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[Whosbeensleeping]

That sounds awesome! Happy for you that you got lots of no doubt well-deserved quality attention.

[2inUPMichigan]

Do you have a count down going until your trip? I'm sure both of you are looking forward to it.

[SSQ]

LOL no I don't have an official countdown clock or anything but I can't wait! We leave on June 21. Henry will be driving us to the airport. He's such a sweetie

OMG Henry and I fucked last night twice in less than two hours. That hasn't happened in ages... we were just so hungry for each other. It was wonderful

I am just so head over heels in love with both my men. It's different with each of them... but I think it's supposed to be. Not only is it different stages/levels but they're different people, so it makes sense that the relationship that is a sum of its parts would be different, right?

Lots of things in my life are stressful but I know the two of them have my back. I can't even tell you how wonderful it is to have so much love in my life.

[SSQ]

Charles stayed over the past two nights During the day we had work/errands/etc so it was only the evenings, but it was still lovely. He had planned to go home last night, but I guess I can be persuasive

I won't get to see him this weekend though, because it's my wedding anniversary with Henry. Hard to believe a year has gone by so quickly! We are going to a BDSM party together to celebrate and then having Sunday to ourselves with a bottle of champagne saved from the wedding and some of our favourite treats. Low key, but I think we will have a wonderful time together.

[2inUPMichigan]

Awe sounds sweet!
Happy Anniversary to you and Henry - hope you have a wonderful weekend together.

[SSQ]

It's been a wonderful 3 day anniversary celebration with Henry. We played at the BDSM party on Saturday and it was lots of fun. It's just so nice to have places we can go where not only are we out about our relationship style, but it's celebrated. Really feels so welcoming! Then Sunday we had our little celebrations since we knew Monday was going to be busy... but we still cuddled up and looked at wedding pics Monday. It was really good to just focus entirely on us for a few days and celebrate our connection together.

Charles and I still texted, but briefly and not during the time that Henry and I had blocked off to be together. Nothing sexy or too exciting- just checking in and saying hi. I love that my partners can both be happy for my milestones with the other- it feels so overwhelmingly full of love and caring and respect. Charles wanted to know how we were celebrating and then told me he saw the pics on Facebook that I posted and that he hoped we were having a wonderful time. He's such a sweetie

And date night with Charles tonight! It's not too much longer until our anniversary trip; just a few more weeks. I can't wait!

[SSQ]

I've started to pack for my trip... can't wait. Just a week to go and I'll be on sunny beaches with Charles

A whole week with no interruptions or responsibilities. It's going to be awesome!

[2inUPMichigan]

Oh how time flies! It seems like just the other day you weren't sure how you were going to celebrate and now you two will soon be off together having a great time.
Have a wonderful time!

[ambershere]

I hope you have a truly wonderful time , and all you wishes and desires come to be. Enjoy

[SSQ]

Thanks guys. I'm still trying to decide how much lingerie to bring and what toys I'd like. I am hoping the bed will have some restraint points because there are a lot of things I want.

Oh, and hopefully a bathroom large enough for two... it's so lovely to have a partner who also is into the body fluids kinks.

[2inUPMichigan]

I think you should take as much lingerie as you can stuff into your bag LOL - but then again I am partial to lingerie
Oh toys....I can never decide which toys tog bring....that would be difficult to limit things. Oh I know!! Use some space in Charles' luggage!

[SSQ]

Charles is definitely bringing some of the toys. He gave me an updated version of my "activities" checklist last night and we went over it. That was some pretty awesome foreplay because now we can start planning activities that are a little more outside the norm

I'm just a little worried about bringing some of the things into a foreign country. Gotta check the rules on rope and restraints. And I'd really like not to go to jail if someone walks in on us

But, it's our best shot for total privacy with no worries!

[SSQ]

Well, I'm back!

[2inUPMichigan]

I hope both of you had a wonderful time together!

[ambershere]

Glad your back. Truly hope you had an awesome time and managed to meet all you fun exceptions and some

[Kentros]

Hope you and Charles had a great time!!

[SSQ]

Aww lol I was hoping to leave a tease but you guys are too nice Once I've got my thoughts collated, I'll definitely share them.

But I'll start by saying that it was an incredible week and we had a wonderful time together.

[SSQ]

You've been so patient, but I think you'll enjoy the updates!

It really was seven amazing days in paradise. I had such a wonderful time with Charles.

Henry drove us to the airport and picked us up, for all you HW husbands out there who would enjoy the image. For us, it wasn't anything more than him being helpful and wanting us to have the easiest start to our trip, but I know that a lot of you will enjoy the symbolism of my husband driving me and my boyfriend away for a 7 day romantic vacation. The resort even decorated the room for our anniversary (and upgraded us to a suite!), which was pretty amazing.

