Most humiliating moment as a cuckold

[DA32]

A lot of cuckolds talk about being humiliated by something their wives say to them about being a terrible fuck or something else along those lines. My most humiliating experience was a number of years ago after my boss fired me (he was a jerk and I told him so, not a good career move). I was struggling to find a new job without much luck. My wife suggested that I talk to Bob. She slept with other guys but Bob had a special status. My wife first met him when she was just out of college and had been his lover and, after he married, his mistress ever since. Though Bob and I were in the same filed, he's older and way more accomplished than me. Professionally I wasn't in his league. I was reluctant at first, but she insisted I talk to Bob and ask if he could help me find work. In fact she told him I'd be calling. I didn't have a choice. I needed help. Before we spoke I sent him my resume. That was humiliating in itself, but talking to him was worse. I struggled to find the right words. Bob sensed how uncomfortable I was and took the lead. He told me about people he knew who were hiring and offered to make a couple of calls to them on my behalf. I thanked him. We weren't on the phone long, but the entire encounter felt degrading. That Friday my wife and Bob went away for the weekend. As usual she came home Sunday totally exhausted. While she took a shower I picked her clothes up off the floor and, as I expected, there was a big blotch of Bob's cum in her panties. Being a cuckold moments like that were always a huge turn on for me. I savored them. But that morning I felt awful. I told my wife and she understood, but also said I was too hung up over it.She told me it wasn't emasculating to ask for his help. She was probably right, but it still stung. Thankfully, a couple of weeks later I found a new position on my own -- without Bob's help.

[snoogaloo82]

A lot of cuckolds talk about being humiliated by something their wives say to them about being a terrible fuck or something else along those lines. My most humiliating experience was a number of years ago after my boss fired me (he was a jerk and I told him so, not a good career move). I was struggling to find a new job without much luck. My wife suggested that I talk to Bob. She slept with other guys but Bob had a special status. My wife first met him when she was just out of college and had been his lover and, after he married, his mistress ever since. Though Bob and I were in the same filed, he's older and way more accomplished than me. Professionally I wasn't in his league. I was reluctant at first, but she insisted I talk to Bob and ask if he could help me find work. In fact she told him I'd be calling. I didn't have a choice. I needed help. Before we spoke I sent him my resume. That was humiliating in itself, but talking to him was worse. I struggled to find the right words. Bob sensed how uncomfortable I was and took the lead. He told me about people he knew who were hiring and offered to make a couple of calls to them on my behalf. I thanked him. We weren't on the phone long, but the entire encounter felt degrading. That Friday my wife and Bob went away for the weekend. As usual she came home Sunday totally exhausted. While she took a shower I picked her clothes up off the floor and, as I expected, there was a big blotch of Bob's cum in her panties. Being a cuckold moments like that were always a huge turn on for me. I savored them. But that morning I felt awful. I told my wife and she understood, but also said I was too hung up over it.She told me it wasn't emasculating to ask for his help. She was probably right, but it still stung. Thankfully, a couple of weeks later I found a new position on my own -- without Bob's help.

That definitely must have been a tough experience! It's never easy losing a job let alone to a jerk like him. And to top it off he's sleeping with your sweetie, that's super tough. My wife was sleeping with a co-worker once, and she fell head over heels for him. Even though I had approved their encounter on the condition that she not fall out of love with me, she fell out of love with me. I thought the world was going to end, but things moved on, and I picked myself up and dusted myself off. We eventually divorced even though I had propositioned a poly relationship, but she declined and went ahead with the divorce. I hope everything works out wonderful for you in the end!!

[uxorious]

I don't know if this is the "most" humiliating moment but one I can remember was when I convinced my on-again, off-again girlfriend of 8 years to fuck another man and tell me about it. At this point we were regular lovers (but not exclusive) and we were long distance. She came to my apartment and gave me a handjob and got ready for her date and left her suitcase (she didn't want to be burdened with taking her suitcase on the date with the guy) so she had me bring it to a girl friend's place as the two of them had plans the next day. Both of us knew she was on her date ( and I late learned getting fucked) around the time I dropped off the bag. The friend just gave me a knowing look and said "we know how she can be" and accepted the suitcase. Funny small talk.

