Trapped, betrayed, emotionally cuckolded and revenge turned really weird!

[elina]

If I understand this correctly, I think what you are doing is both wrong and also very risky if you want to stay married.

Starting a communication with your Wife, pretending that you are one of Her past boyfriends, and getting Her to respond, believing She is communicating with Her past lover is in my opinion truly violating the trust between the two of you.

How do you expect your Wife to react if/when She finds out what you have been doing?

I do not think you should continue down this path and would suggest you consider stopping this before something goes fundamentally wrong.

Sincere regards
elina

[hubudig2]

I do not think you should continue down this path and would suggest you consider stopping this before something goes fundamentally wrong.

(This was 15 years ago)

[goodnfun]

If I understand this correctly, I think what you are doing is both wrong and also very risky if you want to stay married.

Starting a communication with your Wife, pretending that you are one of Her past boyfriends, and getting Her to respond, believing She is communicating with Her past lover is in my opinion truly violating the trust between the two of you.

How do you expect your Wife to react if/when She finds out what you have been doing?

I do not think you should continue down this path and would suggest you consider stopping this before something goes fundamentally wrong.

Sincere regards
elina

I completely agree and you do understand correctly. I didn't know if I wanted to remain married. My world was falling apart in my mind. Everything I thought I knew to be true was in question.

I'm reminded of a scene in Ozark: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4Gp0VpUB50c

"That's the thing they don't you about evil. They make it seem like there are two clearly marked paths with flashing signs pointing out each way. Sin, Redemption. I mean, they tell you that Adam and Eve could eat from every single tree in that garden, except one. But the truth is, evil comes when the righteous path is so hidden... It just looks like there's only one way out. And the truth is, Adam and Eve probably grabbed that apple because they were fucking starving and it's the first tree they saw."

This was exactly how I felt. For my entire life, I knew right from wrong, good from bad. But in this instance I felt betrayed by that intuition.

My brain wasn't functioning properly. I'd been seeing a psychotherapist who told me that it's quite possible that the only way to move forward is to have an affair. To gain the understanding I was looking for by having the experience. The therapist didn't say it would be pretty or pleasant, but it was likely what I'd need to do moving forward.

But I wasn't willing to accept that.

This is certainly NOT a path I would endorse for anyone else. It also wasn't intended to go past that first email. This all happened one email at a time. And as more and more became available, the more and more I took from it.

And yes, this was 15 years ago.

[goodnfun]

More emails:

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Sep 1, 2010, 12:44 AM

Alex,

I'm glad you said what you said.  Don't be embarrassed about it.  It was something we did in our past and you shouldn't feel ashamed of it.  I'm not taking it the wrong way so don't feel that you can't talk about anything. 

Regarding Ben I do remember going back and forth with you and Ben I just don't know why I did it.  I think I was just confused with things.  I do know that I recall not seeing you very often, maybe I just needed you near me all of the time and Ben was available because he was still around since he was still friends with everyone.  Everything kind of makes a lot of sense now.  When I would call you and you didn't call back right away I remember thinking you were mad at me but I didn't know why or you were with Allison but in reality you were probably just so upset with me about reasons that I didn't know about.  If only we had talked about our feelings with each other things might have worked out.  But I guess we just weren't meant to be together. 

Regarding the questions, below are the answers:

1) Yes I am still kinky and my husband knows it

2)  The sex with you and with Rob I feel are pretty equal but the intimacy is different with you both.  My husband is 31 and I am 39 so the age difference I think is the reason the intimacy is different.  I felt a stronger love with you than my husband.  But it's not like I loved you more it's just that it was a very different deep love with you and with my husband it is very strong (obviously otherwise I wouldn't be with him) but somehow different.  It is very hard to explain. 

3)About the car I don't recall ever wanting a camaro.  My brother wanted a camaro and ******* wanted a camaro but I was just happy with a car that worked.  The kind of car my husband and I own now is a 2007 ******* and we also have a second vehicle a 2005 *******.

4) Shortly after leaving ******* Rob convinced me to stop watching them and I did and I have never watched them again.

5)When I was with ******** we did get a cat and my husband and I had a cat but once we had children we had to give the cat away to another home.  The kind of cat we had didn't like it when anyone else was in the house so it made it tricky.  But we don't have any animals right now just a fish tank.

About those polaroids you are a sneaky little bugger.  Why have you kept them all of these years?  I guess who wouldn't want to have a picture of an ex girlfriend naked eh?  That shocked me to know that I agreed with you taking you those pictures but knowing myself now it would be a turn on.  Now I am going to respond to your other email now.

I also attached a picture of me and my youngest.  I couldn't find a picture of just me, I'm usually in pictures with my kids.  But I really would like a picture of you.  It would mean a lot.  Especially since you don't like them, I think it's only fair since you have naked pictures of me (hahahaha). 

Jennifer

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Sep 1, 2010, 12:55 AM

Alex,

The one picture of me covering my boobs is a pretty hot picture of me.  But would you be able to take an aerial digital shot of it so it's like I'm looking straight at it.  Also would you be able to make it a higher resolution and then resend it to my email. 

I do remember the round beds but I thought that was in ********.  I would really like the other Polaroid shots as well.  I just want to see how I looked.  I wouldn't be printing them off or anything, they would be in a special folder on my computer.  If you could try and pick the ones that show more of my body than yours if that's possible than that would be fine.  Let me know.  Is there a way that you can photo shop your man part and make it fuzzy or something.  I know there are programs out there that can do that.  Would that make it easier for you to send them to me?

--
Jennifer

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Sep 1, 2010, 1:16 PM

Wow,  you're absolutely beautiful! Same with your daughter!  Boy did I ever make mistakes letting you go.  I wish I could go back in time and fix everything that happened. Even chatting with you, I'm stirring up some of the old emotions. Mostly horny feelings though. You'll find out why in a bit.

