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I have posted on here before as the happy half of a couple whose female half started sleeping with her bull, then another, and then her first bull more often and it was the best rollercoaster ride ever, an incredible, INCREDIBLE turn on. I absolutely loved knowing she's sleeping with him and eating his cum from her pussy, even a condom a couple times... She loved me posting progress and adventures up here and I (and her) loved the feedback. And it seems, she loved my submission into this more than I ever anticipated...

She one day, about 4 months ago, decided that I was no longer to post her adventures - and that she will from then on only have sex with him, and no longer with me.
I imagine this would break most people, but oddly, it is the hugest turn on imaginable for me, the ultimate cuckold experience. I love the idea that she is his, only has sex with him. She loves me, and I love her, but she'll only let him fuck her, or whomever else she chooses. I no longer get to post pictures or events of hers, she wants it entirely private.

One factor, I believe, was that during that development, she really cultivated my bisexuality, pushed for it, got turned on by it, in a semi-humiliating, spectator way. She made me live it stronger and more continually, and in the process now enjoys and gets turned on by me being strongly bi and me (truly) enjoying it.
She then started to ask me to crossdress, dress up for her. She discarded my entire drawer of male underwear and had me replace it with female lingerie and panties, then added normal female clothing, dresses, skirts, shirts..., then a wig and girly shoes. She gets turned on by feminizing me, while at the same time losing more and more interest in having sex with me again.

And again, it is a major turn on for me. I have never felt so hot and horny and sexy...

Our lifestyle life started with being kinky, then turned into an open relationship which then grew into the cuckold relationship, yet, still, I could play on the side... Now, she made me start a fetlife profile, as female, and now no longer allows me to play with other women, only men. She insists that my only sexual or intimate interactions are with men - and again, I am following, hugely turned on, and can never stop being turned on by it.

I am posting this here now because she asked me to do so. She wants me to come out here and tell my story, but I am not even sure if anyone wants to read it.

I used to to identify as straight, then bi. I don't think I am gay, but her feminization of me is making me feel incredible and I think she loves the idea of crystallizing my transgender side out of me.

Have others experiences a progress or feelings like this? Discovered their bi, gay, trans side? I'd love to chat with anyone into this to this degree.

Cheers all, and thanks for reading.

Cuckold here.
Haven’t pushed the forced bi and fem desires, but eager to read more for ideas for our application.

I’m there, it started three years ago this month. I wear women’s panties 24/7/365. I have been using estrogen for three years, I’ve developed breasts, my little peepee has shrunk, the twins have atrophied, I cry constantly. I’m trying to find bras that fit. My wife’s lover had turned me into a feminine cocksucker. He doesn’t ask me but tells me to suck his cock and I gladly get down on my knees and suck him until I get my reward of warm fresh man cream to swallow.

I like what I have become.

Pauline

PS, I forgot to mention when I started using estrogen after a couple of months my nipples started to hurt due to the estrogen. My nipples started to bud just like a girl who starts developing breasts. I had a blood test done recently and my estrogen level was extremely high.

I no longer have erections but climax In my panties without touching myself when I get excited. My MIL knows my wife has a lover. In addition she lets them spend the weekend at her home sleeping in my wife’s former bedroom.

<< Have others experiences a progress or feelings like this? Discovered their bi, gay, trans side? I'd love to chat with anyone into this to this degree. >>

Here at our house, we have discussed the possibility of me making a full time gender transition, M to F. Unfortunately she is currently against it.

However, don't misinterpret that to mean that it was her idea. I started wearing my mother's clothes in my early teens, and I'm in my 60s now. I have also considered a gender transition before I met her.

I know that the term "feminize" is accepted in some fetish circles. But in the transgender world, it's mostly seen as a fetish. And while that might be accurate in your situation, it may be that not everyone sees it in a positive light.

For me it was the other way round. My need to be a sissy came first. Over time it developed from occasional sissy maid wearing and punishment during a scene to wearing much more regularly. (I’m currently in a 50s gingham dress.)

Then I found I liked very babyish outfits at night, introduced SPH into the narrative, and became a baby boy who wants to dress as a pretty little girl. All the time reinforcing my inadequacy to satisfy my wife. By that point approaching the subject that “mummy should have a friend to give her special cuddles” came naturally and in a way that didn’t shock her. After a few such discussions, the later ones along the lines of “are you sure” and “would you like that” she realised I was serious about it. And the rest is history…

I have definitely moved in a feminine direction over the last couple of years as a cuckold. I, too, absolutely love it. It's been about 7 months since my last orgasm, as I'm kept in chastity and recently got a PA piercing so that can be enforced better. I have been at least somewhat bisexual (though heteroromantic) since college many years ago, and I have been cultivating that though I don't play with others, just my little (and big) silicone friends I wear panties most days and a bra when I can get away with it, and am using topical estrogen cream. I sent some saliva to a testing place and am pleased to see my testosterone quite low and estrogen in the low female range. I am getting some breast development. I'm really loving this process.

realcucklife wrote: ↑

Wed Mar 16, 2022 2:58 am

Cuckold here.
Haven’t pushed the forced bi and fem desires, but eager to read more for ideas for our application.

