Cuckold's Diary 25 "Conversation with My Wife's Lover"

[Paul_Pines]

A CUCKOLD'S DIARY, CHAPTER 26

CONVERSATION WITH MY WIFE'S LOVER
July 2008

On July 2, my wife Sally had another date with her lover, Ted. After we returned home, Ted and I had an IM conversation about the day and about their relationship. He generously gave me permission to reprint the transcript here.

Yes, there's a little sex in it, but mostly it is a discussion of my relationship with my wife and HIS relationship with my wife.

The only thing that needs explanation is the scene at lunch. We always get a hotel suite for their dates, so they can be alone together in the bedroom and I can sit outside the bedroom door and listen. After a few hours together they come out and have lunch in the dining area of the suite. I used to eat with them, but recently I feel too submissive to eat or even to sit as an equal with them at the table. With their permission I now sit on the floor by the table while they eat. Since they only throw on a shirt or a robe, their genitalia are exposed to me from my vantage point on the floor. I try to masturbate quietly and not disturb their conversation during their meal.

If you do not enjoy the idea of sexual denial and humiliation, you will not enjoy this chapter.

Comments welcome!

Sincerely,

Cuckold Paul
newatthis22a@yahoo.com

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Ted: are you there
Paul: hi - I'm here now.
Ted: hi again
Paul: Sorry, Sally was just going to take a nap and we talked for a minute first. Hope you had a good time today.
Ted: I had a really delightful day. she was magic to me today
Paul: You have a few minutes? I won' keep you long, given your long lunch :-)
Ted: heheheh I am doing invoices for the 1st of the month
Paul: Could I ask you what positions you used fucking her?
Ted: missionary and cowgirl
Paul: Cowgirl?
Ted: woman on top
Ted: riding
Paul: got it. What positions were you in each time you came in her?
Ted: missionary is the way I really cum best
Paul: <shudder> Could I ask you what it felt like to fuck her, to cum in her?
Ted: she was very slick as usual if I pumped fast I could hear our juices together]
Paul: oooh...
Paul: and where were her legs?
Ted: attached to her hips
Paul: :-(
Ted: LOL
Ted: couldn’t resist that one
Paul: very funny. And where were the other ends?
Ted: feet on bed with knees up
Paul: thank you. Could I ask you how she looked when you were fucking her... I was trying to imagine her naked, etc., when I heard you in her.
Ted: I love looking at her beautiful eyes when I cum
Paul: God, I know what you're talking about...
Ted: and she seems so proud she got me off so well. It’s a little twinkle she gets
Paul: <groan> I can honestly say I've only seen that when she was with you. Never did that with me. Ever. question: you've said you don't ejaculate a lot of semen when you cum. Could I ask about how much you actually do ejaculate?
Ted: we fucked three times, she came twice and me twice.
Ted: her second one was right after lunch. she got right into bed and reached for her vibe and wanted me to hold her and help her get off
Paul: I heard you fuck twice, cum twice... when was the third time?
Ted: before lunch. she just had me hard all the time today
Paul: OMG, this is my wife we're talking about...
Ted: my girlfriend
Paul: Yes, she is. I hope you know that's not role-play - not anymore, for sure. Could you answer my cum question... please?
Ted: not much right now until I get the surgery, maybe a teaspoon and it does not come out with any real force behind it.
Paul: Understood. I thought you didn't ejaculate at all.
Ted: no, there is a little, but after the first time is VERY little
Paul: I'll tell you why I asked. Actually, two things I want to share, then I won't keep you...
Ted: ok
Paul: First, I really appreciate your accepting my sitting on the floor and staring at the two of you during lunch. I had just heard you cum in my wife, and facing your cock was intensely humiliating. I didn't want to touch it, and in fact I was trying to understand why it (or any cock) makes my wife wet, but there it was, and there I was. It was very difficult hearing you moan and groan, and especially hearing you cum, and then seeing what was inside her blew my mind.
Ted: she was especially good to my cock today
Ted: she had me hard almost the whole time
Paul: Then while I was staring, a large drop of semen formed right at the tip. It stayed there for about five minutes, then dripped down the way only semen does... gooey and stringy. I can't stop thinking about your semen - your sperm - in my wife. That's why I asked about you cumming. It was gross, and humiliating beyond anything I can express.
Ted: it all felt quite nice to us
Paul: So I heard.
Paul: Item #2 happened during our discussion on the way home.
Ted: what happened?
Paul: We were talking about what she said last night, which literally kept me awake all night... "Coming to PA taught me that I don't hate sex."
Ted: no she does not, she was having a good time.
Paul: We talked a lot about that - very relaxed, not putting on a show. She said she really did hate sex with me for as far back as she can remember.
Paul: Hate is a strong word.
Paul: So I asked her what happens in 2009, since she said she doesn’t want to have sex with me for a year.
Ted: when she wants more she goes for it and also when she is finished , she is DONE
Paul: Ted, she never, ever wants it with me. That's what she said today. She said as long as she has the right to change her mind, she doesn’t think it makes sense to say we'd have sex next year. "Unless you're somehow magically going to do it differently next year."