So I'm curious about some more detail to your answers below? 

1)  You said you're still kinky and your husband knows it...   I'm glad he does, I knew it too and it worked out really well when I figured it out.  This question may be inappropriate, but what kind of kinky stuff do you do now?

2) So if the sex with Rob and I are equal, but you felt a stronger love for me...  Would that not make the sex better? I'm just curious? I found some stuff last night that's totally bringing our history back! I envy Rob. he's so lucky to have you. It makes perfect sense why you hooked up with a younger guy. He could keep up with you!

Not to make it sound weird, but I'm really enjoying this!

Being single is sometimes difficult to get laid. I'm very careful about the girls I sleep with and never have on-night-stands.  I'm very safe and plan to keep it that way. Talking to you makes it really easy to sleep well at night if you know what I mean! Thanks for letting me violate you in my thoughts!

Feeling weird and horny,

-Alex
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Sep 1, 2010, 1:43 PM

Hey Jennifer,
In reply to your second email... The pictures, yeah, the one with you covering your boobs is very hot...   But I've found new ones that are way hotter.

Anyways, I don't know how to do a photoshop.

For me to take photos of them, I need you to offer something in return. As you can appreciate, we broke up due to some unfortunate misunderstandings and I'm totally over that. But, I need to know I can trust you.

Maybe we could meet and I could give you copies? I think you deserve to have them as much as I do, but I'm not sure who you are these days (But I sense you're very similar?) 

It's just an option. I would like to see you again, but I don't know if it would be weird. 

When I hear back, I'll also scan the first photo from directly above too.

Later
-Alex

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Alex,

Wow, I knew I was kinky, but I didn't know I was that kinky!  Well, it makes sense though!

I really want those pictures. How to get you to trust me? I have a couple of thoughts and possibilities?

1) I'll send you a recent photo of me naked. Kind of like that "tit-for-tat" you mentioned earlier.

2) I've been getting really turned on these past couple of emails and I've been wondering what it would be like to fuck you again. I know it sounds weird, but if the situation allowed, would you want to fuck me again? I'm not promising anything, but I'm curious what you think?

Let me know of either of these options would let me have those pictures?

Jennifer

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Sep 2, 2010, 9:58 AM

Hi Jennifer.

Yesterday I was thinking about the feelings that were beginning to surface. I said that I was having old feelings pop up and they were mainly horny feelings. Well, last night I had a dream.

We were on my sailboat and I remember waking up in the cabin and you were lying beside me with the sun shining in and the waves splashing up against the boat.  I looked at you I saw the woman I was meant to be with. You were asleep looking beautiful as always and I was playing with your ring finger, but this time, you were wearing your wedding band from me. I felt like the most special guy in the world. When I saw you I started to get emotional because I felt like everything was good again. Everything was back where it was meant to be. We had been separated for 20 years and we were back together.

Since we're being totally honest Jennifer (And I really appreciate your openness), I woke up this morning completely in love with you again. I felt a very strong attachment.  it was almost overwhelming. I know it was because of the dream though. I was in love with Jennifer of 20 years ago again. All the feelings had come back and overwhelmed me.  As soon as I realized that we weren't together, my heart sank into my stomach and it actually hurt.

Now before you get all weirded out, I'm sure that my subconscious is just trying to place the conversations we're having. It's just a dream. I'm sure you've been in love with someone in a dream before too only to wake up and have it not be real... Same with winning the lottery or something.  It seems so real and to realize it's not... sucks.  But you get over it pretty fast once reality kicks in.

Then I checked my email hoping that you replied back. I was actually really excited in anticipation.

And there it was!

But much to my surprise, you said some things that totally shocked me!!! Not is a bad way, but I NEVER expected you to say what you did.  But then I started thinking, I've already admitted that I've sent you some stuff in an email that I regretted the morning after. I don't think that you would write that if you were feeling normal. So if you're feeling a "what the hell did I do???" feeling this morning, then I'll let you take it back, no problem. You told me not to worry and be ashamed about what I wrote, and I'm telling you the exact same

Now, if you did mean it, I'm very, very, very, very tempted to take you up on the second option.You're absolutely beautiful, we have a history, we had the best sex ever. So yes, Option number 2 is very possible, if the timing was right. In fact, I want to do you so bad now that I'd likely be willing to have a 3-way with your hubby! Just kidding! Anything to get to nail you again!

Sorry, nevermind... I'll likely regret that tomorrow later today!!!  hahahaha

But lets not go down that road yet. hahahahaha

I asked you the following but you haven't answered:

"So if the sex with Rob and I are equal, but you felt a stronger love for me...  Would that not make the sex better? I'm just curious? I found some stuff last night that's totally bringing our history back! I envy Rob. he's so lucky to have you. It makes perfect sense why you hooked up with a younger guy. He could keep up with you!"

You told me that you felt a stronger love for me than you do your husband. I suspect that what you're saying is that the sex was better with me because you felt a deeper love for me.  Point blank question. 

Was sex better with me because you loved me in a deeper way? Did you move me more?  Do you still feel any love or feelings towards me?

I really would like to know. I'm very curious because I've been trying to sort my feelings too. I feel we have a connection, but I don't know what kind. But we seem to be able to talk about anything again.  It's very comfortable with you.

I also asked you what kind of kinky stuff you're into now? 

I'm really, really curious? I just want to know how you've changed over the years. I'm going to be really honest, and correct me if I'm WAY OUT OF LINE HERE, but I always suspected that you were a wee bit bisexual?

This is a lot of fun Jennifer, if you have any questions for me, please just ask?  I don't want to be asking all the questions here. It makes me feel weird and selfish!

By the way!  I'd LOVE to see a current naked picture of you,  if you send that, I'll send you a couple pictures!  hahahaha.  I don't need a face shot though, just your tits!

Now I'm getting horny again!

