Re: Is this the start or the end?
Posted: Sat Feb 23, 2019 4:03 am
As I wrote I was surprised by her 'no list'. I couldn't figure out where it came from. But decided to chalk it up.
I generally pay the bills on or about the 10th of the month. I use Quicken. It's loaded on her laptop which is a Win 10 machine as my computers are all XP, yes XP, I have 'upgrade-itis'. Anyway I needed to look at Intuit's website as they announced a new mandatory version by April. So afte some website visits I needed to go to an earlier visited site so I used the browser history, low and behold there was the answer. Visits to a few cuckold & hotwife sites as well as Urban Dictionary and hotwife blogs. She's been a busy surfer. Fortunately none of the three I post on. I now know where she got the vocabulary.
On Sunday 2/10 I asked her how she thinks she's doing. Her response wasn't very positive. She said she doesn't see any improvement and the need for OT was essential. I agreed on the OT but did see improvement as a result of PT & ST. I reminded her of the frog in water story. She said I might be right, that maybe she can't see the forest for the trees. I asked about her PGAD. She said it hasn't gone away nor abated in any way and masturbation several times a day is getting old. I asked if she thought she might want to consider the medical options. She said no, but there is the option of more men.
Let me say here and now if you didn't get it before. The more men she has sex with the happier I am, the more men she has sex the happier she is. Which means we're on the same page. She is not very descriminate on who she has sex with, and I'm OK with that. She prefers bareback by a wide margin and I'm OK with that as well, even considering the risks. She doesn't want a connection with any guy, nor do I. We're both OK with a regular if it fits the 'no-connection' scenario. Nether of us care about race, body type or age (she's gotten over the close to her sons age thing). She doesn't like big cock, and I don't care, big or small, it's her choice. She's OK with our house (after getting over that as well) ad I'm OK in our martial bed. Neither of us are into humiliation. And we agree I must be involved in every encounter is some manner. To repeat we're truly on the same page with all of it. The only issues seems to be activity after such a serious medical event and during therapy lest the benefits be negated.
I then asked HWR how she feels after a session. She said good, real good, orgasm is so liberating, so ethereal, so physical, so primal. I laughed. Her aphasia means she can't always parse a question properly. She wasn't happy at my response. I told her I meant medically and apologized for my outburst of laughter that it wasn't meant to be hurtful. She said besides being tired she's OK. nothing hurts afterwards and she doesn't feel any kind of negative after affects. Then asked if I think she/we can pick up the pace. I reminded her life isn't a race we all get to the finish line no matter what. She said something she's said before "so many men - so little time." We laughed together.
That would have been a good point for us to fuck. BUT. My occasional ED makes it frustrating for us both, Not getting hard enough to get in her and try without success is emotionally debilitating for us both, so we really don't try anymore, except after another guy has been in her. Blowjobs would work but she doesn't like soft dick in her mouth. If you don't suffer from ED you need to understand not getting an erection doesn't stop masturbation, orgasm or ejaculation. So we masturbated together, we both had orgasms, I had one, she had several.
Tuesday 2/13 about 2:00pm HWR called me and told me that the guy from last week called her and asked if he could stop by on his way home from work about 3:30. Of course I told he yes and that I'd try and be there as soon as I could. Unfortunately I couldn't make it home before he was done probably passing him on the road. But I did get sloppy seconds, the only way I seem to be able to get in her.
I added my cum to his after her orgasm. She said that was number 5. I gave her a towel which she tucked between her legs and she fell asleep. I woke her shortly thereafter asking if she wanted dinner or sleep she chose sleep.
I generally pay the bills on or about the 10th of the month. I use Quicken. It's loaded on her laptop which is a Win 10 machine as my computers are all XP, yes XP, I have 'upgrade-itis'. Anyway I needed to look at Intuit's website as they announced a new mandatory version by April. So afte some website visits I needed to go to an earlier visited site so I used the browser history, low and behold there was the answer. Visits to a few cuckold & hotwife sites as well as Urban Dictionary and hotwife blogs. She's been a busy surfer. Fortunately none of the three I post on. I now know where she got the vocabulary.
On Sunday 2/10 I asked her how she thinks she's doing. Her response wasn't very positive. She said she doesn't see any improvement and the need for OT was essential. I agreed on the OT but did see improvement as a result of PT & ST. I reminded her of the frog in water story. She said I might be right, that maybe she can't see the forest for the trees. I asked about her PGAD. She said it hasn't gone away nor abated in any way and masturbation several times a day is getting old. I asked if she thought she might want to consider the medical options. She said no, but there is the option of more men.
Let me say here and now if you didn't get it before. The more men she has sex with the happier I am, the more men she has sex the happier she is. Which means we're on the same page. She is not very descriminate on who she has sex with, and I'm OK with that. She prefers bareback by a wide margin and I'm OK with that as well, even considering the risks. She doesn't want a connection with any guy, nor do I. We're both OK with a regular if it fits the 'no-connection' scenario. Nether of us care about race, body type or age (she's gotten over the close to her sons age thing). She doesn't like big cock, and I don't care, big or small, it's her choice. She's OK with our house (after getting over that as well) ad I'm OK in our martial bed. Neither of us are into humiliation. And we agree I must be involved in every encounter is some manner. To repeat we're truly on the same page with all of it. The only issues seems to be activity after such a serious medical event and during therapy lest the benefits be negated.
I then asked HWR how she feels after a session. She said good, real good, orgasm is so liberating, so ethereal, so physical, so primal. I laughed. Her aphasia means she can't always parse a question properly. She wasn't happy at my response. I told her I meant medically and apologized for my outburst of laughter that it wasn't meant to be hurtful. She said besides being tired she's OK. nothing hurts afterwards and she doesn't feel any kind of negative after affects. Then asked if I think she/we can pick up the pace. I reminded her life isn't a race we all get to the finish line no matter what. She said something she's said before "so many men - so little time." We laughed together.
That would have been a good point for us to fuck. BUT. My occasional ED makes it frustrating for us both, Not getting hard enough to get in her and try without success is emotionally debilitating for us both, so we really don't try anymore, except after another guy has been in her. Blowjobs would work but she doesn't like soft dick in her mouth. If you don't suffer from ED you need to understand not getting an erection doesn't stop masturbation, orgasm or ejaculation. So we masturbated together, we both had orgasms, I had one, she had several.
Tuesday 2/13 about 2:00pm HWR called me and told me that the guy from last week called her and asked if he could stop by on his way home from work about 3:30. Of course I told he yes and that I'd try and be there as soon as I could. Unfortunately I couldn't make it home before he was done probably passing him on the road. But I did get sloppy seconds, the only way I seem to be able to get in her.
I added my cum to his after her orgasm. She said that was number 5. I gave her a towel which she tucked between her legs and she fell asleep. I woke her shortly thereafter asking if she wanted dinner or sleep she chose sleep.