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Re: My story

Unread post by Whosbeensleeping » Mon Sep 23, 2019 11:23 am

Lovely post. Nice to hear from you and know that you are well and well cared-for. Btw, the "real" stuff (challenges) is what grabs me the most. Thank you for all of it.

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Re: My story

Unread post by slowsteady » Mon Sep 23, 2019 11:44 am

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Honestly- that meant a lot. Thanks to all of you. I have seriously been wondering if I shouldn't be here anymore and just stick to my blog. But I do hate the idea of losing all the content here. This place was such a big part of me figuring out who I am and what I want from life, and through a lot of major life changes. I feel like I'd miss coming here. I'd never just want to disappear anyway, because I always wonder about the oldies who used to post here and then just vanished. I know life changes and it's the internet and stuff, but sometimes I wonder about people.........................
You are one of my favorite personalities on this site! Please keep posting!

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Re: My story

Unread post by Suchen Zucker » Mon Sep 23, 2019 2:15 pm

Whosbeensleeping wrote:
Mon Sep 23, 2019 11:23 am
Lovely post. Nice to hear from you and know that you are well and well cared-for. Btw, the "real" stuff (challenges) is what grabs me the most. Thank you for all of it.
I agree.
I know that I'm never going to be the "cool girlfriend" lol; that's not who I am.
Not sure what you mean by that. I imagine you to be one-of-a-kind, really fucking cool "dame" to have as a lover. Not that I would ever call you a broad or a dame within slapping distance. :D

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Re: My story

Unread post by SSQ » Mon Sep 23, 2019 4:29 pm

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Mon Sep 23, 2019 2:15 pm
I know that I'm never going to be the "cool girlfriend" lol; that's not who I am.
Not sure what you mean by that. I imagine you to be one-of-a-kind, really fucking cool "dame" to have as a lover. Not that I would ever call you a broad or a dame within slapping distance. :D
LOL. What I mean by that is, I'm not the low maintenance girlfriend who is okay with everything. This is kind of the idea I mean: https://hellogiggles.com/love-sex/forme ... gone-girl/

I'm not like that, and I will never be. I am generally pretty clear about my needs, wants, and expectations. I will give so much in a relationship, but I expect there to be a level of give and take, too. I am understanding of life stuff, but I won't be back burnered. I will compromise on activities so we're either doing things we both like or getting a reasonable balance of stuff I like and stuff my partner does, but I won't do stuff I really hate or pretend to be into something I'm not. I'm fussy about the way some things are and there are little things that absolutely have to be done my way or they'll drive me nuts.

Hmm. I'm struggling to articulate this as clearly as possible. I guess ultimately what I'm saying is that my partner's happiness is extremely important to me, and I am a pleaser, much as it may not seem to be that way (I just say that I like my partners to please me on my terms, and I like also to please them on my terms). But what I won't do is suppress my own needs for someone else's. I'll take that as a point of incompatibility if there is just no way to work it out. I'm willing to bend on my wants, but even then if it gets past a reasonable balance, I either try to fix it, or it means this isn't a long term runner. I'm willing to change my expectations like I said in my previous post, because obviously I expect different things from people at different levels of connection (spouse to boyfriend to close friend to friend to acquaintance etc) but the closer you get to me, the more important it is that we have enough deep compatibility in terms of wants and needs for the relationship to last.

It's funny, because when I write it out like that it looks like it should be a no brainer, right? Of course I expect to get my needs and a reasonable balance of my wants met in a relationship. But life often doesn't work that way. I wonder if you asked how many people here are compromising on things that are very important to them, how many would say yes, they are. I don't want to be that person. It's not that I'm willing to compromise, because I do that in my relationships all the time since the happiness of my partners is so important to me. But I'm not willing to compromise ME to do that.

Did that make sense? I am not needy, but I have needs, and that's okay. I won't make myself less to fit into the space society says is how "cool girlfriends" behave. I'm okay being the crazy one, because I'm worth it to the right people.
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Re: My story

Unread post by SSQ » Fri Sep 27, 2019 10:53 am

I gotta say, this month has been pretty great for having lots & lots of sex! I've been really tired but it hasn't stopped both Henry and Charles from pulling out all the stops to get me interested and then make me cum so many times that you'd have to scrape me off the ceiling from flying so high on endorphins.

