Hotwife going out alone/why is it too difficult for me?

[mrs_reese]

Well, I am back!
Hubby and I enjoyed a relaxing time together over the past few days.
He amped up the conversation about leaving with Michael to Cancun.
I think I am going to go.
I wasnt so sure, leaving my child and all, but if I go before school starts, I will be ok if I take a long weekend trip.
Michael has found some flights and places to stay. He is coming over to the house after work to discuss this with hubby and I.
If this happens, hubby already told me to not wear my wedding ring again and to act like I am Michael's bride.
I think hubby is in his kink/intense denial mood again.
I will update soon.

[BallSpanking]

Welcome back!
I know of several incredible places around Cancun you can visit...
if you aren't too busy with your BF, that is!

[mrs_reese]

its official, Michael and I are going to Temptations in Cancun.
Hubby will stay home.
I am so excited about this.

[BallSpanking]

Hmmm...
Four days with your big cocked boyfriend in Cancun, without your wedding ring.
Won't you fall in love with him if you do that?

[doitforher]

Hey Reese's, Just checking in. I know how busy this time of year can be specially with kids. We just took our youngest to college this past weekend so it's been hectic. Official empty nest now. Woo Hoo! Hope you guys are doing well.

[BallSpanking]

Ditto as Mr B...

[cum4me2]

I go away from this thread just to come back after a wek or two just to keep it fresh and you guys never disappoint. It's such a fantastic read and shows were this can lead and how deep it can go with the right mix of people and true openness and trust. Once again thanks for sharing your journey with us and hope you have a wonderful time in Cancun with your lover.

[gladiator1095]

I'm not liking this. Hope everyone is okay.

[mrs_reese]

HI everyone!
WE are doing fine. I am so sorry for my absense. I went away to Cancun with Michael, and came back and devoted some time to hubby. Afterall, he deserved alone time with me.
Shall I explain my trip? All I want to say right now is that I had an amazing time. Hubby was totally cool with all of this. He trusts Michael. I came back feeling so much in love with both of my men and very very tired and sore.
Michael had his way with me everyday. I never knew he was that crazy about me and my body; but I needed a break from all of this. Coming home from Cancun, Michael was disappointed as I told him that it was time for a small break. Hubby needed me and I needed him.

Today, I am in a good place with hubby and he is with me. He and I decided that while Michael will remain in my life, we both miss playing and teasing each other in public. I want to go out this weekend with hubby in tow and find a guy to have fun with, to flirt with, to dance with, tease and maybe makeout.

I am sure a lot of our readers were wondering what happened. I apologize for missing time here. Hubby and I just needed a break. Miss all of you!! xoxo

[teachmethesecret]

HI everyone!
WE are doing fine. I am so sorry for my absense. I went away to Cancun with Michael, and came back and devoted some time to hubby. Afterall, he deserved alone time with me.
Shall I explain my trip? All I want to say right now is that I had an amazing time. Hubby was totally cool with all of this. He trusts Michael. I came back feeling so much in love with both of my men and very very tired and sore.
Michael had his way with me everyday. I never knew he was that crazy about me and my body; but I needed a break from all of this. Coming home from Cancun, Michael was disappointed as I told him that it was time for a small break. Hubby needed me and I needed him.

Today, I am in a good place with hubby and he is with me. He and I decided that while Michael will remain in my life, we both miss playing and teasing each other in public. I want to go out this weekend with hubby in tow and find a guy to have fun with, to flirt with, to dance with, tease and maybe makeout.

I am sure a lot of our readers were wondering what happened. I apologize for missing time here. Hubby and I just needed a break. Miss all of you!! xoxo

Glad this wasn't a short "We're trying to work things out, I'll update later" kind of post. I've read a few of those from old threads in the last few days and it always hurts me to see.

[mrs_reese]

Actually, we are really so much in love, this lifestyle will cause a lot of ups and downs, but one thing that i think we all can agree on is this; if a husband can survive his wife having sex with other men, if a wife doesnt freak out after she is with another man, as long as there is trust and honesty, all of this will make a marriage more of an amazing experience than vanilla marriages.

So, sex with hubby is like this: Like we are dating all over again. WE say nothing, we just make love, sometimes he is very aggressive sometimes he is so sensitive. He performs oral on my sweet spots so lovingly, and even though he doesnt say so, I know he is visualizing Michael making love to me, or touching me as he performs oral.

