Our Hotwives

Like many people. I have more time than usual on my hands due to the current never ending COVID. I don't know if I even belong on this website. Since I never was an official hotwife as I never been married I figured the library was okay even though this is a true story. I was introduced to cucking/ hotwifing, by an ex who obsessed over seeing me fuck another guy in a threesome. I could never bring myself to do it. My story is probably not that interesting or exciting compared to others on it. In fact it includes very little to no cucking but includes a lot of teasing and lets say sexual vulgarity that got my boyfriend quite worked out. I had a short term relationship with a cuck for a few months with some of the best social experiences of my lives. I found this forum and have mostly lurked I think ten or eleven years ago. I seek out cuck porn, it's definitely let me discover somethings about myself sexually and I remain intrigued by it to this day. One aspect I love of cuckold/hotwife/stag etc lifestyle is the mind fuck. I spend time on kink website there are ton of married and committed couples fucking other people and having poly/swinging/ some type of open relationship. It's not that they don't deal with jealousy because of course they do, but they don't reach level of emotion, angst, and just the intense mind fuck of cucking in my opinion.

I been somewhat of a secret slut. It's my secret I keep with random people who don't really know me(more on that later). My first slutty act was meeting strangers on craigslist to suck my first dick and to loose my virginity. Yes I know that sounds preposterous. To be clear I am not some sex bomb, I am not particularly beautiful but I am also not a troll or super ugly I think anyways. I didn't fuck the guys from there from necessity but it was because I am neurotic AF and obviously could not bring myself to fuck the guys I went on dates on. Sex to this day intermingles with shame for me. I grew up very religious, and while I didn't buy that loud of bullshit but the conditioning worked. I was celibate all though high school and towards the end of college. I didn't feel bad about it, because I had no pregnancy scares, no guys having sex with me then ignoring me, and all other associated headaches that comes with sex. I had an off and on boyfriend who broke up mainly because he was a whore and I don't mean that nicely. We bickered and fought on and off.

Anyways we were off and he came home for the summer and I had decided that I wanted loose my virginity to him. I had gone through a rough time and was just getting back on feet and making friends and finally started to go out to happy hours and bars. Around this time I had a friend lets call her Giselle we met temping together. Giselle was Brazilian, she had dark black hair, green/hazel eyes, and skin that naturally tan. She is tall, lanky, we enjoyed going out together because I was tall too, and we had no drama together. Anyways that spring to the summer we hung out nonstop. Around April Giselle dropped off the face of the planet. Giselle shows back up with this guy and he is not just hot but sexy. Now white guys especially at that time didn't do for me. But he's the kind of hot that any women with a pulse notices. He was tall, had a six pack with a v, I know because we got together and he did a training session for us sans shirt. Dark hair intense blue eyes, and a cute dimple. They looked so good together. I met them for drinks and the official story was that they met on a dating website. I don't think tinder was around at this time or if it was it just started, but Okcupid, Match, and Plenty of Fish were. The Truth was they met craigslist, and I didn't know it at the time but she would plant a potent seed that would lead to me doing the same. This is getting long. I will stop here for now.


ps: Edited for typos. I probably still missed some but I will try to be more mindful before publishing.

Anyways that takes us to Memorial day weekend when the truth came out. Memorial day weekend started on Wednesday for us and come Friday we were in rare form. It's was early probably around midnight I was buzzed and Giselle was wasted. Her bf made an executive decision that our night was over. Given that we had plans to be out Saturday and Sunday I agreed. I planned on taking the train because he's a gentleman he insisted on driving me home. As we stumbled to the car arm and arm Giselle told me one of his friends, Sean who we been out with found me cute. Giselle had met my on and off boyfriend and she didn't like him one bit. Giselle didn't know I was a virgin but she knew I was inexperienced and resisted having sex with my bf because of our on and off and fights and his wandering eye. We got in the car and While talking about how his friend Sean thought I was cute and how I need to give up on my loser boyfriend. "You know Last year on my birthday I said fuck it to going on dates and chasing guys who don't appreciate me and you know what most of the time they don't care if the sex is good for me. So what's the point?" I shrugged. Giselle leaned over point her finger at me and said "I've had the best sex of my life this year and now I have a boyfriend who can find my clit without a map and I have orgasms all the time." I started slow clapping "way to rub it in, but I'm happy for you guys"

"Giesele please babe be quiet" her boyfriend said. Instead of being quiet Giselle leaned over back towards me and in a slurring stage whisper "you know what you should do just worry about good sex. BF and I were sex buddies and we met on craigslist just to hookup" Giselle boyfriend yanked her back towards the front seat "What the fuck! Giselle you're drunk be quiet" "What? She's my friend and I trust her" We got to stop light and the front of the car was slightly illuminated by a street light and I just remember seeing her boyfriends neck, it was was beet red. "Don't worry my lips are sealed, I would never tell anyone your business" I assured him. Her boyfriend didn't respond but turned on music and put the volume up high. We spent the rest of the 10 minute drive in silence. When I got home I got out of the car. Giselle opened her door "give me a hug bitch" I rolled my eyes but went back and hugged her, she popped a friendly kiss on my lips, "we going to get you laid and not by that dreadlocked asshole." I laughed and told her to get in the car and went inside. The rest of the weekend was blur and I went hard brunch, dinner, drinks, and dancing.

I was asleep on Monday when my phone ringing woke me up. It was Giselle trying to get me to come hang out. That day was beautiful and warmer then usual. She was at her boyfriends who had a roof deck and his roommate was out of town. I whined that I was tired but she talked me into coming to hang out and promised we wouldn't be drinking. I refuse to come for brunch but said I come later in the afternoon. I dragged myself out of bed and went over. Her boyfriend acted normal and greeted me with a hug. He had a big roof deck with fake green grass carpet thing on the floor. There was a big table, bean bags and a huge oversize couch. Giselse and I laid sprawled out on the couch enjoying the sun while he was inside doing laundry and doing some work , he worked in finance doing something so it was the norm for him to go in for a half day or work from home. We were dozing on and off while drinking mimosas because of course! Recounting the weekend. When I quietly asked Giselle if she remembered Friday night. "uh huh"

Me: "So you guys really met on craigslist? " My mind was blown. I am not saying this because she's my friend but Giselle is supermodel hot. She had the type of body I would have preferred. Smaller boobs, tight stomach, and big ass. I have no ass, well it's small and compact and round but considered no ass especially not for a black woman. Her skin was naturally tan and she has super long black hair, which caused her to look even striking because of her green hazel eyes. She wasn't hurting for male attention and had no reason to be using craigslist. I knew abut casual encounters and figured it was for hookers and/or desperate people.

G: Yes. After breaking up with my ex and dating all these guys who bore me and the one I fucked did nothing for me. I just needed more. That's what I got from the first guy...

Me: It wasn't your Bf?

G: Nope. He's lucky number 4!

Me: Really? For how long did you do this before meeting him?

G. Six months before meeting the bf. At first I was on there reading, there are a lots of freaks and weirdos and there are also a lot of good looking guys and reasonable people looking for fwb or nsa.

