The story of my wife's cheating and cuckolding

[NewYorkCuckold]

i will tell you our story and her story with cheating on me in some details. we met in bdsm circles and she was looking for a slave and i was looking for a mistress. we liked each other and we thought we were a match. she told me that we will never have sex until we get married and i accepted. we got married and we had sex. in our first sex, she liked to be on the top of me and she was spitting on me and slapping me while we had sex. she was even humiliating me and telling me that i chose her and not regular women who loved me cause i was a slut who was looking for a mistress to own and humiliate me. Her dominant behavior was in bed only. but in our everyday life i was more in control. We had active sex life where we had sex nearly everyday. She knew about my masochism desires and sometimes she liked to wear a strap on and fuck my ass with it. She knew about my cuckold and feminization fantasies, too. but she told me that she wasn't into cuckolding. Then she cheated on me behind my back after one year only of our marriage. I didn't know until later when she left me. She met a guy online who was more dominant and more strong sexually. She told me later that he had a big dick and he could fuck for long. i have a small dick by the way around 4 inches and slim. Anyway, while she was cheating on me she denied me sex. she was always telling me that she was tired and didn't have desire for sex. when we had sex while she was cheating on me, she insisted that i have to cum on her belly and not inside her like we used before. She didn't want me to cum inside her. And every time, after i cum, she was taking my cum from her belly and spreading in on my face. i didn't understand this behavior. Then, one day, she disappeared and i didn't know where she was. she didn't answer the phone calls. after more than a week she called me and we met. she told me that she has another man and that she is now living with him and that she wants divorce cause he will marry her. i got shocked and sad and i tried to convince her to come back but she refused. she came home and collected her clothes and left. i found out who was the guy and i called him. he was shocked and told me that he didn't know that we were still married. she told him that we were married on papers only. and he told me that he wouldn't have dated her if he knew that she was married. he broke up with her and she came back to me. She was angry with me for a while but then she told me that she wanted me to take her for a holiday. so, we went to a resort on the sea side. she became suddenly so passionate and loving with me. we had sex all the time and she told me that she feels deep love to me that she never felt before like if i put a spell on her. And she told me the story about this guy and that she met him just for casual sex but she fell in love with him. she said that she was trying to get pregnant by him and made him cum inside her all the time. she said that she had the best sex of her life with him. He had a big dick and he was able to fuck for long. She told me that she enjoyed making me licking her pussy after he came in her without me knowing this and that this gave her pleasure. Please analyze this story in details and tell me what you think. and then i will tell you her story with the 2nd lover.
Now let me tell you about the story of the 2nd lover. After my wife came back to me after the 1st lover broke up with her and she became passionate to me, she suggested that we can try to live our fantasies. She knew i had a gay top who was fucking me sometimes. She suggested to bring him to fuck me while she watches. i did .. The guy fucked me in my ass while she watched and he fucked me while I was dressed in female lingerie. my wife told him to slap me and humiliate me while he fucks me. She enjoyed this. Later, i told her that i'm ok for her to meet men to fuck her while we stay married. I met with her once to meet a potential lover and we met him but she didn't like that he was only interested in her and she wanted him to fuck me as well. Then she found a guy for herself and she went to him and he fucked her in his place while i stayed home. Then she met a younger guy who was a body builder and they used to go out together and one day she invited him to our home and asked me to leave so they can be free to have sex. They met in our home but he was nervous and they didn't have sex. Finally, she met a guy who was young and attractive to her and she fell in love with him. They started meeting with my approval. They met online. He was younger, has fit body and good in sex. I never met him and she was going to his place to fuck. Sometimes, he took her for short holidays by sea side, he had a sea side chalet where they used to spend some weekends. Some of these dates where with my knowledge and some were without my knowledge. She was telling me that she was with friends or so. So, i didn't know that they were spending all this time together. This was for six months, and during this time she was denying me sex most of the time and again she went