Figuring it out

[CurvyNerdMILF]

I need more spontaneity like that in my life.

[CurvyNerdMILF]

So many thoughts after catching up on your thread!

Multiple forced orgasms (as from the two Magic Wand experience with Sir) are very intense for me emotionally, too. I’m so glad your men took care of you, even if they weren’t both available in person. And I’m amazed about you fitting the head of the MW in—that’s a lot of girth.

As for you and G—he seems very special. What a worthwhile way to spend an anniversary.

[hotwifeplusone]

Wow just wow lol

[Whosbeensleeping]

Lovely fun and erotic writing. Sounds like a sexy and happy outcome.

Thank you. And can I add that I love your user name? It makes me think of Goldilocks every time I see it. And then I want to know, who exactly has been sleeping in your bed, and was it "just right?"

As for my writing, I sometimes feel like this is all a dream or fantasy that I'm going to wake up from soon. Writing it down can give me a record of the memories if this all ends.

Posting my writing is fun too, but I sometimes worry that I don't do the experiences justice. You saying it was lovely, fun and erotic is perfect because that's exactly how I feel about it. Thank you.

I feel like you're "in the zone" and/or in a state of flow, and your writing is a natural extension of that.
So happy and honoured that you like my username and picked up on its intent! That's lovely to hear. I do have to give credit though to Richard Thompson, whose song Uninhabited Man I stole it from! Lol. He is the greatest living songwriter that not enough know about.
Check out Woods of Darney and Beeswing for all the pathos of relationships you could ever wish for.
So glad you are creating a record of your journey for yourself for posterity. Hope every step is as rewarding in its own way.

[Clem99]

Great thread.

Love hearing about your adventures.

[Lookingforadventure]

So many thoughts after catching up on your thread!

Multiple forced orgasms (as from the two Magic Wand experience with Sir) are very intense for me emotionally, too. I’m so glad your men took care of you, even if they weren’t both available in person. And I’m amazed about you fitting the head of the MW in—that’s a lot of girth.

As for you and G—he seems very special. What a worthwhile way to spend an anniversary.

Thank you curvynerdmilf. I have to admit that the MW took some effort to insert, but I do kind of enjoy that sort of play. As long as I can control it and go at my own pace, stretching to accommodate big toys is very enjoyable for me.

And you are correct, G is very special.

Now, when do I get to read another update from you? I hope you and JS are both doing well.

[Lookingforadventure]

Lovely fun and erotic writing. Sounds like a sexy and happy outcome.

Thank you. And can I add that I love your user name? It makes me think of Goldilocks every time I see it. And then I want to know, who exactly has been sleeping in your bed, and was it "just right?"

As for my writing, I sometimes feel like this is all a dream or fantasy that I'm going to wake up from soon. Writing it down can give me a record of the memories if this all ends.

Posting my writing is fun too, but I sometimes worry that I don't do the experiences justice. You saying it was lovely, fun and erotic is perfect because that's exactly how I feel about it. Thank you.

I feel like you're "in the zone" and/or in a state of flow, and your writing is a natural extension of that.
So happy and honoured that you like my username and picked up on its intent! That's lovely to hear. I do have to give credit though to Richard Thompson, whose song Uninhabited Man I stole it from! Lol. He is the greatest living songwriter that not enough know about.
Check out Woods of Darney and Beeswing for all the pathos of relationships you could ever wish for.
So glad you are creating a record of your journey for yourself for posterity. Hope every step is as rewarding in its own way.

Thanks for the tip. I hadn't heard of Richard Thompson or Uninhabited Man before, so I took a listen. He's really quite a poet (although now I'm in a melancholic mood).

It reminds me a bit of when D and I went to a Ron Sexsmith concert. It was a small venue and every song seemed to tug at my emotional heartstrings. Such a fun date night....I sure wish COVID would end so we could do that again.

Thank you for your well wishes for our journey. I appreciate it.

[Lookingforadventure]

Great thread.

Love hearing about your adventures.

Thank you so much. I like living them

[Seekingmore12]

So many thoughts after catching up on your thread!

Multiple forced orgasms (as from the two Magic Wand experience with Sir) are very intense for me emotionally, too. I’m so glad your men took care of you, even if they weren’t both available in person. And I’m amazed about you fitting the head of the MW in—that’s a lot of girth.

As for you and G—he seems very special. What a worthwhile way to spend an anniversary.

Thank you curvynerdmilf. I have to admit that the MW took some effort to insert, but I do kind of enjoy that sort of play. As long as I can control it and go at my own pace, stretching to accommodate big toys is very enjoyable for me.

And you are correct, G is very special.

Now, when do I get to read another update from you? I hope you and JS are both doing well.