Me: Aren't you afraid of getting hurt.

G: Yeah but I was careful. I set up a separate email, give a fake name, make my facebook profile private. I meet people in public. I had good luck. Men also don't give a fuck. Some of them use their real emails and I looked them up. Some were married, or used old pictures I ignored them. Eventually I posted my own ads and only responded to people who I could figure out their information with their email. Some of these people use their work emails so it's really not that hard!

Me: What made you finally do it.

G: I don't know. I kept seeing this ad from a guy who just wanted to invite someone over for massages, give head , and nothing required to be done to him. We email back and forth for a month. He thought I was fake or leading him on but I just got scared. Finally I decided we should meet. So we went to the food court in the prudential center. He was handsome, very tan, super in shape, had on a suit and just looked expensive. He older 42. It was awkward and weird, but he asked if I wanted to walk around and we did so I calmed down. Anyways I had plans so I let him have my number. It too a few weeks but the third time I finally got massage it was amazing.

Me: What? No bitch, I want details.

To my surprise Giselle blushed. She looked through the sliding screen doors.
We had been laying in opposite directions with her head towards the door. Giselle flipped over so we both were now laying side by side over with our feet towards the screen doors. She laid on her side and pulled down her sunglasses.

G: So I went back another time after work but bitched out again. The third time we met again but on a Sunday at the Starbucks in the PRU we had coffee but this time he asked if I wanted to go for a drive. He got his car and we spent an hour We drove all through the city as the Sun was setting. We didn't talk at all but I felt comfortable and calm. The sunset was beautiful and we got out at the esplanade for a lit bit to watch it. The sun had set and we decided to head back to the Pru. When we got back in the car right away he put his hands on my thigh. My heart was beating so fast. But I let it stay there. I had one of my stretch miniskirts on and a tank top. He started rubbing the outside of my skirt. I just looked straight head. He reached under my skirt started rubbing my clit over my panties very slowly all the way back. Eventually we got to the PRU and he went in the parking garage. It was dimly lit. He parked the car, but didn't turn it off. We were parked by a wall he told me the other spot was his and no one would park there. Then He told me to pull up my skirt so I did. He turned on the light over the passenger seat, I just remember looking down at his hands and he moved my panties over and was being very gentle and rubbing me very slowly. I started getting very wet I just watch him touching me down there, the car was convertible so it doesn't have a lot of space. He pushed a button and put my chair back as far as it could go, he made me shift over and he leaned over and started licking me.

Me: oh my gawd

Giselle: I know. The whole time I was nervous because people were walking by every once in a while. Eventually he stopped and started to finger me with one finger then two. Giselle held up her ring and middle finger and demonstrated how he was doing a come here like motion inside of her while rubbing her clit with his thumb. I was breathing hard, and trust me he has a deep sexy voice. He leaned over and started kissing my neck and whispering in my ear asking me to cum for him. It was really slow build and I wasn't sure I could but I did and I was moaning loudly!

Me: Wow.

Giselle: Yeah. After that I wet his seat. He said it was fine. I didn't even put my panties back on I put them in my purse. Then he pulled his fingers out me and he sucked them clean. He didn't have tissue in his car, and my skirt was short and all my inner thighs were wet. He told me to come up and have a drink and get cleaned up. so I go upstairs and it's fucking uncomfortable thankfully he took an elevator right into the residence elevators and we didn't have to walk in the PRU. There was a doorman and I was embarrassed but he acted like nothing had happen and even introduced me to the guy as I signed in.

We got up to his apartment he got me wine and I went to the bathroom and wiped myself clean and put my damp panties back on because no way I was riding the T with no panties on. Anyways we have drink he shows me his closet with his massage tables and asks if I want to come back so i say yes. I finish my drink thank him and walk to the door. He puts his hands on the door. Wait, I turn around, he gets on his knees and pulls my panties down and kisses my vagina. Then he starts eating me out, this was nothing compared to the licks I never been eaten out like that, eventually he pulled my skirt off and I am leaning back against his door, He lifts my up and puts my legs over his shoulders while he ate me out. I came once more. Then he took me to his couch I thought he wanted to fuck me. Instead he had me lean over the arm of his leather sofa and he ate me out from the back while fingering me again. And I came a third time very hard. I had never had an orgasm like that. Before my orgasms' came quick and short. But he just like works me and it starts in belly and it builds until it feels like an explosion, he just makes me squirm. I was there another hour and half!

Me: Holy shit, three freaking times that's amazing!

Giselle: I know. Giselle's boyfriend came out to fire up the grille and the conversation ended well for now.


This is super long sorry. I not a great writer and I end up writing more then I intended. Well more later. If this get's too boring let me know and I don't have to keep writing. These are turning out longer then anticipated.

Interesting slow build. Excellent story. Keep writing.

afagehi7 wrote: ↑

Tue Nov 24, 2020 1:19 pm

Interesting slow build. Excellent story. Keep writing.

Thank you.

The craigslist conversation would come up again a few weeks later but there was a big development before then, I gave my first blow job. The first dick I sucked was a guy named Larry. I met him when I was 19 at a college party and saw him around periodically. I went out with my friends, we really wanted to dance to straight hip-hop and reggae so we went to one of the few Urban clubs in our area. Larry came over to say hi and had some cute guys with him my friends wanted to talk too so I ended up dancing him a little bit and hanging out with him and his friends all night. We all went to get food after and he asked my number. I gave it to him. Giselle's encouragement for me to get laid lurked in my mind and it made me more open to moving on past my on and off boyfriend who I had a blow up with and once again wasn't talking too again.

About a week later Larry invited me over to chill. He lived with his mom but had a finished basement to himself. He offered me weed and Hennessy I declined, I have to work tomorrow I'm not drinking Hennessy I told him. We ended up going to the liquor store where I picked out a few mini bottles of vodka and wine coolers. I took one shot after another while we sat on the couch watching television. I had on a basic black tank top, short jean skirt and sandals, but I have double d boobs so it looks more provocative on me. Larry is a nerd. He's very tall 6'5, very skinny, has massive afro he wears in braids most of the time. He had glasses. I caught him starting at my chest a few times. With some liquid courage I decided to turn sideways and I took off my sandals and put my feet up on couch. He got a better look as he kept sneaking glances out of the corner of his eye, he moved closer until he had his hand resting on my knee. The tension was thick and I had been there for over an hour "watching television" but I couldn't bring myself to make a move. I looked at my phone and said I going to have to leave soon.

A commercial came on Larry finally turned towards me and leaned over and kissed me. It was tentative and very sweet. He had very sexy full lips. I pulled him closer and we started making out. Pretty soon Larry was laying on top of me grinding his dick into me while kissing me. He tried to un button and unzip my jean skirt but I didn't let him. He reached over the top of my shirt into my bra and started massaging my boobs all while grinding his dick into me. I was wet but couldn't bring myself to take the skirt off. Finally I unbuckled his pants and got on the floor. He was super sweet and put one of the couch pillows down for me to protect my knees.

