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by jane » Mon Feb 15, 2010 6:38 pm
I've been a little depressed the past day or so, so i havn't posted. Here's what happend with the new guy anyway:
I went to his condo, i was still very nervous. We talked a while, and then i went to the bathroom to gather my composure. When i got back he stuck out his hand, so i gave him mine. He pulled me in and we kissed for a bit. He began undressing and told me to sit down. I pulled his pants down, and there he was. I was extra intimidated then, because he is super thick and long. I took him in my hand, and began sucking on him, and went on for quite a while before he pushed me back and undressed me, and then he went down on me. He brought me to an O as well. My legs were spread, and he was between them, and i reminded him to get a condom. After he put one on he started to enter me, and i asked him to please go slowly. Thankfully he did, and even when he was all the way in he just stayed there a while, letting me adjust. He never did really give me deep thrusts, he just rotated his pelvis against me, and i began doing that too. When he felt like cumming he pulled off the condom and came in my mouth, which kind of suprised me. He went and got a drink, and then a towell for me. We laid down on his bed together and i just caressed his penis for a while, before he asked me to go down again. I gently cradled his balls and sucked slowly on it. With this guy the whole thing felt a bit surreal. i wanted to be in control with something so big in me, so i got a condom, and got on top of him. I moved on him slowly for a few minutes, but once again he rolled me over, and this time he reallly gave it to me much harder. He lasted as well. We had sex so long. I came multiple times before he did in the condom. Afterward i needed a shower, so i went in. As i got dressed he asked for my panties. I wasn't sure, but i let him keep them. He walked me to the door. Somehow i really felt like a different woman with him. He isn't really someone i can see as a "boyfriend", but the sex was something else. Yesterday i went back again, and it was very much the same, just with different positions.
Right now, i'm feeling a little lost though. Every now and then this lifestyle just leaves me feeling out of sorts. I feel really stressed out about who i am and how i am changing.