[DA32]

I hear you! A number of years ago my wife was in Denver for work on the week of her birthday. Good husband that I am I thought I’d send her flowers and a bottle of wine. To make sure that both were memorable I phoned her best friend, Laurie, and asked if she’d like to go in on it. She agreed, of course, and told me that she’d take care of everything.
What Laurie knew, but I didn’t at the time, was that my wife had invited John, an occasional lover of hers, to fly up from his home in Phoenix to spend her birthday with her. That evening Laurie phoned and told me. “I didn’t want to say anything, but I know you’re okay with her seeing other guys and I was thinking about it and I’m concerned that her getting flowers and wine from you could make John really uncomfortable.”
Laurie said that what she wanted to do was have the card read something like Happy Birthday from all your friends. I told her that I was fine with that.
“Great! I can see why she loves you so much.” I was speechless. Not only did Laurie know I'm a cuckold, but she treated it in a very matter-of-fact way.

[isinlarsa]

Something similar happened to me, but for some reason I enjoyed the humiliation. My wife started getting fucked at work by a co-worker (that's another story for another time). In time she told me, and we agree she could continue. At the time, we were having troubles making ends meet, and she suggested I take a second job working as a yard man for her lover's condo (he was on the board). Of course, I had to meet with him periodically while doing the work and to get paid. Then my wife arranged for us to have dinner with him and his wife. So I get to sit across from the dinner table, where three of us know he's fucking my wife, but his wife is obvious. While I found it rather awkward, my wife loved mildly flirting with him in front of his wife. BTW, seeing what an uptight bitch his wife was, I understood why he wanted to fuck my wife.

[Teensy1]

My first humiliating moment was when I watched my best friend playfully dry humping my young wife on our guest coach and realized that I had an erection. That’s when I knew I wanted to be a cuckold. The second moment was everybody in neighborhood finding out that I finally was a cuck and laughing at me to my face.

[Decman]

I approached my wife’s first long term boyfriend with a request that he involve me as a cuckold by controlling my orgasm / sexual involvement with my wife. He kicked me out of his office — this was doubly humiliating as not only did I approach him as a cuckold, I was repelled by him.

We’ve both since matured in our cuckold relationship. She’s no longer with him (in part because of how he treated me.. which was endemic of how he was treating her as well).

My experience this past weekend with wife cucking me in the next room brought back all of the feelings of rejection I had years ago.

[canadianwittol]

You went to his workplace to ask him to control your orgasms? I'd have chucked you out too, then pursued a restraining order. Invading the vanilla parts of someone else's life without permission it absolutely not cool in this lifestyle.

[mfm4bnc]

I was cuckolded by my ex-wife, and once in a great while I am cuckolded by my forever wife. I won't digress too far, but it is complicated... she loves intense flirting and innuendo, and she is really exhibitionistic. Whether or not they have or could, most of my friends think they could have her if they wanted her.

My friend groub has a tradition of having bonfires (most of my stories come from these bonfires) and we have ten or more a year. Sometimes we just drink and have pot, but at least three or four times a year we do hallucinogens. (deciminalized in my state). Lil goes pretty far over the top on these nights. She has had several nights where she has danced in nothing but underwear and a skimpy top. Other nights she has worn a very short mini skirt with no underwear. She always gets pretty cozy with my bachelor best friend, sitting on his lap, dancing tight, etc.

As a gift, she wrote me a confession from one of those nights. I changed the names and formatted it as a public confession rather than as a confession to me, and I posted it here.

What did not go into it. because she was not privy to it, was my experience at the fire. My best frineds other closest friend has a wife who is pretty uppity. She looks down her nose at us even when we are on our best behavior, and despite the fact that we have done some REALLY big favors for her and her husband.

When my best friend and Lil disappeared for a while, bitchy-gal started saying some really uncharitable things about Lil. The music was loud, and they did not think I could hear. They were talking about Lil being a slut, and that they pitied me that I seemed so unwitting, and that Lil and my best friend were probably taking advantage of the loud music to fuck.

Whatever the truth of their speculation, the fact that they were not being more careful and were saying it right in front of me was pretty humiliating.

[mfm4bnc]

You went to his workplace to ask him to control your orgasms? I'd have chucked you out too, then pursued a restraining order. Invading the vanilla parts of someone else's life without permission it absolutely not cool in this lifestyle.

