A slippery slope?

[dreamer72]

Thank you dreamer72 for this wonderful and thoughtful insight! It is really great to hear the perspective from the other side and I completely understand your point. It does frustrate my wife a little however that she has difficulty finding a bull/man that she can have a little more with and on a long term basis. But this is obviously the reason why.

I pondered the logistics and real life implications of it all for many years while still feeling my cravings to have a married woman while comparing that against my own real experiences. Short of going to a poly, live-in situation I could not come up with a scenario in my mind that didn't leave me more alone then not, or that didn't have an inevitable expiration date. Its hard to put that much of yourself into something knowing you're expendable at a moments notice. We all like to "live the fantasy". But in the long run the fantasy is not sustainable, at least it wasn't for me.

You have to be able to be really honest with yourself and each other (the HW and BF) that ultimately you're just using each other. Any notion of "connection" is really just ego. The connection that is felt is the ego boost each of the people are feeling. But for a single, reasonably or highly desirable man the ego boost starts to burn off when you realize you're mostly alone all the time and are easily discarded, and that keeping yourself single and available for your married lover for only a once every couple of weeks hook up just isn't enough to offset the downsides.

In thinking about you and your wife's situation, if she wants something that has more long term potential she might want to consider looking for a married man who is also in an open relationship. That might alleviate many of the things that eventually lead a single man to move on.

[SoCal Bosun]

Very interesting and an honest and open perspective. Thank you. I completely understand and ultimately I see you are completely right. I shall pass on your thoughts to my wife. And to perhaps seek a married open man and see where that could go. She is currently chatting and been together once with a young hot gentleman/ bull from out of state. She adores him and he is much younger and very handsome and cut. He enjoys the cuck dynamic along with the fantasy of taking a married woman as his and making her prefer him sexually. Not hard for him. He is a stud. He has also touched and flirted with playing with the role play of breeding fantasy which my wife knows is my weakness. She knows fully I’m her cuck ha ha. But back to her desires and pleasure. He is out of state. She says lucky for me. He will visit from time to time and wants her to come to him sometimes. We shall see. As we all know expectations are dangerous. Let’s see how this develops. Otherwise she is still looking for that man. Bull. Whatever you would like to call him. Localisg who she can connect with and explore fully the Hotwife fantasy.

Perhaps a married man in an open relationship is a good idea? I shall pass on your thoughts. And thank you.

[edgedndenied]

Hope all is well. Any updates

[Jujube]

I must say this was one of the hottest threads out there. I hope Becka finds her perfect man, and SCB can continue his super erotic cuckold life!

[SoCal Bosun]

Hello everyone and sorry for being so quiet. As I’m sure you all know real life is busy and sometimes the slow evolving of these situations makes updates difficult.
Anyhow. Well. After a brief period of cooling off her out of state lover/stud is very much back in the picture. His job has meant he is in our city now much more and he has turned his focus back to Becka, which she is loving.

She has spent a few nights with him over the last few months when he is here, and even one night I was allowed into their room and sat and watched as they fucked/ made love. Not sure what to call it. This man is 10 years younger than me and Becka. Works out constantly so has a ridiculous pin up type man body. And is a successful business man (I’ll hide his career for privacy reasons). They kiss so passionately and he fully works my wife. He is gently forceful and very much in charge. She cums very very easily underneath him. I watched as her legs were wrapped around him as he slowly worked her up into a frenzy. Kissing and talking to each other as he kept up his rythm. He constantly encouraged her to let go then finally he let out a crazy type of gutteral roar (sounds stupid to say but that’s what it sounded like) as he came inside of her. It’s also worth noting that he always gives her clean test results before his visit.
So there i sat. Rubbing myself through my pants as I watched them together. He then made me clean her up then leave. Later she came to the car and we drove home.

Since then she has stayed with him on her own, which she prefers, and he has introduced gentle bdsm and restraints which she is absolutely loving. A stark contrast to her life at home with me where she is in charge in the bedroom.