And there was a giant full length mirror at the foot of the bed, which was a LOT of fun when I had one hand in his hair pushing his face into my pussy Even better was when he wore the little gift I brought him that I knew he would appreciate- a pair of pink lace panties. He enjoys crossdressing at times. I chose them specifically to be a style that would be comfortable for him but also give that extra sensory boost. And it was so sexy watching his ass in the air while he licked me to orgasm over and over and over.

Just a little note that it's easy to enjoy just a little public groping even in conservative areas, if you're putting sunscreen on your partner I much prefer to have mine applied for me, you know!

I remember him waking up so hungry for me that he could barely wait before begging to be inside me. It was really nice to feel like he needed me so much that he couldn’t wait and endure the teasing I usually dish out. He told me that he’d been awake for two hours waiting for me to wake up so that we could have sex!

And we just had SO much sex, it was awesome. Drunk and sober and every combination in between. It’s always so good to be with him. We did some kink, too- a wax scene that was fun and an impact scene that went a little awry since the noise from the hall distracted him. It happens, but it was a little disappointing. We did manage to save the end when he brought out one of his favourite prostate toys and we went with that. I had hoped for a better energy but life isn’t perfect. Close enough!

I am just so head over heels in love with both my men. Sometimes I really think I have to pinch myself because I am so lucky to have them in my life.

[SSQ]

Another wonderful date night with Charles. I haven't been writing much about our regular dates because it's become the new normal. But I am just so blissfully happy with my relationships, with a few minor inconveniences. I don't sleep well at Charles' house for a number of reasons, so I hate having to go home when I am tired and cuddly after nice day with him. We tried me sleeping over again on Sunday night but it just didn't work. But I still had a lovely time with him, just badly needed a nap when I got home.

And yesterday was our normal standing date night. In a year, we have missed two; Christmas Day, and once when he was sick. He's gone out of his way to make sure he keeps our plans even when it's difficult because of work. It means a lot to me.

The sex has always been good, but it just keeps getting better. Sunday was nearly four hours of teasing and kink and hot, sweaty orgasms that drenched the bed. I was flying with all the endorphins. It was amazing. I get all giggly when I'm riding that post orgasm wave. Sex is so much more fun (and lasts much longer!) when it's not just about PIV!

Then last night, Charles was pretty exhausted from work so after we had dinner with Henry, we went upstairs and he had a nap while I just cuddled up with a book. I enjoy spooning, whether I'm the big or the little spoon, and this time I was holding him while he slept. When he started to stir, I nibbled his neck just the way he likes it- little nips working up into more intense bites. He was making such lovely sounds! Then he took my hand and slid it down to his rock hard cock and I knew I didn't want to wait too long to have him inside me! I teased him a little longer and stroked his cock until he was begging me to let him cum, but of course I had to taste him first. I love the feel of a hard cock in my mouth, and listening to his panting breath was such a turn on!

Normally I like to have a few orgasms myself before, but I wanted to fuck him while he was feeling that level of urgency so I told him that when he came, he was going to be cleaning up every drop. I love it that Charles shares my body fluids kink! He begged to be allowed to do it, and then started working his cock into my tight pussy. He's so thick and I love the way his cock feels inside me. He managed to hold it off for a while but I kept telling him all the dirty things I wanted to do and soon he filled me up with a groan. And such a good boy, he only took a moment to recover before he slid down my body and started to clean up the mess. I love being licked after I've had sex because I'm oh-so-sensitive and Charles knows what I like by now. He made me orgasm so hard that I had to wave him off after five or six because of the intensity. That always means it's been a good day

I am a very lucky woman!

[SSQ]

So.. I haven't been writing here, not because things aren't going well, but just because of how the culture here has felt like it's shifting lately.

On the other hand, I don't want my thread to drop off, either. There's nearly eight years of memories here that I still haven't had the time to collate and save. Life and health have just been too busy for that.

[Her number1]

Don't let others stop you from posting, your comments and story are always interesting.

[Suchen Zucker]

While we may not always agree, I've come to respect your viewpoint as always intelligent and well-intentioned. I view you as someone not afraid to speak their mind and a straight-shooter in that you don't seem to let your emotions override your logic (unlike myself). Often, when I am listening to one of the many relationship podcasts I listen to every day, what I hear backs up what you have said on this board.

Some postings I read as just fun fluff like fast food. Others, like you, I tend to chew more slowly with thought.

So don't get the idea that you, or what you value, isn't important around here.

[Whosbeensleeping]

Hope health is going well. You are one of the bright lights here. I'm sorry you do not feel honoured. You certainly deserve it. I always love reading what you have to say, especially about poly things. Your intelligence and passion always shines through. Proud to live in your neighbourhood, both on here and IRL (down the road an hour or so.) Your story is always interesting to read about.