***blush***, feeling special !!!!!!!

[Whosbeensleeping]

Lovely fun and erotic writing. Sounds like a sexy and happy outcome.

Thank you. And can I add that I love your user name? It makes me think of Goldilocks every time I see it. And then I want to know, who exactly has been sleeping in your bed, and was it "just right?"

As for my writing, I sometimes feel like this is all a dream or fantasy that I'm going to wake up from soon. Writing it down can give me a record of the memories if this all ends.

Posting my writing is fun too, but I sometimes worry that I don't do the experiences justice. You saying it was lovely, fun and erotic is perfect because that's exactly how I feel about it. Thank you.

I feel like you're "in the zone" and/or in a state of flow, and your writing is a natural extension of that.
So happy and honoured that you like my username and picked up on its intent! That's lovely to hear. I do have to give credit though to Richard Thompson, whose song Uninhabited Man I stole it from! Lol. He is the greatest living songwriter that not enough know about.
Check out Woods of Darney and Beeswing for all the pathos of relationships you could ever wish for.
So glad you are creating a record of your journey for yourself for posterity. Hope every step is as rewarding in its own way.

Thanks for the tip. I hadn't heard of Richard Thompson or Uninhabited Man before, so I took a listen. He's really quite a poet (although now I'm in a melancholic mood).

It reminds me a bit of when D and I went to a Ron Sexsmith concert. It was a small venue and every song seemed to tug at my emotional heartstrings. Such a fun date night....I sure wish COVID would end so we could do that again.

Thank you for your well wishes for our journey. I appreciate it.

My pleasure.
Sorry to have made you feel melancholy!
Ron Sexsmith is a wonderful artist. Will have to put him on spin for a bit.
Sounds like a magical night.
Your take on the Goldilocks story is much more fun and light-hearted! Here's to many more "just right"!

[Lookingforadventure]

Cheers to that!!!

[Lookingforadventure]

This adventure has a lot of feelings. I know that it can take time for a woman to change how she sees herself -- no longer a good girl and monogamous wife, but instead as a nonmonogamous person with all that entails.

For me, this hasn't been like flipping a switch. It's a spectrum and sometimes where I see myself on it changes. I've had encounters that made me feel used and bad about myself. I didn't want to be that person.

I've had others that were amazing and made me feel giddy and sexy. I was strangely proud of myself.

Lately I've been in my head worrying about the what ifs. What if my kids found out? Would it traumatize them? What if my parents learned about my extra curricular activities? How disappointed in me would they be? Or what if I do something that changes how my husband sees me and we can't get back to normal? Are the risks worth it?

I'm sure this phase will pass. In the meantime, I'm happy to have Adventurer as a husband to walk this journey with.

[4herpleasure89]

Well spoken. My wife went through the same thing. She’s still a good girl, a great wife, mother and friend to many.

[Matureone2560]

I found this thread over a week ago and thoroughly enjoyed it.

You have really worded it so well.

I love how you, G and H have interacted.

It's been a shame you have had issues, but you seem to have got through them.

You and D communicate a lot so I'm sure you can get through the things you mention above.

[R_H_NC]

................Lately I've been in my head worrying about the what ifs. What if my kids found out? Would it traumatize them? What if my parents learned about my extra curricular activities? How disappointed in me would they be? Or what if I do something that changes how my husband sees me and we can't get back to normal? Are the risks worth it?

I'm sure this phase will pass. In the meantime, I'm happy to have Adventurer as a husband to walk this journey with.

One thing that occurs to me often when reading the various threads on all the forums is something from the husband's viewpoint.......... 'what if I do something that changes how my wife sees me?"

As you said, what you can't get back to normal and are the risks worth it?

I too hope this works out.......for everyone.

[Lookingforadventure]

Well spoken. My wife went through the same thing. She’s still a good girl, a great wife, mother and friend to many.

Thank you 4herpleasure89. It is nice to know that I'm not the only one.

[Lookingforadventure]

I found this thread over a week ago and thoroughly enjoyed it.

You have really worded it so well.

I love how you, G and H have interacted.

It's been a shame you have had issues, but you seem to have got through them.

You and D communicate a lot so I'm sure you can get through the things you mention above.

Thank you Matureone2560. I'm glad you've enjoyed our story thus far. I've enjoyed living and writing it.

I also really appreciate your encouragement. I'm feeling much better about everything today. I think sometimes it is important to take a time out and reflect on things. It also allows time for the communication that you mention.

[Lookingforadventure]

One thing that occurs to me often when reading the various threads on all the forums is something from the husband's viewpoint.......... 'what if I do something that changes how my wife sees me?"

As you said, what you can't get back to normal and are the risks worth it?

I too hope this works out.......for everyone.