His dick was long and thick. Probably eight inches and I would say qualifies as a bbc for sure. I looked at him as I pulled his boxers down. He stepped out of his pants and put his glasses on the table. I nicked his dick a few times with my teeth, I licked it from tip down to his balls. I had no clue what I was doing the articles I read with information flew out of my head. I kept asking if it was good and what he liked. I also did this thing where I put top tip in my mouth and sucked it as hard as I could he started groaning when I did that. Larry asked me to spit on it and being the good polite girl that I was I couldn't bring myself to do it so he finally did it and rubbed his dick up and down while I kept sucking the tip before he warned me he was going to cum. he came in my mouth and I hated the texture and taste of cum. Something that's true to this day. I started gagging and ran to the bathroom to spit it out. Not sexy but my honest reaction to having cum in my mouth for the first time. He came a lot and some got on my black shirt and jean skirt, and my chest. I cleaned up and when I came back out Larry tried to convince me to let him eat me out but I felt too shy. Also because I'm ridiculous I had recently started shaving my vagina and I made the mistake of looking at it in mirror one day. I was self conscious about how my vagina looked and while I have dark skin it was several shades darker and I also thought my pussy was too plump. Now that I seen plenty of people's vaginas I know it's not so unusual for your vagina to be a different shade.

Anyways Larry fucking ruined it by telling someone, he lived in the same are as my ex. I grew up in the suburbs so I didn't know a lot of people well there but I knew a few mainly through my ex and a few people I went to college with. Anyways I'm not sure how but it got back to ex. We had a nasty fight where he was enraged and called me hoe. I was standing by the door ready to leave and I told him I didn't want to get back with him and I would never fuck him, and I maybe a hoe but I never was for him. He leaned over and slammed his fist a couple times on the wall behind me inches from my face. My ex was 6ft husky and big and while I didn't show it to him he actually scared me that night. I blocked him and eventually most of our mutual friends on facebook. I went so far to pay for his number to be blocked. I was done for good. After all of this I was majorly turned off I didn't return Larry's text or phone calls. I felt bad about myself, ashamed. Even though I was 23 and still a virgin I was embarrassed that people were talking about me, I spent my whole life being "good" to hear people I didn't know well banding my name about yes admittingly slutty behavior didn't feel good and definitely was bad for my self esteem. Thankfully it wasn't my main social circle because I would have died of embarrassment.

I told Giselle what happen. It made me kind of depressed so I was laying low just going to work and coming home. Giselle and her boyfriend were obsessed with each other and she wasn't out and about as much as she used to be. Her boyfriend had a job in finance and worked crazy hours and half days on some weekends, so most of their time spent together was at night. And he wasn't up for going out as much as we used too in those days. The thing about Giselle and I is that we spent most of our time hanging out alone, just the two of us. Sometimes I went with her friends and sometimes she came out with mine but mostly we were off talking lots about sex all the time. We traded erotica. I think there was freedom in that fact that we had only been friends for a year and half. That we weren't from the some city/town and we only knew each other as adults. I found myself feeling free with her. In my normal group of friends I was considered level headed and prude I couldn't talk about sex with them the way we did. It was nice and meeting someone with a new dynamic was good for me. Giselle and I had fun where ever we went. I was more reserved and introverted. Giselle was loud, vivacious, and very warm. We both were tall and she was favorite dance partner for that reason! Anyways she came over one weekend for a movie to cheer me up and give me dick sucking tips after she heard about my teeth issues while giving a blow job.

Don't know how many are reading, but writing just the past few days has been nice. Also saving my clit as I have been masturbating way too much lately. I replaced it with writing instead. Working only a half day today so more later!

If you're female you should get verified and/or post some pics in the hotties thread. If you're a guy writing as a female for a fantasy story that's perfectly ok. If you don't verify that you're female most will assume male. Anyone can write anything, true or fiction, in the library so whatever is OK.

I don't know that I want to post pictures on the hotties thread, I will think about posting photos from around that time I am writing about if I can make it discrete enough but they would be pretty boring because it would just be photos of me in regular clothes. Also for context I am 33. So I am writing about 10 years ago. If it's not complicated I can get verified to prove that I am actually a female.

Laney26 wrote: ↑

Wed Nov 25, 2020 10:30 am

I don't know that I want to post pictures on the hotties thread, I will think about posting photos from around that time I am writing about if I can make it discrete enough but they would be pretty boring because it would just be photos of me in regular clothes. Also for context I am 33. So I am writing about 10 years ago. If it's not complicated I can get verified to prove that I am actually a female.

You'll get more responses and participation if you are a verified female. It's simple and we don't even see the assignment picture (which isn't a nudie pic). Check the link and PM armyguy.

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Giselle came over on a Friday night. I had recently moved back home. My mom was around and cooked dinner for us. We were in the tv room with a movie on in the background but really we were whispering about Larry. She made me recount in extreme detail my blow job. She gave me some tips for sucking big dicks. I showed her the texts and long facebook message Larry sent me, he apologized, said he liked me and wanted to take me out on a date. She thought I should give him another chance. But I wasn't interested I didn't trust him. My mom brought us our food and cleaned up before disappearing to the other side of the house. We shut the door and turned up the volume on the TV. Giselle had me asked me what I thought about the craigslist thing. I told her I thought about it and had actually started reading a lot of ads but wasn't sure. We talked about the third massage I remember general vibes and specific pieces of conversation. I have a good memory and as I started writing a lot of things have come back to me. I am trying my best to be accurate. I also journal and I written in them since I was 14. My journals from 2009 to 2015 are filled with graphic details and lots of thoughts about sex. Lots of debriefs about my conversations with Giselle. Including some things I forgotten about, which I will talk about later.

A few things stick out to me.

The first is the story of the second massage(4th visit). Giselle showed me a pic I had liked on facebook and told me that the night of the third massage and he had taken the picture. He had his kids most weekends and they often left Sunday morning, and he invited her to join him that afternoon. He took her out to an early dinner at the Oak Room which is a very nice fancy bar/restaurant. She wore an eyelet white baby doll style dress and strappy metallic sandals that made her taller then him. She told me he ordered for her and she couldn't' recall what she ate or drank but that she was both amused and turned on about being in public with him, she was wondering what the other diners thought of her as they attracted some attention when they walked in. She wasn't wearing anything scandalous but it was It was apparent she was way younger then him. Obviously he was super handsome and good looking but she didn't know what they made of them together. It made her feel naughty that he didn't know her real name, and that she met him on craigslist, and that she would be going to his place taking off her clothes and spreading her legs so he would massage and lick her. Later on I would identify with this feeling.

After he took her back to his apartment. He already had the massage table set up. He turned off his ac so it was warm. She went to the bathroom and when she came back he was waiting for her wearing nothing but shorts, he was super fit had abs and clearly worked out. She sat on the table and leaned back and open her legs but he made her get off lay face down. She was already aroused and told him she didn't want a full massage but he insisted and started massage her feet. He really took his time and even gave her a scalp massage and eventually she relaxed so much that she dozed off a few times and enjoyed it. She got worked up again when he got up by her vagina. He massaged her inner thighs and her butt. his knuckles grazed her but he refused to touch her there. He made her turn on to her back and repeated the process. She told me she was moving her hips and felt anxious and desperate for him to touch her. She started pleading with him. At the time I couldn't comprehend why anyone would feel so desperate and anxious during sex.

