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[conflictedhubby]

Just wanted to say thanks for chronicling your journey Breaker. It's been amazing to read through it all (especially tuesday, I couldn't sleep at all that night waiting for updates). I've been conflicted about admitting my interest in this lifestyle to my own wife and while I have been making slow progress with my own intimacy issues, my own emotional reactions to your journey have hammered home the point that I am not ready to experience this lifestyle myself. So you sharing your journey is amazing, and I am so grateful that you've shared it. And I agree with the others saying keep this thread going.

[BallSpanking]

Hi, Breaker.

Wondering how it's going between you and your wife now... Floating in a dream can be OK, but at some point she will want sex again.
Have you been more active since Tuesday? Has the competition upped your game? Has she shared anything more? Cheers!

[joel68]

It's Super Bowl Sunday. He may have plans with her to watch the game somewhere. But my guess is that Dylan will be fucking her again sometime this week. That's my take. We will see what happens.

I am also curious if any on here thinks that she told Jennifer about Dylan fucking her. Or the other slut girlfriend who's name was never mentioned. My guess is she likely confided in them. Hopefully we can find this out along with how good Dylan fucked her last Tuesday.

[joel68]

I think the other slut girlfriend is the one she had lunch with on the Friday before she went to meet Dylan to fuck. This was after she told Breaker that Tuesday was gonna be the date with Dylan. Nothing much was said about what they talked about. I have the feeling that she sees Jennifer more often, but that this chick is the one who's married and has cheated on her husband, from what I recall. With 85 pages it's hare to remember everything that happened with him.

If she's the one I am thinking of, I wonder what they talked about. Anyone have any thoughts?

[newaussiecuck]

My guess is the next time she runs into Dylan at the gym she'll get pretty wet for him. They'll either go back to Dylan's place for a quickie (in which case Breaker may get a hurried text en route), or they'll arrange another time for a longer catchup possibly this Friday.

It sounds like Mrs Breaker is happy knowing she has amazing sex on tap whenever she needs it. As for Dylan, I think he'll be more than ready to tap Mrs Breaker again as soon as she's ready. Quite a lot for her to process so it may take some time. I think once she sees him again though she'll get pretty wet and will be ready for him.

Breaker - Do you know if she has texted Dylan since Tuesday?

[joel68]

Yeah, I would like to know if he's seen any indication of that as well. He said he does not want to look at her phone or texts, but that he's not blocked from doing so. I wonder why, especially since she has not actually been that forthcoming about what's up with her and Dylan.

[Breaker445]

Thanks everyone for the kind words and continued advice!, Sounds like it would be easier to keep everything to this thread.

Somehow it is still hard to put into words all that I am feeling, but if I actually think about it it is exciting. I'll try to answer some of the questions that have been asked. As for my own performance, I do feel like there is a sense of competition and I think that has bettered my performance quiet well. The playful dominance she's done since Tuesday is just subtle teasing of my submissiveness to her. Instead of asking me to do something or even telling me to do something she will say, "You're going to do...." Or one night we were lounging on the couch and she just care freely shoved her feet into my face and rubbed them all over my face. Making it feel like I had no choice but to kiss and smell them, which I gladly and happily did, but it was rather hot how she just did it and like making a point of 'of course you like that'.

As far as some of the things she talked about how she's been feeling was telling me she had a feeling of guilt. Guilty that she did it, but also guilty that she enjoyed it so much and how easy at that moment it was. I tried to express as much as I could for her to not feel guilty about it as it was something I wanted and told her I was forever indebted to her for it. She said thanks and told me she appreciated how supportive I have been, but nonetheless she has that feeling. So even though I have a lot to digest she does too.

I haven't been able to tell if she's texted him since Tuesday. The odd thing is, and this sort of goes back into part of my feelings is, I am not as eager to look or see. As before it would be something I was looking for, now I haven't really paid much attention to if she has or not. I do think in time I can ask more questions about it she will answer them. But one night we were playfully flirting with each other in conversation and she told me he was bigger than me, even though I already figured that it was quiet a punch to have her tell me and do so in such a confident and teasing playful way. I asked about if his stamina was better than mine, she laughed as if it was funny I would even compare or ask and said, "Ohhhh yeah."

But there hasn't been any talk about any future dates. She also hasn't gone to the gym in the evening time during the times when he would typically be there. So I don't know what she has planned next.

