I'm Ky, and I'm a cuck-oholic

[Bubbagmp]

Ky, I feel you've just gotten lucky in your choice of bulls during your cucklife experience. You really should re-read your posts on your previous experience. You got extremely lucky with your Derrick experience. Your wife was swimming with a shark and (at the time) you had no clue. You only got lucky in the fact your wife broke the spell.

Had she hadn't, I would had given it a greater than 90% probability Derrick would've stolen your wife, used her up, and cast her & your marriage in the dust. Right now Wade is completely opposite of that, but this is where it can get worse. This 3way excelled in smooth harmony better than any of you could have fathomed.

Wade is in deep waters, uncharted territory:; IMO, Wade fell in love Jaime, he had children with her. You're fortunate that right now he respects boundaries. As time goes on, these boundaries can blur. JMO, all of Wade's future mates will be compared to the Jaime standard. Yes, according to your posts, Wade can get ANY girl, but will she be able to hold up to the Jill's standard.

Your life, wife, family is just beginning. There are many rewards & hardships that will test both of you & your marriage. Wade's feeling may fade, but don't think for a minute that if your R takes a dive 5, 10 years down the road, that Wade would gladly step in. More likely if Wade remains not in an R.

I can't predict your future, but I've been around long enough to know human nature .

[Ky_Da]

Ky, I feel you've just gotten lucky in your choice of bulls during your cucklife experience. You really should re-read your posts on your previous experience. You got extremely lucky with your Derrick experience. Your wife was swimming with a shark and (at the time) you had no clue. You only got lucky in the fact your wife broke the spell.

Had she hadn't, I would had given it a greater than 90% probability Derrick would've stolen your wife, used her up, and cast her & your marriage in the dust. Right now Wade is completely opposite of that, but this is where it can get worse. This 3way excelled in smooth harmony better than any of you could have fathomed.

Wade is in deep waters, uncharted territory:; IMO, Wade fell in love Jaime, he had children with her. You're fortunate that right now he respects boundaries. As time goes on, these boundaries can blur. JMO, all of Wade's future mates will be compared to the Jaime standard. Yes, according to your posts, Wade can get ANY girl, but will she be able to hold up to the Jill's standard.

Your life, wife, family is just beginning. There are many rewards & hardships that will test both of you & your marriage. Wade's feeling may fade, but don't think for a minute that if your R takes a dive 5, 10 years down the road, that Wade would gladly step in. More likely if Wade remains not in an R.

I can't predict your future, but I've been around long enough to know human nature .

That’s some good insight, Bubbagmp. I’ve been thinking about them as I’ve gone through my day today. Those early days with Derrick are still gut wrenching to think about. The whole way we started off our ‘game’ was really a disaster. It was almost more done out of spite on my wife’s part than a conscious effort to share an experience as a couple. But Yeah, we were really lucky to avoid a disaster with Derrick. And as hard as it is, excluding Wade from our lives is the right way to go forward. What’s done is done, and we all have to move forward—and you’re right, that also includes him moving on and forward.

I think because we’ve been fairly lucky with finding a couple of good guys, i.e. Wade & Bennett, we were lulled into a false sense of how hard it can be to find a good guy to participate with. Even with this guy Andrew that Jaimee has seen a few times now. He seems to be an alright guy, but it’s not looking like it’s going to work out much longer. So we’re at a point where we’re about to start from ground zero looking for a new boyfriend for her. Well, I say that, but honestly we’re only playing the game every once in a while. We just don’t have the flexibility we used to with the expanded family. So yeah, our plan is stay the course and keep Wade at a distance. Interestingly enough, my wife called me about 3 in the morning my time to talk to me about my conversation with Wade. She actually told me the same thing one of the commenters said, and that is the next time to just curtly nod and keep walking. She doesn’t hate him. Far from it. But it’s better this way so that those lines don’t get blurred. So yes, I’m on board. I’m not going to let my lizard brain rule my thoughts. For now, I’m thinking of continuing on my story in the library, or maybe starting another one now that I’ve had a little practice.

[Ky_Da]

Hey all,

With the family out of town, I’ve had some time to myself that I haven’t had in a while. So, I started writing again in the library, and so at someone’s suggestion, this is the link:

viewtopic.php?f=8&t=54339&sid=784005c81 ... c6f9d59daf

If the link doesn’t work - because honestly I’m not sure I did it correctly, then you can look for the title “How Way Leads to Way.”

