Hotwife going out alone/why is it too difficult for me?

[jane]

Hello everyone!
I just want to say Happy New Year!
Hubby and I have been inactive for a few months as I started a new career in management.
I've been so focused one new job that I've been out of the scene for a while.
I want to say this though- there are many interesting men I work with as part of my job-
I can sense a few new beginnings happening very soon!
Xoxo!
I miss you all!

happy new year

[BallSpanking]

Happy New Year, Ms Reese & hubby!
I hope your new carreer comes with lots of fringe benefits, and nice cocks to keep you happy!
Cheers!

[a_unique_being]

Accidentally fell upon this thread and I must say, It was quite a read!
I have so many questions I dont know where to start

[BallSpanking]

Any chance we can get an update, Ms Reese?

[reese]

Hey everyone!

It's time that I spend a few moments writing about the stuff going on in our world.
Mrs Reese is doing well and we have some news to share.
I want to step back though....I want to share some personal thoughts and new insights.

We've been up and down over the past year or so.
I truthfully believe that my wife was worn out.
She seriously started to resent my need for hotwife play.
I've done a lot of soul searching...and I really want to share my feelings with everyone!

I will end this post and start another with my thoughts.

[svene]

It's great to hear from you guys again!

[BallSpanking]

Good to hear from you Mr Reese.
Whichever determinations you and Mrs Reese have made, I only hope that they work for your mutual benefit, and make you happy.

I miss hearing from you both, but your happiness is more important than any request from this forum.
I look forward to reading your upcoming post.

[reese]

Thanks Svene.

So here it goes...pardon me if I ramble on!

MrsR was increasingly becoming frustrated by all my intensity of HW play.
It wore her out!
She put a stop to it all....questioning my love for her and my commitment to the marriage.
Bottom line...she tried a few times over the past year, but I discovered she was role playing more and more and playing less and less.
She would tell me she was with someone...E or the other men she played with..she even posted some things in this forum over the past year... but the reality of it all was like this....some of her HW play was to tease me..some of it was true..and some of it was made up.

So we butted heads with this....I have changed and so has she.
I stopped requesting that I be present when she plays! I stopped wanting to be cucked in front of her man.
Quiet honestly, it became boring for me....I also did not care for the power exchange..where I was the weaker gender!
I want did not want that role playing anymore!
I am not the type of man that desires to drink her lovers cum...wear panties...be laughed at....or humiliated in public>
Yes, I've experienced all that in the past...and I apologize to any man that loves the thrill of being humiliated or cucked..because there is nothing wrong with that....we all have our kinks and they are not the same!

Again...we stopped all play!
We both were frustrated with the changes that have occurred with this dynamic relationship game!

More in the next post!

[BallSpanking]

When HW'ing ceases to be fun and enjoyable, it is only right for the two of you to re-evaluate the situation.

[reese]

Part 2.

I have a very demanding career. I am in charge of a lot of important stuff...blah blah blah! You get it right?
My research and personal soul searching has led up down a path where there is a better understanding of this dynamic crazy thing called "a hotwife"!

I realized that all the while, I had a tremendous craving to feel powerless because of my career and all the other alpha roles in my life.
Watching my wife play...being cucked and humiliated was an amazing release of the power positions in my world!
That powerless feeling creates a serious psychological mind bending sense of sexual and mental gratification.

Over the past year, I've had many discussions with MrsR about why this is important to me.
She knows that I crave her many times a day.
I want no other woman.
She does it for me!! BIG TIME!!

Over the past month, MrsR and I have developed a new strategy!
She is willing to play again!
She claims that stepping back and realizing how important it is for me to lose that control was never fully understood until I actually understood the psychological ramifications.
She sat down with me and explained that "rolling the dice" all the time...not knowing if that one particular lover would make her walk away from me was mentally exhausting for her.
She claims that she is wired differently!
I agree...woman and men ..it's the Mars and Venus debate.
She told me that she is terrified that one day, a man will take her away from me.
This is why she had stopped playing.
It was too risky for us!
Today, she realized that our love is very strong and its a committed love affair..honesty rand trust has never been stronger!
But my need for the release is stronger than we ever imagined.

Part 3 soon!

[reese]

mr.ballspanking- yes, thanks for your understanding!

[bubbajack]

Great to hear from you! You sound pretty normal to me - including all the parts about you two talking deeply about the changing dynamics of your sex lives!

Everything about the lifestyle is provisional only - not stable or permanent but always changing - and the human appetites which drive it this way and that way change, too!!

I am following your narrative with great interest (OK, partly because I am deep in lust with your hot, hot, gorgeous wife - which I think you can understand, right?) because you two have been at the frontiers of hotwife/cucking for much of the time I have been on here and I admire you both very much.