He ignored her, massaged up to her stomach, eventually he got to her boobs and started pinching and kneading her boobs. She couldn't take it anymore and sat up and he pushed her back down on the table. He leaned over and started licking and sucking her boobs. And finally touched her clit. She moved his hands and forced his fingers inside her. She sat up, with her legs dangling over the table, she gripped his arm with both hands and started grinding on his hand. He got her to lay back down and he had one hand applying pressure to her mound, and sucked on her clit while fingering her with his other hand. She had a big orgasm. They move to the couch and took a break, before he brought her to his bed where he would continue to finger and eat her until she cum multiple times. She remembers being just boneless laying on his bed and describing her vagina pulsing and contracting. I peppered her with questions and I am not going to lie I didn't think that was possible for someone's vagina to do that and I thought for sure she was exaggerating. She had asked him to fuck her but he didn't have condoms and it made her want to cry. She said eventually she went back and they fucked. Giselle continue seeing this guy until she became exclusive with her boyfriend. She said most of the times he massage, finger, and eat her for hours and he wouldn't have sex with her. She saw him most Sundays and periodically one day during the week. The second thing that was striking was that she left things out I found out about later.

Much later on she would add context. The first occasion was when I was freaking out about an incident of my own and I called her, and to make me feel better she brought the story back up and admitted to me that on that third meeting she let him fuck her bare that night, she spent the rest of the night having sex with him and she left early in the morning. They didn't know how much it cost so he gave her 100 bucks to go buy the morning after pill. She end up calling out of work to catch up some sleep.

Another time I called her unsure about having anal play. She had never told me graphic details about later meetings with him. But apparently at some point he started licking her ass and fingering her anally. She wasn't sure about anal. But around the time she was winding down with him and seeing him less when her boyfriend became her main FWB, she went to go see him and he was sad about her not coming anymore and so she decided to let him be the first guy to fuck her in the ass. I don't recall that she gave me any graphic details other then that she let him fucked her in the ass a few times. Massage guy had an average penis and her boyfriend doesn't but she was honest with him about getting fucked in the ass and eventually she let her boyfriend at first begrudgingly do anal with her. She says they don't do it all the time but she likes it. I allow licking and fingers but I still haven't let anyone have me anally.

As usual this is longer then I intend. I will write about Giselle helping me set up a burner email and my first craigslist experiences. PS: I pmed army guy about getting verified. I hope everyone has a nice thanksgiving.

Very nice writing. Very interesting story. Hopefully once verified you get some more participation.

I normally ask 1000 questions but I'm holding them until you get to the meetings

Giselle and I decided to  walk to the store to get wine, we stayed up late reading ads and laughing. By the time she left I had a burner email and
 several suggestions from ads. She wanted me to post variations of titles calling me sexy hot chocolate.  She had descriptions I felt I didn't live up to
Sexy long legged hottie with double ds. Sexy dark skin girl with legs for days.You get the idea. I didn't want to make myself sound amazing and engage in false advertising. She left a draft saved in my email. I worked on posting an ad. I kept it simple. I wanted to give a blow job, wanted to meet first in public. I wanted a respectful guy with his own space. Was Okay with roommates but wanted to try to avoid them if possible. I didn't check the email until Monday after work I was shocked I got nearly two hundred responses.

So here are the highlights if you will of craigslist that I discovered rather quickly:

1. I got over hundred messages. It was overwhelming. It took me days to work through the responses. Believe it or not most of them were horrible. 
One word messages. People asking me to call. People sending their address telling me to come over. Tons of dick pictures. Tons of weird black woman fetishes.  Tons of poorly written messages that were undecipherable, I ended up with 12 okay messages and of those only a few were from black guys.

2.  I realized craigslist was dominated by white guys. I got a hundred responses like maybe 20 or so were black guys. At that point in my life the thought of kissing, fucking, dating, a white guy hadn't even entered my consciousness or even was a 
realm of possibility for me. it wasn't some deeply held prejudiced or moral conviction. I just never considered it. I went to diverse high school but I
 never once had a crush or any romantic desire towards white guys. I did get hit on by white guys sometimes at  bars and 
I occasionally danced with them or accepted a drink from them. Never seriously considered anything past that and if I am being honest I wasn't interested.

3. I made plans to meet with a good looking tall black guy before work for coffee. He stood me up. He later admitted he had a girl and tried to get to me to meet him in a cemetery to blow him him in his car. I declined

5. Replied to another decent looking guy, the only downfall he was short I decided not to be picky. I searched him on Facebook and turns out he was from the city I went to high school he went to the other high school in town. We  had a ton of mutual friends in common including my cousin.

6. Replied to a few black guys ads, at the time didn't realize not to respond to ads mentioning snow buddies, got rejected for not wanted to fuck from one, and another found me suspicious and asked me if I was cop!

7. Replied to a promising ad from a slightly  older guy he was jacked and majorly in shape so not my normal type and in his 30s. Was okay with my 
blow job offer and had one roommate that worked the nightshift so had a quiet apartment to himself most evenings. All looked good and we made
 plans for drinks. He asked me to wear sandals. It was summer there was good chance I would have worn sandals anyways. I was curious and asked 
why. He admitted he loved feet and wanted to see mines.  He told me he  wanted me to rub my feet all over his dick, and that he wanted to suck 
and lick my toes. He asked me if I wouldn't mind sending pictures of my feet. The idea of anyone sucking my toes was a turn off.  I had strike out 
again.

8. I realized given where I lived and the volume of responses that it  was harder then I thought and I probably shouldn't automatically rule out white guys. Since this was just blow jobs it wasn't serious. I also had a less chance of knowing someone so it made it easier to stay under the radar and be anonymous.  I went through my inbox and responded one of the ads I had ignored previously.

Don't mean to draw things out maybe I am including too much details. It looks super long and unreadable so I copy and pasted the second half into a word document. I will post it later on today. The text looks normal but gets all wonky when I published. Sorry about that!

Many of us white boys really dig black girls. Glad you decided to give us a shot!

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Many of us white boys really dig black girls. Glad you decided to give us a shot!

You guys aren't so bad after all

I can't recall this guys name to save my life. He sent a nice basic picture of himself. Dark black hair was tall 6'2, didn't look lanky or super in shape
was just average. He responded he hoped to find a FWB but was okay with just a blow job. He was 26 had just graduated with his masters degree and just moved back after living out of state. He had an apartment in a fancy part of time and lived alone. 
We agreed to meet for drinks at 10pm on Friday. 


I had plans with friends and we went to Chinatown for dinner. I barely ate while pounding cheap cocktail after cocktail, trying to calm my
my nerves. My friends told me to slow down. I had gotten myself super nervous. My friends said they were going to a bar I lied and said I didn't feel well and wanted to go home. I got paranoid and realized that I could run into someone I knew because I picked a bar I regularly went too like an 
idiot I also finished dinner earlier than I thought we would. I emailed him and asked if it was okay to just meet at his apartment earlier then the drinks we intended. He agreed. I bought a bottle of water and brushed my teeth in the gross bathroom, after all I couldn't go suck dick
with my mouth smelling of stir-fry.

