Hotwife going out alone/why is it too difficult for me?

[whenwillshe]

Sounds like it has become a one-way poly thing....

[wcaldwelld]

It was a discussion of the 3 of us going, but it isnt going to happen. Hubby and I had an argument over Mike going. I think that i pushed him too far. He wants us to be alone and play alone with select males when we are on vacation.
I told him that Mike going along with us and meeting us there would be fun. We could share the same bed together.
Hubby needs a break from all the Mike hype and I wanted Mike to go. As much as I hate to admit this, Mike has become a big part of my life, sexually, so I am trying to balance all my feelings. I love being with hubby, no doubt, but Mike and our intimacy is a big part of my life now too.
Just one of the bad hotwife moments that we dont usually write about.
Hubby is jealous, and I think I know just how to make him unjealous!

Remember being a hotwife is about the primnary couple and if hubby is jealous maybe you have to step back and realize yes i am to close, being open or cuck or poly its all about the primary couple becoming closer and growing as a couple sometimes even when its the hardest to do you may need a mike break as much as hubby does!!!

[wcaldwelld]

OH mr bear!! And kcpa, thanks, the reese glue comment was a good one.

I told hubby that if we go to Vegas, it may be difficult for me to want to play like he wants me too.
I have feelings for Mike and playing around in my mind is like cheating on him
This is really when hotwifing is difficult.
It's ok to play with hubbys permission, I get that!
And Mike knowing that I am intimate with hubby is fine with him.
But he mentioned to me that he isnt so sure about me playing and fucking other men on vacation, that is IF I have an opportunity.
And I agree with him. This is just a lot to take in, and my feelings are simple, i am not a whore, I am not a slut, only when I want to BE one! Does that make any sense?
I would much rather NOT play with anyone other than hubby on vacation, and keep Mike all to myself.
I asked hubby if it was time for ME to walk away from mike. Is this too much for him? He said NO! He was sincere in telling me that he loves me being with him. Our sex is amazing, and he doesnt want to mess around with that.
So I told him its either Mike on vacation with us or NO hotwife play!
Am I being unreasonable? I dont think so.

Of course, hubby is good with NO hotwife play, but I know that he is disappointed. At the end of the day, he will respect my decision since it is about me and my body.

again it sounds to me maybe you and hubby should go alone i think you seem to close with mike to realize how or what long term it could do to your marriage, if hubby has the mike issues then i suggest to listen to how he feels, and yes its your body but its your marriage which i sense my be at issuse!!!

[mrs_reese]

Vegas was fun. On Friday night at the Eye Candy loung in MB, I found this cutie from Chicago. At first he was confused over hubby allowing me to be with him. Eventually I took him up to our room with hubby. He was very nervous but after dancing to 'Freebird' on hubbys IPOD, Ed loosened up and we kissed. I stripped for them, hubby was going crazy watching me.
Ed fondled my breasts and we kissed a lot. Hubby had his hands all over me as well. Hubby was fingering my butt and pussy at the same time while I attempted to perform oral on Ed. He was so nervous, he didnt get hard.
Eventually we led him out of our room and hubby and I had amazing sex until about 6am.
That was all, no more hotwifing after that.
Hubby and I had a great time reconnecting.
Tonight I will spend the night with Mike at his apartment.
I cant wait!!

[curious_guy]

Vegas was fun. On Friday night at the Eye Candy loung in MB, I found this cutie from Chicago. At first he was confused over hubby allowing me to be with him. Eventually I took him up to our room with hubby. He was very nervous but after dancing to 'Freebird' on hubbys IPOD, Ed loosened up and we kissed. I stripped for them, hubby was going crazy watching me.
Ed fondled my breasts and we kissed a lot. Hubby had his hands all over me as well. Hubby was fingering my butt and pussy at the same time while I attempted to perform oral on Ed. He was so nervous, he didnt get hard.
Eventually we led him out of our room and hubby and I had amazing sex until about 6am.
That was all, no more hotwifing after that.
Hubby and I had a great time reconnecting.
Tonight I will spend the night with Mike at his apartment.
I cant wait!!

Nice to hear you and hubby had a good time (and it sounds like Ed didn't have an entirely bad time either ). Have fun tonight, and be sure and tell us all the salacious details when you get a chance.

If you don't mind mind my asking, what, if anything, do you plan on telling Mike about your encounter with Ed?

CG

[BallSpanking]

Ed, Erectile dysfunction.

[mrs_reese]

Hey all,

I did tell Mike, a little jealous but he is more than ready to make up for lost time!
Hubby came home from lunch, we had furious sex for about 10 minutes, I came 3 times, he came hard in me.
Mike will have to clean up his hotwife, I plan on suprising him with hubby's mess!