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Sep 2, 2010, 9:14 PM

Hi Jennifer,

I just re-read the email and I did it again. I said too much.

Please don't take it like I've developing feelings for you again. That's not what's happeneing.  I just feel like I've found a good friend from a long time ago.  It's more of a comforting feeling than anything. I got over you and I'm not going to fall for you again. I won't allow myself. There's NO WAY!

I think of us as friends (maybe a little kinky) who are catching up from old times. And we had some pretty good times! That's all.  Don't get uncomfortable.  If you want me to tone it down, I will, but YOU TOLD ME not to be ashamed, so here we are.

If it makes you feel any better though, I do TRUST you with things you've said, so here's a shot of a couple of the polaroids like you asked for. I don't even need a current topless picture. We're good. I trust you, especially since you offered #2!!!!
 
It's hard to take a good picture though because of the Flash on the camera,  I don't know how to turn it off! but you were so hot!!!

Anyways,  I still want to know your answers to the other questions I asked earlier today,  and let me know what you think of the pics I took all those years ago!  I'm glad I kept them!!! Yum! Do you look like that now? Maybe I can see first hand and in person?

I still have more polaroids and if I play my cards right.... hahahahaha.

Hopefully I hear back soon because I'm planning to head up to the lake tomorrow for the long weekdn.

Also, rather than emails, do you think maybe we could "chat" in real-time? I use ********* so if you set up an account, you can use ********** as a contact for me.

Wish me luck and good weather!

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So that's where the emails led to.

If Jennifer agreed to the handoff for the photos, how could I pull that off? I don't think I intended to actually follow through, I'd make up an excuse or something.

Also, Jennifer responded to Alex saying " I've been getting really turned on these past couple of emails and I've been wondering what it would be like to fuck you again. I know it sounds weird, but if the situation allowed, would you want to fuck me again? I'm not promising anything, but I'm curious what you think?"

Some of these things said were mind fucking me. I was encouraging her to keep communicating. She was telling me what they were talking about and I was encouraging her. I was setting the trap and nudging her towards it. I feel like I was almost baiting her to cheat on me so that I could end it with her for her infidelity.

Kindof like when a girl has one of her girlfriends hit on her boyfriend to see if he'll be faithful. Only, this time, it was reversed, and much weirder.

And because I was in control of one side of the conversation, it became an an unexpected turn on. When Jennifer would respond in an email, I'd feel a pit in my stomach punch when reading.

But I had to persevere. It was interesting and I was very curious is she's drop a bombshell of "I'm ready to divorce my husband and run away with you." or something?

How far could I push this? How faithful was Jennifer, really?

It was messed up!

[hubudig2]

Thanks for sharing all of this, I've found the psychology of it fascinating.
A lot of my "thought experiments" get quite weird but this was weird in reality, the kind of situation I'd imagine was theoretically possible but probably never happened.

You've literally mind-fucked yourself into being turned on by potentially being cucked by essentially cucking yourself.
Did you realise you were turned on by this idea at all before?
Or was it during this email exchange that the arousal of seducing your wife morphed into the arousal of someone seducing her?

[Guhunkadorn]

Wow...can't wait to see how this developed...I think.

[goodnfun]

Thanks for sharing all of this, I've found the psychology of it fascinating.
A lot of my "thought experiments" get quite weird but this was weird in reality, the kind of situation I'd imagine was theoretically possible but probably never happened.

You've literally mind-fucked yourself into being turned on by potentially being cucked by essentially cucking yourself.
Did you realise you were turned on by this idea at all before?
Or was it during this email exchange that the arousal of seducing your wife morphed into the arousal of someone seducing her?

The psychology is very weird. It all makes sense looking backwards, but in the moment, it was like navigating through a minefield. One filled with deadly missteps.

I've always been very jealous.

Exclusivity was always very important to me. To be "The First" for something shared. Because Jennifer was my first real and serious relationship, I had many firsts with her, but not the other way around.

First kiss? Nope.
First sex? Nope.
First engagement? Nope.
Different sexual positions? She'd done them all prior to me.
Living with a boyfriend? She'd done that.

Whenever I felt like I'd discovered something new and exciting, it was like the South Park Episode "Simpson's Did it, Simpson's did it!"

And it didn't help that she always played herself as being innocent. When we met, I kinfof put her up on a pedestal. It was truly a "First Love" euphoric state which was further complicated by the "forbidden" label my parents put on it. It was so hard.

My mom eventually warmed up to Jennifer, it took years, but by the time we were married and had kids, the table was completely flipped. Jennifer was now the favourite.

Anyways, back to the psychology, I was NOT turned on by the idea at all of Jennifer being as reckless with conversation as she was being, but I wanted to see how far she'd go. I was mad at her. I was mad at the Universe. I was mad that I couldn't get over the past and was dragging it right back up to the present to see what she'd do.

It caused me anguish, pain and suffering. In NO WAY was it a turn on. Zero. It wasn't until my hand drifted into my pants while reading that I was able to find a way to get through her emails. But overall, I was more furious and angry and looking for clarity. I was vengeful and I'd been, in my mind, misled in my relationship with Jennifer.

And the ex-boyfriends showing up places would throw me into a tailspin. But that's the challenge when your wife still has friends who are friends with ex's. A nice, broad highschool friend group that stayed together. And because Jennifer is attractive, she was able get with some of these guys. Some for a single night, another for a hand job after work, and some for long term serious relationship.

But Jennifer had only had 3 serious relationships before me.

But in my mind, sex WAS the pinnacle of intimacy. That's what we're taught, it's what's shown in the movies, read about in books.

[elina]

I do not think you should continue down this path and would suggest you consider stopping this before something goes fundamentally wrong.

(This was 15 years ago)

I completely agree and you do understand correctly. I didn't know if I wanted to remain married. My world was falling apart in my mind. Everything I thought I knew to be true was in question.