I said good bye to my friends. It had rain that day and wasn't hot or muggy. I had on a one shouldered tunic, skinny jeans, and low heeled peep-toe wedges. Instead of wearing lipstick I had put on shiny clear lip gloss I had bought earlier in the day at CVS the kind I used to wear in high school. It seemed impolite to smear lipstick all over a strangers dick. Craigslist emails used to lag so I ended up waiting on the sidewalk outside of his
 apartment. He  open the door and called my "name" it took me a second to realize it was me. I walked down the stairs into his apartment. He
looked exactly like his pictures. We politely shook hands and exchange awkward nice to meet you. His apartment was beautiful and nicely decorated in cream tones it looked upscale.

He had a few boxes stacked around. He apologized and noted he had  moved in, he had bought the place earlier in the summer but had renovations done so had only moved in recently. Given that he had just gradated I'm guessing his parents helped. It all felt rather civilized and strangely like a
 a date. We sat on his couch drinking wine. Talking jobs and current events. He got me to laugh a few times and my previous nerves abated. I had put down my wine, he did the same he moved closer and  softly kissed me.

 Is that okay? Yes I replied. I felt nothing! Just weirded out about the fact that this ritzy white dude in his boat shoes in his fancy apartment was
 kissing me. I couldn't factor this dude as a sexual being, I had zero desire to suck his dick. After a minute or two I excused myself and went to the 
restroom. Looking back now I should have just pulled his dick out and sucked it and left.  When I came back out, I was saved by buzzing from my
phone. My cousin had texted me.

I lied and claimed I was on a date from hell. My cousin offered to call me with some fake emergency I had to leave for. I apologized and told him I had to go. He asked me for my phone number so we could reschedule. I was fucking busted. Finally I told him I was too nervous and I thought I could 
do this but I wasn't that kind of girl. He wrote down his email on apiece of paper and said to let him know if I changed my mind. I apologized he told
me not to worry about it.

My parents had been out to dinner that night. I called and asked for a ride home. They had already left  downtown but offered to stop and wait for me at a train stop on the way to wait for me. I crumped and threw out his email at the first trash can I saw and got on train. The cocktails and wine
hit me all at once and when I got in the car my mother was aghast at my drunkenness'. She was already upset at my happy hours and clubbing most weekends, and my refusal to go to church with her. I couldn't wait to move. Laney what kind of young women behaves like that? You can't be out
drinking by yourself late at night like that. You weren't raise like that. If she only knew what I had actually been up too. I laughed hysterically while
 laying in the backseat of the car  because I was dizzy, my mom's comments highlighted  the ridiculousness of being lectured over being drunk, she 
really  should have been lecturing me for being or trying anyways to be a  slut.  My mom was pissed and  demanded to know what I had been drinking. They stopped to buy me a burger and ice cold water to sober me up on the way home.

The process repeated itself. I even did another weird in person meet before I finally did it. My first craigslist dick sucking turned out to be fairly anticlimactic. A guy housesitting taking care of his aunt and uncles pets who had the house to himself was looking for fun. He also posted picture of a 
hung white dick. I don't know that I am a size queen but finding big dicks on craigslist seem rather easy. Some part of me had processed the message that bigger was better. I felt drawn to people who claimed they were hung or had big dicks.

He lived in my town 15 minutes from my house. I was intrigued. I responded and we decided to meet daytime. July forth fell on a Thursday  that year and I had three days of from my day job. I picked shift work from an event company and had to work that afternoon/night. So I told him i could meet but only during the day.

 What does one wear when going to engage in slutty dick sucking? I wore cuffed stretchy jeans shorts that were Bermuda length. I had on a loose sleeveless top from old navy and keds. I round out my look with thin headband that had a bow! I put on mascara but had no make up on. Not remotely 
sexy. I should have wore a jean skirt and a tank top or a sun dress.  Anyways I don't know this guys name either. what I remember most about him his hands, they weren't long or super big but he had fat blunt fingers and I loved the callouses on the palm of his hands. I don't know why but I really find certain men's hands sexy. I love especially big hands with fat fingers. I love being fingered a lot so maybe that's why. I didn't know that at the time just something I instinctively liked.
 He had very blue eyes and insanely dark long lashes. The kind wasted on men and women pay good money to try to replicate with fake lashes.

I disregarded Giselle's advice about meeting in public once gain and I met him at the house, I didn't want to be out with him and run into my parents or other family members since he lived close to our house. We stood outside for a few minutes. I reached out to shake hands with him he found that funny. He had callouses in hands. He did lie about his height, he had claimed he was 5'10. The guy was actually shorter than me probably 5'7 and justbarely.

He had thick new England accent. We sat in awkward silence. I have  round chubby cheeks so I must have looked younger, as he asked me how old I was again. So you wanna come in, he didn't really give me a chance to answer as he had open the door and held it open for me. I trailed him 
into the house.

I had taken a bus to his side of town and took me 10 minutes walking. the sun was hot that day. I felt a bit sweaty. The house was average and looked lived in. It had a landing on the second floor it was loft like. There was thick black futon couch, and a big desk with a computer. I asked to use the bathroom. I pulled  tissues blotted my face, put on Chapstick and popped a mint that I chewed quickly.

When I came out I was shocked the guy had his pants down and was stroking his dick. I averted my eyes. He had one leg up on the futon and was just causally stroking a massively huge dick like it was no big deal.

He was eight inches but seriously I kid you not his dick was the size of a  soda can.
I was in shock trying not to look when and asked me what i was waiting for, I told him I was thirsty and asked for a glass of water with ice .
 He stepped out of his jeans and walked down the stairs bare assed to get me the water.  He came back up and handed me the water. I was sitting on the futon then, with no shame he once again lifted one of his legs onto the futon and angled himself in my direction and started stroking his ridiculously huge dick again.  I sipped my water and tried not to stare.

After a minute or two he asked can you please come over here and suck my cock?   Once again I felt nothing no hint of arousal for him either. Somehow the lack of conversation and having his dick out broke the ice for me. I went over to him and got on my knees I replace my hands with his and tentatively stroked him before putting the head of his dick into my mouth. Larry's
 dick was thick but this was no comparison. I opened my mouth wide. I had been reading articles and also had Giselle's advice ringing in my head. I
 wrapped my lips around my teeth and stretched my mouth open and sucked him hard so my cheeks hallowed out. Aaw that feels good he told me.

He started giving my directions telling me to lick from the base to the tip, he put his hands over mine and squeezed showing me how much pressure to use. You don't have to be so gentle stroke it firmly. Then he told me to spit on his dick. If I had pearls I would have surely clutched them.  There I was sucking the dick of a guy I met less then 15 minutes ago, after responding to his ad on seedy website but yet I was scandalized at the prospect 
of spitting on his dick.

You're really not going to spit on my dick?

No I'm not spitting on your dick that's disgusting.