They are communicating everyday. And they talk about how this is what I have always wanted too. She even told him that it was always my fantasy for her to fall for someone which he loves. He wants to make her is and have me only husband by name. That she lives with me but owned by him. Becka is loving of of this fantasy hot talk and tells me I’m lucky he doesn’t live here as he is trouble. That she wants to spend more time with him.

So. That’s where we are at right now. I get very nervous as all of my cuck words and silly fantasies I’ve brought up over the years have definitely sunk into her head. And now we have this man. We shall see where it leads.

Thank you all for following my life here. It’s very cathartic to write it down. As obviously I get very nervous jealous and insecure but more turned on than I have ever been. Last night in bed she got in in her underwear. Her gym fit body so hot and beautiful. I rolled over and tried my advances. She held me and put her hand down gripping my cock. “What do you think you are doing” she said. “That’s not your right or position any more. And you know it”. She then spoke about how he would love to make her his and she knows how hard it makes me. I came all over her hand in an embarrassingly little time. Laid back feeling the surge of cuckold angst as she stroked my head lovingly.

It’s a roller coaster.

[realcucklife]

Thanks forThe update

[venus-can99]

Thanks for the update. Her bf now visiting more often sounds like a great development. Does he stay with you or in a hotel when he is in your city ?

[elina]

Dear SoCal Bosun

Wonderful to hear from you again.
I can understand the roller coaster you are now going through as Your Wonderful Beloved Wife is turning into a Cuckoldress and taking ccontrol of Her own Sex Life, in the process of denying you more since Her Selected Lover is telling Her He wants to own Her and She is enjoying the idea of denying you sex with Her.

At the same time, isn't this also the point where you should demonstrate your complete commitment to Her?
To make Her feel absolutely secure that regardless of what She decides you will remain Her cuck and love and worship Her for ever?

Have you discussed with Your Wife, and now effectively Cuckoldress, whether the time has come for you to be locked in a proper custom fitted chastity cage so that She and Her Bull-Lover will have complete control of your sex life to?

Sincerely
elina

[funfortwo]

Thank you for the update! Although difficult at times, it seems like you are living the life that you wanted AND she is enjoying herself. I'd call that a win-win.

[SoCal Bosun]

Hello. I appreciate your thoughts. Yes. It is very he life that I was wanting I suppose. I do enjoy the element of risk too I guess. Like so many other cucks stories and situations that have come before me/us. It’s interesting as I’ve mused before what makes some of us cucks. And go down this road. Ha ha. I always go back to the title of this whole thread. The slippery slope.
Elina. Always wise words. I think though maybe you are right and I should man up so to speak and exclaim my support and dedication to this with Becka. As far as chastity. I do actually have a cage that we occasionally mess around with for a day here or day there. But nothing permanent. It’s also difficult with my work with is very physical.

It is a very intoxicating thought to be moving towards her lover owning her.

[venus-can99]

SoCal Bosu - hope things are well between you and Beck’s and her lover. Have the dynamics changed in any way?

[SoCal Bosun]