Thank you R_H_NC

Your post made me smile. This is partly because it is nice to know that I'm not the only one who sometimes worries. But it is also because it opened my eyes to something.

Lately I've been encouraging my husband to explore his sexuality and desires as well since he's been so supportive of me exploring mine. I read your post and thought, "well that's just silly. There is almost nothing that D could do that would change how I feel about him."

And then I realized that the reverse is probably also true.

It is funny how seeing things from another vantage point can clear things up so easily. I'm not saying that all my worries are gone, but I'm feeling much better about everything. Thank you.

[Matureone2560]

Glad to hear you are feeling much better.

I'm sure you have a lot of friends/contacts here, so don't let things get you down too much, reach out if need be.

I'm intrigued by the fantasies of D in the lifestyle, getting to see a male perspective too.

[Rammerjammer69]

What a great story to follow….
I wish I could say I was as supportive in the beginning ss D was for you…..
I basically binge read the whole thread…..
Super exciting to read….
We are also fello canucks, but from western side….

Keep up the great writing, as I’ll be glued to the site waiting for more!!

[Lookingforadventure]

What a great story to follow….
I wish I could say I was as supportive in the beginning ss D was for you…..
I basically binge read the whole thread…..
Super exciting to read….
We are also fello canucks, but from western side….

Keep up the great writing, as I’ll be glued to the site waiting for more!!

Nice to "meet" you rammerjammer69. It is always nice to come across other Canadians on this site. Plus, if I'm honest, after what feels like decades of COVID lockdowns, my greatest fantasies are about travel these days. Your post has me dreaming of West coast mountains and the ocean.

As for D, you are right. He's amazing. We've been together for 22 years and married for 20. I'm still incredibly smitten by him. This hot wife adventure has been a great reminder of how special he really is.

Ok. I'm going to go cyber stalk your old posts now to learn more about your story

[kaskap79]

Plus, if I'm honest, after what feels like decades of COVID lockdowns, my greatest fantasies are about travel these days.

Another option is travelling to Copenhagen, Denmark.

If you are vaccinated there are no limitations here.

And I am sure we are some Danish members that would love to take good care of you.

[Lookingforadventure]

Plus, if I'm honest, after what feels like decades of COVID lockdowns, my greatest fantasies are about travel these days.

Another option is travelling to Copenhagen, Denmark.

If you are vaccinated there are no limitations here.

And I am sure we are some Danish members that would love to take good care of you.

Yes please!! Copenhagen was already on my list of cities that I'd love to visit and explore one day. The offer of some extra curriculars that are "off the tourist track" makes that idea even more appealing

[Lookingforadventure]

It took me awhile before I was comfortable being completely open with D about my fantasies. That’s why I find it a little bit surprising that I shared some of them with “Sir” when he asked.

It probably helped that he asked me via text, so he wasn’t there to see me blush as I talked about it (the couple of glasses of wine I had had that evening may also have played a factor).

In any case, when Sir sent the question, “What do you think about when you masturbate,” I gave him an honest answer.

Story is important for me. If D and I watch porn together, I usually invent a plot for the scene in my mind. Otherwise, it feels like we are just watching strangers have sex (and fake looking strangers at that). I need to know why they are fucking and what they are thinking. If I masturbate on my own, I usually rely on my own imagination rather than porn.

As for the specifics of what I think about, my conservative upbringing and views on sex have probably played a factor. My fantasies tend to be ones where there is no “guilt” about the wanton and lusty activities taking place, because I was an innocent participant that was coerced into it – a massage therapist who begins to massage more private areas, a teacher who threatens to call my parents if I don’t do what he says, a priest with very unusual penance following my confession, you get the idea.

[Disclaimer: in real life, these situations would not be sexy. Sexual touch by a service provider is assault. Being asked for sexual favors by someone in a position of power cannot be truly consensual, and is therefore rape. The fantasy is fun for me, but I apologize to anyone who experienced this in real life. I don’t think your experience was sexy and I’m sorry you went through it]

All of which is to say that when Sir asked the question, I told him about my fantasy of being at the doctor’s office, and having the doctor cross the line. I was rather explicit in my telling of the tale.

The doctor would invite an assistant into the room as a matter of policy - to ensure that there was a witness that his actions were appropriate. Then the two of them would watch me undress, give me a very thorough breast exam (playing with my nipples along the way), rub my clit to get me aroused enough for the speculum to go in, and maybe even finger me a bit as an “internal exam.”

When I orgasm from their efforts, they’d tell me that that had never happened before. I’d be embarrassed about being diagnosed as a nymphomaniac, but they’d offer to “treat” me. Since this isn’t the “library” forum, I’ll stop the story there.