 I was raised to be a well mannered young lady spitting on a dick despite the circumstances was a bit much for me. Your spit is already there anyway.
Finally we comprised I gathered spit in my mouth then took his dick as far as I could, it made me gag. I pulled my mouth to the tip and repeated the hard sucking I had tried with Larry. He sat down on the futon. I did my best but we found the futon too awkward, he got the computer chair
and worked on getting in level that was nearly eye level for me. My jaw hurt and my mouth was stretched. He alternated between rubbing my shoulders and putting his hand on the back of head. I resisted having my head pulled downs on top of his dick because I didn't want to choke.

I pulled his dick out of mouth and sucked while stroking his dick, and swirling my hands while going up and down his shaft, he got up out of the chair at that point and started thrusting into my mouth, I kept my hand at the base of is dick to prevent being chocked by his monster of a dick. I didn't realize the signs of him being close and he exploded in mouth, despite my effort to hold him at bay he had used my head as leverage and shoved his his dick halfway down my throat and part of his cum just simply slid down my throat I had pushed his hips away from me and as his dick pulled out, my mouth was overflowing with cum even more then when
Larry had done it,

The cum dribbled out of the sides of my mouth and down my chin and despite my insistence of not spitting just a few minutes earlier there I was spitting on the floor trying my best to get the cum out of my mouth  and to get rid of the nasty silky texture of his cum, the combination of having him
 thrust his huge dick down my throat and the texture of the cum made me also dry heave,  good thing he just came because it must have been a boner killing site.

 me: ugh that's disgusting.

Him: Are you serious right now?

me: yeah that's so fucking gross. Why didn't you warn me! I told you in my email I don't like cum

Him: I mean what's the point of sucking dick if you don't swallow?  He saw the look on face, sorry look it was an accident I forgot.

Yeah right, I didn't believe him for one second.

I went to the bathroom and borrowed mouth wash to rinse out my mouth .I gave him a dirty look as I came out  I went to get my water and finished it and he got wet wipes and wiped the floor. I picked up my phone from the futon and said bye.
Wait can you please suck me before you go, I won't cum in your mouth I promise? I was surprised he wanted me to stay. And that he was ready to be sucked again so soon.

More later!  No word on the verification. Sorry about the weird structure, It looks fine on my end but when I publish it all goes wonky. I can't figure out this editing. I tried copy and pasted it in maybe that is the issue. I added a profile picture I had up previously. Maybe I will tell that story one day too.  Have a nice weekend!

Wow. It's a shame he didn't try to make it hot for you. He should have kissed you and tried to get you turned on and played with your kitty if you let him. He could have really made it erotic for you. Any cocksmith knows that if the woman is happy we're happy. Maybe it's what you needed to break the ice so to speak.

Did you PM army guy for verification? I'll message him to check with you in case he missed it. He usually logs in daily or more.

Can't wait to hear more and maybe some day see some pictures. You look fantastic in your avatar!

afagehi7 wrote: ↑

Sat Nov 28, 2020 12:11 pm

Wow. It's a shame he didn't try to make it hot for you. He should have kissed you and tried to get you turned on and played with your kitty if you let him. He could have really made it erotic for you. Any cocksmith knows that if the woman is happy we're happy. Maybe it's what you needed to break the ice so to speak.

Did you PM army guy for verification? I'll message him to check with you in case he missed it. He usually logs in daily or more.

Can't wait to hear more and maybe some day see some pictures. You look fantastic in your avatar!

Thank you! I did it the day before thanksgiving maybe that is why I haven't heard back. I am still thinking about the pictures. I have some from back then and I look completely different now but they are pictures posted on my social media so I am paranoid about it.

As for him he did try some of it later but as you will soon figure out I am a neurotic weirdo.

Laney26 wrote: ↑

Sat Nov 28, 2020 2:27 pm

afagehi7 wrote: ↑

Sat Nov 28, 2020 12:11 pm

Wow. It's a shame he didn't try to make it hot for you. He should have kissed you and tried to get you turned on and played with your kitty if you let him. He could have really made it erotic for you. Any cocksmith knows that if the woman is happy we're happy. Maybe it's what you needed to break the ice so to speak.

Did you PM army guy for verification? I'll message him to check with you in case he missed it. He usually logs in daily or more.

Can't wait to hear more and maybe some day see some pictures. You look fantastic in your avatar!

Thank you! I did it the day before thanksgiving maybe that is why I haven't heard back. I am still thinking about the pictures. I have some from back then and I look completely different now but they are pictures posted on my social media so I am paranoid about it.

As for him he did try some of it later but as you will soon figure out I am a neurotic weirdo.

Odd that armyguy hasn't responded. I'll pm him.

If the pics are on your social media don't post them here. You could always take selfies or in the mirror and cut the head off from the photo.

Please continue the story and pm armyguy again.

afagehi7 wrote: ↑

Sat Nov 28, 2020 11:26 pm

Laney26 wrote: ↑

Sat Nov 28, 2020 2:27 pm

afagehi7 wrote: ↑

Sat Nov 28, 2020 12:11 pm

Wow. It's a shame he didn't try to make it hot for you. He should have kissed you and tried to get you turned on and played with your kitty if you let him. He could have really made it erotic for you. Any cocksmith knows that if the woman is happy we're happy. Maybe it's what you needed to break the ice so to speak.

Did you PM army guy for verification? I'll message him to check with you in case he missed it. He usually logs in daily or more.

Can't wait to hear more and maybe some day see some pictures. You look fantastic in your avatar!

Thank you! I did it the day before thanksgiving maybe that is why I haven't heard back. I am still thinking about the pictures. I have some from back then and I look completely different now but they are pictures posted on my social media so I am paranoid about it.

As for him he did try some of it later but as you will soon figure out I am a neurotic weirdo.

Odd that armyguy hasn't responded. I'll pm him.

If the pics are on your social media don't post them here. You could always take selfies or in the mirror and cut the head off from the photo.

Please continue the story and pm armyguy again.

Actually it's my fault I sent it to allengt by mistake.

Laney26 wrote: ↑

Fri Dec 04, 2020 2:50 pm

afagehi7 wrote: ↑

Sat Nov 28, 2020 11:26 pm

Laney26 wrote: ↑

Sat Nov 28, 2020 2:27 pm

afagehi7 wrote: ↑

Sat Nov 28, 2020 12:11 pm

Wow. It's a shame he didn't try to make it hot for you. He should have kissed you and tried to get you turned on and played with your kitty if you let him. He could have really made it erotic for you. Any cocksmith knows that if the woman is happy we're happy. Maybe it's what you needed to break the ice so to speak.

Did you PM army guy for verification? I'll message him to check with you in case he missed it. He usually logs in daily or more.

Can't wait to hear more and maybe some day see some pictures. You look fantastic in your avatar!

Thank you! I did it the day before thanksgiving maybe that is why I haven't heard back. I am still thinking about the pictures. I have some from back then and I look completely different now but they are pictures posted on my social media so I am paranoid about it.

As for him he did try some of it later but as you will soon figure out I am a neurotic weirdo.

Odd that armyguy hasn't responded. I'll pm him.