I'll be happy to tell more. How is your cuckold life?
For me it started that I liked to be smooth, then to wear panties, and to watch sissy porn. She picked up on that, strongly, and it went from there..

PANTIES wrote: ↑

Wed Mar 16, 2022 4:41 am

I’m there, it started three years ago this month. I wear women’s panties 24/7/365. I have been using estrogen for three years, I’ve developed breasts, my little peepee has shrunk, the twins have atrophied, I cry constantly. I’m trying to find bras that fit. My wife’s lover had turned me into a feminine cocksucker. He doesn’t ask me but tells me to suck his cock and I gladly get down on my knees and suck him until I get my reward of warm fresh man cream to swallow.

I like what I have become.

Pauline

PS, I forgot to mention when I started using estrogen after a couple of months my nipples started to hurt due to the estrogen. My nipples started to bud just like a girl who starts developing breasts. I had a blood test done recently and my estrogen level was extremely high.

I do longer have erections but climax In my panties without touching myself when I get excited. My MIL knows my wife has a lover. In addition she lets them spend the weekend at her home sleeping in my wife’s former bedroom.

That sounds beautiful, would love to see those little breasts. (always happy to exchange pics).
I totally get the part of the wife's lover making you suck his cock, that is so very hot, I love it.
Except here, I am no longer included in their play - but I get turned on by the fact that I am not.

I feel there are more than one, two things going on with me here, one is the welcome positioning as cuckold, the other, the welcome submission to feminity, which I like. The last part is the orientation towards men for me, which has sort of the biggest impact, because it makes me question and/or redevelop my sexual orientation, and that is very exciting..

Christinebitg wrote: ↑

Wed Mar 16, 2022 5:26 am

<< Have others experiences a progress or feelings like this? Discovered their bi, gay, trans side? I'd love to chat with anyone into this to this degree. >>

Here at our house, we have discussed the possibility of me making a full time gender transition, M to F. Unfortunately she is currently against it.

However, don't misinterpret that to mean that it was her idea. I started wearing my mother's clothes in my early teens, and I'm in my 60s now. I have also considered a gender transition before I met her.

I know that the term "feminize" is accepted in some fetish circles. But in the transgender world, it's mostly seen as a fetish. And while that might be accurate in your situation, it may be that not everyone sees it in a positive light.

I totally agree, the term feminize is considered a fetish, for me, it is part of a sexual reorientation, and part of the steps as I now see them coming.

I have talked to friends in the same or similar position and the term autogynephelia was mentioned, the sexual arousal of a man's thought of himself as female, and that might get close, but doesn't at all cover it for me. There still is the enjoyment of (at least partially) it being a submissive act to her directing it and enjoying it, even getting turned on by it, and the inclusion of the whole play with men part, the push for the bi part, which is fun and so very hot... It's a complex little mess, but I am enjoying it.

Specifically, giving up control, and enjoying someone else's control over my sex and sexuality. Gets me off so hard...

Good timing for this thread my wife and I just had a very nice conversation about this. She’s been trying to get a handle on her and ours sexual life. As many of you know she has a bf who lives a few hours away, so they don’t see each other as often as they would like. It’s a very sexual relationship and he brings out a side of her that is amazingly sexual.

We have been working on a FLR which is something that she struggles with at times, which is what we talked about today. She definitely sees me as submissive and prefers me to wear panties and nighties to bed. She wants me to be in chastity more often. And I have to use feminine bath products. I’m shaved from the head down and just finished shaving in a cruise ship shower. Not easy!

She said she wants me to watch her and her BF fuck and then wants me to clean up afterwards. But she’s unsure about what else might happen. At the end we reaffirmed that I am submissive, a sissy, and a cuck. But there is plenty of room to grow.

What's your fetlife name, I'll be sure to look you up @emerald74

Beautiful looking woman, your wife. Incredibly sexy breasts pussy and body.
viewtopic.php?f=9&t=63651&p=1227362#p1227362
I love such a beauty taking control of you and your sex life. She clearly reads you well, taking you first into bi sex, which she enjoys watching, and now into cross-dressing and feminising. And of course denial of sex with her.