Hello everyone. It's been a little while since sent an update but here we are. As we know things in real life with family and life obligations tend to move a little slower however they are still very much moving in the same direction for us.
Becka and her lover are still in contact and things are evolving. Even though he lives in another state he really seems to of turned up the interest in Becka even more. Which she is absolutely lapping up so to speak. He is also engaging more and more in the cuckolding aspect of this relationship and he is getting more and more turned on by it and Beckas status as a married woman, my beloved wife and mother to our older kids.
A few weeks ago we were in bed and she was communicating how she really wants to see him more. And that she wished we had the money and time for her to go and see him. Well, I stupidly said she can have anything she wants as my cuckoldress and I would buy her a ticket any time to fly to stay with him. Oh geez, now the floodgates have opened. So she is going to fly out to spend a week with him in September I think. They have been talking a lot and he is very excited to have her there as his.
It's this aspect that is making me nervous but still oh so committed to my status and position. He recently told her that his desire to have her as his is becoming overwhelming. He told her that he had jacked off thinking of her and her leaving me for him. That that idea is such a turn on fantasy for him. Becka absolutely loved his honesty and obvious confident alpha type behavior and I have to agree his demeanor and attitude is intoxicating. Even though is flying close to the sun isn't that what cuckolding is about? Well I suppose there are lots of different flavors but it appears that is the flavor for us and where we want to take it. When he messages me my heart races and I get so nervous. And nervous about her flying to see him. But still want to go down this road.
He is as I mentioned very confident and attractive. Younger than I, a body of a god, so cut, and also very successful. He wants Becka to be mean to her suck and she has started to do this, as it pleases him. For example just two days ago she made me sleep in a pair of panties which she said represents and reminds me of my position. In the morning as I was getting up and changed she suddenly appeared behind me, put her hand between my legs gripping my balls through my panties and pushed me over. There I was in this position so surprised at her sudden actions, but horribly turned on. She then grabbed her phone and fumbled with it with one hand, then through it down on the bed in front of me. There opened was a picture. Of him in just a pair of boxes, a photo he had taken for her. I stared at it, his commanding stare and cut body, Becka gripping and stating to work me, right on the edge of pain with her grip. "This is the man you can't compete with my cuck, he can give me so many things you can't" she said. Well. it was all too much for me. I came to hard in my panties at that. She then smiled, picked her phone up and walked away leaving me standing there dealing with a major bout of cuckold angst. Turns out she later told him what she did and he loved it.
Is she being to harsh? I don't know. But Im addicted and want to see further down this path. It's so intoxicating, hard but ridiculously hot. It. turns me on so much, but makes me so nervous. It's that intoxicating masochistic feeling that is addictive.
One other aspect. of all of this is Becka and I are getting older, right. about the 50 mark, but we are both fit and she is still so sexy and youthful. Works very hard at the gym. Well. On a recent medical and with her doctor she said to Becka, "why are you still on these birth control pills?" Becka sort of stammered. "At your age you should be done with these." So she ordered some tests which shows that even though pregnancy is possible still it's not very likely. So now she isn't on any BC. And oh my gosh is he excited about that. He said he cannot wait to have and fill her, that the thought is so animalistic to him. So that's another aspect we have, as she is pretty much denying me any access at the moment.
To give you a sense of all of this he recently sent me a message, Ill give you a brief synopsis:
"I was just taking to your beautiful wife. We were mostly talking about us but you were in there too. We were talking about her trip and wanting to remind you that your perfect wife is going to come to stay with me, go out with me, shower with me, sleep with me, tell me she wishes she could have me all of the time instead of you, and give me her beautiful body, while you sit at home locked up unable to play with your little cock".
"And I'll have a video of me and your wife doing everything. Of her saying everything I want her to say."

Can you imagine how this makes me feel? Shaking with nervousness but look down and totally erect. Becka is loving this so much. And tells me its. all of my dark fantasies coming true, and I now need to sit in it. I can't help encourage her. And him. They tell me I'm so lucky he doesn't live closer.

So. there is my update. Pretty crazy. But September is still a ways off. But it's looming over me.

Thank you to you al for reading this and enabling me to share what is happening. It's a therapy to write it down and read your thoughts.

I'll keep updating as things evolve...

SoCalBosun.

[coastalkid]

You're in for a helluva ride!

[venus-can99]

Thanks for the update SoCalBosun. As always very well written to convey your angst and excitement at your denial and humiliation

[elina]

Dear SoCal Bosun

Thank you for coming back with a very enticing update.

Is she being to harsh? I don't know. But Im addicted and want to see further down this path. It's so intoxicating, hard but ridiculously hot. It. turns me on so much, but makes me so nervous. It's that intoxicating masochistic feeling that is addictive.