No need to be unfriendly and judgmental in your remarks. The poster said he had grown up since then. It always surprises me when we are all here together at a cuckold site, so many comments are unsupportive. Enjoy your rules, and let other people make their mistakes, grow, and learn :-)

[Cdncuck]

You went to his workplace to ask him to control your orgasms? I'd have chucked you out too, then pursued a restraining order. Invading the vanilla parts of someone else's life without permission it absolutely not cool in this lifestyle.

No need to be unfriendly and judgmental in your remarks. The poster said he had grown up since then. It always surprises me when we are all here together at a cuckold site, so many comments are unsupportive. Enjoy your rules, and let other people make their mistakes, grow, and learn :-)

We're here to support cuckold behavior, not plain bad behavior. One of the key rules of this lifestyle is you don't get your sex/kink life mixed up with someone else's real life unless you have been specifically invited.

[uxorious]

Respectfully, can we drop it and return to the original topic?

Another time that was humiliating was when I went on a spring break trip with the girl I mentioned above in college. It was before she and I started dating but it was crystal clear to our friend group that I wanted to be with her. She hooked up with a guy in the room next door to her and her friends. They were older (seniors in college) and had alcohol. She took a shower with one of the dudes and gave him a bj. I came back to the girls' room while she was over there. They felt bad for me but it was one of those things, what can you do...

[Decman]

Canadian Wittol — sorry I didn’t provide you with the complete backstory, but thanks so much for jumping to a ton of conclusions.

[Johnann2227]

We were at a nightclub one night with one of my wife's boyfriends. We had all been drinking and as we were staying in a hotel that night there was no worrying about driving. My wife and her boyfriend were getting very touchy and she was sitting on his lap next to me. She was wearing a spaghetti strap top and a mid thigh skirt with heels. No bra or panties. While she was on his lap with her back to him she had her head turned and they were french kissing. It was so hot. He was rubbing her stomach through the top and caressing her boobs. Eventually his hand was under her skirt and he was fingering her. We thought we couldn't be seen as we were in a gloomy corner of the night club. Unfortunately though, security came up and told them to stop and said to Steve (my wife's then boyfriend) to "Take your wife somewhere private as other people do not want to see you fingering the slut in a nightclub". Ann and Steve stopped and Ann replied, "He is my boyfriend actually, not my husband." She the pointed at me and said, "That's my husband" She then grabbed both our hands and said, "Come on, let's go back to the hotel, I need you boys to fuck me". I was embarrassed to be outed to the security guy but hugely turned on as well.

[canadianwittol]

What did I say that was unfriendly?

My comments have nothing to do with friendship. It's an honest and rational assessment of a situation as described, and taken at face value, by the poster whom I'm replying to.

If this man seriously approached another man at his workplace, with the expressed goal of making demands of his sex life, how could any rational person react to that in any sane way other than to repudiate that action from its' pretext? Would you expect me to be "friendly" to someone else who described a situation where they attended another person's workplace in order to make unwanted advances?

Could you explain to me the scenario in a way where, as the poster explained it, his actions were fair, rational and respectful to all involved?

I'm all for treating others with respect but what the poster describes is a form of harassment against another person. I have no problem standing in opposition to that. If it's acceptable behaviour to you or anyone else on this forum then quite frankly I'm utterly shocked.

You went to his workplace to ask him to control your orgasms? I'd have chucked you out too, then pursued a restraining order. Invading the vanilla parts of someone else's life without permission it absolutely not cool in this lifestyle.

No need to be unfriendly and judgmental in your remarks. The poster said he had grown up since then. It always surprises me when we are all here together at a cuckold site, so many comments are unsupportive. Enjoy your rules, and let other people make their mistakes, grow, and learn :-)

[DA32]

In the immortal words of Rodney King, "can't we all just get along?"

[Bartleby]

I usually like being humiliated, but I realised it had to be the right kind of humiliation. I think I would even enjoy some of the humiliations posted above.

I like it when other people know I am a cuck.

I like to talk to the men who fuck my wife and act friendly with them. (I always make sure my wife tells her lovers that I am aware and ok with it.)

I hang up the clothes or do other household chores while my wife is out fucking.

I enjoy buying condoms for my wife.

I told my wife that I spend all the time she is away wanking over the thought of her fucking someone else and that is why I need her to tell me the details of her having sex with someone else. I love it when she comments on that habit.

I enjoy the rare occasion when I have to sit next to the closed bedroom door waiting for them to finish.

I licked her boyfriend's dick and he gave me a used condom. I drank his semen out of the condom and thanked him for it.