About Ed, he was too shy and probably didnt expect sex!
I think he drank too much.
More later, gotta go!
xoxo

[BallSpanking]

Welcome back, Ms Reese,

Will you be spending the night with Mike?
Are you eager to feel him inside you again?

[reese]

My gorgeous hotwife is with Mike tonight.
Ahhh..the lonliness sets in again.
I hate IT!
I find myself jacking off a lot again, her panties that she wore all day against my face..taking in her scent.
Not sure if she is fucking him right now...telling him that she loves him right now...or performing oral right now.
But he has to work early so I know that they are in bed...having sex and it is driving me crazy.
My wife texted me about 20 min ago..telling me that she was in bed with Mike about to make love to him.
She asked me if I enjoy her being a naughty hotwife.
I love her so much...she continues to drive me crazy!

[mrs_reese]

I had a nice time with Mike a few days ago.
I had a lot of work to do, sorry about not writing earlier.
I have found my happy place with Mike.
I have written that before.
I missed him, and it is not that diffiucult to feel that way anymore.
Finally, I feel that I can love 2 men, and for the first time ever, a FB turned lover turned a man whom I fell in love with is not attempting to take me away from my husband.
I still wanna play with other men from time to time but Mike has a special place in my heart.
Wednesday, he held me in his arms for a long time, we kissed forever it seemed, and we made love. No games, just intense lovemaking. Mike orgasmed in me and told me how much he loved me. I told him the same and i felt comfortable saying that. Yesterday, I talked with hubby about this. Asking him to tell me to stop, because if I dont, Mike will be in my life and I will be shared between two men equally. Myhubby of course trusts me and told me to find myhappiness with both men in my life.
This is a big step for me, and we will take this slowly. When I came home to hubby, I was very tired, but he did lick me, tasting my sex with mike. I felt hubby orgasm in his hand as he was tasting Mike and me.
That was my night.
xoxo

[mrs_reese]

one more thing i just thought of;

Hubby is not crazy, but he did let me go, and he allowed me to explore the freedom that most spouses will never have in a marriage. If a man or woman can get past the jealousy and possessive attitudes(and god help me bc i am very jealous)that spouses have toward one another then if a couple decides to swing, or walk the walk as a hotwife couple, well then, i believe that a marriage will take on a whole new journey. How can our sex NOT be incredible? My hubby loves the thrill of losing me, I love turning him on like I do! That alone is worth every bit of being a hotwife. What wife wouldnt want her hubby to lose himself over her? My hubby is a freak over ME! I know that, and I feel so good about that.
He is the first MAN in my life. But he has lost a part of me to myself. I will explore other men most likely for a long time. I will never want to give up that freedom and independence that my husband has allowed me to experience. WHy would I? I have a husband who loves me like no other, I have an incredible trusting loving marriage. And I have a lover that is amazing. I think about Mike a lot, he is my fantasy and my relief outlet. Hubby is my rock, my world and I am his slave. Byt Mike is my lover, and I want him more and more each day.

[reese]

My wife is really into Mike right now. I love the feeling...no matter what we are doing..where we are going....my mind constantly wanders into the realm of knowing that my wife is thinking of Mike at times..wondering what he is doing..thinking of their sex...thinking of when they will meet again, and suddenly, there will be a text from him...or she will send him a message. They are in that zone that all new hot relationships enter....and to know that she is a shared woman...drives me crazy.
My lust for her has never been more outta control.

[BallSpanking]

Dear Ms Reese,

It's wonderful that you had such a lovely time making love to Michael in privacy and intimacy.
It is very important that a HotWife feel positively about her boyfriend and FB encounters. It's also very open minded of Mr Reese to allow you your freedom, perhaps he saw in you long ago, what you are only now discovering!

[mrs_reese]

Thanks BS.
I went shopping today at a mall and bought some shoes. The man who assisted me was also the owner as he handed me his business card with his info. He was amazed over my feet, complimenting me about how beautful they looked. My problem, he was gorgeous. Older than hubby, I am guessing about mid to late 40's with a sexy Italian accent.
He definitely was hitting on me.
I am thinking of going back soon and flirting with him right after my french manicure.
What do you think?
I am a little confused b/c I love being with Michael, but I know me, and if I get too too close to a man, I usually run.
Confused here.
Btw, hubby doesnt even know about this guy yet, but I was definitely attracted to him.
xoxo

[BallSpanking]

LOL!

I think that is wonderful news, because that means the HotWife in you is alive and well, and present in your decision making process.
You can have feelings for Michael, AND be attracted to other guys, it's called biology!

All is well!

Have fun!