Then today is date night with Henry but it's been busy all day and I don't know how much energy either of us will have later tonight, so I just grabbed him and told him to drop his pants and gave him a blowjob right in our front hallway.

Spontaneity is fun sometimes :)
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Unread post by SSQ » Tue Oct 01, 2019 9:48 am

I've been enjoying the spontaneity. I think the Addyi I am taking is really helping. It's funny how I've been noticing a change in how I experience sexual pleasure and how I orgasm over the last two years. I am unsure why it's happening or what will continue to happen, but it's definitely been noticeable. The last thing I want to lose is my sex life!

Henry just had a consult this morning to book a vasectomy. We decided not to have any more kids, so he wanted to make sure that he would not accidentally have one with someone else if he experienced a condom slip or breakage in the future. For those who don't recall, our relationship is open on both sides although at this time he doesn't have any other regular partners. We do occasionally swing together, or if he's visiting friends and the opportunity arises, he knows he's more than welcome to take advantage of it.

I've been keeping up with the spontaneity. It's been a lot of fun, although it means that things aren't getting done that really do need done. But relationships need care and maintenance, too! So when Kiddo got asked over for a playdate, I told Henry to rush home after dropping him off so we could have some fun times! We put on some Kink.com porn (I love that site, wish the subscriptions weren't so $$) and brought out the chains and I put him in some pretty restrictive bondage and went to town :) He loves it when he's totally unable to move and has to be my good little fucktoy. I rode his cock and teased him for a while before finally giving him what he wanted and fucking him with one of our large strapons while I stroked his cock.

Sometimes I wish I knew what it was like to have a prostate. Maybe I'd enjoy anal sex then. Bad experience when I was a teen and so far I haven't drawn any pleasure from anal intercourse, although I love being rimmed. Henry has no interest in fucking me in the ass anyway, although Charles has expressed regret that it's on the veto list.

Tonight is date night with Charles, and I'm looking forward to it.
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Re: My story

Unread post by SSQ » Thu Oct 03, 2019 9:40 am

Funny how with all the recent discussion about NRE, that I'm getting hit with the second wave of it now. And this really is breaking new ground for me- while I've experienced spillover NRE many times in the past, where my crazy happy loving feelings for a new partner spill back into my marriage, this is the first time that I've felt solidly NRE feelings for both my husband and another partner at the same time.

It's not really NRE anymore. I've been with Henry for more than 5 years now, and Charles for over a year. Technically it still could be plain old NRE with Charles, but it's a little different this time. I suspect this wave was triggered by the relationship issues we experienced, and how both my loves supported me through it.

Henry helped me when I was upset and emotional about having trouble communicating with Charles, and he made sure to step up the love and cuddles and care. It's things like this that show me that Henry is someone I will want in my life forever. He had so many ways he could have handled that. He could have been upset that my feelings in a different relationship were affecting ours; I was unhappy and I tend to withdraw both physically and emotionally when I'm upset. He could have told me that he didn't want to be my sounding board for my other relationship. He could have tried to encourage me to break up with Charles because he hates seeing me upset. Instead? He held me and told me how much he loves me, and just listened to me. He didn't try to fix anything unless I specifically asked for his opinion. And he gave me a massage and helped me relax and calm down. That truly is love.

And I think things kicked back up with Charles because of how our discussion shook out. It wasn't easy for either of us, and it would have been easy to get overwrought and not actually communicate what we needed to say. But we took steps to work on our communication, and we reconfirmed how much we mean to each other. I know he loves me, and I know this is real. The other night when he slept over, I was overwhelmed with the intensity of my feelings for him while we were holding each other.

Adjectives fail to describe how intense and incredible it is to experience that high of the brain chemicals that occur in NRE, but with the trust and security and experience that I've gotten in my relationships with these two men. I've had ERI (established relationship intimacy) before, but it's normally in conjunction with a pure NRE experience. This time... to have the ERI with both of them... to know that I am truly in love with both Henry and Charles and they are both in love with me... it's a height I've never explored before. I know that the intensity of the high isn't going to last very long, but I want to squeeze every drop of pleasure out of this because it's one of the most wonderful experiences I've ever had in my life.


