Saturday with her having had her 14th orgasm of the trip. Three more orgasms Sunday morning brought her to 17. Every orgasm she had after the first4 started with me having an edging session, and her feeding off my sexual energy to want to orgasm again. Before we left the hotel, I was then allowed to orgasm, which I did... HARD!.

We drove home and while she was riding in the passenger seat, she posted on Facebook about our weekend, and mentioned the $17 beer. But not to complain about the price of beer. But simply for her to document publicly about her 17 orgasms on the trip in a way that only her and I would know about. Later Sunday night, she came two more times. But not because I began edging. I didn't. My sexual energy disappeared with the orgasm before I left the hotel. She wanted to come again Sunday night simply because she became insatiable.

I'm three hours away from her now, in a hotel on a business trip. I fully expect her to need to orgasm again tonight, and of course this means I will get a request to send a man over to get the job done in my place! It will start a new run of edging for me. I've learned it's best to go 7 to 10 days before orgasming again. Over the last 4 to 7 days, I edge because it feels so good, but I know that the orgasm will be so much better if I wait until it's been 7 to 10 days. But what this weekend has taught me is that my edging session transfers my sexual energy to my wife in a way that makes her feel dominated by me. Wish I had learned this years ago.

[Bluetoed]

3 hours away from my wife, and she orgasmed four more times playing out my fantasy to me. It works for her too.

She has orgasmed 23 times in the past four days.

[Tryn]

Fantastic that she is getting off to your fantasy on her own accord! Has she ever described to you what the guys in her fantasy look like, age, social status, etc?

[Bluetoed]

Fantastic that she is getting off to your fantasy on her own accord! Has she ever described to you what the guys in her fantasy look like, age, social status, etc?

Nope. It is always nameless faceless men.

The only thing that has names are her toys.

I got home from my trip this evening, and after I got settled, she told me she bought the socks I needed. And then said "I got you small socks because you know what they say about about the size of guys feet...". I stood there speechless, but knowing she was hoping for a response. So I grabbed her hand and put it on my crotch so she could feel how hard what she said made me. She smiled like she had hit a home run.

[Bluetoed]

My wife just decided to dip her toes into me posting pics of her. If you would like to see her: viewtopic.php?f=9&t=76322

[Dream Weaver]

My wife just decided to dip her toes into me posting pics of her. If you would like to see her: viewtopic.php?f=9&t=76322

You have a great situation and are lucky she's happy to go along with your role play fantasies!