Hubby is so lucky. I am my husbands slave.

[cum4me2]

The two of you are truly my personal heros. I am so grateful for your openness in sharing this with us.

[doitforher]

So happy to hear you guys are doing well. Thanks again for sharing.

[reese]

My hottie asked that I try to write a little more since we were away from the site for a while.
It's so crazy how I started this asking for answers to my questions...and now she is the biggest contributor of information.
She went to Cancun. I was suprised that I pushed for her to go. It is not as fun..the hotwife roleplaying when you can not share much with your wife. In Cancun, she has horrible reception so I may have received about 15 texts the whole time she was gone. No pics...that has moved past us it seems, as much as I wanted to see her in action, I think she likes to keep it more personal with Michael. I had 4 fantasy drafts for football, so basically, I kept myself busy with work, preparing for the draft....Friday, Saturday and Sunday nights were dedicated to the draft. She actually arrived home on Sunday afternoon and I was gone....drinking and drafting. So...bottom line, I am not sure I like the idea of her leaving for 3 whole days...its not easy to share her like that...that is a long time. I dont know what to do with myself. I need more challenges with hotwife play. While she was gone, I jacked off a few times...but sadly, I didnt hit that HIGH energy level of her being away fucking Michael and falling morein love with him.
That I DO know...she loves him...and she wont level with me fully, but I do know that she feels love for him. He fits nicely in her life. I think that she is very comfortable with both of us in her life.
I am NOT!
Well....I tolerate this...I still have my bouts of jealousy and lonilness...but my wife is amazing at calming me down and instill new challenges to our marriage. She is on overdrive right now...I am sitting back and enjoying this amazing adventure.

[BallSpanking]

Happy to have you back home,

Ms Reese, sounds like you had an amazing time with Michael.
I can only guess this makes you even more crazy about Michael, and that your sex with him must be deeply emotional and loving, I am not surprised you have fallen in love with him, I am sure there is something very special between you when you are together (beyond Michael's thick 9").

Will we get any more detail of your lovemaking with Michael?

Please?

lol

Cheers!

And welcome back!

[reese]

Part 2....

All of this can be so confusing and dramatic at times. If I really allow myself to get caught up in all of this...I will be over-whelmed. We have gone from occassional hotwife play with a choosen partner while I was sharing in the adventure or watching me being left out at times....she has fallen in love with a man..not the 1st time..but this time in a very secure manner....she can balance our love and her love for him.
She and I have talked after Cancun....as much as she loves Michael....my wife realizes that she may be coming to the end of the road with him. He needs more...and she can not give him more.
Today....we are trying to sort out all the complications...wishing for the simple days...and wondering if WE both should go backl to those earlier days.
Michael is a great guy...our perfect partner. HE doesnt try to take her away from me..but he needs more. My wife and I both realize that. Cancun opened our eyes to that. I dont want to give her up that often...not for multiple days.
I miss her...I crave her...and she too misses me.
Whoever said this lifestyle is a piece of cake in crazy.
One thing we are certain on............WE both want to play more. WE miss the thrill of the random encounters.
She wants that more. She wants more men...she misses the attention and quest of finding NEW men.
That is all for now....I await my wife...and later tonight..we will be fucking like a vanilla married couple.
There is ONE difference though..... I know that my wife is slutty...adventurous...gorgeous...my slave..and in love with another man with my permission....NOW, how many married couples can say that?

[tiggerdog77]

"That I DO know...she loves him...and she wont level with me"

Since I have heard so many time about open and honest communication I wondered how this statement of yours fit in? Is she not being honest with you? I would think the withholding of knowledge is not good! Can you elaborate on your comment please?

[BallSpanking]

Hi Mr Reese,

Didn't mean to interrupt your thread...

I can understand completely that Michael needs more from Ms Reese, like full-time..., but that is a consideration he has to live with, since she IS married.
It is too bad it may end, because she is really close to him, and you both trust him.
Maybe Ms Reese can allow the boy to date other girls and find a full time GF so he can move forward...
Potentially, Michael can remain close as an occasional partner to Ms Reese, or for MFM's if she is in the modd. I guess I'm saying that when you are considering resolutions, remember not to throw the baby out with the bathwater.

Balls of steel Sr Reese!