I am sorry, I did see that some days ago, but had lost that context as I posted this morning.

Thanks to both of you for pointing out my mistake and good to see that we seem to be aligned that it is not an approach anyone wants to reccommend.

Sincere regards
elina

[ticklemang]

Wow this is a super interesting post. Please update… I’m wondering if Jennifer will tell you that she agreed to meet up with him and about the mention of having sex with him she made

[sabya167]

Morality aside, curious as hell how you managed it at the end....

[goodnfun]

Okay, so... Jennifer had been telling me almost everything, but I KNOW everything. I know what she's not telling me, and honestly, she was being really truthful. I was impressed how much she shared with me. And it's not a risk because I'm 100% in control of the whole thing. But it's stirring up some weird feeling in me. It's stirring up weird feelings in Jennifer.

And so, I thought... I need to get involved somehow. So I decide to send both Alex and Jennifer an email.

Jennifer had already spoken with Alex about our situation so my email was not out of the blue. It was actually coordinated and Jennifer told Alex it before it arrived in his inbox.

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Sep 3, 2010, 9:57 PM

Hi Alex, Jennifer...

Okay, well, this is the strangest email I'll ever write in my life I'm sure.

I've CC'd both of you from MY EMAIL ADDRESS so you can both read it.

How do I start this email? lol!

I guess the formal side first?  Hi Alex, my name is Rob. I'm Jennifer's husband. We've been together for the last 14 years. It's a good relationship with open communication.

First of all, I know "most" of what you and Jennifer have talked about and cutting to the chase,  yes, it's all true.

A little history, about 3 months ago, we went to an erotic massage parlour. Jennifer got a massage and that's where things have started. She got erotically touched by another girl and LOVED IT! We drove back that night as giddy as highschool kids.  It was so much fun.  The next week Jennifer was embarrassed and I loved it.

And the following weekend, we saw an upscale escort in ******.  It took me lots of emails to coordinate the event, but the night it happened, it was perfect.  Jennifer started off by saying she didn't know how far she would go,  but she ended up actually getting right in there and she did have an orgasm to finish it off. I was pretty much ignored, but this really was for Jennifer.

So for the next month, I really analyzed my feelings. And I was 100% okay with what happened. So I started pushing more limits a bit. When Jennifer and I were intimate, I'd ask her to talk about Ben (her ex) and various sex positions. When we were being intimate, it really turned me on.

And the next night we'd do the same thing, only this time the story was a bit dirtier... Jennifer said some naughtier stuff...   We tested the water....

BOOM!  Once again, Super horny.

And it got dirtier and dirtier and dirtier until I had Jennifer telling me things that would send most guys to the divorce court.  NOT ME!!!!!   It got me hotter and hotter!!! Hearing Jennifer admit things is such a turn on for me. Hearing her voice say that she "loved it when..." or "She wanted him to..." and it was an ultimate turn on. She even said stuff about you!!!

But it was only while we were being intimate. If we’re not in bed, these things make me angry and frustrated.

These things always upset me and made me jealous. I'm tired of that feeling. I want to address it head on. It's too consuming.

And as the stars line up and as luck would have it, you emailed Jennifer. She had a hard time telling me because she knew that I was your biggest "competition" in the relationship department.  I won't get into details, but there are some things that have bothered me in the past.   But I need to get past those things.

I want to explore this more so I can move past it. The frustration, the lack of understanding. I’d like to experience something more with Jennifer that not a lot of couples do. I want something exclusive to us, even if it’s with you. Isn't that weird!?!

So I'm 100% okay with letting this happen. I'm very confident in our relationship and our sex is awesome! We're just looking to take it to the next level... again!

So yes,  everything Jennifer is telling you is true. Believe it or not,  it REALLY turns me on to think that you guys are going to chat tonight without me listening or reading.  It actually turns me on to know that you guys are being kinky in a weird, not in control, vulnerable sortof way.

So Jennifer, just so you know,  I'm giving you the official go-ahead to say, do and experience anything you want to with Alex. ANYTHING! Let your imagination go wild! It turns me on to think about what you might be saying or "doing" without me knowing. So that said... I need to go right now!!! James, have fun with my wife tonight!!! She'll be horny to talk to you! She has been all day! lol

Best regards
- Rob

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Now where on earth can this even go??? Maybe giving the go-ahead will give the go-ahead to talk dirty online?

So outside of the email, I was giving Jennifer the go ahead. I was stirring her up and getting her hyped up. I was still mad at her. I kept thinking she'd come to her senses and shut it all down.

But she didn't...

[elina]

Looking forward to the next (pretty crucial?) chapter?

and to learn how this affected your life together from that point onwards....

Sincerely
elina

[goodnfun]

Okay, so Rob and Jennifer chatted for three days. They got stuff out in the open. Jennifer vented on him for how he treated her and Alex did the same. It was tense, but necessary it seems.

But discussing the past, it's hard not to discuss the intimacy. Jennifer told Alex a number of times that she no longer had feelings for him. She was very adamant those feelings were in the past. Only, I still didn't believe her.

So I kept pushing her. Nudging her to make omissions and try to catch her. I was absolutely playing with fire!

Chapter 7 - STEPPING OVER THE LINE?

And then on September 5, 2010, they had a chat.

I've excluded some of the boring beginning stuff. The discussions started talking innocently enough but then progressed into trading nude pics. Here's how it went.