This obviously suits your psyche. Do you look good feminised? How old are you? do you have the body for it? I imagine you have, otherwise she wouldn't be so keen. How far would she instruct you to go?

Press on down this road. Take some oestrogen like Pauline to get some feminine curves, small breasts and the hairlessness. Enough to look feminine when dressed like a girl. But not so far gone that you have to change sexual identity (unless you want to).

But keep your cock and balls. Chicks with dicks/ boys with boobs is a great look especially on the nudist beach. In fact your wife should be careful what she wishes for: she might find her boyfriends become more interested in you!

Tell us more about her current adventures. How does she relate to her lover whilst feminising you? For example, as a beautiful and sexy woman, does she dominate her boyfriend? Does the boyfriend know and engage in your feminising? Are you their maidservant?

A female friend told me I climax in my panties just like females. That’s one of the causes of estrogen. The first time I did I was in sexual bliss. Now that my MIL knows my wife gas a lover and I’m her feminine cuckold she wants to see my panties and will fondle me until I climax in her hand.

The first time she did that was at Christmas dinner and I sat there with cum soaked panties. Now it happens when ever we visit. She and I have alone time. Yes my wife knows.

Pauline

Although I was never passable my ex loved me girly and also liked to see me service men.

I was on estrogen for a few years and she loved my little titties. I only had feminine panties and wore girly clothes around home, even when her adult granddaughter lived with us. Of course gd told the rest of the family...

Feminized, bi, sissy or something else. I don't know what category I belong to. When we began our journey my wife was an inexperienced virgin. After some years doing mfm with me and my friends she began to date on her own. After that we tried other things like swinging and bdsm.
Long story short, she became heavily involved with bdsm as a dominant. Over time she became the controlling partner.
Eventually, she decided she wanted me to suck a cock. From there it grew to wearing women's clothing. I had a spontaneous orgasm when she gifted me with my first pair of panties. It finally came to me getting fucked by men. My wearing female clothing and having sex with men turned us both on. It came as a bit of surprise to me that when I sucked my first cock I got hard.
We still have sex but she insists I'm dressed in lingerie with makeup and a wig.

Lockedsub wrote: ↑

Wed Mar 16, 2022 8:59 pm

Good timing for this thread my wife and I just had a very nice conversation about this. She’s been trying to get a handle on her and ours sexual life. As many of you know she has a bf who lives a few hours away, so they don’t see each other as often as they would like. It’s a very sexual relationship and he brings out a side of her that is amazingly sexual.

We have been working on a FLR which is something that she struggles with at times, which is what we talked about today. She definitely sees me as submissive and prefers me to wear panties and nighties to bed. She wants me to be in chastity more often. And I have to use feminine bath products. I’m shaved from the head down and just finished shaving in a cruise ship shower. Not easy!

She said she wants me to watch her and her BF fuck and then wants me to clean up afterwards. But she’s unsure about what else might happen. At the end we reaffirmed that I am submissive, a sissy, and a cuck. But there is plenty of room to grow.

Lovely and very sexy! I only use female bath products and am sugared from top to bottom, like waxing, just nicer..
I have cleaned her up many times and always loved it, but not since she went exclusive with him. I used to be in the room next door, listening to them fuck, and once he left she'd come over and sit on my face and had me get her off orally while all his cum would flow into my mouth... After that I was allowed to briefly masturbate to see how fast I could cum...
Now she sees him entirely separately and does not get together with me anymore afterwards so she or he can spend nights with each other while I wait entirely feminized at home, watching specific porn she chooses for me. She wants me to have sex, too, but only while dressed up and with "straight"/bi men.

coolhandluke11 wrote: ↑

Wed Mar 16, 2022 9:48 pm

What's your fetlife name, I'll be sure to look you up @emerald74

Pm me

wannabecUKold wrote: ↑

Thu Mar 17, 2022 2:22 am

Beautiful looking woman, your wife. Incredibly sexy breasts pussy and body.
viewtopic.php?f=9&t=63651&p=1227362#p1227362
I love such a beauty taking control of you and your sex life. She clearly reads you well, taking you first into bi sex, which she enjoys watching, and now into cross-dressing and feminising. And of course denial of sex with her.
...
Tell us more about her current adventures. How does she relate to her lover whilst feminising you? For example, as a beautiful and sexy woman, does she dominate her boyfriend? Does the boyfriend know and engage in your feminising? Are you their maidservant?