[Tryn]

Perhaps your wife’s guilt would be helped by sharing things with you. Often times it feels better when you know your not keeping something from your spouse. You could send her a brief text saying that and let her know it’s up to her & not to feel pressured to do so. At least you know where she hides her panties after Dylan destroys her pussy! Lol

[joel68]

Breaker, you think she knows you found her panties? Did she wash them yet?

[BallSpanking]

Frequently the guilt diminishes after the second visit.

[Wifesharing]

I believe the guilt feeling is common and like ballspanking said it lessons after the second time. I doubt it ever fully goes away, but it will become less ad less a issue for her. You handle it great always ensure her that she has nothing to be guilty for, and always let her see how excited it makes you not sad or upset.

I hope you hid the panties yourself and have re-visted them more then once already.

[wocka-wocka]

As far as some of the things she talked about how she's been feeling was telling me she had a feeling of guilt. Guilty that she did it, but also guilty that she enjoyed it so much and how easy at that moment it was. I tried to express as much as I could for her to not feel guilty

One way to go is to tell her the guilt seems pretty normal given what most Americans were taught about monogamy and marriage. Tell her you want to listen and talk about it. And then listen to her. Don't try to fix it. Just listen.

Don't make the mistake of telling her not to feel something. It seems like you do a great job communicating with her otherwise.

[4v273]

As far as some of the things she talked about how she's been feeling was telling me she had a feeling of guilt. Guilty that she did it, but also guilty that she enjoyed it so much and how easy at that moment it was. I tried to express as much as I could for her to not feel guilty

One way to go is to tell her the guilt seems pretty normal given what most Americans were taught about monogamy and marriage. Tell her you want to listen and talk about it. And then listen to her. Don't try to fix it. Just listen.

Don't make the mistake of telling her not to feel something. It seems like you do a great job communicating with her otherwise.

This.
Talk little.....listen more.
Express your love with quiet support and listen well.

[newaussiecuck]

Hi Breaker, another great update and thanks for explaining your feelings and Mrs Breaker's. A lot to process but you're both working through it extremely well. Just keep supporting her and she'll be fine. Wocka-Wocka's advice is spot on. She feels what she feels, just listen and she'll feel better once she's talked with you about it.

Just to clarify, when she said Dylan is bigger than you, was she talking about his cock size or height and muscles? I'm tipping he's bigger in all 3 departments but just wondering if she was referring to his cock. If so, did you ask how big? How much bigger than you. It does sound like she's willing to share some details, and like the others said it will help her guilt if she were to get it off her chest.

Although I don't wish her to feel guilty for anything, I thought it was so hot the way she is feeling guilty because she enjoyed it so much. I think she got fucked so good that it was WAY better than she could have ever imagined (especially since she's never had sex with anyone else). Excuse the pun, but maybe she's having trouble taking it all in!!!

[Bayless]

Breaker, in re-reading your description of your meeting Mrs.B at the door as she was returning home from her Tuesday evening date, the more I have thought about it, and more importantly that small period of time after you each had said “Hi” was a hugely significant time when you each lovingly looked into each other eyes and time stopped.

Neither of you spoke. The stares that you shared were the culmination of two years of sharing and trust and finally consummating the plan. Mrs.B must have been thinking about what she would say as she was driving home, just as you were as you were awaiting her arrival.

After reading your recent post about your experiences and thoughts since last Tuesday from drinking wine to smelling feet on the couch, I offer these interpretations of what was behind those wonderful stares. From Mrs. B’s stare in order it is 1. Well, I did it. 2. I have so much to think about. And 3. I love you so much. From Breakers stare, I summarize: 1. I am so glad you are home. 2. You are the most wonderful, bravest person in the world. and 3. I love you with all my heart. Maybe a little too much literary freedom, but be warned the Breakers are as tight as can be. The games may continue, but rest assured these two will progress and survive. Early signs of that is Breaker’s observation that details are now less important and the purposes are support and growing in their love. They will succeed.

[realcucklife]

Hi breaker
It seems like I’m harping on in but you both need to share the adventures, as I have said for your benefit so you don’t feel left out, but as you now reference she is feeling guilty, if your able to share she can see your enjoyment as well and it defuses the guilt.
You need to explain this logic to her and then find a way to do it that doesn’t cause too much discomfort.