It does not sound to me like She is being to harsh?
It seems to me that Becka is a very wise Lady who recognizes what you truly wishes to experience and realizes how She can do this to you in a way which also serves Her and Her bulls needs.

To give you a sense of all of this he recently sent me a message, Ill give you a brief synopsis:
"I was just taking to your beautiful wife. We were mostly talking about us but you were in there too. We were talking about her trip and wanting to remind you that your perfect wife is going to come to stay with me, go out with me, shower with me, sleep with me, tell me she wishes she could have me all of the time instead of you, and give me her beautiful body, while you sit at home locked up unable to play with your little cock".
"And I'll have a video of me and your wife doing everything. Of her saying everything I want her to say."

Can you imagine how this makes me feel? Shaking with nervousness but look down and totally erect. Becka is loving this so much. And tells me its. all of my dark fantasies coming true, and I now need to sit in it. I can't help encourage her. And him. They tell me I'm so lucky he doesn't live closer.

Yes, I can imagine. Terrifying and at the same time your stiff penis is simply an illustration of the classical FemDom mantra: "The boy may lie, but his dick will not)" Seems to me you are hooked, and the fact that your Wonderful Cuckoldress now enjoys keeping you on the hook so much that you will not be able to get off it.... And you really don't want to either do you?

So. there is my update. Pretty crazy. But September is still a ways off. But it's looming over me.

Thank you to you al for reading this and enabling me to share what is happening. It's a therapy to write it down and read your thoughts.

I'll keep updating as things evolve...

SoCalBosun.

Thanks, looking forward to that.

Sincerely
elina

[SoCal Bosun]

Wow Elina. That mantra really runs true! It’s absolutely correct. No matter how much she or they push me and put me through, I may feel in turmoil but my dick sort of betrays me. Yes. I am hooked. And no. I’m not trying to get off the hook I suppose. I told her I’m committed to this path and where ever it leads.

Yesterday I had a day off. I took her shopping for some sexy pantyhose and lingerie. And a load of clothes. For her to wear on her trip (even though it’s in 2 months). I was caged in the morning and followed Becka about paying for what she liked. She was so happy and we talked about the future. We talked about if this trip goes well then it could be a re-occurring thing.
She was so happy with me and my behavior but kept strict. Saying since I was caged it would be a shame to waste it. That night in bed she made me wear a strap on the watched her bounce up and down on me, or at least the strap on, as I ached in my cage. What a beautiful hot but frustrating site. Watching her cum bouncing up and down on top of me, telling me she will be getting real cock soon. After she had finished she played with me till I lost it in my cage.

A beautiful erotic night. Sending me off to sleep with many thoughts and butterflies in my stomach.

So yes Elina. That mantra is so true.

[SoCal Bosun]

Well. I did it. My wifes bull who is out of state messaged me at the weekend saying "I hope to see an update on your wife's ticket cuck to come see me in the morning." So I bit the bullet and bought her ticket.

She is going to see him around the 15th Oct for three nights. He is a sadistic confident bull. Which is honestly my dark fantasy. He replied saying he was very happy. I told Becka he had ordered me to buy it and she looked at me with this strange smile. I said "it seems you like it that I do what he says?". She. said simply yes.

So her I am, obviously our personal sex life is charged by him. And she allowed me to have her pussy and body. It was such a good feeling and we had a great evening. But there is always a kicker. He says we are only allowed one more time together before he sees her. And that is well over a month. In addition he messaged me saying "You'll get your wish. She'll be in my bed, my shower, on my arm, and in my restraints with my toys, taking all of my cum."

Oh geez.All I can do is share to process all of my feelings and acknowledging I'm a suck. It really slowly creeps up. on. you. From that small seed years ago.

Anyway. Thank you for reading and following my journey. I always appreciate everyone's insight.

[elina]

Thank you SoCal Bosum

How is you Wife feeling about this?
Is She happy, does She show tendencies to be more dominant towards you?