If the pics are on your social media don't post them here. You could always take selfies or in the mirror and cut the head off from the photo.

Please continue the story and pm armyguy again.

Actually it's my fault I sent it to allengt by mistake.

Did you send to armyguy? He's quick to respond. Allengt is MIA.

Are you going to tell more about your story? Will you share some pics? They don't have to be nudes but nudes are welcomed!

I'm assuming that it was a white boy since he had blue eyes? Was it your first time with a white guy? I certainly would have treated you better.

Are you going to tell more about your story?

Going to do my best to finish. Was on a roll last week. This week not so much.

Will you share some pics? They don't have to be nudes but nudes are welcomed!

lols no nudes. I am still thinking about pictures. I have pictures from back then mostly clothes and a few in my bra and panties.

I'm assuming that it was a white boy since he had blue eyes? Was it your first time with a white guy? I certainly would have treated you better.

He was, it's not just his fault as you see in part two of our interaction. I thought he cute/good looking but still couldn't find some attraction or bring myself to kiss him when he tried, at the time I just thought it was too weird.

I hated the cum. I wasn't turned on, but I had enjoyed sucking his dick. I looked at my phone i had already been there for about an hour. I stayed.

This second round I stroked him more firmly right away. I liked his dick like it wans an ice cream cone, from the bottom to the top. I stuck my tongue in his little hole at he top of his penis. He seemed to enjoy that. Then I put the tip in mouth and sucked as hard as I could.

But my mouth and jaw were tired. I told him that and asked how long until he came.

Can I titty fuck you?

I laughed absolutely not. I didn't even know that was a thing.

Why not? I will make you feel food after I promise. I had no idea what that was referring too and I didn't want things to go too far.

Listen I have somewhere to be(lies I wasn't working until way later) I need to leave in 20 minutes can you finish?

Fine!

He started thrusting into my mouth and he was really thick and his dick streched my lips really tightly, it wasn't long until I started gagging and choking, I couldn't take it and pulled him out. I twisted and stroked and sucked the tip hard. It took him over 30 minutes but he finally came and I left.

I ended walking back home and stopped for a big Mr. freeze. When I got home my Aunt had come over, and she hadn't seen me for a while and came over for a bug and a kiss. I turn my face and give her my cheek I couldn't bring myself to kiss her with my recent dick sucking lips. Thankfully I was able to stick out my tongue and tell her my lips were sticky from the Mr. Freeze. I went in the bathroom and brushed my teeth.

I had picked up a shift with a catering company and worked late. On my way home, I open my email and he had email me letting me know he be there until the following Saturday. I emailed him back. The next morning I went over on my way back from a workout class. I had showered and put on a clean pair of workout leggings, and a black tank top.

He sat on the chair and I got on my knees and started sucking his dick again. He wanted me to look at him, but I have a deep dislike and aversion to eye contact. I am a neurotic I know. I did make sure it was sloppy but looked down. He mention that he hadn't realize how big my tits were the other day, and was grazing my boob area with the back of his knuckles. He asked me to take my shirt off. I refused. While I tried to focus on his blow job, he kept going on and on about my titties(who says titties? no one just him).

While the loft had no windows and was dim it was still daylight and I had not desire to take my shirt off. He pulled my mouth off his dick, and asked me if he could just touch. Finally I agreed but said I wasn't taking my top off. He started by rubbing the outside of my shirt. I had a padded basic bra on and felt it but not really. Then he put his hands inside and started rolling my nipples and kneading by boobs. He leaned forward and I realized he was going in for a kiss, it felt weird to me still so I put my hand up to cover my lips. He looked at me annoyed.

Are you serious?

Yeah, don't do that I thought we agreed just on blow jobs?

Well I changed my mind.

I let him keep touching my boobs. I went back to stroking and sucking his dick. He managed to unbuckle my bra. He keep rubbing, and playing with my nipples while he moved on to trying to get me to fuck him. It was distracting. I started ignoring him and just started sucking intensely on this tip and alternating that with licking and slurping his big dick. I felt him tensing up I asked him if he was going to cum an told me to keep sucking. I did but not wanting a repeat of the other day with the cum. So I stopped and just stroked him, he finally came. To this day I never met anyone who cum so much.

I went to the bathroom. When I came out I sprawled on the futon to take a break. He sat down next to me and suddenly was rubbing over my crotch. He asked me to take my pants off. I told him I had no intentions of taking my pants off and was at the end of period and had a panty liner on(true). He brought his hands up and slipped his hands under shirt to my bare breast, he had taken my bra off earlier. He continued until he coaxed me into letting him pull down the top of my tank top so he could finally see my boobs. I was a little embarrassed because I felt like I have abnormally large areola area, and while my boobs weren't exactly saggy, they were heavy and no perky and cute. He seemed to like to it because he told me I love big titties. I since stop stressing about it and it seems to the top thing men like about me.

He to my surprised leaned down and starting sucking on my breast. I felt awkward with my position and him leaning over me. I slid out from beneath him and kneeled on the floor. He stood up and I put his dick back in my mouth and started sucking again. I let him play and suck with my boobs in-between his blow job. It took a while but he finally blew again. I was finally a little wet and aroused in the moment. But it was fourth of July and I was running late getting home as we supposed to leave for a barbeque with my family. I rushed out there.

More later.

I tried to do verified hotwife my first picture was denied for cutting off the top of body which I thought he could do because it didn't show my face. I had to go somewhere but managed to do a second following the instructions again writing a paper with the date/my username, leaving one shoe off standing in front my kitchen table (which by the way was a mess because we have to clear out our the cabinets as they will be replaced please don't judge). I retook the picture it took me a few tries to get my whole body in there and I did. This was was rejected apparently because it was selfie(if he told me that in the beginning I wouldn't have done it, I am single and have no one to take it for me) and apparently I don't look like a woman in the photo. With that I said fuck it to doing it. I am trying to shrink it to use as my avatar.

I am thinking of using different pictures of me in avatar as I go along but shrinking pics is challenging. I can do the hotties thread but only if I am allowed to delete the pictures when I want? Does anyone know the rules on that?

The point of verification is to keep the Lady's Lounge for lady's. I approve selfies all the time but they take the picture in a mirror so that the image shows the person and one can determine if it's a man or woman or at least make a good call. I showed your photo to 2 of our VHW mods and asked their opinion and both said no way. I was pretty clear what the purpose of the photo was and being an old MI aerial photographer a vertical down is not going to show much about such things as a totem pole or if you wanted to see the height of a mountain. Your pictures were near vertical and had the look of someone trying to be deceptive. I have to answer to the hotwives and they would cut my balls off if I approved those. I have had them question much more explicit pictures that the picture of a sign and a person that you sent.

Laney26 wrote: ↑

Sat Dec 12, 2020 1:02 pm

Laney, just take a good picture in the mirror. You surely understand that they want to protect the VHWs and women from all the fake men's trying to play games. The admins don't share your verification pics with the forum so you don't have to worry about that. It's just the admins who see them.