I’d sincerely love any input you might have. I’ve outlined the story, but the difficulty has been sticking to the outline. I have so many fantasies I’d like to include in the story, but I’ve got to be careful not to throw in too much and ruin the story that it’s meant to be.

As I’ve posted in the last weeks, we tried jumping back into the he game, but we’ve decided it’s just not the right time, and so we’ve pulled back again. Life with the two boys is really all we can handle right now. Maybe we’ll try again at a later date, but for now, my time’s going to be spent in the library.

I wish you all the best, Ky

P.S. please check out the story and leave a comment.

[sabya167]

Yes the link works.You did it correctly. I, for one, just love the way you express yourself and your thoughts, and I will be there to read and comment.Thank you so much for the story. I'm sure as the story develops, the plot thickens, as you navigate the difficult waters and manage the difficult turns, I'm sure people will join in. You never know what will catch whose imagination and when. 8/9/10 years back there used to be not more than 3/4 comments per chapter of X. That's because there was not much room for a new comment with new insight and interpretation after the initial ones, as the story hadn't matured/ progressed much then. But he had a story to tell and that he kept telling. There were good, bad and downright ugly comments. People called the main two protagonists all kinds of names. They called Jen a slut, a whore a bitch and Mike an abominable, pathetic, sissy wimpy cuckold. I always felt the comments did a good job of influencing X's storyline. That happened because of 7 billion different prisms, outlooks, worldviews and interpretations of the same thing.My point of telling you all this is if you are planning to do this long term then be prepared for the ugly comments as well and maybe ask yourself how to deal with them trying to influence your storyline. Maybe your stubborn streak will help. All the best,Ky.

[Ky_Da]

Yes the link works.You did it correctly. I, for one, just love the way you express yourself and your thoughts, and I will be there to read and comment.Thank you so much for the story. I'm sure as the story develops, the plot thickens, as you navigate the difficult waters and manage the difficult turns, I'm sure people will join in. You never know what will catch whose imagination and when. 8/9/10 years back there used to be not more than 3/4 comments per chapter of X. That's because there was not much room for a new comment with new insight and interpretation after the initial ones, as the story hadn't matured/ progressed much then. But he had a story to tell and that he kept telling. There were good, bad and downright ugly comments. People called the main two protagonists all kinds of names. They called Jen a slut, a whore a bitch and Mike an abominable, pathetic, sissy wimpy cuckold. I always felt the comments did a good job of influencing X's storyline. That happened because of 7 billion different prisms, outlooks, worldviews and interpretations of the same thing.My point of telling you all this is if you are planning to do this long term then be prepared for the ugly comments as well and maybe ask yourself how to deal with them trying to influence your storyline. Maybe your stubborn streak will help. All the best,Ky.

Thanks for the encouragement, Sabya. You make good points. Comments are a double edged sword; they’re great to read, both good and bad, but it’s easy to let them influence you as the creator of the story, and I’ve found I need to remind myself of that so I don’t get pulled into a direction other than the one I want to write.

[subtoall]

Yes the link works.You did it correctly. I, for one, just love the way you express yourself and your thoughts, and I will be there to read and comment.Thank you so much for the story. I'm sure as the story develops, the plot thickens, as you navigate the difficult waters and manage the difficult turns, I'm sure people will join in. You never know what will catch whose imagination and when. 8/9/10 years back there used to be not more than 3/4 comments per chapter of X. That's because there was not much room for a new comment with new insight and interpretation after the initial ones, as the story hadn't matured/ progressed much then. But he had a story to tell and that he kept telling. There were good, bad and downright ugly comments. People called the main two protagonists all kinds of names. They called Jen a slut, a whore a bitch and Mike an abominable, pathetic, sissy wimpy cuckold. I always felt the comments did a good job of influencing X's storyline. That happened because of 7 billion different prisms, outlooks, worldviews and interpretations of the same thing.My point of telling you all this is if you are planning to do this long term then be prepared for the ugly comments as well and maybe ask yourself how to deal with them trying to influence your storyline. Maybe your stubborn streak will help. All the best,Ky.

Thanks for the encouragement, Sabya. You make good points. Comments are a double edged sword; they’re great to read, both good and bad, but it’s easy to let them influence you as the creator of the story, and I’ve found I need to remind myself of that so I don’t get pulled into a direction other than the one I want to write.

