Bent_n_Twisted wrote: ↑Tue Aug 23, 2022 7:15 am
newaussiecuck wrote: ↑Mon Aug 22, 2022 3:10 pm
...I was minding my own business and she came onto me hard. I was slow but eventually responded as intended, and in a reserved manor mind you. I think I can be proud of how I handled everything given all the circumstances I was going through at the time also. It's not my problem if she now wants to take back her actions for whatever reason.
If they feel the need to stay away for whatever reason, that is on them. It's a sign of severe insecurity and cowardice that he wouldn't come in with her just because I was there. Maybe she will sense that.
Frankly, I think you misread the situation right from the start. You may be starving for affection, but that doesn't mean that every little chippy who smiles at you is 'coming on' to you. It was just friendly, casual chit-chat and you turned it into something it wasn't, because that's what you wanted it to be. Now you have made her uncomfortable, maybe even a little frightened, and
nothing you do is going to make it better. Terming it 'insecurity and cowardice' is a stretch, and unreasonable, you are reading this just as badly as you read the situation in the beginning. *You* have scared her, now leave it alone. *Anything* you do will just make it worse. You might even find yourself on the wrong end of a 'stalking' charge, if they have laws about that down there.
I smile and chat with women of all ages, from young to old. It means nothing other than us being sociable. There is a little general store that I go to sometimes, to sit on the porch and sip coffee. There was one time when two cute young ladies were chatting with me, one touched my arm and the other touched my leg. Would you think that that meant that they were 'coming on' to me? Well it didn't. They were just being friendly and nothing more was meant by it. It might have been a little 'forward', being that I had never seen them before, and I didn't really mind but I am certain that it was in no way an invitation to make a sexual advance. It was just two young girls having a friendly conversation with an older 'grandpa' type.
You have nothing to be 'proud' of, *you* fucked up.
I don't think I miss read it from the start but I agree there was a point where her feelings had changed, some time between the 2nd last time I saw her and the last time. Thinking back to day of the 2nd last time I saw her, she asked me how my day was and what I had done that day. I mentioned that I had gone for a job interview that day. Maybe she thought I was an unemployed loser and stayed away after that. However my time off was self-funded and I wasn't accepting any government benefits, she wouldn't have known that though.
I only saw her the once after that day and it was right after I got the news about my dad being in an ambulance. I was a mess and shouldn't have gone that day.
In the prior weeks she had asked how often I go there and then she started coming more often. She asked what time I go there and she started coming that exact time. She asked where I parked my car and she then started parking there. She asked if I would like to have another dog and when I said I wasn't sure, maybe not, she said that I could have her dog if I would like that while smiling at me. Maybe I'm just clueless but these did seem like signals of interest to me.
She had also raised the point several times about my car, and also about where I live (clarified two or three times including whether I could walk there), and how many minutes it takes me to get to the park. The location of where I live and what car I drive seemed very important to her. Odd for a casual friend at the park. Her family friend also asked me where I live, so did the lady that I thought could be her mum and the lady who I thought could possibly be her sister (all from the same country at least). I've been going there almost every day for 8 months and nobody else has asked me where I live.
I don't think I mentioned it but the earlier night that we took a walk to the secluded place in the dark (she lead me there to that secluded location in the dark by the way), we were both crouched down patting our own dogs. She asked my dog to come closer. I'm 90% sure she was signalling for me to come closer as she was also smiling at me at the time. Having not made up my mind whether I actually wanted to start something with her or not, and also being very aware of the surroundings and not wanting to scare her, I erred on the side of caution and kind of awkwardly pushed my dog towards her instead. That was my opportunity to make a physical advance on her and I didn't!
I've never made any sexual comments or advances on her. I've never so much as brushed her arm. I've never made any physical contact at all or attempted to.
Since I was away visiting my dad and was going to be away a lot when I got back as I started a new job, I reached out to a mutual friend to explain why I'm uncharacteristically away and won't be around much, and to give her my phone number.
I purposely didn't ask for her contact details. I gave her mine and the ball is then entirely in her court as to whether she uses it or not. I fail to see how that could be perceived as threatening or reason to be afraid of me. However the way the person passed on my message was wrong. Instead of saying how I was away etc and won't be around much he just told her that I was looking for her. I guess in hindsight that does sound a bit sinister but it is totally not what I meant! There seems no way to correct this misunderstanding unless I answer her "boyfriend's" Facebook message but I don't think that is a good idea. So as you suggested (and what I have been doing) is to just leave it.
I've made no further attempts to locate her or contact her. I've been going to the park way less, not more. Even though I have since run into a friend of hers there, I never asked her friend about her.
If I've done something wrong then I'm forever lost and I have no idea how to relate with women.
I'm sorry but I'm just pretty upset to think that I have frightened someone and yes I agree that her behaviour indicates that I somehow have I just don't know how. I feel like I've gone way out of my way so as to not frighten her.
I haven't already for 3 weeks, but I won't make any attempts to talk to her or contact her. I will only talk to her if she talks to me first.