How I cucked my man

[QueenHedone]

Some of y'all have followed along with Steven's (abrandnewstart194) version of our journey, but I'm finally able to take some time to share my side of the story! I wish this hadn't taken me so long, but my life doesn't allow for a ton of free time. I really want to get this down and share with all of you. This is the first time I'm sharing with anyone besides Steven, and I'm not entirely sure how it's going to go!
First, a little background: I was married for 21 years and have been officially divorced only a few months. Steven and I met online a few months before my ex and I separated and became romantically involved just a few days after I'd moved out. Though we live 1,000 miles apart, we have a bond that is far beyond anything I had ever expected possible. My marriage was loveless for probably a decade and sexless (his decision) for a couple of years. Just a few weeks before I moved out I had a very hot sexual encounter with a near stranger, and that absolutely woke me up. I swear I became a goddess that day, ready to take whatever I wanted for myself.
A few weeks into our relationship, Steven mentioned during a phone conversation that he knew that I must be dying for sex, having gone such a long time without it. I confessed that yes, I was indeed longing for some good dick, but I was also committed to him and would be fine waiting until our next visit (we've managed to see each other about every 5-8 weeks since this started a year and a half ago). I'd be lying if I said I wasn't just a little disappointed that I didn't get to sow some wild oats after I left my ex. I had been looking forward to dating and fucking whomever I wanted. But somehow Steven and I found such a connection that I knew I wanted him (and he MORE than satisfied me sexually) and then felt that I couldn't fuck other people. I had never considered any type of non-monogamy. When Steven sort of gave me permission to do fuck other guys in between our visits, I didn't quite understand, but I would say that he planted a seed at that time. I started to recognize that within a committed relationship, people can enjoy other people and not only does it not diminish the relationship but it can actually enhance it.
As time went on we continued to talk about it, fantasize about it, and the idea started to grow and ever so slightly started taking shape. One day after work I called Steven and told him I'd "been a bad girl" and had been flirting over text with a man I'd "met" on Facebook. Steven and I had phone sex, fantasizing about me fucking this other guy, and that was the first time he'd used the term "bull" with me. As a matter of fact, this was the first time I had ever even heard the term. A few months later he sent me the link to a podcast about cuckoldry, and I was instantly hooked. In this podcast I finally heard an explanation and a label for the kind of relationship that Steven and I knew we wanted! It was exciting and liberating and amazing!
Over the next few months we talked and talked and talked. There were a couple of times that we were very close to going through with our first time, but for one reason or another, it didn't happen. Steven has written about those instances, so I'll leave them out here. After talking and talking and talking, we decided it was time for us to finally do something. I gave him permission to post in a lifestyle forum, looking for a bull. In one day we had so many responses (50, I think?) that I became overwhelmed and asked him to turn off the responses. But we did find one that looked especially intriguing to both of us. Steven made contact, the bull replied, and things were off.
I'm still figuring out so much for myself about what I want out of this. I know that I want for Steven and me to become closer, and that is happening in such a beautiful way, and I feel like the luckiest woman in the world. But as far as the encounters with bulls, I'm still pinpointing exactly what I want. I really need some kind of connection in order to be attracted to anyone. I can't fuck someone I don't like or someone who doesn't show respect. I'm at times turned off by bulls who dominate physically (as opposed to the bulls who command submission with a mental connection), and so I don't love a lot of cuckoldry porn or the way some guys interact once contact is made. I have to admit that our first bull appealed to me because I saw him as someone who could be fairly gentle. I don't know if I've even shared that with Steven (there might be a few surprises for you here, baby). I know that eventually I'll love to be dominated hard, but I'm just easing into all of this, and this is what felt right for me.
Steven and our bull thought the easiest way for us to move forward was for me to open a Kik account so that I could be in direct contact. After so much discussion, we decided that a solo play date for me is what we wanted. At this point, I honestly don't know that I would do it that way again. It was a wonderful experience in a lot of ways, but being aware now of the suffering that Steven endured that day (and I know that angst is part of the game), I think I'd rather have had a threesome situation for our first time. I think what we did might have been too much to start with.
That's a LOT of background! If you're still reading (omg I talk almost as much as he does!) now I want to talk about the day that I became a cuckoldress. To be continued . . .