[shawnm]

Hi Breaker,

Your journey has been a totally sexy read right from the beginning. I haven't missed any posts, right from the start. Since Mrs Breaker mentioned that Dylan is bigger than you and has a better stamina, mind sharing how long are you and perhaps in future when she shares the details, you can learn how long he fucks her at a stretch? I bet he must have given her couple of orgasms that she is feeling guilty. Damn exciting and a lotta fun to know.

[wannabecUKold]

I offer these interpretations of what was behind those wonderful stares. From Mrs. B’s stare in order it is 1. Well, I did it. 2. I have so much to think about. And 3. I love you so much. From Breakers stare, I summarize: 1. I am so glad you are home. 2. You are the most wonderful, bravest person in the world. and 3. I love you with all my heart.

Without wishing to put a downer on this interpretation, I speculate (and that's all it is) that Mrs B was also at the same time feeling a bit of shame, angst, some guilt, some fear as to what she had done and some anxiety about the impact it would have on their relationship, while also feeling horny and fulfilled at the amazing sex she had just had. That real sense of no going back, no closing the box now, for better or for worse. Breaker's loving response was the reassurance she needed, but you can see why her nerves were frayed and she needed rest. As others have said, those feelings will wear away and, now a week later, she is probably ready to talk and plan and repeat.

[Bayless]

Very much agree. Well said.

[joel68]

I doubt that Dylan fucking her was not a one and done.

There’s one aspect of this that I have not seen here. With 86 pages it’s difficult to remember everything he’s said. Guys, correct me if I am wrong but what about Dylan’s knowledge that she isn’t cheating on Breaker with him? I think he knows that Breaker wanted him to fuck his wife last Tuesday. (And boy did he ever do that!)

So what happens with that? Also, Dylan is a single guy as well. Anyone have any thoughts on this?

[ericsacto]

Breaker,
Thanks for sharing your journey with us.

Do you see any new relationship energy between Mrs. Breaker and Dylan? I figure after having sex, she or at least Dylan would want to connect again. It doesn't sound like they are texting as much or planning to meet up again.

I wonder if there's something more than just guilt that happened. Perhaps Dylan just thought of Mrs. Breaker as a conquest and after he had her, he's no longer interested. Maybe Dylan becoming distant added to her feeling of guilt.

[mundyman]

My guess is the wife might be a little scared right now. Scared by her feelings of enjoying the sex so much, scared of wanting to have that sex more often, scared of seeing Dylan and what they’ll say to each other, scared of not knowing what the next steps are and where they lead, scared of the type of emotions she may develop for Dylan, scared of what her husbands reaction will be if she ever shares her real reactions and feelings.
As most have said here, to a woman sex also has an emotional side which either most men don’t have or ignore.
All of these feelings create questions and uncertainties I’m sure she is trying to figure out. Given her shy, her husband’s description, reserved personality, it is probably not easy to work through on her own.
I hope in time she works through these with her husband and takes whatever next step she is comfortable with.
Question: is she still texting frequently with him?
I suggest you to go out on a date night where she dresses as hot for you as she did for him. Buy her another new outfit for this date. And then go out and enjoy your time together, and rock her world later.
Good luck.

[Breaker445]

Thank you all for the replies, very insightful! As it's been a week now it's starting to settle in on the very exciting side. I think there are a lot of good suggestions and questions here that I am going to do my best to answer them as I can.

wocka and 4v - I think you guys are right that it's time to listen more and continue to express my love and support. I think I've done the best I can with that as when she's brought it up, no matter how minimal, I try to be as supportive as possible of what she is saying. And I do think guilt is a normal feeling, and I think I agree with what others have mentioned that that feeling could go away as time goes on and if/it happens more often.

newaussie - She was referring to his dick size when she said he was bigger. But if it's the guy I am thinking he is also bigger in every category than me. I do think she will be willing to share more details as time goes on because every once in awhile in the right moment she's thrown a little piece of information out there for me, or is more open than I would expect if I ask a certain question about the night. I am with you on the feeling of guilt in that regard, I also think there was/is a little bit of shock in it that it was as good as it was.

38kewp - I think that is a pretty good explanation! The more I think about their night and the more I puzzle together the time frame and how she was when she got home, I think that may be pretty accurate of how their night went.