Yes, she reads me very well. She totally got that this is the innermost me, feminine, affeminate, sub, sex-free from her, slowly turning me into a different direction.

It really suits me. I love wearing pretty lingerie when I go to bed and when I wake up. I think I look very nice, happy to show. Great hot legs, nice ass, nice little tits, completely smooth skin, lots of skin care.., and I think my body is very fine for it. Mid-40s but in shape, just wish I was a lot more petite... How far she may want to instruct me to go...? No idea, but hormones like HRT were talked about..

Estrogen like Pauline I have thought about.., actually, she brought it up, saying that I want rounder, more feminine shape, breasts, look feminine, - and I think she's right..

As for "But not so far gone that you have to change sexual identity (unless you want to)." - - gee, how would I know.. Few years ago I was straight, maybe a bit bi, top male, then more sub, then swinger, then cuckold, then sissy, bi, now my partner denies me sex, regularly and separetely has sex with someone else and feminizes me entirely, requiring that I only have sex with dom males... - and I love every bit of it..

Her boyfriend won't be interested in me, as I said, our sex life does not overlap, I never see them together. I also can't tell much about their activities. They are together this weekend in an Airbnb in a small coastal town here in the pnw, I was tasked by her tonight to dress up and go to a (gay) bar and find myself a playmate. Back in the day it was me who asked for pictures from her. Now it's her demanding proof that I had sex with a man, funny how that went...

emerald74 wrote: ↑

Wed Mar 16, 2022 1:07 am

Have others experiences a progress or feelings like this? Discovered their bi, gay, trans side? I'd love to chat with anyone into this to this degree.

I am experiencing it now. My wife was very open to me about her being bi right from the start of our relationship, and always told me that she wanted to see me suck another guy. I was a bit homophobic and absolutely refused to have anything to do sexually with another guy. Our relationship has always been femdom, and I've been a cuckold for most of it. Several years ago she locked me in chastity and kept me locked until she got me to suck my first cock. At that point, I guess the dam broke!

I came to love sucking her lovers before they fucked her, and I started to open up to her about how, when I was a teen, I would put on my sister's and mother's lingerie when I was home alone. I was afraid she would think something was wrong with me and lose respect for me, but just the opposite happened. I should have known better, she is probably the kinkiest woman I've ever known, and she loved me opening up to her. Her exact words were "I respect you even more for having the courage to tell me about this." She immediately bought me several nighties and insisted that I sleep in one every night. She had already had me in panties for several years as a cuckold thing, but then she had me get a bra and pantie set from a site that caters to men, and when she had me model them she loved it.

She used to peg me occasionally, but after my revelation it became a much more regular thing, and she started to call me her 'sissy bitch' while doing so, and fucking me much more forcefully. She eventually had a black lover fuck me, which he did twice before Covid hit and she stopped playing. Now that she is back to cuckolding me again she said she wants to see me fucked by another guy whenever she is with someone who is willing. She has told me that she wants me to give my ass to any of her lovers who want it, and I agreed.

I was diagnosed with low testosterone during this time and was started on hormone replacement therapy. The Dr. told us that there was a possibility that I could start to grow breast tissue because of the shots, and that he could prescribe a medication to prevent that. My wife right away said "He doesn't need that!" My wife now says that my breasts have definitely grown. I told her that it was because I needed to loose weight but she doesn't think so (she's a nurse, BTW). She says I am easily an A cup now, and she loves it! She plays with my breasts a lot, and refers to them as my 'sissy titties'!

I don't consider myself as 'passable' but she has said that she would love to dress me up and take me to a gay bar to get fucked by other guys. She hasn't gotten me any women's clothing other than the lingerie at this point, but she recently told me she wants to get a corset for me so she can start dressing me. She has expressed an interest in having me dress as a woman while at home, but other than the gay bar thing, she hasn't said anything about doing this other than in private. Much to my relief, she has said that it's something she definitely doesn't want to share with others. I'm not holding my breath though, I know she is capable of changing her mind and dressing me for a lover or even for others who know all about our lifestyle and are into it also.

I recently thanked her for turning me bi, and she told me "I didn't turn you anything, you were always that way, you just couldn't admit it to yourself!"

emerald74 wrote: ↑

Sat Mar 19, 2022 12:14 pm

wannabecUKold wrote: ↑

Thu Mar 17, 2022 2:22 am

Beautiful looking woman, your wife. Incredibly sexy breasts pussy and body.
viewtopic.php?f=9&t=63651&p=1227362#p1227362
I love such a beauty taking control of you and your sex life. She clearly reads you well, taking you first into bi sex, which she enjoys watching, and now into cross-dressing and feminising. And of course denial of sex with her.
...
Tell us more about her current adventures. How does she relate to her lover whilst feminising you? For example, as a beautiful and sexy woman, does she dominate her boyfriend? Does the boyfriend know and engage in your feminising? Are you their maidservant?