[isinlarsa]

Don't underestimate the delicious angst the cuckold can feel knowing that his woman is with another man for the iirst time. His imagination goes wild, and although it is not the same as getting to watch, it can be thrilling in its own way.

[QueenHedone]

Part 2: Our bull and I actually had a meet and greet sort of date about a month before our naked date. We'd hit it off and had wonderful chemistry on that date, during which we met for drinks, fun conversation, and a little making out. We had a great time, but I really fucked up and neglected to keep Steven involved. I honestly didn't quite understand, but after a couple of days of talking things out with Steven, we both can see what we both could have done better. Those were some VERY tough conversations, but oh how wonderful they were. My heart is just completely overcome with love for this beautiful man who adores me so much.
Finally, plans were made to meet my bull for sex. At the time we originally made the plans, we didn't know that it was going to be for sex. That wasn't decided until a few days beforehand when I messaged him and asked where we should meet. He basically said, "That depends. Are we meeting for drinks or to fuck?" I called Steven to talk about it, and then Steven asked, "What do you want? Do you want to fuck him, Jenni?" I hesitated for a few seconds and then whispered, "I want to fuck him, baby." I could feel Steven's angst through the phone like electricity coursing through me. I was absolutely riveted by that, and my panties were instantly soaked at having verbalized my intentions. I was going to cuck him.
I wrote back to my bull, telling him that Steven and I were ready for me to fuck another man. He was happy to hear and made reservations at a hotel for us to meet in a couple of days. Steven and I enjoyed the anticipation, deciding together what I would wear, how I would shave my pussy, and all the fun parts of planning a date. I loved how excited he was, not just because he was finally going to officially be cucked, but genuinely excited that I was going to have a proper dicking, which I had been craving. This focus on each other's pleasure is, I think, the most beautiful and misunderstood part of this type of relationship.
I was so ready and so wanting this man. My pussy ached for him, and I loved sharing that with my cuck. I love when I tell him something that makes him gasp with excitement. God, that's my favorite thing--knowing that his cock is hard for my pleasure.
Finally, the day arrived. Steven and I talked while I got myself ready. I put on the dress we'd picked out, did my hair and makeup. I even charged the new vibrator that Steven gave me for what we have dubbed "Cuckoldress Day." And the final touch--I added my anklet, signifying my status as a shared woman. As I arrived at the hotel, I sent Steven this message: "I have so many things I want to say, and I know I'm not going to be able to say it right. But I'm going to try my hardest, because you deserve it and so much more. I know you're probably agonizing right now. I know that's part of the whole thing. Please just know that I love you with all that I am and all that I have. I absolutely adore you. You have created such a beautiful, warm, safe place for me to be completely myself, and you have led me to such bliss already. You could keep me all to yourself, and I would never want for anything for the rest of my life. But you are choosing this very difficult (albeit rewarding) path in order to give me even more. How completely selfless of you. I understand this beautiful, amazing sacrifice. No matter how many other men I fuck, and no matter how much I enjoy it, YOU ARE MY CUCK. YOU are my partner. YOU are my soulmate, my best friend, and my love. My happiness. I'm going to cuck you now, Steven. Not for you, but for me. I love you, and we'll talk soon."
And then I opened my car door, stepped out, and walked toward my bull, who immediately greeted me, put his hands on my waist, and kissed me. We went inside the hotel and took a seat at a table in a cozy corner of the bar and began to get reacquainted. We kissed and felt each other up and enjoyed flirty conversation over wine and then decided it was time to go to the room. We stood up, he took my hand, and led me to the elevator.
I was nervous but oddly comfortable at the same time. I knew I was ready. I had no doubt that I was finally fulfilling my destiny as a cuckoldress. I was aching for cock. My pussy was dripping. I was going to love fucking this man for several hours.
We got to the room, and he poured me a glass of wine. And then he kissed my neck, and I knew it was all over. I was absolutely his at that moment. To be continued . . .