Ted: a year is a long time
Paul: I'm a little crushed, very excited, and amazed that she was actually telling me what she believes. Right before she went up to take her nap she said, "you're never getting any again."
Ted: wow she really did have a good time today!
Paul: yes, she did. She had a really good time. I was worried that you'd be upset or unnerved by hearing that she said that to me.
Ted: I can still look forward to having sex with her again in less than two weeks
Paul: <groan> she is, too. fyi, that's technically when she would get her period, but she thinks the chances are slim that it will happen right then.
Ted: I hope we are lucky and all is ready for that date
Paul: Last question: can you get some idea of how it feels to me to sit outside the door and listen, and think that I may never feel that again in my life... because you taught my wife what good sex is - and what it isn't?
Ted: I can’t imagine how that feels, I know that she and I have a deep sexual connection and you can’t have that. on the other hand you have her love and support always. only a very complicated woman could do this
Paul: I agree, and I love her for it. I'm ashamed that you know what you know about her, the intimate details that I've never been shown, but I'm glad we have each found this.
Paul: You're not supposed to know what my wife's body looks like, and feels like. You're not supposed to know how to help her orgasm. You're not supposed to fuck her... and she's not supposed to have your sperm swimming around inside her right now...
Ted: but I do and I love it and so does she
Ted: something you have to face every day
Paul: Those beautiful eyes you looked at when you came... she just looked at me with them, and told me I'm never getting any again.
Ted: a totally different message
Paul: Thanks, Ted. I won't take any more of your time, but I needed to share those things with you. I can write about them as "Paul", but you're the only person who knows who I am... and what I am.
Ted: I think others gain by your sharing
Ted: you are probably helping several others right now
Paul: yes, they do. But I gain by your willingness to cuckold me and to talk about it with me. I am truly grateful... and grateful for how you treat Sally.
Ted: we all are seeming to get just what we ant from this. sounds like a successful arrangement to me
Paul: I heard you orgasm in my wife today... I won't ever forget that.
Ted: you have heard it before and actually watched it
Paul: But when we were sharing her it was one thing. Now it is more difficult than you might imagine.
Ted: she has stopped making any mention of doing anything to give you a thrill when we’re together.
Paul: You were right when you said it was the two of you. Sex is only for the two of you, and only behind a closed door. All I get is the sounds, and staring at your cock when you and she have lunch. And no, she's not interested in giving me any thrills. She's very happy I like this, and she's getting more comfortable doing what she wanted to do years ago - cut me off completely.
Ted: I am more than pleased with the situation and want to continue looking into her eyes while my cock is spurting into her pussy
Paul: you just completely fucked with my head.
Ted: it is what she and I enjoy together
Paul: I know. But when you smack me in the face with it you really help me accept this.
Ted: I don’t think your cuck friends or wannabes fully understand this kind of thing
Paul: ??
Ted: how you are feeling and how she and I really feel. many are only thinking sexually, not a total thing
Ted: they are not at the place we are
Paul: All I can say is that when you tell me it's more than a sex thing, that it's a couple thing, you drive me into a very dark but exciting place. A FEW cucks really know this, but I truly appreciate your doing this TO me.
Ted: I’ll bet very few have a 10 year history
Paul: that's true. VERY few.
Paul: and very few have been cut off completely.
Ted: they are still into getting their rocks off watching her fuck some big cock
Paul: and, to be honest, choreographing the whole thing. That's something you've been very good about... helping me stop choreographing, let go and enjoy being hurt by what Sally and you share.
Ted: we wanted to have sex our way not yours. You are no longer part of our sex
Paul: Since May 20 it's official. You are right. And it's possible that I may NEVER be again.
Paul: could I ask you how it felt to cum in her?
Paul: what it felt like to you?
Ted: you will think about this many more times than just when we are together. you will think about it when you look at porn, when you talk to other cucks and when you see her naked
Paul: AND when I see her at work, and when we go out to dinner, and when we're with our kids, and when everyone says what a loving couple we are.
Ted: you are a loving couple, don’t forget that. But you are NOT a fucking couple
Paul: I know that. And I'm amazed how much Sally wants it to be that way for the rest of our lives.
Ted: you have a wonderful woman who loves you deeply, enough to be honest with you about her needs
Paul: But you know how much baggage she has had to drop to get here, and you are responsible for letting her feel comfortable letting it go. I hope you know how much she appreciates you. Not to replace me, but you have given her something she would never have known. And you have helped her drop something she HATED.
Ted: it is all good
Paul: yes, it is. thank you!
Ted: I gotta get on finishing the invoices. Have a good day and tell my girlfriend I had a fantastic time - but she was there and knows that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Paul: will do. see you soon.
Ted: bye bye