Bayless and wannabeUK - Somehow both of your posts seem like a perfect fit. You both explained it pretty well, and although different in ways, also put together seem spot on to how things feel.

realcuck - Good point, I think if she shared her experience more it could help with her feelings, a glimpse of that working was us having a laugh and her teasingly bringing up his size and stamina. It was a fun flirtatious time and moment between us. But I also don't want to harp her about it and am patiently waiting for her to bring things up as so far she's shown to give a little bit from time to time. But as time passes she may be more open and comfortable with sharing more. And if there is a next time maybe she will realize this and be more open with details right away.

shawnm - Thank you, I think you are right too about her feeling of guilt, I do think that plays a major factor. I am hoping she will share those answers in time.

joel - He knows I was for this, well that is what she told me she told him. I think there is a likelihood of more meet ups, but I think she is just taking some time in between, but that is up to her.

ericsacto - I noticed that new relationship energy at the beginning of when they first started texting and around the time they went on their lunch date. Then it felt like the excitement was still there leading up to last Tuesday, but with it some nerves. Since Tuesday it doesn't feel like that dreamy walking on a cloud feeling is there for her, and I think that has to do with all the other things she is feeling from it that right now have overtaken that dreamland feeling. Maybe that resurfaces if they meet up again, even if it's as small of a meeting as just seeing each other at the gym, and time has past for those other feelings to get sorted out. I haven't noticed if they have been texting as much or not as they were before, but then again I just haven't paid attention to it. As of now though she hasn't told me of any future meet ups planned, but at the same time she did tell me that it could just happen and I may not get the days in advance notice like I did last week. Interesting thought on Dylan's perspective, I haven't thought about his side.

mundyman - Much like the others explaining what she may be feeling or going through, I found myself nodding to each thing you wrote. I don't know if they are still frequently texting each other, like I mentioned I just haven't been paying attention. I like the idea of her and I going on a date night like that.

Thank you all for the thoughtful responses, it really helps to read them and answer them as it makes me think more about things in was I may not have been thinking. Especially as I still find it hard to put down and explain all that I am feeling, reading these insightful and thoughtful posts really help.

[Bayless]

Agree with the most recent hot wife contributions. There are some circumstances that could have greatly influenced Mrs. B that we don’t know about except that he was more sexually endowed then Breaker. Some contributors to this website obviously have assumed that their vocabulary of four letter words are going to have a positive long range effect on the Breakers. Wrong! Perhaps she was thrilled with the experience, but disappointed with him. It could have been something as minor as his lousy table manners at dinner, or something as important as his attitude in meeting her needs in bed, was he disappointed in her limited sexual experience with men and treated her as doing a favor for her. Talk about being confused. If any of these, or similar situations happened, no wonder she would have a hard time verbalizing her thoughts. Keep in mind this was her first Rodeo, no previous experience other than Breaker though high school, college, or her marriage. Kind of surprising. But time will. I hope they find their rainbow, but it might take time.

[4v273]

Agree with the most recent hot wife contributions. There are some circumstances that could have greatly influenced Mrs. B that we don’t know about except that he was more sexually endowed then Breaker. Some contributors to this website obviously have assumed that their vocabulary of four letter words are going to have a positive long range effect on the Breakers. Wrong! Perhaps she was thrilled with the experience, but disappointed with him. It could have been something as minor as his lousy table manners at dinner, or something as important as his attitude in meeting her needs in bed, was he disappointed in her limited sexual experience with men and treated her as doing a favor for her. Talk about being confused. If any of these, or similar situations happened, no wonder she would have a hard time verbalizing her thoughts. Keep in mind this was her first Rodeo, no previous experience other than Breaker though high school, college, or her marriage. Kind of surprising. But time will. I hope they find their rainbow, but it might take time.

Interesting points.

Even if the sex was great.....there could be a number of things lacking in Dylan the man. Poor manners/rude to waitstaff/ on phone too much, etc.....would be a minus.

JMO, this is an ideal situation for the first time in this LS. Good sex and not so much temptation to get to heavily involved too fast. No need to rush. When it's right, it will happen.


Breaker.....buying her a new outfit for just the two of you on a date night....awesome idea. More quiet support and love to improve your bond will make her freedom that much better for her.... when she decides to use it.