[newUK]

This is a fantastic account so far Jenni. Can’t wait to read more. I’m feeling the angst just reading :-)

[Wannabee]

Wow! More please.

[KyGrappler80]

Jenni, thank you for sharing your story here with us. I have appreciated hearing Steven's side of the story, and even from his telling, knew that you were a special partner. I liked all the details and back story. It helps explain your journey together more clearly. It's not always very persuasive, or even the case, that two partners seem to be equally as into this as you both are. Very special. Honestly, I'd be this hot about your story if I had no idea what you looked like. Now that I do. Fuck's sake. So hot. For you to lend your considerable sex appeal and attractiveness, and personal charisma, into this as thoroughly as you have, is HIGHLY arousing to us. Clearly, to Steven. You have us on tuning fork levels of hardness. I'm personally able to tap my cock with a small iron bar and hear a perfect Middle C. Thanks for that. What can I say, I'm down with what you are dealing.

[thepen]

Following this with absolutely rapt attention... thank you for sharing, both of you!

[gesdell]

Gorgeous woman and a cuckoldress, your man is living the dream/nightmare that makes others jealous.

[kaskap79]

Thanks for your view of the story.

It is always good to hear it from the people involved.

Trying to wait patiently for your next update, but it is difficult.

[whosbeensleeping]

It's lovely to hear from you. So happy you chose to grace us with your presence. You both seem like real sweeties.

[QueenHedone]

Part 3
He wanted to take his time, tease me, make me practically beg for it. So we sat on the couch in his suite and chatted and flirted some more. After a little bit of that he stood up and reached for my hand and pulled me up so that we were standing face to face. I'm 5' 9" and was wearing heels so that we could literally see eye to eye, and he loved that. He said he wanted to make out like that because my height is sexy AF. We kissed and pushed our bodies into each other. I was so wet now, I needed to have him. He then told me it's time to take off the shoes, so I turned around and bent over to take them off, pushing my ass into his hips. I could feel that he was hard for me. He then handed me my phone so that I could unlock it and let him take some pics of my ass in this position.
After removing my shoes, we went back to the couch, and he said he wanted to pay some attention to my pussy. So I pulled off my panties and shoved them into his shirt pocket with a sly little grin. And then I lay down on the couch so that he could have easy access. He touched my wet pussy and remarked how wet I was. He licked my pussy lips and clit exactly how I like. Oh god, it was amazing. I absolutely love being eaten, and he was a pro. It took a few minutes, but eventually I came so hard, writhing my hips and squeezing his head between my thighs. He told me later that it was one of the most erotic moments of his life.
At that point we both stood up, and in one movement I pulled my dress off over my head and then took off my bra. My bull is the first person to get to touch and play with my tits since I had them pierced a couple of weeks prior. Even Steven, who was with me when I had them pierced, hasn't played with them yet because of the needed healing time. I know that this was agonizing for Steven, but such is the life of a cuck. After my bull admired my pierced tits for a minute, I knelt down in front of him and unbuckled and unzipped his pants. This is the first time I've felt his bare, hard cock in my hand. I immediately started licking and sucking like a cock-hungry slut. I adore sucking cock, which he quickly found out. He reached for my phone again and took some more pics (which I believe Steven shared with the group) and a video. After a few minutes we headed for the bed. My bull lay down on his back, and I told him I wanted to ride his cock, so I hopped on, grabbed his dick, lined it up with my pussy, and thrust my hips down onto his.
Admittedly, his cock is a little smaller than I had anticipated. I've discovered that I'm a size queen and love the feeling of being stretched. But even so, riding his hard cock and grinding my clit against him felt amazing. After a few minutes of taking charge and using his body and his cock, I came again. I then slid off of him and fell beside him in the bed to take a break and catch my breath. To be continued . . .

