she has feelings?

[sandy691196]

Sometimes no update is the best update. Wishing you the best in your marriage!

Word...

[hwc]

It's been fun! We can all dream about "what if's" but if that's not the path you're on at the moment, then I wish you all the best on wherever your journey takes you!

[hwc]

Actually, I reckon this is an itch you can't scratch, an addiction you can't beat. I think the desire to be cuckolded will return and with a vengence...

[hwc]

I am curious as to where things are at now, almost a year later...

[shesmypornstar]

Wow, I can't believe its been over a year already. Thanks to those who have checked in looking for updates or just showing support since my last post.

To quickly answer the question I know you're all asking....no, she hasn't taken that next step and made me her cuck. But, I am back for a reason and I'll get to that in a second. To recap the last year for anyone who cares, our relationship has been fine, no major concerns and I don't think either of us have been sitting around wanting a divorce. However, our sex life over the past year has been almost non existent and while I could point the finger to her, I know its really on me. To be honest about this, and this is nothing new for me, I'm just really high maintenance and picky when it comes to sex and what I'm looking for. I always have been, she knows this, and about a year ago when I stopped putting in effort on trying to get what I wanted or needed from her, she stopped putting in effort to give me what I wanted. With 2 people putting in little to no effort on their sex life, we've had sex 4, maybe 5 times in the last year.....that's no exaggeration. And it goes without saying, little to no kinky talk along the way.

So why am I back??? Well there was 1 really hot moment from a few months back that all but told me she was ready to go and willing to try this and it came without any prompting from me. You may recall that there had always been 1 guy that she never really go over, her first love or first bf from her HS years. They always talk once or twice a year, around the same times every year, and although shes played it up for me in the past, they never really crossed any lines. So a few months back they had been texting as usual, I'm not prying, shes not playing it up, but we both know its happening. Out of nowhere as I'm taking a shower one morning "are you fucking kidding me!" as shes laying in bed. I eventually get out of the shower to see whats up, this was a couple months back so I don't remember the exact convo but it was basically the following

Me: what was that about
Her: I was on social media trying to do something and i read that....(she tells me that something happened in this guys life)
Me: oh wow, that sucks
Her: yea, i know
then theres some silence as I go about getting dressed, not knowing there was more to follow. we talk a little more about the situation and then
Her:well this sounds dumb now but i was about to do something
Me: what do you mean?
Her: well he and i have been talking a little more than usual, nothing crazy, but the conversation didn't die like it usually does
Me: ok
Her: and considering you honestly don't care what I do I decided that I was going to be direct about it and just say something to him and see where it went
Me: yea ok
Her: Seriously, thats why i was on FB again, I was about to message him then i read this.
Me: Well thats bad timing, that coulda been hot
Her: Yea i know, and even if didn't buy into it now, at least he'd know that i was interested
Me: true, but now what are you going to do
Her: nothing

So that died almost on the spot, but she was serious and I could tell. Me putting little effort into anything sexual just let it go.

Now present day, I've noticed some things with the neighbor she had a crush on for a while. A couple weeks back I made an observation and mentioned it to her that I thought he might be single, she replied by telling me that shes noticed it too. We've run into him a couple times recently kind of unexpectedly, and shes wasted no time trying to talk with him in those social settings. The other day though, we were heading somewhere that we both knew he'd be, although neither of us said anything about it. What I noticed though is how much time she spent getting ready for the event, trying to look really really cute, for an event shes never thought twice about on a day we had nothing else going on. And as expected, as soon as we get there she wastes no time gravitating right to him. I did mention it to her today though via text, she hasn't said anything but it obviously has me going and ready to put some effort back into this thing. Hopefully shes ready to make some moves this time....i guess I"ll know once she responds to the texts.

*I've said before that however unlikely it is, i could see him being on this site. Well if you are and you think this is about you, just do it.

[troilusand]

Glad to see you back, SMP!! And glad to see you and your wife are back to seeing where things might go with the neighbor...even if it's unspoken between you two as of yet.

Without any details about his troubles, is reconnecting with the "first love" something that will now never happen? Or just on hold?

Just curious, are you low libido, or are you jacking it a lot even though you're not fucking. My libido is still there even though I haven't fucked In about ten years...well, I do fuck my hand every day!

And feel free to PM me and HWC if you'd like...I'm sure he'll be glad you're back, too.

Troy

[shesmypornstar]

I'd say its just on hold. For how long, I'm not sure, but its not 100% out of the picture.

I'm definitely not low libido....maybe lower libido than i was, but I'm definitely still jacking it lol.

[troilusand]

That's excellent to hear on both accounts:

Good to hear that the man she never got over AND was about to offer herself to is not out of the picture!

And I'm happy to hear that your libido is still there...ain't no cuckold angst (which is what we live for ) without a libido.

Troy

[coastalkid]

Now present day, I've noticed some things with the neighbor she had a crush on for a while. A couple weeks back I made an observation and mentioned it to her that I thought he might be single, she replied by telling me that shes noticed it too. We've run into him a couple times recently kind of unexpectedly, and shes wasted no time trying to talk with him in those social settings. The other day though, we were heading somewhere that we both knew he'd be, although neither of us said anything about it. What I noticed though is how much time she spent getting ready for the event, trying to look really really cute, for an event shes never thought twice about on a day we had nothing else going on. And as expected, as soon as we get there she wastes no time gravitating right to him. I did mention it to her today though via text, she hasn't said anything but it obviously has me going and ready to put some effort back into this thing. Hopefully shes ready to make some moves this time....i guess I"ll know once she responds to the texts.

*I've said before that however unlikely it is, i could see him being on this site. Well if you are and you think this is about you, just do it.

I guess the big deal here is that the idea is intriguing enough for your wife to pursue it! If she's even got an inkling about the neighbor she has it on her mind. She sounds like a short step from being your hot wife.

[hwc]

it obviously has me going and ready to put some effort back into this thing. Hopefully shes ready to make some moves this time!

Does this include picking things up as they were previously, for instance is she goint to go the route of a 'trial separation', if she gets alone time with him, going forward? Also how are you both now feeling about this? Do you intend to be a little more pro-active (before he goes and get's another girlfriend!), this time around?

I think some great ideas are to somehow set up a date fro them, perhaps something you invite him to that you orchestrate so as just the two of them spend time together, and no need to cover up the subterfuge too expeertly - you want him to see through the ruse! and as she likes to dress up for him, both of you making sure she looks her very best for him. On that point, I was thinking that when she has a conversation with him next, she could ask him what clothes/colours/styles he finds attractive on a woman - that in of itself is flirtatious - but then she could up the ante, by making sure she buys/wears the look he most likes, when they are left alone together! Additionally, she could find out what hairstyle and colour he favors and maybe introduce that at on a subsequent date.... now that would definitely be sending a clear message!

[hwc]

.... and a year later, does your view of this potential affair look like? Any changes from your standpoint (or that of your wife) going forwards?