However, there was this one incident that made me really mad to the point that I considered having a divorce. I had taken a viagra pill and was willing to have sex with my wife. My wife had requested that i take viagra without me telling her about it so it would be more spontaneous. However, when I made my approaches she haughtily asked me whether I had taken a pill. For some reason, she still believes that Viagra makes men horny. I told her that indeed I had. Her reply was "I am not going to have sex with you now. But you know I still want to have sex with Andrew, right?" Andrew was her bf back then, and I didn't particularly liked him. If she had refused because she just didn't feel like it, I would have been ok with it. But rubbing it in and telling me that she wants to have sex with that other guy was just too much.


I am sure lots of people on this website would have enjoyed that scenario, but I felt horrible about it. That happened years ago and it still haunts me to this day. As I said, I would certainly have enjoyed some humiliations as described by other posters of this forum. Eg. I would love to call a fucker of my wife and ask for a job. Everybody has their own limits and peculiarities.

[snooper56]

I have read Decmans story as well as CW. Both seem like nice guys and I've never seen any type of derogatory comments from either.

I believe in this case, the whole story wasn't out there for context. If i remember right, the guy had your key or something. I think he knew you were coming, but it's been awhile so I'm not sure.

I'll go with DA32!

[ucaneffher]

My most delicious humiliation was helping my 21 year old girlfriend move in with her relatively new boyfriend into their own apartment where a 12 month lease was sign. He had already been exclusively fucking her and filling her up 3 to 4 times a week for 4 months so she was very much into him and told me she wanted him to have 24/7 access to her in their own home.

The humiliation came when:
1. I was not allowed to call her, text her, or show up at her place unless she reached out or invited me first.
2. People were finding out that she suddenly moved in with a new boyfriend after living with me since turning 18.
3. When they broke up, I was still unable to show up unannounced because she would have different men over at all random hours so I was forbidden from just showing up.

It was so deliciously humiliating that I would love for the new girlfriend to head in that same direction of getting herself a boyfriend and possibly living with him for a bit.

[Cuckyboy3]

In 2010, my wife and I went on vacation with her sister and her husband (call him M). My wife and I had been arguing a lot in the months leading up to the vacation about typical husband wife matters (lifestyle, chores, communication, lack of sex, finances, etc.). The sister-in-law and her husband, by contrast, seemed to be doing swell in their relationship. M was also more professionally successful than me, better looking, taller, and had a humorous and winning personality. He was everything that I was not. He was never obnoxious towards me, but I did not have the maturity to be comfortable in the constant comparisons that would happen in a couples' vacation.

By the 3rd day of the vacation, my wife suggested that I could also take a lead in planning which attractions to go to, finding restaurants, and so on. So far, M had been making all the decisions and planning things, because it came naturally to him, and he was a born leader. So that day, I tried to take the lead more, but each time, I got shot down by the others. "Let's do something else" for whatever reason. I moped around a lot which turned off my wife, and she started paying more attention to M. That night, I blew up at my wife for pushing me to take the lead, but then undermining me every time I suggested something. She apologized, explained that it was nothing personal, and that the things I suggested were simply not practical. I got even more upset and accused her of blindly agreeing with M on everything. She laughed it off and said I was overreacting.

What really pushed me over the edge, however, was when she accused me of acting like a jealous child. She got on her knees and started to pull my pants down, saying, "awww... are you feeling insecure? Maybe a little blow job will make you feel better." I was also starving for sex after 3 weeks of no action, but I didn't care for this sympathy blow job. I couldn't get hard under the humiliating circumstances. She muttered something like, "You're always whining about not getting any sex, and now finally when I'm offering, you're suddenly not in the mood and would rather just pout." I got so mad. I yelled at her so loudly that her sister must have heard from the room next door. The sister came over, dressed in a sexy nightie. My wife was crying at this point. I yelled at her again, "See, your sister is dressed to seduce her man. You just want to punt for another 3 fucking weeks with a god damn lousy blow job."

Her sister looked shocked. M came over to see if everything was okay. Her sister looked worried that I was getting out of hand. She asked my wife to come to their room. M suggested 'let's just cool off?' I told him to leave us the fuck alone. She embraced him as she cried into his chest. She went to the other room for the night, telling me to leave her alone. I pounded on their door for her to come back. After a while, M came out to tell me to chill out for the night. "Your wife is going to spend the night here. Let's chat in the morning."