[QueenHedone]

Part 4
Lying there next to this man, I felt so empowered, so sexy, so fulfilled. Before going into this, I had worried slightly that I would have negative feelings like guilt or remorse, but I can honestly say that I have never felt even a tinge of that. I LOVED what I was doing, what WE (me, my bull, and my cuck) were doing. And I wanted more.
After a few minutes of resting and spooning and more flirting and enjoying fun conversation, I pushed my ass into his hips to let him know I was ready for more. My ass has sort of its own personality and does a lot of communicating for us, haha. He took the hint and reached around me and felt my dripping pussy. "You are sooooo wet." And then he lifted my leg and pushed in his cock from behind. I absolutely love being fucked from behind. We started out in this position sort of spooning and then ended up in a fun scissors postion which allowed for very deep penetration and pounding and fingering. His hard cock has a very fun upward curve and was able to stimulate my g-spot so that just before I came, he rubbed his cock super hard across my clit and made me squirt more than I think I have ever squirted. It was amazing. Squirt EVERYWHERE.
After another quick break, I climbed on top to 69. Now, I have a lot of trouble focusing while 69ing, and I mentioned this to my bull ahead of time. He didn't seem to care. He just wanted my pussy and ass on his face, so I did the best I could while he licked, sucked, moaned, fingered, both my pussy and my butthole. It was wonderful. We did all of these postions several times, and I squirted every time I came the rest of the night. I squirted on his face during 69ing. And I squirted once while he fucked me while spooning, so hard and so much that I got my squirt on both of our faces. I honestly think I must have been dehydrated at the end of the evening, and I don't even want to think about what housekeeping must have thought!
Probably my favorite moment of the day was once when he was fucking me while scissoring, I was flat on my back, fingers groping for sheets or something I could grab for leverage so that I could push my hips back against his pounding, and I looked at his face and found him watching me with this expression like he knew he was giving me an amazing fuck; he knew that I was his right then. He owned my pussy. He looked so pleased with himself, and that absolutely pushed me over the edge. I came SO HARD at that point. That right there was probably the orgasm of my life. I felt completely overcome with the whole experience. It was transcendent, and he could tell I was having a moment, and he calmed me down. After catching my breath, I whispered to him, "I've never come like that." To be continued . . .

[KinkyBear]

[QueenHedone]

Part 5
And so went on the evening, we fucked sometimes lazily, sometimes hungrily, taking breaks to chat and listen to music, get to know each other. Eventually I was completely worn out, so we spent the rest of the evening just talking in our squirt-soaked bed. I know that for Steven, these moments in between the fucking are probably the hardest for him to handle. But if I am going to be in this lifestyle, I have learned that I really need this. I am the sort of person that looks for personal connection EVERYWHERE. I look constantly for moments to connect even with strangers; it's just who I am. And if I am going to connect with strangers in line at the grocery store, I am sure as fuck going to look for a bonding experience during sex. Sex would be meaningless and joyless to me without that connection. I know not everyone is that way, but I know me. It doesn't mean I'm dissatisfied. Steven and I have the most amazing connection. Sometimes I can't believe how perfect we are together, how well our personalities, souls, hearts, fit together, flaws included. And I know that my reaching out for connection with others is never going to harm what he and I have. The trust that we are building together just amazes me.
One thing that I didn't understand was that my bull didn't cum the entire evening. I asked him about it and told him it was long past his turn, but he said he wasn't going to. After talking with Steven afterwards, I understand that it might be that he had taken an extra dose of Viagra, which would also explain how unbelievably hard he was. I admit that I was a bit disappointed that he never came. I really wanted a cream pie.
I remember after a while towards the last couple of hours of my date, I really missed Steven. I wanted this guy to be him. I wanted to talk with my love, my heart ached for him. And I wish that I had been true to that part of myself and told my bull that I had a lovely time, but I needed to go. I didn't do that because I had somehow convinced myself that I needed to stay until the time we had said we would be done. I know now that I didn't owe him that. And I want to be clear--he did not pressure me this way. It was all in my head.
At the end of the evening, about the time I had said I needed to be on my way home, I took a shower and we got dressed and talked about what a fun time we'd had. My bull was very complimentary of me and made me feel so treasured, so beautiful, so desired. He was affectionate and playful and sweet. He gloated a little about when I said that I had never had an orgasm like that. We didn't talk about when we would see each other again. He returned my panties that I had stuffed in his shirt pocket earlier, and we just left the room, got back in the elevator, and he walked me through the lobby and to my car, remarking on a group of men that practically gave him a thumbs up, obviously recognizing what had just happened upstairs. We kissed at the door of my car, and I purposely leaned into the car to set my purse down and give him a perfect view of my ass in a short skirt. Because, again, my ass does what it wants. Then I sat down and he said, "You are very hard to leave." Then I said goodnight, shut the door, and called my cuck.