[reese]

Sorry about the love thing....
What I meant to say is that since I encouraged her to feel love for Michael, I realize that she loves him....she will tell me how much she loves him during our sex play...and believe me...saying things in the heat of the moment is wild and amazing...we all make things more vivid and detailed.
But she wont really tell me how much she loves him. I never question our love..believe me..my wife has proven many times that our love in untouchable.
But not telling me...I wanted to elaborate on the fact..I dont KNOW how deep her love is for him..my wife can not love 2 men equally, that much I do know...but in order for her to keep him in her life, she has grown to love him.

Not leveling with me is something that I keep pushing....I want her to feel absolute love for him...I love to push the boundaries...NOT leveling with me....she either wont let her guard down and fall head over heels in love with him...or if she is..she wont tell me,

Understood?
Confusing.....HA, that was my whole intention of writing the past few posts...THIS isnt easy....its a day to day thing.
Our trust, communication and respect for each other is in a good place.

[BallSpanking]

My sense is that Mr Reese is right.
Of course she loves Michael, she has been making love to him for months, alone together and as MFM with Mr Reese. By her own descriptions their sex is wonderful, more like lovemaking, intense.
She is very comfortable with him, and both Reese's trust him and like him.
He is an ideal BF for Ms Reese... Now if Michael could only have his own fiancé AND remain Ms Reese's BF, that could work nicely, particularly for Ms Reese.

Does a wife who has genuinely fallen in love with her BF tell her husband openly?

Not necessarily, for a thousand different reasons.

Besides, the question supposes Ms Reese knows if she is in love with Michael and can say that sincerely.
Even if she did offer to share herself equally with both her men, would she carry Michael's baby when he decides he wants a child?

Somehow, I'm not getting that...

Welcome back, BTW, it isn't the same without ya'

[mrs_reese]

We stayed at the Temptations. We found 3 couples with whom we spent a lot of time with. This was a mild swingers place. It was really refreshing to find so many people so open and honest about their lives. Everyone knew that I was married to a man back home in the states and that Michael was my lover. I can honestly tell you that I was the center of attention! Not many couples could top that one. Most knew about the hotwife lifestyle though.

On Friday night, I actually cuckolded Michael with a very cute single guy who was staying at the resort. We were in the lounge when i met this man. My understanding was that he and his friend were single and there to meet couples. His male friend was busy with another couple that he met earlier in the week. So my new friend was free to mingle.

He was very forward and approached me while I was standing next to Michael. He asked if we swing! I was feeling bold, telling him that Michael is my lover and my husband is home watching the children. This sparked his interest. I told Michael that I wanted to tease him and cuck him like I do hubby. Fortunately, Michael has been cuckolded by me before, so he was comfortable with all of this. I actually believe Michael is completely intrigued by watching me with other men, just like hubby is!

I asked this man, his name was Ryan from NorthCarolina, if he wanted to dance. He wasnt gorgeous by any means. About 40, 5'11, 175, in nice shape but just average looking. Fortunately, he was a great dancer; very polite but assertive.

[BallSpanking]

Hi Sweetie...

You say you cuckolded Michael, did you actually have sex with this other fellow, or just tease Michael?
I think cuckolding may be in your blood now... lol

Kisses

[mrs_reese]

Oh Bs, you always know how to push my buttons.
I didnt have sex with ryan, even though he was very much in the mood after the night.
I danced with both men, eventually, I kissed Ryan and rubbed myself against him while we were sharing drinks with Michael. A few times, I would get caught up in the moment and kiss both men as we watched others get into the "swing" of things. As the night came to an end, I told Ryan I was tired and wanted to go back to my room with Michael. I sensed that he wanted more. I wasnt sure if I should have played with Ryan as I had another man at home who wouldve been upset if I played like that. Hubby is always ok with my hotwife play, but being in another country with my lover and playing may have been too much for him.
As I said my goodbyes to Ryan, I rubbed my hand over his penis as I kissed him. I kept rubbing him and whispered in his ear that I wanted him to cum for me. I am not sure if he did, but I can tell you that I left a good impression on him.
That was all for this night. Michael and I went back to our suite and we were not quiet at all. He was very aggressive after watching my hotwife ways.
xoxo

[Open2it]

Exponential cuckolding - what a concept for intensity!

[mrs_reese]

Hi open2it, missya!
Nice post.