Ky,
The judgmental comments that you are bound to receive in response to a story like the one you are writing say a lot more about the biases and shortcomings of the commenters than they do about you or your literary choices. I hope you'll remember this when some insensitive rube inevitably pushes your buttons with his thoughtless judgement.

I love what you are writing and hope nothing ever dissuades you from sharing your gift with us.

[SutterKane]

Yes the link works.You did it correctly. I, for one, just love the way you express yourself and your thoughts, and I will be there to read and comment.Thank you so much for the story. I'm sure as the story develops, the plot thickens, as you navigate the difficult waters and manage the difficult turns, I'm sure people will join in. You never know what will catch whose imagination and when. 8/9/10 years back there used to be not more than 3/4 comments per chapter of X. That's because there was not much room for a new comment with new insight and interpretation after the initial ones, as the story hadn't matured/ progressed much then. But he had a story to tell and that he kept telling. There were good, bad and downright ugly comments. People called the main two protagonists all kinds of names. They called Jen a slut, a whore a bitch and Mike an abominable, pathetic, sissy wimpy cuckold. I always felt the comments did a good job of influencing X's storyline. That happened because of 7 billion different prisms, outlooks, worldviews and interpretations of the same thing.My point of telling you all this is if you are planning to do this long term then be prepared for the ugly comments as well and maybe ask yourself how to deal with them trying to influence your storyline. Maybe your stubborn streak will help. All the best,Ky.

Thanks for the encouragement, Sabya. You make good points. Comments are a double edged sword; they’re great to read, both good and bad, but it’s easy to let them influence you as the creator of the story, and I’ve found I need to remind myself of that so I don’t get pulled into a direction other than the one I want to write.

Ky,
The judgmental comments that you are bound to receive in response to a story like the one you are writing say a lot more about the biases and shortcomings of the commenters than they do about you or your literary choices. I hope you'll remember this when some insensitive rube inevitably pushes your buttons with his thoughtless judgement.

I love what you are writing and hope nothing ever dissuades you from sharing your gift with us.

+1000

[wannabecUKold]

Ky,
The judgmental comments that you are bound to receive in response to a story like the one you are writing say a lot more about the biases and shortcomings of the commenters than they do about you or your literary choices. I hope you'll remember this when some insensitive rube inevitably pushes your buttons with his thoughtless judgement.

Yeah, it's the American spellings I can't stand.

[Xalar11]

Hey all,

With the family out of town,

In the meantime I hope you have arrived savely to the UK for Christmas to be reunited with Jaimee? How long will you both stay in the UK?
I just want to wish you, Jaimee and your families a Merry Christmas and a happy new year.

[SutterKane]

Ky, I'd like to wish you, Jammie and the boys a very Merry fist Christmas together!

[Ky_Da]

Ky, I'd like to wish you, Jammie and the boys a very Merry fist Christmas together!

Thank you SK. That’s very kind of you to say. I wish the same for you and yours.

[Ky_Da]

I thought I’d leave a quick note before I check out for the holidays. I’ve been on this site for roughly four years, and this kink has been the best of times and the worst of times. More than once I thought I’d kicked the desire and swore to never play the game again, only to fall back into it over and over. These last couple of weeks while my wife and kids have been away, I’ve missed them more than I thought possible. And you know, something’s changed inside of me. Jaimee and I have had a lot of long conversations these last days, and we’ve decided that we’re going to give this whole cuckold thing a long hiatus. Who knows what the future holds, but lately, we’ve both felt very strongly that we need to stop while we’re ahead. We’ve had a tremendous amount of good fortune, and we feel that if we keep pushing it, then one day everything good could be destroyed.

I’m sure I’m going to have those desires come and me hard and fast at times, but I suppose that’s when I’ll work even harder on what I’m writing in the library. I just feel it’s important to dedicate my time and effort into my wife and my boys. There are enough divorced and unhappy people in the world, and I really don’t want to be one of them. My wife and boys are everything to me, and I wont lose them. Maybe it’s the Christmas Spirit I’ve been feeling, but the weight and magnitude of my responsibility to provide for my family has been growing and growing. Life’s been really good.

I wish all of you the best. Merry Christmas.

[sabya167]

Respect, regards, all the best, Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to you and family. Wish you and your family all the happiness, going forward in life.Stay healthy, stay safe, Ky. God bless.