All night long, I wondered what they were doing, and I started imagining they were having sex, even though there was no specific or credible reason to prove it. The next morning, I had calmed down. At breakfast, I apologized. But then I noticed that my wife had a certain glow on her face, like an unmistakable, post-orgasmic look of satisfaction. Her hair was disheveled, and make-up was smudgy. I privately asked her what happened last night. She acted all cagey, but insisted 'nothing.' I directly asked her if she slept with M. Instead of being shocked or angry, she just quietly dismissed my question and said 'no, of course not.' She insisted she slept on the other bed and her appearance was simply how she always looked in the morning. When she went for a shower, she locked the door. As we left the hotel for the day, I made an excuse that I forgot something in the room. I ran back, looked for her panties. She had buried them deep inside the suitcase. There was a wet spot, but the smell might have just been from her natural lubrication, or a little leaking pee, or the remnants of a cream pie. I smelled them, but I could not definitively tell.

One thing was clear, however. My dick was harder than it had ever been.

[snoogaloo82]

I usually like being humiliated, but I realised it had to be the right kind of humiliation. I think I would even enjoy some of the humiliations posted above.

I like it when other people know I am a cuck.

I like to talk to the men who fuck my wife and act friendly with them. (I always make sure my wife tells her lovers that I am aware and ok with it.)

I hang up the clothes or do other household chores while my wife is out fucking.

I enjoy buying condoms for my wife.

I told my wife that I spend all the time she is away wanking over the thought of her fucking someone else and that is why I need her to tell me the details of her having sex with someone else. I love it when she comments on that habit.

I enjoy the rare occasion when I have to sit next to the closed bedroom door waiting for them to finish.

I licked her boyfriend's dick and he gave me a used condom. I drank his semen out of the condom and thanked him for it.

However, there was this one incident that made me really mad to the point that I considered having a divorce. I had taken a viagra pill and was willing to have sex with my wife. My wife had requested that i take viagra without me telling her about it so it would be more spontaneous. However, when I made my approaches she haughtily asked me whether I had taken a pill. For some reason, she still believes that Viagra makes men horny. I told her that indeed I had. Her reply was "I am not going to have sex with you now. But you know I still want to have sex with Andrew, right?" Andrew was her bf back then, and I didn't particularly liked him. If she had refused because she just didn't feel like it, I would have been ok with it. But rubbing it in and telling me that she wants to have sex with that other guy was just too much.


I am sure lots of people on this website would have enjoyed that scenario, but I felt horrible about it. That happened years ago and it still haunts me to this day. As I said, I would certainly have enjoyed some humiliations as described by other posters of this forum. Eg. I would love to call a fucker of my wife and ask for a job. Everybody has their own limits and peculiarities.

I feel for you! That must have been hard...especially when you put in so much effort! I'm glad you hung in there because it looks like you two are a wonderful couple!

[mfm4bnc]

You went to his workplace to ask him to control your orgasms? I'd have chucked you out too, then pursued a restraining order. Invading the vanilla parts of someone else's life without permission it absolutely not cool in this lifestyle.

No need to be unfriendly and judgmental in your remarks. The poster said he had grown up since then. It always surprises me when we are all here together at a cuckold site, so many comments are unsupportive. Enjoy your rules, and let other people make their mistakes, grow, and learn :-)

We're here to support cuckold behavior, not plain bad behavior. One of the key rules of this lifestyle is you don't get your sex/kink life mixed up with someone else's real life unless you have been specifically invited.

I totally agree that consent is required before you escalate sexual activities, and you could scarecly have a bigger escalation than intruding on someone's vanilla life. All I am saying, is why not say it in a supportive and less judgmental way? I believe not intruding on people's real lives is a true "rule." There are nice ways to say that. I don't think the community benefits or grows when people are afraid of being judged.

[Jaxbchcuck]

My wife and I tried the whole swinging thing years before we began having hotwife/bull/cuck fantasies. These swinging adventures involved meeting with other couples and also going to swinger clubs.

At one of the first clubs we went to, we began chatting with a guy. We didn't know anyone else there that night, and, as most of the other couples in the club were either a) paired off already, b) not really piquing our sexual curiosity or c) simply ignoring us, we (well perhaps me) decided to see if anything would happen with this guy.