back to the behavior of making me cum on her belly and never inside her. Then, one day she disappeared for a week and i didn't know what was going on. Then she called me and told me that she was with someone and that she wants divorce. I trying to convince her to come back but she refused. She came home to collect her clothes and her belongings and i begged her to stay with me. I fell on my knees and kissed her feet, she spat on my face and she looked amused by my begging but she insisted that she was leaving me. She told me that she is in love with that guy and that they are going to get married. She said that it was him who insisted on her divorce cause he is possessive and he doesn't want his woman to be with another man. I refused to divorce and i kept begging her to come back. The guy took her to a lawyer to file for my divorce. She stayed with this guy for nearly six months and after the first 3 weeks, she started to visit me to spend an hour or so talking to me or bringing her laundry for me to wash. And for few times we had sex but she insisted on me cumming on her belly. And every time after i came on her belly she would take the cum and spread it on my face. Once, i came inside her and didn't pull out, she got angry and ran to the bathroom to wash her pussy. I didn't understand why she was that angry. Anyway, these were few visits but her life was with him. It was actually like if he were her husband and she was living with him and like if i was the lover whom she was visiting secretly. After few months like this, she told me that she accepts to go back to me under two conditions : first, that we will never have sex but i will live only as her slave and cuckold husband. 2nd, that she will continue to meet this guy and have sex with him. So, he would be her sexual partner and i would be her sexless husband. I accepted. He also accepted under condition that i wouldn't touch her. She spent few days with me and during this time she talked to me about her feelings. She said that she is so much in love with this guy and that they are a perfect match sexually. He makes her cum several times whenever they have sex and he has ways to make her always excited in everyday life. She also was crazy about his fit body that was making her horny. Then she told me that she never felt attracted to me sexually. She said " i love you but as a companion or like i love a brother or cousin. i feel you are a family but i never feel sexually attracted to you" .. and she said " may be subconsciously this guy's role and the 1st guy's role was to distant myself sexually from you, to turn you into my sexless slave not my sexual partner" .. She also told me that she went back to me cause the guy is not serious about relationship, he just want sex and fun but doesn't want to marry her .. She told me that he is not happy about her coming back to me but she forced him to accept if he wants to keep his relationship with her .. She allowed me to lick her but never have intercourse with her .. when i was licking her she was telling me humiliating things like " this is the closest you would ever come close to me sexually" or "i will castrate you and remove your balls" and this was making her cum strongly when talking about castrating me .. Then she would send me to toilet to jerk off. And then i asked her to meet the guy, and she accepted. She was traveling on business trip, and both me and this guy were waiting for her in the airport. When i saw him, i got suddenly too angry cause i remembered that he was pushing her to divorce me. I told him to leave us alone cause he was ruining our marriage. He refused and said it's up to her to decide. Then when my wife arrived, she hugged him and kissed him passionately in front of me. He drove us by his car to our home and he told my wife that he booked a hotel for few days to take her for a holiday and he wanted her to go with him. i objected and got angry cause i wanted her to stay with me after she came from the trip. But she decided to go with him and leave me home alone. When i objected, she argued with me and screamed at me and i felt she was submissive to him. He also told me that i wasn't a man cause i let her fuck other men and told me that she told him that i was a gay and he told me that i will always be gay. Then i accepted that she can go with him. This conversation happened in front of our home. And before she go with him and enter his car, she slapped me on my face in front of him and hit me on my head with her bag and screamed at me and told me not to ever object on her dates with him. She entered his car and they left. i went back home and i cried, but strangely i felt aroused and i jerked off several times to the humiliation and imagining them fucking. She came back home after a week but she was very nervous and didn't want to talk to me and was making fights about everything. I felt that our marriage was falling apart again and that the presence of this guy will ruin our marriage. i called him and told him that i was having sex with my wife when she was visiting me in the first few months and that she was lying to