[wifeneedn]

Merry Christmas KY and the best New Year possible for you and your family. Cheers.

[lovesexfun]

I am cuck-oholic myself

[sadie]

I don't know Ky, you keep returning to the assertion you want to be vanilla, then oscillating back to wanting to be cuckolded. You've said that writing erotica makes it harder to resist and yet also (and I think I get both sides of this), that it affords you some release.

My own take is that deeply held sexual desires don't go away. My observation so far has been that e.g. for people who are into BDSM, or what we do here, it's as much a permanent orientation as being hetero, gay or lesbian. As you might imagine, I do have some experience and feelings about people hiding in a closet and denying their orientation.

The only risk I think is relevant is that it could become known that you're non monogamous. For better or worse, Americans have a big old chip on their shoulders on the subject of cheating and unfortunately many probably can't wrap their heads around the difference between agreeing to have outside partners and cheating.

However in your demographic, poly and open relationships aren't that unfamiliar (in part thanks to people like Dan Savage). So even this doesn't seem that daunting to me. Granted I'm a woman who's out about being lesbian, poly, in leathersex (BDSM).

You've gone about as far as one can in objective terms, not just in having children fathered by her lover. I'm not sure what more you think would happen if you continued. I said this in a post a while ago and I'll put it here again, I don't understand your choice to cut out Wade. He was a friend, close to both of you and again, responsible for fathering your twins. If I were him, I'd feel badly that you'd choose to sever all contact. (To be sure, I don't care that most here have agreed with your decision. I've been successfully practicing non monogamy for 20+ years and my only regret has been that I didn't figure it out sooner in life, ymmv.)

I'm sure Wade will be fine, as I'm sure you will be, however I do part ways with you in calling what you and Jaimee have been doing all these years "a game". If that's truly all it is then yeah, you'd best quit. However you've said you're quitting at least a couple of times and it doesn't seem to stick.

There's my $0.02 and unless you show you want to bat this around further, I think it's time for me to butt out of your thread.

With all best wishes to you, Jaimee, Wade and kids

[Suchen Zucker]

Sadie, I don't get the feeling that the risk of being "outed" is what they are concerned about. I think they are experiencing the sublime experience and heart-heavy knowledge that they are now "everything" to their little baby boys. Cuckolding introduces instability and risk, (real or imagined), into the family unit by it's very nature. I think they have their hands and minds full with just being new parents. Ky is realizing that being a good father is so rewarding that, at least for now, he doesn't need his kink to be happy. I also bet that Jaimee is having a hard time getting into the head-space she needs to even consider fucking another guy and enjoying it. And if she isn't into it then how could Ky be satisfied as a cuck? I would imagine they will revisit this sexual aspect of their relationship when they feel they are ready and can handle it.

My best wishes to your family Ky.

BTW, I'm loving your story in the library! Keep it up!

-Suchen

[insertomit]

After my kids were born I had a decline in sexual desire. One was being tired but another was I got a lot of oxytocin from cuddling the baby.

Ky, make sure you have a babysitter to help you.

[Ky_Da]

I don't know Ky, you keep returning to the assertion you want to be vanilla, then oscillating back to wanting to be cuckolded. You've said that writing erotica makes it harder to resist and yet also (and I think I get both sides of this), that it affords you some release.

My own take is that deeply held sexual desires don't go away. My observation so far has been that e.g. for people who are into BDSM, or what we do here, it's as much a permanent orientation as being hetero, gay or lesbian. As you might imagine, I do have some experience and feelings about people hiding in a closet and denying their orientation.

The only risk I think is relevant is that it could become known that you're non monogamous. For better or worse, Americans have a big old chip on their shoulders on the subject of cheating and unfortunately many probably can't wrap their heads around the difference between agreeing to have outside partners and cheating.

However in your demographic, poly and open relationships aren't that unfamiliar (in part thanks to people like Dan Savage). So even this doesn't seem that daunting to me. Granted I'm a woman who's out about being lesbian, poly, in leathersex (BDSM).

You've gone about as far as one can in objective terms, not just in having children fathered by her lover. I'm not sure what more you think would happen if you continued. I said this in a post a while ago and I'll put it here again, I don't understand your choice to cut out Wade. He was a friend, close to both of you and again, responsible for fathering your twins. If I were him, I'd feel badly that you'd choose to sever all contact. (To be sure, I don't care that most here have agreed with your decision. I've been successfully practicing non monogamy for 20+ years and my only regret has been that I didn't figure it out sooner in life, ymmv.)