[BallSpanking]

Reese,

Never imagine for one second that any outside opinion carries more weight than your understanding of your relationship. If you feel a certain view has merit, you should consider it in the light of what you know to be your particular circumstance, but it is you and Mrs Reese who are in the driver's seat (as should be).

[jane]

following this very,,interested Reese..

[reese]

Mr.Ballspanking,
You are right on Sir!
Jane..... Part3 otw!

[reese]

Bubba jack,
Thanks my man for the compliment on my wife!

[reese]

Part3:
Sorry about the drawn out report, it's just easier than reading a long post!
Plus, I have to stop bc of work from time to time!

So, my wife is busy w her career and we've had limited time to spend with one another.
Our sex life has been normal and non exciting!
I've read where the male sperm competition innately triggers an erection within a man that is out of this world! That fact is so true!

Moving forward, our discussions gave convinced my wife that my need for her to be a Hotwife will never leave our marriage!

She has made our next jump into the scene conditional!
More soon!
Work!

[BallSpanking]

I would be interested in knowing (when you have the time to post), how the HW dynamics will be different in the period ahead. You mentioned that Mrs Reese felt stressed at having to engage lovers to satify your need for a HW. I am wondering, aside from you relaxing your requirements for her, if the two of you have decided what form her trysts would take in future... Would you prefer that she date secretly and inform you later on, BF's, long term FB's?
There are many ways for HW's to engage their lovers, so I wondered if she has expressed a preference?

[SmilingHusband]

best of luck in what ever you decide Mr. & Mrs Reese.

[reese]

Last part I promise.

Getting to the point:

Her conditional requests/demands were discovered last night as a matter of fact!
My wife decided to play again only because I need this in our life..
Hotwife play is one of the craziest addictions in my opinion.
It's intensity controls my mind and body.
My wife is my fantasy and my sex addiction.

I honestly hate this addiction.
It controls me all the time!
I deal with the constant craving to lose my wife to another man....emotionally and physically.
I hate it as much as I love it.
I guess it really is part of a man's DNA to have the sperm competition.
I crave that feeling of knowing that I have to chase my wife...re-capture her...and hopefully reclaim her after she has been with her lover.
Missing her....when she is gone with another man is so damn mentally and physically exhausting.
I masturbate many times on the night she is busy.

Moving forward...finally, she has told me that I have worn her out...she will do whatever is necessary!
I try to convince her that she gets the best prize of all...the attention and affection of a sexy man of her choosing.
The Men Mars/Women Venus issues come into play here as she truly is satisfied with me and if I didnt have this crazy addiction, she would be perfectly happy with me alone.

Her conditions are....she will do this...but I will have no say so on her activities.
She will give 100% to this man and whatever is left of her, I can have!
She met a man last night...and I was with her silently watching them together.
It was the last time that I will have any interaction with them together.
This guy....she has informed me may be the "one".
There is so much more to discuss....
I've learned over the past year that my wife played off on my mental thirst for hotwife play and her falling in love.
She really never did.
She would write and say things to torment me..but after a few years...she became frustrated and confused by all the craziness of hotwife play.
This new guy...I will write about in my next post.

Ironically, I looked at the title of my thread....hotwife going out alone/why is it too difficult for me?
I truly forgot about the title of this thread!
It is crazy that after 5-6 years, I am still battling the craziness of hotwife angst!
I have so much more to write about.
But sitting at my computer today....I am very excited and concerned to post that I have not seen my wife so seriously committed to making this new encounter a big part of her life...it's almost as if she is "going for it all" to create the greatest psychological and physical challenge for me.
I think she is going all in..no matter how this effects our marriage.

Wow! I am playing with a loaded gun I think!
What is wrong with me?

[BallSpanking]

LOL !

I think she has already started the game with you, making you believe she would give herself over completely to this new man, because she knows how to push your buttons...

Although truthfully speaking, even 50% of Ms Reese would be enough to make any man see red!
It would be wonderful if she could renew her thread, she is sorely missed here. Her sexiness, intelligence and playfulness are delightful.

Cheers, Reese, please update us soon.

[mrs_reese]

Hi!
Hubby is driving me crazy!
Lol!
How can he want something so badly but be so afraid of it?
I guess I'm back again everyone!
Xoxo

[svene]

We're all on the edge of our seats. Your penchant to go hard for your lovers is just the sweetest and most painful elixir.

[BallSpanking]

Ms Reese, you are suche a sweetheart..., what's a sexy, loving girl to do?
Any chance you can share your designs with us, being that Mr Reese won't be participating in your trysts?

[reese]

Update.
My wife is going out on a one on one date with her young intern.
Tomorrow night is my turn with her.
She told me not to expect much tonight as she wants to develop more than just a "let's have sex" night!

Babe..... Thanks for making my day!