Thanks. I pretty much said the same things to her repeatedly, but she's had a hard time forgiving herself, so when someone is in that frame of mind, there's only so much one can say or do until that person let's you in and truly hears you.Open2it wrote: ↑Sat May 27, 2023 2:06 amI’m so sorry to read of your difficulties. Things happen and get said in the heat of the moment. But all you can do is learn and move on. It sounds like Lana is being hard on herself when she shouldn’t. You’re both learning what you like about this hobby. You were spot on by telling her your forgiveness was never an issue. She’s your wife and soulmate who also happens to enjoy being your cuckoldress. All you want for her is to be happy and safe.
I think that she feels ashamed that she wasn't able to be as clearheaded as she tends to be and the consequence of that in the worst case scenario would be contracting an STD, so her level of irresponsibility was really at the heart of what lead her to hiding the truth. She's said that in the worst case scenario where she were to get an STD from Adam and had it passed to me, she would have never forgiven herself.Dharmadude wrote: ↑Sat May 27, 2023 5:37 am
Why is she hiding things from you?
Is she not comfortable sharing those details?
Is that just who she is, that she needs this as “private”?
Does she not want to hurt/humiliate/shame you with these details?
Well I might agree with you, however, Adam hasn't sent and videos of him fucking her where she's facing the camera or where she'd otherwise see that he was recording. If he had those sorts of videos, I feel that he would have sent those to me already.william70 wrote: ↑Sat May 27, 2023 1:47 pmWell she lied to you before about Shaun and she'll lie to you again. As far as the pics and videos, as many as you've said you'd received there is no way she didn't know! I think you figured this out early on. It happens to all of us, when we don't want to face reality. IMHO.
I think you meant Adam and not Sebastian, as I was present the one time her and Sebastian fucked. So assuming you meant Adam, I feel as if I know all of the details now as she's had the opportunity to fully divulge the truth at this point so it wouldn't make sense that she would still be holding onto a lie that she had ever used condoms with Adam. She's confessed that they fucked more times bare than with condoms and that once she felt his bare cock for the first time inside of her, she knew there was no way she could go back.Mrwarmwife wrote: ↑Sat May 27, 2023 2:25 pmWow, really hot series of events! What a jerk Adam is being. He should just be lucky to have had such a great experience with her.
Hate to ask, but do you think she was honest about not taking Sebastion without a condom even for a few seconds?
She's gotten around to that in the sense that she is admitting that her actions were absolutely not worth the hell she's been going through in the last few days.Shauncuckold wrote: ↑Sat May 27, 2023 2:49 pmRandom thought. Before we entered the lifestyle, I would tell Kendall half truths or lie to her if I thought it would hurt her feelings or get her mad at me. After we entered the lifestyle, I decided to be 100% truthful. Initially it was tough changing my habits but I made a decision to do it. Now I learned that being truthful is appreciated by Kendall, easier on my conscience and brings us closer together.
Maybe Lana has to make a decision for herself to want to change.
Mr. Swan
Thanks. I'm confident things are going to get back on track soon. We're just currently still in the moment, so to speak, and Adam continues to send me videos and screenshots, even without input on my end. So with each new recording he sends me, my heart races a bit in dread as I'm scared it might uncover something else that I didn't realize before.TheHammer wrote: ↑Sat May 27, 2023 4:38 pmThis lying could just be her slutty alter ego coming out and she isn’t forthcoming as she may want to feel slutty by doing things like that in and not being forthcoming. Also, some people are habitual liars but doesn’t necessarily make them bad people. She may have just got into the cheating wife role a bit too much.
Hope things get back on track!
Thanks. Yeah I think we've been spoiled with Shawn in the sense that he knew how to push boundaries without fully being a bad person, whereas Adam doesn't seem to get that.michael8401 wrote: ↑Sat May 27, 2023 6:44 pmI absolutely hate guys like that. They suck all the fun out of things just to feed their ridiculous ego.. I’m so sorry you’re dealing with that shit ugh
Yeah, if Adam has had any lasting impression on me, it'll be the fact that I'm in a constant state of apprehension now that I'll randomly come across a video online of Lana and him fucking. I'm trying to compartmentalize these feelings as I can't let it have a huge impact on my mental health, but I feel like it's at least going to be in the back of my mind for a while.parmaham55 wrote: ↑Sat May 27, 2023 9:09 pmOn the Adam front, my only thought is to blank him, ignore him, block him. Videoing without permission is unacceptable, and Lana may learn to be a little more wary and cautious. Sorry to hear what has happened. I fear any attempt to appease or persuade or teach him better manners could lead to worse - distribution on a wider scale.
On a lighter note, I wonder how Shawn may react when he returns to discover that his pussy has been loaned out to others. (if he does find out). His feelings ran deep, as did Lana's, and re-engagement with Shawn on an emotional level, dominating Lana's body and soul, will be the ultimate ride for you as you both submit to him again.
That's a good idea about a no phones rule except hers. I should mention it.Open2it wrote: ↑Sun May 28, 2023 2:19 amIt doesn’t do either of you any good to dwell on the past. It happened and can’t be changed. The bottom line is at the moment it was her choice to go without condoms. In a way it was similar to some of the games you played with Shawn. Probably the biggest take away going forward is to ask future hook-ups to leave their phones someplace inaccessible during play so the only phone near the bed is hers.
Update: So Lana is clean thank goodness. It was really hard seeing her so broken and she said she felt like the worst person in the world going into the clinic as a married woman. She felt at if everyone knew what her story was and it almost caused her an anxiety attack.
Like I had mentioned earlier, Adam continues to send me videos of him and Lana. Always from the same two angles though - where he's at the end of the bed getting head so that the phone is behind her and also when he's fucking her from behind. I've since stopped trying to engage in a real conversation with him too as it didn't seem to be going anywhere, but it doesn't seem to have much impact, as it only seems to promt him to say things like "oh ignoring me now? What, are you scared I'm going to pound your wife again? Lol." He'll also send me videos of him jerking off telling me "about to go to watch videos of your wife being a whore on my cock."
This has predictively affected our plans for the weekend with Sebastian, who we told that something came up and we wouldn't be able to have him with him at least until next weekend. He seems to be understanding so that's good. The plan is to just spend the day together with the dogs and for me to try and help Lana get to the point where she's forgiving herself. On my end, I think I'm done being negatively impacted with Adam as Lana's opened up about the whole truth (I think) at this point, so I think I'm ready to adjust my perspective of the whole thing and allow myself to just be turned on by it. I mean, I have no other choice really, as he seems to enjoy the constant mocking. My thinking is that if I allow myself to be turned on by it, Lana will pick up on that and it'll allow her to forgive herself.
That's the hope at least.