And since I've been posting before about NRE management, I figure I'll say a few words about that here even though right now I want to keep the starry eyes and sunshine and rainbows. I made a point of it to let both of them know how I'm feeling right now, because I'm very likely going to be a bit out of character for a while. As an example, I literally called Henry out of his workshop to come back in the house because I wanted to play with his hair and smell him and tell him how much I love him. The comment I made about brain cocaine is pretty on point. I've been sending Henry romantic texts and loving emails and telling him that I want to love him and fuck him and cuddle him and beat him and bite him and all those lovely things, all at the same time. He just laughs and tells me to go ahead any time I like. I know that I can let all my crazy out with Henry.

I told Charles what was happening because I know what I'm like during NRE. Too much is never enough. When he was here, I held him against me and left bite marks on his neck and growled in his ear that he was all mine, and all the things that I want to do to him. And he's been getting some of those kinds of texts from me, too. I got all giggly when he told me that he was going to be thinking about me all shift and that I had better be careful since he has a reputation at work to uphold!

But the best part of all this? Think of how you'd feel if your partner was like this with you. If you were getting lots of little reminders of how much they love you and how into you they are. Charles told me that he doesn't normally get giddy... but he's feeding off my NRE energy and that's kicking his back up again- and that's going to feed mine :) Sounds like a wonderful circle of happy, doesn't it? And Henry is getting all the love and cuddles and sex and connection that he wants, and I am seeing that sparkle in his eyes too.

Everything goes in cycles, but I am going to enjoy every moment of this. I am so happy and in love that I can literally barely think of anything else.
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Re: My story

Unread post by Kentros » Fri Oct 04, 2019 4:06 am

Super glad you're experiencing a second wave of NRE, and riding the high for all it's worth. You deserve to be happy! :D

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Re: My story

Unread post by SSQ » Mon Oct 07, 2019 11:57 am

Well, that was one for the highlight reel. OMG.

I've noticed lately that my sex drive is back in a big way. I don't know if the Addyi is kicking in harder, I don't know if it's ovulation (which usually makes me crazy but not for this long), or if it's just a hormonal fluctuation, but I've been experiencing desire on the level of teenage boy. It's been a lot of fun. I'm not normally much of a masturbator since I prefer having a partner, but I've found myself getting out of bed at night to get off the past few days- it's been that intense. Once again, I'm sure it won't last too long... but I am going to enjoy every single moment of it!

Last night Charles came over, and me being me- the first thing I asked him was how tired he was, because I had needs :) Fortunately, he said he thought that he would be up to the task!

I had a specific fantasy in mind that I wanted to enjoy, and Charles was happy to provide service. I do so love men who are eager to please! I told him that I wanted to enjoy a version on "naughty masseur". I wanted him to make me feel all relaxed and then start to get me all hot and bothered, excruciatingly slowly. And oh was he ever up to the task- for the next three hours!

He gave me a wonderful massage and I was feeling so relaxed... and then as things progressed, a little less relaxed. His fingers started to slip a little bit but never quite too far- just enough to make me want more. My pussy was leaking down my legs and the slightest brush against my labia made me moan. I don't know quite how long he spent getting me all worked up but it was that perfect blend of pleasure and frustration. When he started to rub his cock against my dripping cunt through his pretty pink panties, I couldn't believe how intense that felt just for outercourse! He still hadn't licked or touched inside my pussy yet and I was going crazy, I was so hot and wet and open. He told me I could have his cock when I asked for it and I told him NOW and I think I came the first time as soon as his cock eased all the way inside me. I don't think I've ever experienced that much pleasure just from having a cock inside me. It was so intense and amazing and intimate and out of this world. I could see he was trying to hold back his orgasm to give me the most pleasure, but then he told me that he was planning to clean up his mess afterwards and that set off another orgasm for me and I pulled him over the edge too.

And such a good boy... he did lick up every drop. My pussy was still so sensitive and when he slid fingers inside me I actually became nonverbal it was so intense. I was making lots of sounds but speaking and thinking just weren't possible- I was so in the moment. And I came and came and came and made a lovely big mess everywhere- thank goodness we'd planned ahead and put down a towel and a waterproof sheet. We were both so sweaty and exhausted that it was a while before we could get up and have a shower. My legs were total jello.