[curious_guy]

Thanks BS.
I went shopping today at a mall and bought some shoes. The man who assisted me was also the owner as he handed me his business card with his info. He was amazed over my feet, complimenting me about how beautful they looked. My problem, he was gorgeous. Older than hubby, I am guessing about mid to late 40's with a sexy Italian accent.
He definitely was hitting on me.
I am thinking of going back soon and flirting with him right after my french manicure.
What do you think?

I think you're getting a serious discount on your next pair of shoes...

On a more serious note, congratulations to you and Mr. Reese - it sounds like you guys have found a way to have a little bit of everything in your relationship. Enjoy!

CG

[dinoo]

Dear Mrs and Mr Reese,

I love to read both of your posts tremendously. Very erotic and exciting.
In a certain sense very romantic too.

One sentence attracted my special attention, especially the last 4 words:
Mrs Reese wrote: "Hubby is my rock, my world and I am his slave."
Dear Mrs Reese, can you explain more in detail what you mean with “I am his slave“??

Kind regards,

Dinoo

[mrs_reese]

Curious guy, thanks for the comment. I hope your right!
Dinoo, to answer your question; when I say that I am my husband's slave, my point is that I love to make him go crazy over me! I love to control him sexually. And with this control, it's not a possessive dangerous control, it is more like a mind altering partially obsessive control that consumes him. To lead my husband in that path, I am his slave. I play for his enjoyment as well as mine. I know that as a hotwife, I am acting out and allowing my husband to fulfill his own deviant kinky sexual fantasties! I am his slave, I am committed to him, I love him with all of my being, I can walk away from a lover if he asks, and as much as I control my own self; at the end of the day, I desire to have my husband control me sexually and intimately. I am his slave.

[mrs_reese]

Ok, I am hubby's slave but this hotwife loves to play too. Last night, I texted the shoeman and after a few polite messages, he told me that he would like to take me to dinner one day. I told him YES!

[BallSpanking]

LOL!

Good girl!

[dinoo]

Hello Mrs reese,

Thanks for your answer.
Deeper psychology, but I do understand because of roughly the similar relationship my wife and I have.
The big difference is however that in reality we aren't so far as both of you are.
But we are beginning to communicate in the same way.

Your whole story (from both sides) does really touch me because of the mental aspects.
I think you are practising a high level of HW'ing, Mrs reese. Especially with Mike.

BTW, my wife is (was?) jealous too but her behaviour fulfils my (and her) dreams.
So, I'm already very satisfied being the hubby of my dear and loving HW, Lady Dinoo.

Very kind regards,
Dinoo

[reese]

My hotwife is going to meet Mario for lunch today. Omg..talk about moving fast! U gotta be kiddin me!
She told me that she isnt going to tell Mike yet. She wants to see where this may lead with Mario.
About this new guy, my wife told me that he appears older than me. He has salt and pepper hair, smooth gottee, avg height and weight but deep blue eyes. She is a sucker for eyes on men. So Mario probably will have a chance.

[Aynsley]

Ok, I am hubby's slave but this hotwife loves to play too. Last night, I texted the shoeman and after a few polite messages, he told me that he would like to take me to dinner one day. I told him YES!

Cool. I always enjoy hearing about 'new guy' stories.

[reese]

I took a personal day today...and as I write, my wife is dressing to meet Mr.Mario for lunch at the mall.
I have calmed down about Mike her current lover, but all those new feelings of anxiety are resurfacing with my wife's lunch date.
I want to comment about something. Reading Jane's adventure and her fantastic thread, recently, her husband posted about a problem that occurred recently. And a few posters have commented about the good that is written in posts and not much bad. I have a few thoughts:

There is never a day that passes that I dont worry about losing my wife. WE argue, we fight and most of the time when we do, she will throw it in my face about my kinky attitudes toward our marriage. There are times when we are drinking and we explode in anger over this lifestyle. She will always throw it in my face. "If I wasnt such a sick asshole", we would have a normal marriage. Believe me, there are bad bad days living this in lifestyle. There are days that I suffer from intense guilt about where my marriage is today....and where it was before I started on this journey.
There are moments when I hate all of this...moments where I completely question my abilities as a husband...days where I am filled with extreme anger, hurt and pain when I know my wife is saying "I love you to her lover".

But when tempers calm down, when logic and sane thoughts prevail, we both realize that our problems are just that...

[reese]

They are problems that we sort out and find a way of working out that mold our marriage into what it is today!
When we argue, there is always some words that hurt the other spouse, but when everything calms down and after the apologies, life returns to normal for us..and for that, I am very happy and fortunate.
I love this lifestyle, I love being a hotwife husband, and despite the problems that we encounter with this lifestyle, I wouldnt change anything!