him when she said she wasn't allowing me to have sex with her. Then he asked her to meet him and when she came back home she was furious that i told him about this and said that he was very angry. and she said " now i will really never have sex with you and i will not even let you lick my pussy " .. She started using my homosexual experiences against me and calling me " gay " as an insult although she was encouraging me in the past to get fucked by men. Anyway, things continued like this but every time she was visiting him, she was coming back nervous and fighting about everything. i got fed up and i went to this guy and threatened him and told him to leave us alone. I told him that i'm ready to divorce her if he will marry her but he said he doesn't want to marry her or any woman.
to continue with the story of the 2nd lover, he decided to leave her to avoid problems with me and cause he wasn't ready to marry her. She was sad and cried and was angry with me and not talking to me. i even left home for 2 weeks to leave her alone to recover. Then she started to get emotional and passionate to me again and told me that i saved her cause this guy wasn't serious and he didn't want to marry her and she was too stupid to leave me for him and that she wants me always in her life. But she said that she still wanted our relationship to be sexless. I accepted. we lived sexless for a while but then we went on holiday and during this holiday we started to have sex again. but sex between us became less. usually once a month or once every 3 weeks. and she stopped cuckolding me. and she told me that she wanted me not to initiate sex but to wait for her to initiate sex. now analyze in details all what i mentioned about this story with the 2nd lover. and then i will tell you about the third lover.
After the 2nd lover, we lived for six years in a stable life. She wanted suddenly to have children with me. She already has a child from a previous marriage who doesn't live with us but she wanted a child with me. She allowed me sex in her fertile days and we even tried invitro but it didn't work. She became over 40 so pregnancy was difficult. After that sex became less between us like once a month and only when she initiated it. It became her mostly above me. She was telling me that she was imagining herself as the man fucking me and i'm the woman. she liked to slap my face and insult me and spit on me while we fuck.
to continue with the story .. during these six years after the 2nd lover, i started to develop pussyfree and celibacy fetish. My wife didn't know about this, but i started to fantasize about being owned by a mistress who would deny me sex completely and that my dick would never enter a pussy again. I was even getting pictures of hot women and jerk off to their feet imagining them as mistresses who own me as a slave and allow me only to worship their feet. and i started to jerk off while licking my wife's shoes without her knowing this. By the way, this happened also while she was with her 2nd lover, i asked a guy who was into bdsm to whip my feet "falaka" while i was licking my wife's shoes while imagining her with her lover. please analyze this development in behavior in some details.ok , let's continue with the story and about the 3rd lover. after six years from the 2nd lover, i felt stress for several reasons and i went to a holiday sea side apartment that we have and stayed there for a month leaving my wife alone but i was calling her all the time. Then my wife started cheating on me with her colleague from work. She left me for him and stayed with him in his home. i asked her to come back but she refused. i didn't feel that she was passionate about him like when she was with the 1st and 2nd lovers. She visited me to take clothes and do several things and i asked her to come back. This time she refused any kind of sex with me or even changing her clothes in front of me. After 2 months i found out about him and called him and asked him not to ruin my marriage. So, he simply broke up with her. He wasn't in love but he was recently divorced and wanted someone to compensate. When my wife came back she was angry but later things became normal between us. But sex changed. Sex became once every 3 months or so. And it became me licking her until she would cum. Then she allows me to fuck her quickly to get off. During my fucking her, which is few minutes, she would usually make fun of my dick calling it a mosquito or similar humiliating things. Also, she doesn't change her clothes in front of me anymore and doesn't let me see her naked except when we have sex once every 3 or 4 months. She doesn't kiss me and when i kiss her she gives me her cheeks but she doesn't like me to kiss her on her lips. When i kiss her on her lips she keeps her lips closed and she reacts cold. And that's how we live until now.

[Jujube]

Wow! That’s a lot to unpack!

[shamed411bee]

OP, any chance of breaking up those text blocks into much shorter paragraphs? It’s impossible to read.

Thanks

[ohtobecucked]

My dude, we’re gonna need some page breaks if you can - happy to read, but woof.