I'm sure Wade will be fine, as I'm sure you will be, however I do part ways with you in calling what you and Jaimee have been doing all these years "a game". If that's truly all it is then yeah, you'd best quit. However you've said you're quitting at least a couple of times and it doesn't seem to stick.

There's my $0.02 and unless you show you want to bat this around further, I think it's time for me to butt out of your thread.

With all best wishes to you, Jaimee, Wade and kids

Hey Sadie,
You know, it’s like you’re privy to Jaimee and I’s private conversations. The topics you mentioned above are things we’ve talked so much about in the last few months. We made the decision to cut Wade of our lives because it did/does make the most sense on the surface, or maybe it’s better said that it seemed the least risky to our marriage and future family. But we still talk about him often, asking ourselves if we made the right decision. My wife still feels a deep affection for him, and she’s had a few good cries over the last months about it.

What makes this harder is that Wade has never done anything to hurt our marriage, and yes, he knew what he’d was getting into when this all started - that he was basically the outsider, but things get complicated when real emotion starts getting involved. We learned from a mutual friend that Wade spent Christmas alone, and I’ll admit, I feel bad for him. He sent a very heart felt text to us on Christmas Day, wishing us nothing but the best. It’s just a hard thing for all involved.

As to still referring to it as ‘a game’ I get it, but it’s become an easy way to refer to our ‘extra curricular activities’. My wife has said as much in the recent past, that she doesn’t feel like it’s a game anymore. We really do need to find a better reference for it.

As I write about in a few posts, my wife did connect with a guy a handful of times, mainly because we were both feeling the itch, and Jaimee very much wanted to feel sexy and feel that adrenaline rush again. But we’ve quickly realized it’s simply too early, and my wife’s not ready to start again, at least not with someone unfamiliar.

I think about the boys all the time and wonder about how their future will unfold. They’re both growing like weeds, still in the 99th percentile for height and weight. I’m 5-10 and about 160 lbs, but these boys will probably be well over 6- feet and probably over 200lbs when they’re older. I can see my wife’s features in them, her wide framed mouth and pronounced lips, but what will they look like in their teens and twenties? Will it be obvious I’m not the father? We enjoyed the experience with cuckoldry, and I do think it’s part of who I am, and wife has discovered how much she enjoys her sexual freedom. Those things combined make for a powerful cocktail of desire to not stay monogamous. Writing does trigger me something fierce, but it’s also my only release right now.

Thanks for your thoughts. You bring a unique perspective.

Ky,

[Ky_Da]

Sadie, I don't get the feeling that the risk of being "outed" is what they are concerned about. I think they are experiencing the sublime experience and heart-heavy knowledge that they are now "everything" to their little baby boys. Cuckolding introduces instability and risk, (real or imagined), into the family unit by it's very nature. I think they have their hands and minds full with just being new parents. Ky is realizing that being a good father is so rewarding that, at least for now, he doesn't need his kink to be happy. I also bet that Jaimee is having a hard time getting into the head-space she needs to even consider fucking another guy and enjoying it. And if she isn't into it then how could Ky be satisfied as a cuck? I would imagine they will revisit this sexual aspect of their relationship when they feel they are ready and can handle it.

My best wishes to your family Ky.

BTW, I'm loving your story in the library! Keep it up!

-Suchen

Damn SZ, that’s really close to the mark about our current feelings and situation. We do still struggle with knowing if cutting Wade out was the right decision, but raising these boy us see everything differently. Most specifically that we’re not doing anything to risk our family. The boys deserve an intact, whole, and happy family.

[Xalar11]

We enjoyed the experience with cuckoldry, and I do think it’s part of who I am, and wife has discovered how much she enjoys her sexual freedom. Those things combined make for a powerful cocktail of desire to not stay monogamous. Writing does trigger me something fierce, but it’s also my only release right now.