Sir enjoyed the tale that I spun for him. He added a few of his own ideas of what he’d do with me on the examination table. D, who was reading along with our conversation, also joined in. They suggested that they experiment on me, for the sake of science. LOL. “How wet does the wench get when we apply nipple clamps?” “Does anal probing make her clit more prominent?” “How many times do you think she could orgasm in a one hour period?”

Needless to say, D and I had very hot sex that evening.

The conversation also sparked an interesting development. It turns out that there is a private space you can rent in Toronto for BDSM play. It has some things that you’d expect in such a space - a St. Andrew’s cross, a spanking bench, and a ceiling hook for suspension play. But it also has a medical suite complete with an examination table, stirrups, and medical equipment.

We decided to rent it and make my fantasy a reality (I told the men that I expect them to wear scrubs, or at least lab coats and stethoscopes). Our date has been on the calendar for several weeks, and today is the day!

I was in my head earlier this week and wasn’t sure if I’d want to go through with our fetish play date, but I’m feeling better today. I’m nervous about what’s in store, but mostly excited. We’ve spent time talking about my wants and desires, and both men know my limits. Besides, embracing my wanton and lusty desires might be the best way to get out of my own head

Wish me luck.

[R_H_NC]

It took me awhile before I was comfortable being completely open with D about my fantasies. That’s why I find it a little bit surprising that I shared some of them with “Sir” when he asked.

It probably helped that he asked me via text, so he wasn’t there to see me blush as I talked about it (the couple of glasses of wine I had had that evening may also have played a factor).

In any case, when Sir sent the question, “What do you think about when you masturbate,” I gave him an honest answer.

Story is important for me. If D and I watch porn together, I usually invent a plot for the scene in my mind. Otherwise, it feels like we are just watching strangers have sex (and fake looking strangers at that). I need to know why they are fucking and what they are thinking. If I masturbate on my own, I usually rely on my own imagination rather than porn.

As for the specifics of what I think about, my conservative upbringing and views on sex have probably played a factor. My fantasies tend to be ones where there is no “guilt” about the wanton and lusty activities taking place, because I was an innocent participant that was coerced into it – a massage therapist who begins to massage more private areas, a teacher who threatens to call my parents if I don’t do what he says, a priest with very unusual penance following my confession, you get the idea.

[Disclaimer: in real life, these situations would not be sexy. Sexual touch by a service provider is assault. Being asked for sexual favors by someone in a position of power cannot be truly consensual, and is therefore rape. The fantasy is fun for me, but I apologize to anyone who experienced this in real life. I don’t think your experience was sexy and I’m sorry you went through it]

All of which is to say that when Sir asked the question, I told him about my fantasy of being at the doctor’s office, and having the doctor cross the line. I was rather explicit in my telling of the tale.

The doctor would invite an assistant into the room as a matter of policy - to ensure that there was a witness that his actions were appropriate. Then the two of them would watch me undress, give me a very thorough breast exam (playing with my nipples along the way), rub my clit to get me aroused enough for the speculum to go in, and maybe even finger me a bit as an “internal exam.”

When I orgasm from their efforts, they’d tell me that that had never happened before. I’d be embarrassed about being diagnosed as a nymphomaniac, but they’d offer to “treat” me. Since this isn’t the “library” forum, I’ll stop the story there.

Sir enjoyed the tale that I spun for him. He added a few of his own ideas of what he’d do with me on the examination table. D, who was reading along with our conversation, also joined in. They suggested that they experiment on me, for the sake of science. LOL. “How wet does the wench get when we apply nipple clamps?” “Does anal probing make her clit more prominent?” “How many times do you think she could orgasm in a one hour period?”

Needless to say, D and I had very hot sex that evening.

The conversation also sparked an interesting development. It turns out that there is a private space you can rent in Toronto for BDSM play. It has some things that you’d expect in such a space - a St. Andrew’s cross, a spanking bench, and a ceiling hook for suspension play. But it also has a medical suite complete with an examination table, stirrups, and medical equipment.

We decided to rent it and make my fantasy a reality (I told the men that I expect them to wear scrubs, or at least lab coats and stethoscopes). Our date has been on the calendar for several weeks, and today is the day!

I was in my head earlier this week and wasn’t sure if I’d want to go through with our fetish play date, but I’m feeling better today. I’m nervous about what’s in store, but mostly excited. We’ve spent time talking about my wants and desires, and both men know my limits. Besides, embracing my wanton and lusty desires might be the best way to get out of my own head

Wish me luck.

The private rental play area sounds like a very hot idea. I would imagine that many with the desires and fantasy would rather practice it in private, at least in the beginning, therefore BDSM clubs may not be suitable. I have never been to such a club and I know that it is perhaps permittable to lock private rooms in the club but, based on much writing I have read, this doesn't seem the norm. Anyway, good for Toronto !!