Confused!
Posted: Tue Aug 05, 2025 3:12 am
Hi everyone,
I am a long time member here and never thought of posting here. I am European married to an Indian girl. We are in love since 10 years (We are in late twenties now) and got married recently without any plans for kids for next 2 years.
Here is our story, before meeting my girl, I was involved with multiple women and seduced a few married women with their husbands knowledge as well. I was riding this sexual highs being a teenager and with lots of oppurtunities around. These multiple relations drove me to explore the cuckold kink through a couple who are involved in this kink. To further explore this topic, i went on a internet freefall and landed on Literotica and this site. From there on, this cuckold stuff was my refuge for masturbation. I should also mention here that I am a bisexual and i was involved in few encounters with men.
Then i met my girl through common friends. We met in Amsterdam and she was here to pursue her studies. She was a welcome change as i stopped my affairs with other women and went monogomus. But it did last only for a couple of years as we are going through long distance relationship due to some professional constraints. We used to meet only once in a month. Lately, my old habits started catching up with me. Initially, i met old contacts and then started meeting few other women. But things didn't go as expected and soon one day my girl saw my text exchnages & she was upset. After a long discussions and guilt trip, I promised her that i will never text these girls again. She accepted my apology to my delight and we decided to put my past to rest. I confessed everything to her about my past except my sexuality, other men and cuckold smut. I thought it will be a lot to take for her. As expected she was visibly upset but understood that everyone will have secrets & accepting each other is important in relationship. She is very conservative when it comes to relationships, sex and lifestyle. We continued for 3 more years with long distance relationship.
But the old habits did catch up again! This time with more surprises.
One day when she visited her parents in India, I opened another account on Planet Romeo & started meeting guys for fun. It involved meeting men, playing with ccoks and fucking them at open places. It was fun in the beginning but i coped myself that it is not cheating as it hadn't involved women. These meetings have evolved to a stage where i was so non-chalant about my dates with men. I started meeting them in the car mostly and i slowly started meeting 2 guys on regular basis. All these encounters involved the men sucking my cock leisurely and then i pound their asses for a long time until i nut in the condoms. There are no feelings involved with any of these men as i don't like kissing and hugs with men in particular.
My girl has returned from India after 6 months, which brought a fresh energy into our relationship. Sex was good again and i stopped my meetings with men. We fucked for 3 times a day for a week until we are tired of each other and her pussy was sore. We travelled together to Belgium and fucked in the woods. Life was good until i met this guy Seb.
After few months of my girl's return, she left to her work once again. Out of loneliness, i installed dating app and i met Seb. As part of our profile, we need to mention our sexual position which is more top in my case but by error i mentioned i am more bottom. Later i received a message from this stranger and he was interested in meeting me. I was about to sleep but i was excited, so i texted him that i was interested. He asked me for a place to meet but i was lazy&sleepy, so i asked him to meet at a place close to my home. Seb was not interested in meeting outdoors as he want it to be discret and indoors. I told him that i was sorry that i can't invite him to my place. He understood and we didn't meet that night. But he sent another message late night attaching his dick picture and with a caption 'You don't understand what your are missing, i will stay in the city until tomorrow mid-night'.
Probably that's the first time, i was attracted to a cock. It was not lengthy but the cock is girthy and seemed strong with veins. Immediately i had a boner. i thought about telling seb that i am a top but ruled out the idea. I don't know why but i thought of playing with seb cock. It was attractive and i reasoned myself that why i shouldn't try this as i was playing with men already. it's just that i will be playing with cocks for a change instead of assholes. The thought felt taboo and immediately gave me a rush of warm blood. i felt kinky and my brain was fogged with a need of sexual adventure. It was rush, a strong rush in the head.
I replied back to Seb and asked him politely to meet me in front of my building. There was no reply from his side but i killed my ego & requested him again with a PLEASE. He responded immediately this time and agreed to meet me in 15 minutes. Imeediately i bathed myself, put some nice comfy clothes and waited for him. He is on time, a 45 year old european with more than 190cm height and athletic build. He was sweet, calm and also imposing. We entered into our appartement and he immediately slapped my ass with a smile. It felt funny as my role was exchanged and now i'm on the receiving end. The slap did sting and fuled fuel to my desire. Slowly Seb pushed me to my knees without any talk, opened his zippers. The smell of his cock did hit me straightway and i was beyond any rational thinking. I took him into my mouth and it started expanding. I was slow and my teeth are hurting him. Seb was not happy and stopped me mid way.