I didn't want to let go of him last night when we were cuddling. He gave me exactly what I wanted and I know how hard that is on your hands, to give me a massage and then all that buildup. And he (sadly) doesn't have a foot fetish but he knows that I do, so he made a point of spending lots of time massaging my feet, and kissing them and sucking my toes because he knew how much I'd enjoy it. So yeah... that was one hell of a night.

Remember what I was saying about my sex drive coming back? I woke up at 6am, horny as hell. So much for being sated lol... I just wanted him more. But poor guy had a busy day at work so I didn't wake him up. I told Henry that he's getting tapped in tonight, though. I need more...
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Re: My story

Unread post by samlowen » Mon Oct 07, 2019 12:22 pm

I hope they can keep up with this sudden burst from you. Have fun!

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Re: My story

Unread post by SSQ » Tue Oct 15, 2019 10:38 am

Soooo, Thanksgiving went really well, actually. Everyone had been briefed in advance about our arrangements, but since this was the first time having another partner at a family event, I was nervous.

It all went really, really well though. At one point I was sitting in the dining room with Henry and his dad and some of our friends having a glass of wine while Charles was in the kitchen helping my mom with the dishes and chatting. It just felt so... normal. And honestly, that's pretty amazing. I know my mom is uncomfortable with the idea of polyamory because it doesn't make sense to her- she thinks the point of dating is to get married, and since I did that, the only reason I must be dating is because I'm unhappy with Henry. That couldn't be further from the truth, of course! I was also a little nervous about Henry's dad, that maybe he would feel like I don't love or care for Henry enough since I have another partner- which also couldn't be further from the truth.

But it was about as close as you get to a drama free holiday. Great Thanksgiving dinner, good wine, and good company... and then some smoking hot sex in the evening once family was gone :)
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Re: My story

Unread post by Rob SFL » Fri Oct 25, 2019 8:42 pm

:) you've been a favorite person of mine for a longtime. Seems like you're doing very Well!

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Re: My story

Unread post by armyguyot1 » Fri Oct 25, 2019 9:00 pm

Welcome to the forum Rob SFL.

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Re: My story

Unread post by nevertoolate » Sat Oct 26, 2019 4:20 am

So.. I haven't been writing here, not because things aren't going well, but just because of how the culture here has felt like it's shifting lately.

On the other hand, I don't want my thread to drop off, either. There's nearly eight years of memories here that I still haven't had the time to collate and save. Life and health have just been too busy for that.
Your perspective is unique and valued. The diversity of interests here is a huge attraction to me. Your experiences are a big part of that. The intolerant ones are a slim minority. Ignore the negative, please continue to be who you want to be.

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Re: My story

Unread post by Rob SFL » Sat Oct 26, 2019 8:06 am

armyguyot1 wrote:
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Welcome to the forum Rob SFL.
Thanks! It's actually more of a homecoming of sorts. I was an active member for a few years.

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Re: My story

Unread post by Rob SFL » Sat Oct 26, 2019 4:54 pm

SSQ wrote:
Mon Sep 23, 2019 10:27 am

I always wonder about the oldies who used to post here and then just vanished. I know life changes and it's the internet and stuff, but sometimes I wonder about people.
Don't you just hate when people just disappear?
The nerve of them :roll:

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Re: My story

Unread post by SSQ » Sat Oct 26, 2019 5:39 pm

Rob SFL wrote:
Sat Oct 26, 2019 4:54 pm
SSQ wrote:
Mon Sep 23, 2019 10:27 am

I always wonder about the oldies who used to post here and then just vanished. I know life changes and it's the internet and stuff, but sometimes I wonder about people.
Don't you just hate when people just disappear?
The nerve of them :roll:
LOL where have you been all these years?
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Re: My story

Unread post by SSQ » Sat Oct 26, 2019 5:42 pm

nevertoolate wrote:
Sat Oct 26, 2019 4:20 am
So.. I haven't been writing here, not because things aren't going well, but just because of how the culture here has felt like it's shifting lately.