Yes, she reads me very well. She totally got that this is the innermost me, feminine, affeminate, sub, sex-free from her, slowly turning me into a different direction.

It really suits me. I love wearing pretty lingerie when I go to bed and when I wake up. I think I look very nice, happy to show. Great hot legs, nice ass, nice little tits, completely smooth skin, lots of skin care.., and I think my body is very fine for it. Mid-40s but in shape, just wish I was a lot more petite... How far she may want to instruct me to go...? No idea, but hormones like HRT were talked about..

Estrogen like Pauline I have thought about.., actually, she brought it up, saying that I want rounder, more feminine shape, breasts, look feminine, - and I think she's right..

As for "But not so far gone that you have to change sexual identity (unless you want to)." - - gee, how would I know.. Few years ago I was straight, maybe a bit bi, top male, then more sub, then swinger, then cuckold, then sissy, bi, now my partner denies me sex, regularly and separetely has sex with someone else and feminizes me entirely, requiring that I only have sex with dom males... - and I love every bit of it..

Her boyfriend won't be interested in me, as I said, our sex life does not overlap, I never see them together. I also can't tell much about their activities. They are together this weekend in an Airbnb in a small coastal town here in the pnw, I was tasked by her tonight to dress up and go to a (gay) bar and find myself a playmate. Back in the day it was me who asked for pictures from her. Now it's her demanding proof that I had sex with a man, funny how that went...

I use estrogen cream three times a week, one of the causes is my emotional feelings at times go off the charts as I cry over anything. I get anxious at times like the first time I had to reveal my panties and little peepee to my mother in law.
However the relief I felt when she said she has seen little dicks previously. Then when I climaxed in her hand for the first time she just smiled and said, “I thought would happen.”

I love my lifestyle change as this is what I have wanted all my life.

Pauline

I’m not a cuckold but i am self feminized. It started a long time ago and was the typical lingerie and sex toys type of exploration. But once that got old I moved on to real every day feminine clothes. That brought out the realization that this wasn’t just a fetish. I preferred how I felt when feminine and being regarded as such by other people. I felt more complete. The bisexuality was another part of that awakening.

Rebecca wrote: ↑

Thu Mar 24, 2022 1:53 pm

I’m not a cuckold but i am self feminized. It started a long time ago and was the typical lingerie and sex toys type of exploration. But once that got old I moved on to real every day feminine clothes. That brought out the realization that this wasn’t just a fetish. I preferred how I felt when feminine and being regarded as such by other people. I felt more complete. The bisexuality was another part of that awakening.

Oh MY! What you say is SO true!!!
Even when talking to my counselor, the question/dilemma if this is just a fetish or turn on or actually a true calling, it's HAUNTING me.
I want to give in to it, but never wanted to give in entirely over "just a fetish". Still struggling, but also wanting the feminization.

What you say is true, at those moments, I do feel more like "myself". More true, more honest.

In the beginning I bought panties, then lingerie, plus a bunch of toys, then shoes, then maybe a skirt - and now? Actual clothing, sweaters, blouses, dresses, jackets, so I can actually go out as female. It's taking over but I like it.
That said, I do have a career and am a public face and as such, this side of me can't get public easily, this is hypocritical America after all.

A big struggle, plus the still lingering uncertainty of it being real or fetish.
And this doesn't even touch the sexual parts, where I am very comfortable, btw...

<< I use estrogen cream three times a week, one of the causes is my emotional feelings at times go off the charts as I cry over anything. >>

Oh, dear God, yes. Television commercials are the worst, because they intentionally work on an emotional level.

We have a Femdom marriage. My wife has a younger boy-toy, and I am submissive sissy slave.I LOVE IT!
We are ALL very happy.

Christinebitg wrote: ↑

Thu Mar 24, 2022 11:26 pm

<< I use estrogen cream three times a week, one of the causes is my emotional feelings at times go off the charts as I cry over anything. >>

Oh, dear God, yes. Television commercials are the worst, because they intentionally work on an emotional level.

I use estrogen cream Monday, Wednesday, and Friday. It has caused my nipples to hurt as they are budding, what I had a penis has gotten very small, the boys have atrovid, I have hot flashes, I think like a women, I get emotional and cry for about anything. I like wearing women’s panties and I’m currently looking for bras without much success.

I love my changes just sorry it took this long to understand what I want.

Pauline