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September 5, 2010 10:57pm

Alex:  right now?
 Jennifer:  Sure
Alex:  yes!
god yes!
 Jennifer:  Only a video of my body but I don't have the energy to do anything else and I have to go to sleep soon
Alex:  that's fine.
 Jennifer:  Give me a minute to get it done
Alex:  Can you finger your pussy a bit in it and rub your tits though?
maybe squeeze them a bit?
all I would need.  hahahaha
 Jennifer: So I just sent it to you and you'll have to let me know if it works.  It will be using quick time
Alex:  it didn't work...
it was a second long.
I was sooo excited!
 Jennifer:  Sorry the video didn't work
It said it exceeded the limit to send
Alex:  YUMMMM!!!!!
 Jennifer:  But I did send you some pictures
Alex:  I'm totally looking at the pussy shot!
YUMMMM!!!!
 Jennifer:  You'll be eating that out soon enough
Alex:  I rememeber fucking that
both holes!
I'm jerking hard now!
 Jennifer:  I bet you do
Alex:  oh yeah.
I'm going to fuck you so hard
 Jennifer:  So tell me since we've started talking dirty how many extra times have you jerked it
Alex:  too many
 Jennifer:  On average how often do you jerk it?
Alex:  10 times a day right now???   Everytime thinking of you.
maybe more
 Jennifer:  Wow that's a lot
Alex:  that turns me on
your pussy lips are moist too
 Jennifer: 
Alex:  I so want to be fucking ypou right now
 Jennifer:  In the video I was playing with myself and then I licked my fingers
Alex:  Oh I want to see that!!!!!!
 Jennifer:  Too bad you didn't see that but I'll make sure to show you that
Alex:  in person?
 Jennifer:  Your making me so fucking horny
Yes of course in person
Alex:  fuck
this picture is totally doing it for me.
 Jennifer:  I'm glad
Alex: your pussy lips!!!
DAMN!
 Jennifer:  I so need to go to sleep but I'm horny .... what to do...
Alex:  I want in you now!!!
Fuck your pussy!
And picture me fucking you!
That's what I'm doing!
I'm so going to fuck that tight little asshole!
 Jennifer:  I have to ask , since we were together how many other girls have you fucked?  If you don't mind me asking
Alex:  about 15 to 20
But none were as hot as you.
 Jennifer:  You man whore
Alex:  not even close.
 Jennifer:  That is way more then me
Alex:  Yeah, but you fucked a chick!
 Jennifer:  Did you wear a condom every time
Alex:  yes.
every time.
 Jennifer:  good
Alex:  But with you I won't.
 Jennifer:  good because I want you to cum inside my pussy
Alex:  oh and I will be
Over and over and over again!!!!!
 Jennifer:  You better be horny fucker
Alex:  Oh I will.
And I'll eat it out of you too!
 Jennifer:  You better
Alex:  do you like it?
 Jennifer:  I love it
Alex:  Does he go in deep?
 Jennifer:  Yes
Alex:  Do you want me to do the same thing?
 Jennifer:  But usually all it will take especially after he's been eating me out, it doesn't take very long for me to cum
Alex:  you're such a dirty fucker.
I'm going to fuck you so hard.
 Jennifer:  I guess I am and i'm proud of it too
Alex:  I want you RIGHT NOW!
 Jennifer:  I want you too
Alex:  if you were within 3 hours drive,  I'd find you and fuck you raw!
 Jennifer:  I bet you would
Alex:  It's a 3 hour flight!
 Jennifer:  You fucker
Alex:  I'll come down and we'll fuck on the beach again!
 Jennifer:  That is kind of sparking a memory
Can you tell me about the beach
Alex:  sure.
We just got out of the ********* I think?
we had been dancing to some slow songs.
but we left...
and we went to the beach and sat by some playground equipment
and a couple people walked by and said that "we were in love"
it was funny.
But then we started to get really horny thinking they may walk back.
 Jennifer:  I remember that
Alex:  and so it was a little dark, but could see eachother
and I put my hand hand your jeans and started to finger you.
you were absolutely soaked.
 Jennifer:  Had I been drinking?
Alex:  so I was fingering you and then went to my knees and pulled your pants down
yep,  you had a few drinks.
 Jennifer:  I thought so
Alex:  not drunk,  but feeling it.
anyways,  I pulled your pants down and started to bite and play with your drenched pussy through your panties.
I remember they were really tight on you
 Jennifer:  You are such a good story teller
Alex:  it was so hot.
it's not a story.  It's real.
 Jennifer:  I know it's not a story but I am saying that your describing it very well and it is hot
Alex:  So I remember that you had your hand on the back of my head and tried to push me towards your clit...
but I kept teasing on the outside.
 Jennifer:  Bad boy
Alex:  and I heard some people talking behind us from a distance
 Jennifer:  You knew that if you waited a little bit it would be worth it
Alex:  and that's when I started to get closer.
I knew you loved the idea of getting caught (That was after your Ben fuck story)
you filthy fucker!!!
So once they got louder I pulled your panties to the side and I stuck my tongue right up inside your cunt
and you almost dropped to the ground.
it was so fucking hot Jennifer!
 Jennifer:  LOL
Alex:  You stood for a second and I pulled you to the ground.
I opened your legs and kept eating you out...   I
think that the voices were security or something.
because they voices stopped.
I was a little nervous but you kept going. I don't think you heard anything
But I kept eating
and licking
and biting.
and pushing my tongue in
 Jennifer:  Even I did once I get horny I don't care what's around me
Alex:  Oh I know,  that's what I learned!
But you came hard that time!
You moaned really loud and called me a name.
I think you called me a naughty bastard or something
something like that.
But of course,  I needed to get done too.
So I took my pants down and you were on your back.
I think we were on the grass.
You were thin and so tight. Your pink nipples were so sexy and your tits were so perky. Are your tits still on the smaller side?
 Jennifer:  i'm playing with myself. Yes, they’re still smaller, but they’re still very perky. Still a B cup, almost a C, but they fill it out perfectly. They’re meant for your mouth.
Alex:  And I put your legs up around my hips and started driving you hard.
you are eh?
 Jennifer:  yes
Alex:  I already came and I'm jerking off again