I was hurt that i couldn't make him happy and explained him that it's my first time. He guessed it already and with a relaxed demeneour, he asked me to open Sissy hypno on my PC. The hypno was confusing as i never knew of it's existence until that time but it helped me for visual stimulation and performing oral better. I sucked Seb cock for a longtime with intervals when i felt gag or sore. Later he started playing with my ass hole with hsi fingers but it was painful. Later we used the lube that i use for my girl and my other women. Still it pained as hell, so he didn't move forward. Finally he cummed in my mouth but i spitted it out immediately. Seb kissed me and i resisted with a tight lips as i don't enjoy kissing men. Seb used washroom while i was sitting on bed with a confused brain. Later when Seb appeared with his flacid penis between his legs, the confusion was replaced by desire. But i don't want to look so obvious that i moved on to random topics.
That night Seb slept with me. He was an locomotive driver who happens to visit my city for some training. He is from Bordeaux. He is married with a beautiful blonde and had a kid. He told me that he discovered that he likes Men when he was 40 and since then he was involved with a sex friend. The sex friend is also a friend of his wife who allows Seb to play as the wife lost interest in sex. I was surprised to know the nature of their relationship and later Seb invited me to Bordeaux but i politely refused as i want this thing as one time affair. I didn't share much details from my side and Seb is happy with that. I grown curious for sissy hypno and we watched a few more videos toegther where Seb told me that his sex friend dresses as femme for him which was a shock to me.
Next day early morning, Seb cock started pushing into my hole from behind. I was startled and said no to Seb but he didn't listen and pushed his cock further, the pain was severe and i shouted at him. Seb immediately pulled away but turned me around started kissing my nipples. My nipples are very sensitive and i immediately started moaning loudly, then Seb caught my cock for first time and shagged it until i came. Then realisation hit me strong and guilt came over, i was so ashamed that i started crying. Seb undertsood my panic and held me close but i don't want to hug a man at this moment. I pushed him away and he understood my guilt. He put on his clothes and shoes & left. I was shocked at myself and all sorts of doubts started planting in my brain. How could i allaow myself sucking a cock? being a bottom?
I am a long time member here and never thought of posting here. I am European married to an Indian girl. We are in love since 10 years (We are in late twenties now) and got married recently without any plans for kids for next 2 years.
Here is our story, before meeting my girl, I was involved with multiple women and seduced a few married women with their husbands knowledge as well. I was riding this sexual highs being a teenager and with lots of oppurtunities around. These multiple relations drove me to explore the cuckold kink through a couple who are involved in this kink. To further explore this topic, i went on a internet freefall and landed on Literotica and this site. From there on, this cuckold stuff was my refuge for masturbation. I should also mention here that I am a bisexual and i was involved in few encounters with men.
Then i met my girl through common friends. We met in Amsterdam and she was here to pursue her studies. She was a welcome change as i stopped my affairs with other women and went monogomus. But it did last only for a couple of years as we are going through long distance relationship due to some professional constraints. We used to meet only once in a month. Lately, my old habits started catching up with me. Initially, i met old contacts and then started meeting few other women. But things didn't go as expected and soon one day my girl saw my text exchnages & she was upset. After a long discussions and guilt trip, I promised her that i will never text these girls again. She accepted my apology to my delight and we decided to put my past to rest. I confessed everything to her about my past except my sexuality, other men and cuckold smut. I thought it will be a lot to take for her. As expected she was visibly upset but understood that everyone will have secrets & accepting each other is important in relationship. She is very conservative when it comes to relationships, sex and lifestyle. We continued for 3 more years with long distance relationship.
But the old habits did catch up again! This time with more surprises.
One day when she visited her parents in India, I opened another account on Planet Romeo & started meeting guys for fun. It involved meeting men, playing with ccoks and fucking them at open places. It was fun in the beginning but i coped myself that it is not cheating as it hadn't involved women. These meetings have evolved to a stage where i was so non-chalant about my dates with men. I started meeting them in the car mostly and i slowly started meeting 2 guys on regular basis. All these encounters involved the men sucking my cock leisurely and then i pound their asses for a long time until i nut in the condoms. There are no feelings involved with any of these men as i don't like kissing and hugs with men in particular.