It is good that you bought Her the ticket, but will you stay chaste for Her from when you have your last time in bed with Her before She goest to se Hers (and your) bull?
And will you be allowed by the Bull to continue servicing Her pussy even though you are denied?

Sincerely
elina

[SoCal Bosun]

Hi Elina.

My wife is very excited to go see him on her own. She also knows that it will be difficult for me but ultimately what all my dark fantasies have been focused around. And in my horny state over the years I have constantly brought them up. Time and time again. So Becka and her bull/lovers line now seems to be “you made your bed now lie in it”.

I admit to having very conflicting feelings. But unable to escape the black hole which is my cuck side.

And yes. As per his directions I’m allowed one more time to have her. That is allowed her pussy. At first I thought that was generous but now have so many urges and wants, as this situation means I’m arroused so much of the time.she does leave for 5 weeks. So does that mean a month chaste? I guess so. And then yes. No more for me. In his words “ That’s right, once more. I want her untouched when she comes out here so I can shape her to me.”

He wants to really influence her. And publicly oust me as a cuck. She wants her to fully crave him over me. He admits to being a sadistic type of bull. And I’ve admitted to him that it was always my dark fantasy that she would meet someone like him.

[Long Lurker 34]

Hi Elina.

My wife is very excited to go see him on her own. She also knows that it will be difficult for me but ultimately what all my dark fantasies have been focused around. And in my horny state over the years I have constantly brought them up. Time and time again. So Becka and her bull/lovers line now seems to be “you made your bed now lie in it”.

I admit to having very conflicting feelings. But unable to escape the black hole which is my cuck side.

And yes. As per his directions I’m allowed one more time to have her. That is allowed her pussy. At first I thought that was generous but now have so many urges and wants, as this situation means I’m arroused so much of the time.she does leave for 5 weeks. So does that mean a month chaste? I guess so. And then yes. No more for me. In his words “ That’s right, once more. I want her untouched when she comes out here so I can shape her to me.”

He wants to really influence her. And publicly oust me as a cuck. She wants her to fully crave him over me. He admits to being a sadistic type of bull. And I’ve admitted to him that it was always my dark fantasy that she would meet someone like him.

SCB
- So does this mean when they are not 'busy' there will be no hesitation going out for meals, other possible entertainment, shopping and meeting his friends?
- And possibly him at least posting pics and comments regrading your Mistress.

[elina]

Dear SoCal Bosum

Your Wife seems to have embraced Her role as a Cuckoldress now, from what you write She seems very happy to follow the lead of Her Bull and force you into accepting the submission you have perviously told Her you want.

I appologize if you have covered this before and I have forgotten, but has Becka placed you in a chastity cage yet?
If She and Her bull has determined to keep you pussy free indefinitely after you last time, it seems like the natural way to go?

If you have not had the time to get accustomed to being locked, you can definitely not be locked up for the periods of time She will be gone? Or they simply expecting you will obey and manage to refrain from jerking off for these periods of time?

Sincerely
elina

[SoCal Bosun]

Hi.

Yes LL34. In addition to all of their 'busy' moments they are very much going to enjoying together, and he makes a point of telling me that, that he is very much looking forward to having her "on his arm". She is also excited to spend this more close personal time with him as in the past its only being evenings then saying goodbye in the morning. She is looking forward to the intimacy and feeling like his. As for meeting. his friends, I'm not sure. Although I would know Becka would squeal in delight if it happened.
And yes, he will be posting to me occasionally at least, I'm not sure publicly?

Elina. Regarding a cage. I do have one, in fact two, the other one tiny. I have periods where I'm forced into wearing one, it can get very frustrating but thankfully something which doesn't happen too often. Which yes, begs the question how I'll do if he carries through on his previous comment on me being locked whilst she is with him. I know in the days are fine, I just normally have it off at night when I'm made to wear it in the past. We shall see I suppose.