looking at your pussy picture.
 Jennifer:  you are making me so fucking horny
Alex:  knowing I fucked that cunt years ago and knowing I'll be fucking it again soon.
Rob told me tonight that he'd be okay if I fucked you without him around.
 Jennifer:  finish the beach story
Alex:  That turned me on too.
okay
beach story.
 Jennifer:  k
Alex:  So I was fucking you on top,
your legs were wrapped around me.
And "if I remember" correctly I believe that I was going in and out really fast all the way.
so I'd pull my cock out and then push it all the way back in.
That was the first time I accidentally put it up your ass.
 Jennifer:  sounds good to me
Alex:  But you were drunk and you didn't even seem to notice!  hahahaha
SO I went with it.
That's why i remember this story so well by the way
 Jennifer:  k
Alex:  Anyways, I was fucking you hard and I was pulling my cock out and driving it in all the way and you were moaning and groaning and whimpering a bit which totally turns me on And I wanted back in your pussy.
It's wetter there and I love hitting you deep.
 Jennifer:  i'll be sure to do that again for you
Alex:  oh yeah?  the ass fuck?
or the whimpering?
 Jennifer:  the whimpering noises
Alex:  oh you will.  You don't have a choice.
It's how I hit you inside.
 Jennifer:  most likely the ass fuck too
Alex:  You love it, but it does hurt you.
Your stomach is always tense after wards.
 Jennifer:  g spot probably
Alex:  But I force it and you take it deep and hard.
no, deeper than the G spot.
I'll shot you a trick when we meet I know about the G-Spot while eating you out.
you'll freaking melt in my mouth
 Jennifer:  really
Alex:  yep.
I'll have you riding my face really hard.
you WILL NOT be able to take it for long.
and you WILL  CUM FAST!
 Jennifer:  looking forward to it
Alex:  but I'll do it at the end...
But anyways,  back to the beach story.
 Jennifer:  k
Alex:  I'm horny remembering it...
totally gonna jack off on my stomach again
so...
 Jennifer:  good
Alex:  I was on top and I put it back in your pussy and was driving you hard
in and out all the way...
You made your noises and everything.  I even had you yell (sort of) a few times.
And that just made me harder, which crammed it in further and made you make more noise
 Jennifer:  i believe it
Alex:  and I totally blew my load in your pussy.
Normally I would do it in your mouth when we were in public so cleanup was as easy as swallowing.
 Jennifer:  can't wait for that
Alex:  but in this case, I did it all the way in you.
 Jennifer:  how often were we in public
Alex:  And there was a TON OF CUM that came dripping out of you.
We did if pretty often.
Lots of times after the bar.
 Jennifer:  we were so bad and we'll be bad again
Alex:  in the car, at the beach,  behind ****** mall in the parking lot....outside the car of course but under a light
oh yeah,  we were.
But here's the part that's dirtiest.
 Jennifer:  i'm pretending to fuck you right now
Alex:  When I came inside of your cunt,  we needed to clean up and since you didn't swallow you grabbed my face and shoved it into your pussy.
I wasn't expecting that.
Jennifer,  I so want to fuck you like that again!!!
You were such a bad girl at times!
 Jennifer:  we will
Alex:  oh yeah, we will!!!!!
So anyways,  you made me eat my cum out of your pussy
but while I was doing it you came for a second time.
and with your orgasm, you pushed all the cum out of your cunt and all over my mouth and lips.
you loved it when you pushed my cum out onto my face and in my mouth.
And here's the first time we did this!!!!!
You pulled me up to your mouth and deep french kissed me!
and did your tongue thing!
So we basically kissed good and deep with lots of tongue while swapping my cum.
it was so bad!!!
I can't believe some of the stuff we did!
And now I'm looking at your pussy picture again,  totally wanting to fuck it RIGHT NOW remember how it felt.!!!!!
I'm running out of cum Jennifer!!!!
I'm about to again!!!
and...
and I did.
all over my hand this time.
fuck me.
or better yet,  fuck you!!!!
Damn!
you get me so hot any horny.
I'm going to love fucking you again!
I hope Rob can take how dirty we're going to be!
especially when I shove it up that cute tight little asshole!
 Jennifer:  dirtier the better
Alex:  oh yeah.
Do you want me to fuck you hard?
 Jennifer:  yes
Alex:  More than once?
 Jennifer:  all night long
Alex:  Do you want my 8” hard cock again?.  Do you like it?
 Jennifer:  i love it
Alex:  You wanna fuck it?
 Jennifer:  yes
Alex:  More than Rob?
 Jennifer:  yes
Alex:  You'd rather fuck me than Rob right?
 Jennifer:  yes
Alex:  you love the big cock right?
 Jennifer:  yes
Alex:  it turns you on to think of it pumping you deep?
 Jennifer:  yes
Alex:  And you liked fucking me more than Rob right?
 Jennifer:  yes
Alex:  because I can fuck you better right?
 Jennifer:  yes
Alex:  that's a lot of yesses... I know they are all true.
you're fuckin’ dirty
would you fuck me right now if I was there?
 Jennifer:  i’m fucking hrny
Alex:  just me?
 Jennifer:  i can't even type
Alex:  Rob already said he'd like us to fuck without him around.
 Jennifer:  yes
Alex:  that turns me on.
would you do it?
 Jennifer:  me too
yes
Alex:  I want to fuck you deep.
and I want to kiss you.
with tongue.
 Jennifer:  yes
Alex:  would you fuck me all alone and kiss me?
 Jennifer:  yes
Alex:  are you horny enough?
 Jennifer:  yes
Alex:  Do you mean it?
 Jennifer:  yes
Alex:  dirty girl!
And you totally want my cock more than Rob's?
I know you do.
 Jennifer:  yes
Alex:  cause you're fucking horny
 Jennifer:  yes
Alex:  and I'm going to fuck you so hard.
I'm so fucking horny.
I wish I had the video of you licking your pussy finger.
I'm looking forward to fucking you on your own too.
does that work for you?
 Jennifer:  i just came
Alex:  because you know we're going to fuck without Rob\?
That's naughty Jennifer...
very naughty.
I love it when you cum.
 Jennifer:  That was a good
one
Alex:  I bet.
Was it all me?
 Jennifer:  I can't even type right now
I just pulsating down there
Yes it was all because of you
Alex:  I'm going to fuck you. It's like we'll be cheating... that bad.
goodnight