My girl has returned from India after 6 months, which brought a fresh energy into our relationship. Sex was good again and i stopped my meetings with men. We fucked for 3 times a day for a week until we are tired of each other and her pussy was sore. We travelled together to Belgium and fucked in the woods. Life was good until i met this guy Seb.
After few months of my girl's return, she left to her work once again. Out of loneliness, i installed dating app and i met Seb. As part of our profile, we need to mention our sexual position which is more top in my case but by error i mentioned i am more bottom. Later i received a message from this stranger and he was interested in meeting me. I was about to sleep but i was excited, so i texted him that i was interested. He asked me for a place to meet but i was lazy&sleepy, so i asked him to meet at a place close to my home. Seb was not interested in meeting outdoors as he want it to be discret and indoors. I told him that i was sorry that i can't invite him to my place. He understood and we didn't meet that night. But he sent another message late night attaching his dick picture and with a caption 'You don't understand what your are missing, i will stay in the city until tomorrow mid-night'.
Probably that's the first time, i was attracted to a cock. It was not lengthy but the cock is girthy and seemed strong with veins. Immediately i had a boner. i thought about telling seb that i am a top but ruled out the idea. I don't know why but i thought of playing with seb cock. It was attractive and i reasoned myself that why i shouldn't try this as i was playing with men already. it's just that i will be playing with cocks for a change instead of assholes. The thought felt taboo and immediately gave me a rush of warm blood. i felt kinky and my brain was fogged with a need of sexual adventure. It was rush, a strong rush in the head.
I replied back to Seb and asked him politely to meet me in front of my building. There was no reply from his side but i killed my ego & requested him again with a PLEASE. He responded immediately this time and agreed to meet me in 15 minutes. Imeediately i bathed myself, put some nice comfy clothes and waited for him. He is on time, a 45 year old european with more than 190cm height and athletic build. He was sweet, calm and also imposing. We entered into our appartement and he immediately slapped my ass with a smile. It felt funny as my role was exchanged and now i'm on the receiving end. The slap did sting and fuled fuel to my desire. Slowly Seb pushed me to my knees without any talk, opened his zippers. The smell of his cock did hit me straightway and i was beyond any rational thinking. I took him into my mouth and it started expanding. I was slow and my teeth are hurting him. Seb was not happy and stopped me mid way.
I was hurt that i couldn't make him happy and explained him that it's my first time. He guessed it already and with a relaxed demeneour, he asked me to open Sissy hypno on my PC. The hypno was confusing as i never knew of it's existence until that time but it helped me for visual stimulation and performing oral better. I sucked Seb cock for a longtime with intervals when i felt gag or sore. Later he started playing with my ass hole with hsi fingers but it was painful. Later we used the lube that i use for my girl and my other women. Still it pained as hell, so he didn't move forward. Finally he cummed in my mouth but i spitted it out immediately. Seb kissed me and i resisted with a tight lips as i don't enjoy kissing men. Seb used washroom while i was sitting on bed with a confused brain. Later when Seb appeared with his flacid penis between his legs, the confusion was replaced by desire. But i don't want to look so obvious that i moved on to random topics.
That night Seb slept with me. He was an locomotive driver who happens to visit my city for some training. He is from Bordeaux. He is married with a beautiful blonde and had a kid. He told me that he discovered that he likes Men when he was 40 and since then he was involved with a sex friend. The sex friend is also a friend of his wife who allows Seb to play as the wife lost interest in sex. I was surprised to know the nature of their relationship and later Seb invited me to Bordeaux but i politely refused as i want this thing as one time affair. I didn't share much details from my side and Seb is happy with that. I grown curious for sissy hypno and we watched a few more videos toegther where Seb told me that his sex friend dresses as femme for him which was a shock to me.
Next day early morning, Seb cock started pushing into my hole from behind. I was startled and said no to Seb but he didn't listen and pushed his cock further, the pain was severe and i shouted at him. Seb immediately pulled away but turned me around started kissing my nipples. My nipples are very sensitive and i immediately started moaning loudly, then Seb caught my cock for first time and shagged it until i came. Then realisation hit me strong and guilt came over, i was so ashamed that i started crying. Seb undertsood my panic and held me close but i don't want to hug a man at this moment. I pushed him away and he understood my guilt. He put on his clothes and shoes & left. I was shocked at myself and all sorts of doubts started planting in my brain. How could i allaow myself sucking a cock? being a bottom?