I'll gladly come over and take the pics if you are in the deep south

I don't care about the private forum. Also just for the record I took a photo following weird directions I was given telling me specifically to stand in front of my kitchen table, with one shoe off, and a sign. It was vertical because I am not a professional photographer and I used my cell phone held up because I was trying my best to get a full body picture. Telling me it not accepted is fine but I am confused about how that can lead anyone to the conclusion that I was being purposely deceptive is beyond me. Like most people I don't have mirrors in my kitchen and I never was told anything about a mirror. I was just told to get a full body picture and then after that my picture wasn't good enough and that I couldn't use a selfie. I decided to let it go after that. Either way I was just updating about the status of my request it wasn't a complaint and I am not here to argue with people about it.

I went home and the following day I came back again in the morning. We had the same blow job routine. He was being relentless about seeing my boobs and my vagina. I had a black spaghetti strap sun dress on, I also had nude tie up espadrilles on. I look nicer than because I had plans to meet my friends later. I let him take off my bra, and pull down the straps to my dress and suck my boobs again. After he came the first time, he cleaned up and went to go get us drinks. I flopped down on the futon.

It's hazy to me and it happen fast, but when he came back he sat next to me and eventually once again reached for my crotch. I let him rub my over my underwear and I let him pull up my dress. Looking back it was all rather clinical and I got a little wet but not enough to have sex. He wanted to lick me but I declined and reminded him that my period just ended. He said he didn't care, but I didn't want it so we agreed no oral but to sex. We somehow ended up with me leaning over the side of the futon with my dress over my hips, my underwear pulled down, and him behind me. The first clue this wasn't going to go well was him running his fingers up and down my slit then he tried to put his finger in me and it was super tight, my pussy clenched around the tip of his finger and it didn't feel good it hurt. He also remarked at how tight I was, but licked his finger and worked it inside me up to his knuckle. He left and came back with baby oil and wanted to put it down there, I was pretty sure I probably shouldn't be putting baby oil inside me and that it wasn't good for the condom so I told him no.

I had obviously put my own fingers up there and even up to two before and while it was tight it was far easier. He did a few strokes, before pulling his finger out and putting a condom on, this guy had a super thick dick and suddenly he was at the entrance to my vagina trying to force it in. Given that the head hadn't managed to get in and it was hurting really bad I suddenly felt scared about him doing serious damage to my vagina. I freaked the fuck out and lunged to get away from him. He tried to hold me steady but I scrambled over the side of the futon and even slid over the side and hit my head on the floor getting away from him. Awful and embarrassing.

He told me to relax and asked me to go in one of the bedrooms he told me I could lie on my back relax and we could try again after fooling around. Given that the opening to my vagina already hurt and he hadn't even fucked me or got the tip inside I declined. He was annoyed but I pulled back up my panties and I didn't let him rub or touch me there anymore. I offered him another blow job and blew him not once but two more times with the top of my dress down so he could touch my boobs. He took forever to cum and my mouth and jaw were stretch and felt sore for a day or so after. He also came in my mouth again the last time, asshole at least I didn't leave him with blue balls and I blew him four times total.

The other thing I remember about that day is being late to an afternoon brunch with my friends and trying to act normal after I spent three days sucking this stranger from the internet dick. I felt like I had a scarlet A branded on me, and one of my friends even asked me what was up because I was unusually quiet. Anyways we emailed that night and I really put my foot in mouth. I told him I didn't get wet, wasn't attracted to him like that, and didn't want to have sex but would happy to suck his dick a few more times. I should have never said that. He took offense and said he didn't
want to fool around with someone who thinks he not attractive, I of course said that he was very attractive but I just wasn't attracted to him. Way to bash a man's ego, very idiotic on my part. He told me I was weirdo, and accused me of lying about my age, he thought I was in my late teens. He was also suspicious of my tightness. Anyways long story short that was the end of that.

The thing is every night after I sucked him I lay in bed thinking about it and playing with my self. Even if the in the moment I wasn't wet, afterwards I really got on off on my thoughts and a combination of shame and my shamelessness in my slutty behavior. I briefly thought of hooking up with my ex but the thought of his smugness and satisfaction in taking my virginity, after his disrespect and cheating was too much for me. I didn't hold my virginity up on a pedestal nor did I think it had to mean something more than having sex. I was just a late bloomer and didn't start dating until I was 19, but it meant something more to him so that put me off and I realized I wanted be done with him for good. I finally accepted Larry's apology and chatted with him a bit, he asked me out on a date but realized I didn't know what was going to happen with us and I kind of liked him and he hurt my feelings with his blabbing and big fucking mouth. It seemed too complicated because inevitable I would run into him again. Where I live the few clubs/nightlife that played hip hop and attract a black crowd are few and far between so running into the same people when my friends and I wanted to dance to straight hip/hop was guaranteed. I just wanted to have sex with no complications.

Instead I went back to craigslist. Same process played out. I first decided on a guy tall, dark skin, handsome, goatee, bald, said he moved from outstate so figured the chances of him knowing someone I knew was slim to none. I was approaching the weekend after July 4th and I was horny and I knew I wanted to have sex. He was going out of town for the weekend and told me we could meet up the following weekend. I was disappointed but decided to look at over other messages. But my other responses fizzled out, I saw someone I vaguely knew again, etc.. Eventually I responded to Jay. He could have me over, he was older in his late 20s. I hesitated again because he was white but I decided to just go for it.

Jay isn't particularly handsome but has an interesting face, he's very cute when he smiles. He slightly resembles Michael Phelps especially with his body type and his big ears. He has broad shoulders I find that very sexy, and is all legs and arms. He had sent a photo without a shirt that displayed lots of tattoos (surprisingly I found that I really liked that) he just has the kind of firmly New England rough around the edges working class Irish American look going on. He's lanky, the guy practically has a six pack from pure genetics. Later on I learned he eats what he wants, smokes a pack a day and never works out, even the last time I saw him naked when he was nearly forty same thing not an ounce of fat on him.

He is very tall 6'6. Has pale skin, freckles especially in the summer, blue eyes, and strawberry blond hair that cut in a low fade. He has very nice hands(can you guys tell I have a thing about men's hands?). He hands aren't meaty or fat. But they are just very big with long fingers. His fingers don't look thick but they definitely are. This time I didn't bother to make up a name just told him I didn't want to tell him. We agreed to meet Saturday at his house at 8:00pm and walk to a bar nearby.

That Friday I got my a mani/pedi and my hair done courtesy of my Mom because I was broke af. I didn't bother with much make up, I filled in my brows, put on loose powder, a little eyeshadow and mascara, with my new clear lip gloss. I wore peep two with a small wedge, a baby doll style dress. It had a ruffle leading down one of the shoulders, an elastic band around my waist and was a few inches above my knees. I didn't make any promises to him beyond oral but said I was open.

More later. I am working to resize a photo of the dress I was wearing the night we met and spoiler alert we did have sex. The photo I have is a year or two later but it's the same dress. It's not sexy more cute but is a good visual aide of what I look liked that night. I will update my avatar with it next time I write on here. Right now I have my controversial rejected photo up lols. Just to show you guys it's not that exciting.