On the other hand, I don't want my thread to drop off, either. There's nearly eight years of memories here that I still haven't had the time to collate and save. Life and health have just been too busy for that.
Your perspective is unique and valued. The diversity of interests here is a huge attraction to me. Your experiences are a big part of that. The intolerant ones are a slim minority. Ignore the negative, please continue to be who you want to be.
Thank you for the kind words, I appreciate them.
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Re: My story

Unread post by SSQ » Sat Oct 26, 2019 6:11 pm

I went back and read my story from the beginning. It's been really interesting seeing how I've changed over the last nearly 8 years.

I'm cool with that :) I really do need to take that kick in the ass and back up my journals somewhere. The good and the not so good... it's all still my life, and I want to remember it. This tech stuff is hard for me though.
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Re: My story

Unread post by anonymister1948 » Sat Oct 26, 2019 11:37 pm

I recently went through your entire feed. It was amazing! Thanks for all your honesty and openness.

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Re: My story

Unread post by mussum » Sun Oct 27, 2019 10:11 am

it's like a reading book, I really like it

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Re: My story

Unread post by SSQ » Wed Oct 30, 2019 10:22 am

Last night was date night with Charles. We've been doing some talking lately and decided that we want to increase the amount of time we spend together. His life in particular is pretty busy, and of course I have Henry and Kiddo, so at times we've been down to only once a week. We're trying to step that up to at least two nights a week, possibly with a third shorter visit if we can squeeze it in. We both want to invest in our relationship.

So last night we just decided to get drunk and have some fun. I could tell that he really wanted to satisfy me! We spent two hours having sex, between the fucking, and him eating that nice fresh creampie, and then continuing to lick my clit and finger my cunt until we were both lying in a puddle of sweat and cum on the sheets (thank goodness for mattress protectors!). Oh, I definitely had the giggles for a while afterwards. It was really, really good. Then falling asleep in his arms and waking up in the middle of the night to see that we were holding hands in our sleep. Sometimes, it's the little moments.
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Re: My story

Unread post by SSQ » Tue Nov 05, 2019 11:46 am

So it's funny- I heard an expression once that said, first year forming, second year storming, third year norming. It's starting to make a lot of sense. I hadn't thought about it in past relationships but it might be so. At least for those that are looking at becoming long term things and not casual.

Charles and I have been spending more time lately doing relationship processing. I think it's more difficult in a nontraditional relationship because of the lack of relationship escalator. Think about it- when you're in a monogamous relationship, as you become more committed, there are societal steps that people tend to follow to escalate their commitment to each other. You "become exclusive", or move in together, or get married. What do you do when you want your relationship to be at that next level, so to speak, but don't have those societal trappings? It's interesting examining our attachment to these social constructs; is "just" a boyfriend meaning something less in terms of commitment? What is it that makes us feel more or less connected and secure in a relationship? I know this is getting into philosophy, but I find it very interesting and have been thinking about it quite a bit.

In the meantime, Charles and I have spent more time talking about how we're feeling about our relationship, our wants and needs, and learning each other at a more intimate level. We've been doing the dating thing all along, so it's not like this is a change, but the passage of time is allowing up to open up to each other further just like it would in a mono relationship. And sometimes that's going to mean that you butt heads a little. Charles and I definitely have different ways of processing emotional issues, and learning the best way to relate to each other is going to be a bit of a curve. But, we're both working at it and invested in making this work, so I am optimistic that we will continue to build our relationship while we navigate those speedbumps.

I also know he's been very badly used in the past by people who have claimed to be poly, or even people who swing and look for casual partners, unicorn hunters. I didn't realize the damage was quite as profound as it was. This is likely why I'm reacting more intensely to comments here that don't match with my personal ethics- because I see the carnage it can cause. Some of the stories he's told me? He's always had to be the one looking out for himself because no one else has put his wellbeing in a primary role- they've only taken care of themselves. He's always felt like he can't ask for what he needs, out of fear of upsetting the applecart with his partner and metamour. He's always had to worry about how his metamour (partner's partner) feels because they could pull the plug at any time.