[SSQ]

Honestly- that meant a lot. Thanks to all of you. I have seriously been wondering if I shouldn't be here anymore and just stick to my blog. But I do hate the idea of losing all the content here. This place was such a big part of me figuring out who I am and what I want from life, and through a lot of major life changes. I feel like I'd miss coming here. I'd never just want to disappear anyway, because I always wonder about the oldies who used to post here and then just vanished. I know life changes and it's the internet and stuff, but sometimes I wonder about people.

OK, I'll write a couple of short updates if you haven't been reading my blog.

Henry and I decided to establish a formal date night for ourselves. He pointed out that while of course he has the lion's share of my time, he gets less dedicated quality time. When I see Charles, we generally don't have much in the way of responsibilities during our time together- it's just time for us. One of us might be tired or whatnot but we can just focus on each other. Henry and I have parenting and house chores and whatever else, right? We do get lots of evening time together but it's not always intentional- this way, we are taking turns planning date night (not always anything too exciting) but at least we are focusing on each other.

So we've had three date nights so far. I decided to go over the top for the first one to make Henry feel good and loved. I planned a romantic scavenger hunt through our house- sent him out for a while and then hid clues and little presents all over the house. Each clue also came with a love note that described a memory from our relationship together. Then the last clue pointed him to our bedroom where I was waiting with a rom-com (Mr Right 2016- we loved it, just our brand of humour!) and yummy appetizers. It was an awesome night. The following week was a little more low key, but he baked me a recipe I sent him and then gave me a romantic candelit massage afterwards. And his past Friday was my turn again. We made our own copycat Red Lobster meal with cheddar cornbread biscuits and three kinds of shrimp, and cuddled up and watched some Netflix together.

Henry and I have also been having some pretty amazing sex. He sent me a Pornhub clip that was more educational than just pure porn and asked me if we could try it out. It was a two handed non simultaneous anal stretching process that we'd never tried. I wasn't particularly enthused about having to glove both hands since then I can't play with his cock, too, but I'll try nearly anything once especially if it will make him happy. Actually, it went pretty well. Over the course of the session, I was nearly able to work my whole fist into him. I do have small hands, but still And he was making such lovely noises!

cont'd below...

[SSQ]

Things got a little complicated with Charles. He'd had some chronic health stuff flare up, and so we hadn't gotten to see each other much over the last month or so. He still stopped by on date night but didn't stay long and I could see he was the worse for wear. Simultaneously things picked up at work, and our communication slowed as well. I wasn't too happy about that, and the next time I saw him, we had a conversation about it. Certainly, of all people, I get chronic health issues flaring, but I don't find that it makes me want to stop talking to people where apparently he tends to withdraw when he isn't feeling well. But it wasn't something we had discussed so I only saw the outcome, right?

So basically we had to sit down and just do a temperature check on our relationship. I told him that if he was happier without all the messy stuff/emotional investment, that I'd be okay with that, but he just needed to clarify for me. I said I'd be OK being FWB if he just wanted to hang out once a week and hang out a little and fuck, but I would need to adjust my expectations.

I didn't mean to hurt him by that- I was just trying to make it easy for him if I'm too high maintenance for him. I know that I'm never going to be the "cool girlfriend" lol; that's not who I am. But he got pretty upset because he said that felt like I could just blow off my feelings like it was nothing. I told him that's not what I meant at all. Just that I couldn't keep my heart out if that wasn't what this is. He and I have different communication styles so we definitely have to work at this harder to make sure we understand each other!

He told me that when we started dating, he hadn't been looking for anything serious. He had been single for a while and just wanted to have some fun times together. That doesn't mean NSA for him but more of a casual type relationship. But he told me that I wound up being a much more potent cocktail than he expected and that he fell in love with me and he doesn't want to lose that.

It was a tough night together, but I think it was a positive thing that we were able to have a good conversation without histrionics on either side, and talk about our wants, needs, and expectations. That night after we talked, we went to bed and just cuddled together and didn't want to let go.

Since then, he's made a real point of being more intentional and prioritizing our connection, too- not just when we're together. He's called me just to chat, and at least checked in by text daily. Plus he shifted things around so we could have our second date night on the weekend which we hadn't had in weeks. And then he went out of his way to make sure we had a wonderful night then. He came over and we made dinner together, and ate with Henry and Kiddo and played board games as a group before Henry went out with friends.

Then we went upstairs and he gave me a wonderful massage (yup, both my boys cook AND have at least a little massage training!), and I was just melting. We went to bed and he pulled out all the stops to give me as much pleasure as possible. He buried his face in my cunt until I thought he must have needed a snorkel to breathe! I was riding so high on endorphins that I told him he'd have to scrape me off the ceiling. And when he finally slipped his hard cock inside me, I just got overwhelmed with all the feelings. He told me how much he loves me while he fucked me slowly and it was beyond incredible. Afterwards, we just snuggled and talked until we fell asleep.

I might not know where this relationship is going, and that's ok because I don't have to. But at least I know that wherever it is, we're going together