Excuse if I repeat this again, but your latest comments are a bit concerning. I'm probably quite at the opposite range of opinions comparing to Sadie

I can understand that you feel a kind of pity for Wade. He's obviously not a bad person and I have no doubt that it was difficult, but in my opinion it is to 100% the right decision for you and Jaimee to cut ties with Wade. I can only urge and plead you not to waver on this decision, under no circumstances. Any closer relationship between you and Wade, but mainly between Jaimee and Wade, well, there are so many potential pitfalls, I can hardly count. I remember youself spoke about opening "Pandora's box", excuse me if I express it way more drastically, I would say that would be the absolute stuppiest thing you could do. Like I already said, there are so many potential pitfalls with this, I can't count. Beginning with that Wade probably would like to have a even bigger role in the boys lives, demanding more and more, and maybe ending with Jaimee intensifying her feelings for Wade and leaving you for him, as unlikely as this seems for you today. I know you'll say this is a worst case scenario, and you're right it is, but you you can't deny that such a scenario could be possible, as unlikely as it seems. And the sheer possiblity of such a scenario should prevent you to restart things with Wade . This all is certainly not worth the risk of causing problems in your marriage or even the risk of loosing Jaimee. 

Look, I don't say you and Jaimee should never engage in this "Hotwife-fantasy/game" or whatever you want to call it, ever again. It's something you and Jaimee obviously enjoy. But if you both engage in this again, at some point in the future, it certainly shouldn't be with Wade. But that's of course only my opinion.

I hope you excuse me for bothering you with this issue again.

[NewOldCuck]

Ky_da,

I have mixed emotions about weighing in on this but, since I opened my mouth previously, please allow me a little latitude. I have stated that you did the correct thing by cutting Wade out. I standby that. Wade is a good friend of both of you and I understand you feelings of guilt about cutting ties with him, especially over the holiday season. I was single a long time and holidays were always some of the toughest times because you see couples enjoying the times together and wonder why not me. I ask you, how do you think Wade would feel seeing your family together and not being a part of it? As life goes on, how would Wade feel watching you and Jamie raise the boys not being a part of their life (birthdays, holidays, etc)? As far Jamie goes, why even think about putting her in a position to have choose between her family or Wade? All of these possibilities can be avoided by doing what you have done. It’s like ripping a bandaid off, short time pain for long term gain. One last point, when you are making the decisions remember, you’re a family now not a couple. Happy New Year to you and your entire family.

New Old Cuck

[wannabecUKold]

Hi Ky
As you know, I agree with xalar and newoldcuck. If it is a choice between you or Wade who spends Christmas alone, you've got to make sure it's him. That's the deal when you play with married women (or married men, as every mistress knows).

[sadie]

Ky, here's something worth looking at - how someone else looked over the edge of the abyss and found a way forward.

viewtopic.php?f=6&t=41775&p=1047701#p1047532

To save you reading a very long thread, she had been in a submissive role to her boss for several years (who she dumped after something blew up) and was also involved with a quite hedonistic black guy with whom she really did go overboard. Her husband was well aware that she didn't tell him everything, however when she got into a 'lost weekend' situation, all that came out and he called that it was too much - she agreed.

Now your situations aren't that comparable, by my estimates Lametta & Mrs L went far farther than you and Jaimee, in some specific areas, also, her lover was absolutely working to influence her to things he probably realized weren't in the best interest of her marriage, something that by my read Wade never has done..

They did cut off sexual contact with her lover aside from one last fuck-date, and then pulled back from everything. I'm reading between the lines a bit to think that that stress hit on other weak spots in their relationship - we all have those. The good news is as far as I can see, they've come away stronger, if still working on things.

[tfx]

An adult now, but i was an adopted baby. Right from the start i always knew and was fine with it. I had a loving home and great parents. I have another family member that is still growing up under the illusion that his biological dad was his only dad. I know its not, and so does many others in the family but he's oblivious. I don't think its fair to him... i think his mom [my aunt]will take that secret to her grave. We don't dare tell him as it would be devastating for him. You may cut Wade out of your life but there will come a time when you need to make a decision on whether you tell the boys or not. They may figure it out on their own as well, and that could go any which way.
I suppose if it were me, I would like to know from the start what they dynamic was and never lied to. I wouldn't need to know the details, but it would be good to know that i'm not my dads kid, and at some point in the future if i wanted to I could meet my biological Dad.
I suppose you only have a few years before they're old enough to start understanding those things.
I think Wade deserves a spot in those kids lives as Uncle Wade. You took the risk so you should deal with the consequences through the lens of whats best for the twins. Jamiee and Wade should be no more, but the family should have a relationship with Wade... eventually he'll find someone else, but i don't see why he can't still be your friends.