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And that was that. My head was spinning. I had just observed my wife get horny with an ex and play with herself to orgasm. Only, I was the one who got her there. All the dirty talk, knowing exactly what buttons to press and when. I was creating the perfect scenario for her and playing her. I was trying to test the limits of her emotions, but in a weird way, it was rewiring mine.

As soon as we were off the chat, I dropped my pants, started jerking off and re-read the chat. I finished fast and hard.

How on earth was this turning me on so much? The fast that close to the end she didn't capitalize anything let me know she was absolutely typing with one hand. The other hand was busy.

There were several things said that really took me my surprise.

1. Her admissions to wanting to fuck Alex more than me. Those hurt like daggers, but also intensified the jealousy which when used as a weapon to attack my dick are like a nuclear bomb. I can't explain it, even 15 years later, but I've learned that when I'm horny, the more it hurts me emotionally, the better.

2. Alex:  and I totally blew my load in your pussy. Normally I would do it in your mouth when we were in public so cleanup was as easy as swallowing.
 Jennifer:  can't wait for that

Her admissions to him coming in her mouth. She's only ever done that twice with me and didn't care for it at all. Jennifer is NOT a "cum in my mouth" type of person. Her admissions with him was very surprising. Maybe she was just saying it because she was horny?

3. Just the overall of what had just happened. Did my wife just cheat on me? Even if I was encouraging her, how could she do this? How did I feel about it? My stomach was in knots, I didn't think she'd actually follow through so willingly...

Off to sleep I went.

[Dream Weaver]

"I have no feelings for him" (sends nude pics) lol.

[goodnfun]

"I have no feelings for him" (sends nude pics) lol.

Yep, it was weird. She didn't seem to. It was erotically charged, but the feelings of love or any kind of affection wasn't there. And I kept trying to draw it out but really, to no avail. Not at the time anyways.

It was very recent that Jennifer had been with Ella and Karen. There were no feelings there, it was just raw. I think she was in the midst of exploring an untapped area within herself also.

[goodnfun]

CHAPTER 8 - MEETING UP



For the next month or so, Jennifer and Alex kept chatting, never any voice. Just chat on the computer. 

It was pretty sexually charged and there was planning to meet up.

We also decided to sell our home. There were a lot of moving parts to what was going on in life and Jennifer came back with the kids and we started the process of packing up to list. In the meantime, conversations were going back and forth.

In fact, we would both be on our laptops in bed and I’d be pretending to be working while she’s chatting with Alex, only, I have the chat window small in the corner and I’m chatting.

Jennifer was absolutely getting off on chatting with Alex with me beside her. She’d laugh and I’d ask “what?” and she’d tell me. So here I am, reading her reactions and then responding as Alex only to have her laugh and then I could play into it. It's like Alex was reading her mind.

And Jennifer was sharing with me. There was no threat. Things had calmed down and we were both fixated on new life advantures. Selling the home, moving to another city (we hated where we were) and just moving forward with life.

At the same time, I was planning something big. REAL BIG! Jennifer and Alex were going to meet up at a hotel and Jennifer wanted me there to make sure she was safe. It would be helpful for me too as I was going to be there to observe, that way my imagination wouldn’t get the better of me (enter jealousy demons!).

And since Jennifer had already been with Karen and Ella, I told her that I was fine with it all as long as I knew what was going on.

So a month after the chatting began, Jennifer sent this message to Alex.



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Alex,

Hey there, it's weird being back in my house but good at the same time.  I've got a babysitter set up for tomorrow night (Oct 2nd) and Rob told me that he would email you with the details.  As for drinks I think straight shots would be the best thing.  It would work faster but make sure I don't take too many shots of alcohol.  The kind of alcohol I'd be looking for would be sweet tasting stuff like green apple flavored Vodka.  I do like Amarulla and baileys as well and I also like sweet tasting coolers.  Like strawberry or some type of berry.  As for massage oil I will bring my own and I will make sure it's edible.

Now, this is going to be my last email to you until about a week or so from now when we "touch base."

I'm extremely excited that this is going to happen. I'm going to get myself so hot and horny when you're massaging me and Rob's making me go to the gym to make sure I enjoy the massage even more! My calves are killing me, so I'll need you to rub them really well.  I also did a stationary bike class tonight and so I'm thinking my thighs/hamstrings will be pretty sore too!  Oh hell,  just make sure you massage everything you possibly can!

Now as for rules.  Despite all the dirty talk and you getting me to admit things when I'm really fucking horny (bastard!) I still have some rules when I'm sitting here perfectly sober and thinking straight.

1. Mask stays on at all time. I will not take it off and I don't want you to try to either.

2. I can talk, but you can NOT! Neither can Rob. JUST ME!!!  You can't even whisper.

3 My safe word is ********. You can do anything to me as deep and as you want, as hard as you want and you can hurt me as much as you want, but the second I say *********, it all stops. Simple as that. *********** means NO!!!

4. I'm still thinking about the kissing. If I make the first move, then it's okay. But I don't want you to sneak a kiss on me.

5. If Rob is in not in the room, the above rules still apply!

It's very important for us to follow these rules. I don't want to wake up the next morning and have regrets that I did more than I was willing to do. I will admit that when I'm horny, I'm up for practically anything. Please don't take advantage of the situation. That's all I ask.