We had not had too many experiences at that point, so the idea of having sex with someone outside of our marriage both excited and terrified us. After a few glasses of liquid courage and some hours of chatting, the three of us decided to head back to one of the rooms available at the club (it was an on premises one). We went in and got naked pretty quickly. My wife proceeded to start giving the other guy a blow job while I got behind her and was licking her pussy.

It was new and different.

And I had to pee.

The liquid courage was perhaps a bit too much for my overexcited bladder. I quickly threw on my clothes and ran out of the room to go to the bathroom. As I stood in front of the urinal and relieved myself, I thought about how crazy the whole situation was. I just left my wife naked with another man. I had no idea how far it would proceed and instead of being there to experience it with her, I was pissing. Then I began wondering why I had to get dressed to go take a leak in a swingers club. Would anyone care if I walked through naked?

Anyway I finished, zipped up, washed my hands and ran back to the room. Walking in, the guy was behind my wife, his cock pounding away in her pussy. She was orgasming and he moaned and came pretty shortly after.

I hadn't even gotten my clothes back off as they kind of collapsed to the mattress in post orgasmic bliss. My wife turned to me and said,

"Oh, you're back?"

Humiliating?

Hell yeah.

A memory I think about often now that I know that I am a cuck?

Definitely.

jbc

[dinoo]

It happened during a visit of a bull to us.
We met him at the end at the very first evening to what became "our" club.

After a hot evening my wife was tired and wanted to sleep.
I suggested to sleep in the guest room but she insisted that I had to sleep in our marital bed, together with her lover.
She in the middle.
But instead of to go to sleep she began to suck his dick.
He smiled at me while while giving a thumb up.
I wanted to watch but she pushed me back, saying
"I want to be intimate now with him. You may fantasize about what we are doing. "
For 30 to 60 seconds I felt humiliated but then realized that her behaviour was just what I wanted.

She continued to suck and alternately kissing him. I thought at least because most of the time I saw only her back.
Oooohhh's and aahhh's, keep sucking me, don't stop etc. was what I heard.
At a certain moment I heard him say: "I'm cumming." A big aaahhh followed.
"Do you have a towel?"
"No need, I will clean your dick."
Still with her back to me, she took her time, kissed him and asked if he was satisfied.
"More than that" and she put her head on his breast.
It took minutes before we fell asleep.

[Loserpaul]

Humiliation is a big part of our dynamic these days. Being humiliated in front of the bull or in front of her friends is a regular thing.

But probably the incidents of humiliation that hit hardest & caused the most shame, angst and feelings of inadequacy were earlier on in my cuck journey.

One incident stands out. It was just at the time Dottie was starting to deny me sex & just at a time when she was starting to see bulls. At that stage it was a don't ask don't tell affair. I wasn't generally made aware of when/who she was fucking and a lot happened behind my back. I knew it was going on but I knew very little of the details. At the time I was feeling a lot of angst around the fact that she wanted less and less sex with me & seemed to be having more and more sex with strangers.

Then, one evening when she was out on the tiles & I had no idea where she was or who she was with, I was browsing an online forum that she and I occasionally posted on (now long defunct). Anyway, I came across some of her posts, chatting with some guy (I didn't know him). I only had to read a couple before it turned into a fairly graphic chat about sex & the fact that he'd fucked her recently. She was asking him if he'd like another fuck. It had clearly been pretty raw and dirty sex - they'd fucked in a car park at the back of a nightclub. It was his reply to her that really hit home. He said something like:

"I'll fuck you up against a car in the same place next Friday night you dirty slapper. I'll make sure I wear my sheep-shagging wellies!"

I looked at the dates and realised that the 'next Friday' they were talking about was the same Friday evening I was reading it. I realised they were probably fucking even as I read it at home alone. It really hit home and made it all suddenly very real. I felt a huge amount of angst and frustration as well as shame. I just felt powerless to do anything about it. I just sat there reading it over and over not really knowing what to do. That night was a big step, a big turning point in my cuck journey. Looking back on it, it was the point of no return.

If I'd been any kind of man I'd either have ditched her then or gone to that car park and confronted the guy. But I couldn't. Truth was I was too much of a coward to do either of those things. And that thought gave me a strange thrill. So, I just sat there jerking off to relieve my frustrations instead. My fate was sealed in that moment really. There was no coming back from that. That was the moment, more than any other, when I became 100% a cuck.