I did a silly thing too looking back, about 3 days ago. We got into bed and had started talking about him. Becka started to get very excited and began to tease me telling me that's all I get. It excited her so much she turned and laid on her tummy in bed and told me to touch her. This is her favorite, position. She turned her head away from the pillow and slowly moved her hips as I played with her pussy, which got wetter and wetter. It gets going so much and I know how she likes to be touched. After a while of this my fingers slid into her gyrating pussy and after not too long she was cumming hard on my fingers thinking of who knows. I pulled out my fingers lapping at her delicious taste as she lay there breathing heavily and coming down from her strong orgasm. I was throbbing and feeling. so sensitive. She just laid still wither head still turned away. I made a bold move and climbed over her getting my throbbing cock so close to her wetness. I started kissing her neck and she could feel my desperacy. "Oh surely you don't want to have your only chance now", she whispered."It's still well over a month till I see him".
"I don't know if I can resist", I stammered, my head cloudy, knowing right now she would let me. "Oh dear", she giggled. It was too much for me. I couldn't resist. I pushed my hips forward and slid into her warm wetness. My head filled with stars. It was still all too much. I managed three slow pumps desperately trying to enjoy and savor the moment, but I couldn't. Within moments my cuckolded cock twitched and gave in, spurting so hard into my wife. I raggedly carried on my thrusts a few more times till I collapsed on top of her. It was all over so quick.
Obviously as we know the wave of familiar cuck emotions descended on me, but I was expecting them and internally accepted once more my. situation. Becka let outalittle laugh as I pulled myself off her disappearing into the bathroom.
When I got into bed she came and lay on my chest silently as we both drifted off to sleep.

So now my only hope is she will have. pity on me soon allowing me one last time. But who knows.

There we go. All of my latest news.Thank you again everyone for allowing me to share and offload my journey here.

SCB

[elina]

Thanks SoCalBosun

Well, maybe time for you to start practicing wearing your cage for prolonged periods of time, including nights?

My experience is that if you are gradually trained by systematically expanding the time you are locked up, you can manage this. But just locking up and telling someone who is not used to sleeping with the device that he will be locked for weeks will be very difficult....

The most interesting part of your post is whether Becca will tell Her Boyfriend about you fucking Her; then for sure She will be pushed to start Her denial period already now....

Sincerely
elina

[briggs]

SoCalBosun

I have just read your whole story and wow you are certainly living the dream. I cant wait for your updates and October seems so long away.
I wish you luck and maybe Becka will take pity but somehow I don't think she will.

[SoCal Bosun]

Thank you for reading my whole story! It is quite the rollercoaster and have definitely gone deeper down this Rabbit hole.

Well on Saturday i was allowed her one last time. She tied me up, made me wear sissy cuck clothes and teased me speaking very dominantly and down to me. She was so hot and powerful. She said maybe a man like me doesn’t deserve a woman like her. She was so hot and oozing confidence and sexual energy. After a while with me tied up she said well here you go. You better enjoy it. She grabbed my cock and pushed it into her wet pussy. She was so horny. She now gets really turned on dominating me. But again. The same thing happened. Way too much stimulation and I ended up just cumming in about 20 seconds. She was disappointed but said I can have another go when hard again. 15 minutes later it was back and this time I managed to grit my teeth and hold it while she sat ontop of me and enjoyed herself. She came on my cock. It was beautiful. I relaxed and let go one last time.

Now that’s it. She says she is his now. She texted him to tell him it was done and he was very happy. So I think I have just under a month. She goes to see him mid oct.

I do get the occasional message from him. He can’t wait to have her in every way.

As far as the cage Elina, yes I agree. It’s something that needs to be built up. It doesn’t seem like something they are pushing at the moment. Maybe it will happen. I’m not sure. But will see. She uses the cage as a threat. I have to wear panties everyday for instance and she tells me if she catches me without I’ll be locked up. It’s a bit hard at work but I manage.

I’ll write as soon as I have anymore news or as the date approaches.

SCB