And the only other thing, I think I want tonight to be for me.  Not to be selfish, but I think that if Rob watches me doing all this stuff for you but I won't do it for him, that may lead to problems. I suggest that we keep it relatively "tame" in terms of positions and what I do for you. I want to know how we feel afterwards, and maybe, MAYBE, round #2 will be super kinky! 

But in order for that to be possible, you CANNOT jeopardize my trust on the above 5 rules. Memorize them, and I swear you're in for a wild night!  I shaved just for you!  A nice, perfectly cleanly shaved pussy for your entertainment and pleasure!

See ya then!

Jennifer




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I was terrified. We had laid out ground rules so that emotions wouldn’t get in the way. This was about eroticism. The emails had gotten away from us and the chatting was a ton of fun but one thing had led to another.

Now it was time to get things moving along. I wanted to see what Jennifer was like in bed with Alex! How would she behave? What would she do?

I know this sounds very unreal. I assure you, this is how it went down and these are actual emails.



And the ground rules would create a situation where neither Alex or myself could speak and Jennifer was blindfolded.

What could go wrong???

[Cuckcuckgoose1]

Following....wondering how in the hell is he going to pull this off.

[Dream Weaver]

Following....wondering how in the hell is he going to pull this off.

"I went to the costume shop and bought a pair of those glasses with a mustache attached..."

[goodnfun]

Following....wondering how in the hell is he going to pull this off.

"I went to the costume shop and bought a pair of those glasses with a mustache attached..."

ROTFL! Right???

[Dream Weaver]

Following....wondering how in the hell is he going to pull this off.

"I went to the costume shop and bought a pair of those glasses with a mustache attached..."

ROTFL! Right???

I'm enjoying this thread! Forgive the little jokes. They are all in good fun.

[goodnfun]

CHAPTER 9 - PLANNING THE IMPOSSIBLE

I'd been planning how to do this. Okay, She thinks he's got an 8" dick so I need to deal with that. Now the funny part is that she didn't remember it being that big, but it had also been a while. Her ex, Ben, was very large so she thought she may have been confusing the two!

Anyways, easy solution. We have a "toy box" with a variety of different sex toys. We have an 8" clean silicon dildo that's thick and it came with a strap on harness. We also never use it. I don't even know why we got it, but it was going to be put to use.

The second hurdle, smell... I bought some cologne that he used to wear. That should help with the mood and energy!

Third hurdle, hair... Okay, solution. Wear a hat!

Oh... And the biggest hurdle??? IT WASN'T HIM, IT WAS ME!!!! Solution.... Alcohol.

So I got everything set up and got a hotel room booked.

I was a wreck. So nervous. How could I figure this out. So Jennifer and I talked about it and I was adamant that I didn't want her to get attached. So there was a 6th rule.

#6. NO KISSING/MAKING OUT unless JENNIFER initiated it.

In a weird, twisted way I wanted her to initiate any kissing, not Alex.

I went to the hotel (which was in our city not too far away) and I got the room key and got the room ready. I had some bottles of water, the massage oil and everything else necessary. The plan was that Jennifer and I were going to go out for dinner, then head to the hotel and we'd have a few drinks.

I didn't drink anything, I couldn't screw this up. But Jennifer was. And the plan was that at 9m I would leave the room, she'd strip down to her panties and lie on the bed, face down awaiting her visitor for the massage.

By 9pm, Jennifer was pretty tipsy and very excited for her planned engagement. She was downright giddy and her inhibitions were gone. She was very much awaiting the anticipation of her visitor.

And so 9pm hit and I looked at Jen and said, "Do you want me to go and get Alex?"

And she looked at me with excitement in her glossy eyes and nodded with approval. I left to go get Alex from his room.

And so, 10 minutes later, shaking, sweating, short breath and scared to death, I knocked three times and used the keycard to get in. The "three knock" was to let Jennifer know we were coming in. It was our "code" that it was me.

I was terrified that I'd get into the room and Jennifer would be standing there, looking at me, onto my game. Or she'd be standing there, let down wondering why it was just me... But nope, she was face down on the bed, exactly as we had planned. As soon as I walked in Jen started to laugh!

It also helped that music was planing in the background. I went beside Jen and said "He's here... I'm going to sit in the corner and he's going to start the massage..."

And that's exactly what happened.

[Cuckcuckgoose1]

Good job Ethan Hunt....

[hubudig2]

I'd been planning how to do this. Okay, She thinks he's got an 8" dick so I need to deal with that.
[...]
Anyways, easy solution.
[...]
We have an 8" clean silicon dildo that's thick and it came with a strap on harness.

You thought a woman wouldn't be able to tell the difference between a cold silicone strap-on and a real dick?
Although that's not even the most unbelievable part.

[goodnfun]

I'd been planning how to do this. Okay, She thinks he's got an 8" dick so I need to deal with that.
[...]
Anyways, easy solution.
[...]
We have an 8" clean silicon dildo that's thick and it came with a strap on harness.

You thought a woman wouldn't be able to tell the difference between a cold silicone strap-on and a real dick?
Although that's not even the most unbelievable part.

When I was prepping, I filled the ice bucket with really warm water.

Yes, it was a thought for sure, and I absolutely considered that as things were starting up. So the ice bucket filled with very warm water and the dildo could be quickly added/removed from the harness. In fact, I had two different ones in case the first wouldn't fit properly! The second one was smaller and more manageable. I could easily swap them out.

Plus, remember, alcohol. Also, when the dildo wasn't in the warm water, I kept it under the boxers which helped keep it warm. But you're absolutely right, it was pretty cold, but warms up quickly.

[Tryagain]

I have used a big dildo on my wife in the hope that it could replace the big cocks she craves so much. . No good! It is just not give the feeling of a real one. Warm water is not going to heat it up enough. I have always used a microwave for no more than 1 minute and that generates enough heat.

At one point i installed a microwave in the bedroom for quick and sufficient heat! But alas, she needed a real cock.

But continue your account.