[thepen]

Stunned. Thank you for recounting all of that in such detail. It sounds like a thoroughly satisfying experience.

[QueenHedone]

Stunned. Thank you for recounting all of that in such detail. It sounds like a thoroughly satisfying experience.

It was. And honestly I’m exhausted now from writing it all out. I hope to come back soon to write about the aftermath and how I’ve processed things. I know that Steven has written about it from his perspective, but I also know that people are wondering about how I feel now.
Thank you for reading.

[Open2it]

QueenH,
What a great experience it must have been jumping into the deep end and enjoying all it had to offer. Keep communicating with your newly minted cuck. Learn how to keep him at edge of excitement, share fantasies, and love him for the gift of supporting your sexual exploration. You’ll both enjoy every step of this new journey. You are incredibly sexy!

[54321]

Dear QueenHedone,

Thank you so much for sharing your account of your adventure. I love to hear a hotwife's point of view.
What a star you are!

I hope this is the first of many wonderful adventures for you and your adoring boyfriend.

54321

[magnus]

Your 5 part description of your first time cuckolding your man was a absolutely breath taking. I'm not exaggerating when I say my throat became dry and I felt my breath become shallow as I read your words. Your description of the event was so perfect I felt like I was there watching.

I'm so excited to follow more of your adventures in cuckoldry. I love the way you need to reconnect with your cuck and you are exactly the woman every cuckold dreams of finding.

[kaskap79]

Wow, what a story you have.

I am happy that you had a wonderful time. Don't worry about him not cumming. Some men can only cum when they are alone. Viagra or not.

The connection between you and your lover(s) is a different one that you have with your partner. For me, I need to have a connection to the woman I sex with before it is good. When she is like a good friend, then the sex is good as well. My wife has it the same way with the men she sees.

When your lover(s) are good friends but both of you know that you cannot live together, then you have a great time and your partner knows there is no risk of anything besides good sex.

[meesadan]

Epic! Thank you so much for sharing this. Sounds like you have found a couple of wonderful men!

[elina]

Your Superior Female Highness,
Dearest Queen Hedone

Wow, thank you so much for sharing your initiation as a Cuckoldress.
In my opinion, there is nothing more sexy than a Beautiful, Experienced Lady who realizes that She needs sex and needs to be free to pursue Her sexual interests even if She is in an emotional relationship with a male She wants to be Her love for life; but She knows She can turn him into a cuckold and make him happy in that role.

Your story is so beautifully written and you capture and share the emotions you have both for your first Bull and your cuckold in a captivating manner.

I hope you will continue to share your journey as you move along and find additional lovers/bulls, some of whom will have the extra length and girth you felt was a little short of your expectations in your first encounter, hopefully these bulls will also leave you with the creampie you wished to share with your lucky cuck.

Sincerely
elina
(submissive male who admire both you and your lucky cuck).

[Novice1980]

QueenHedone

This is an amazing recap of what seems to be a even more amazing experience. Yes it was long but it was all worth the read.


Thank you for sharing. Can't wait to read about your further adventures.

[cuckoldtipp]

QH What a Hot story. I need to look up your cuck's story. It felt sad you didn't get a cream pie. I'm sure he would have like to eat it. Are you going to let him watch you get fucked in the future? Looking forward to more

[cuckoldtipp]

I just saw your Pics on Steven's post.... All I can say is HOT I love your pierced nipples. Thanks for letting us see your Gorgeous face. This is my new favorite post. Can we see you with a Cream pie when you get one, it can be Steven's if you let him still do that