[Paul_Pines]

Wow, I would have thought SOMEONE would comment.

My bad.

Cuckold Paul

[Jimbo_McC]

Its a hard life kid but at least the wife is happy.

Thats what you want isnt it.

[Open2it]

Paul,
Perhaps it was too "real" for some to fully digest. I think it's very special that you can discuss feelings and emotions with her lover like that. The brutal honesty of knowing Sally is your wife but his sex partner and lover while denying you must be hard but in reality it's got to make for an intense situation. Your taking the time to write about it helps others understand the unconditionalness of cuckolding love and dynamics. You are appreciated and very, very special.
O2

[Paul_Pines]

Thank you both for your responses. Jimbo, please understand that we're BOTH happy (actually, all three of us). Sally and I have never been closer - it took her a long time to admit to herself that she never really liked sex with me, and even longer to admit it to me. And for me, I truly believe I was born to be a cuckold. When we began it was a game; now it's the foundation of our relationship. Who could ask for more after 25 years of marriage?

O2, I really appreciate your comment. "Cuckolding love and dynamics" is a good way to express this. If my writing has been helpful to others, that's something I am very happy about.

I get the feeling people are uncomfortable with the extreme nature of what I write. That's okay with me, but the silence after my last posting left me wondering if I had offended people.

Again, thanks to both of you.

Sincerely,

Cuckold Paul

[herhusband12]

I can't begin to understand how you feel and what it feels like to be in a situation similar to yours, because I'm not a cuckold, yet.

Reading this conversation between yourself and your wife's lover feels very erotic to me and I can see myself in a similar situation at some point in time. In a way, I envy you and in another way, it scares me to think that I may be in a situation similar to yours some day.

[Paul_Pines]

I think being a little scared is appropriate. I never thought we would find ourselves where we are now, but once I stopped trying to control everything it just sort of happened.

Cuckolding is not for everyone, that's for sure. For some of us it is thrilling and painful, but if you become a cuckold for real don't imagine that the painful part won't be there. There is a huge difference between having a "hotwife" and being a cuckold, and the difference is pretty scary.

... but exciting as hell!

Good luck to you - I hope you get what you really want, whatever that is.

Sincerely,

Cuckold Paul