I don't want to get into a long discussion about it here, but just THINK of how hard it would be to live like that. If what you really wanted was a romantic relationship and you said that, but you never had an equal say in how your relationship was run. That someone else could pull the rug out from under you at any time. That's what I think is so cruel in general about the people here who think spousal veto is a good idea. It forgets the humanity of the other person involved and literally treats them as disposable (let alone the damage that you do to your own relationship). So In a lot of ways, Charles tells me he hasn't had a relationship where he could feel comfortable just being himself and not feeling like he has to be on guard to protect himself, and he hasn't really been able to let that guard down because it's so firmly hardwired at this point. But he's been very clear that Henry and I have never treated him in this way, and he doesn't feel like he is treated as a secondary, or that he is disposable in any way. It takes a while to undo that programming, don't we all know. I'm sure all of us have some automatic responses that aren't the healthiest.

I remember when I was going through that heartbreak that I didn't write about here, when Patrick and I split up, how horrible it felt to feel disposable. I didn't share all the details because I was hurting, and because my ex husband Mark was saying things that were what he felt was helpful but instead was the opposite. Mark told me that I didn't have any right to express wants and needs, because I was just the side piece. I should take what I got, enjoy the sex, and be happy with it. I shouldn't have any expectations of Patrick beyond what he wanted to give. You know what that made me feel like? Used kleenex. It's okay for people to have incompatible wants and needs- there's nothing wrong with that. But no one should ever feel like they have zero agency in their relationship. I knew that wasn't healthy for me, and although it took me a long time to process it, I eventually ended that relationship because I knew that it wasn't going to work for me. And I now had an appreciation for ways NOT to treat people.

I don't believe there is or should be universality in how relationships are run. I've said that here and elsewhere many, many times. But I think there are always some core things that need to be in place for a relationship to be healthy, and they include informed consent and individual agency. No one should feel like they have no option to ask for what they want in a relationship.

So getting back to the here and now... Charles and I have some growing pains to do, where I've been expecting clear communication from him, and he's been having trouble giving that because of his baggage. It's not going to be an easy solve for either of us- I'll have to be patient with him, and he's going to have to put in the work to deal with some of that baggage. But at the end of the day, he's worth it to me. Our relationship is worth it to me. And Henry is supporting me through the turbulence, because he loves me and wants me to be happy. I've been a little on the emotionally drained side lately but I've been making sure to pour some of my energy into my marriage with Henry because he needs and deserves that. Never neglect one partner because of issues with another, and don't drop all the processing onto the other partner either. Henry has a reasonable idea of what's going on, but beyond the minimum, I'm not using him as my place to vent. I have friends for that. It's not fair to dump all the stress from one side of a V onto the other. I like letting the good parts spill over, but it's my job as the hinge to make sure that the more difficult parts don't spill over. It's not fair or reasonable to do. Henry has let me know if I need anything, to ask. He's a wonderful husband, and last night I rocked his world to show him how much I appreciate him :)

Tonight is date night with Charles, and hopefully we can spend some more time relaxing and focusing on each other and less of the processing. Working on things is good, but if you spend too much time working on things, you lose sight of why you're together and why you enjoy each other. And I do love and enjoy him very much.
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Re: My story

Unread post by afagehi7 » Wed Nov 06, 2019 12:27 am

I don't know how you do it. I can barely keep one partner emotionally fulfilled there is no way I could keep 2 women emotionally fulfilled. Sexually yes, emotionally no. I wonder if it's easier for you as a female as men generally don't require the same emotional levels as women as long as the sex is there. After reading, perhaps that isn't the case.

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Re: My story

Unread post by SSQ » Wed Nov 06, 2019 8:04 am

afagehi7 wrote:
Wed Nov 06, 2019 12:27 am
I don't know how you do it. I can barely keep one partner emotionally fulfilled there is no way I could keep 2 women emotionally fulfilled. Sexually yes, emotionally no. I wonder if it's easier for you as a female as men generally don't require the same emotional levels as women as long as the sex is there. After reading, perhaps that isn't the case.
Yeah... I highly recommend you rethink those stereotypes. It sells good men far, far short.

Romantic relationships are full of emotional labour. But so rewarding if you're willing to put in the work.
It's all fun until someone gets hurt... and then it's more fun! :whip:

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