Our Hotwives

If you haven’t read the previous stories of “Dipping our toes” you might want to look them up. Everything kind of grew for there. It has been a long time, but thought now would be a good moment to tell the next Jill's Conference Encounter chapter.


Jill had always been the sort of woman people described as ‘buttoned up.’ Petite, with red hair that never seemed out of place, and eyes so blue and direct she rarely needed to speak to be understood. There was a crisp order to her life, a joy in the grid of routine—until business trips, which she both dreaded and craved, loosened the brackets and let uncertainty seep in. That night, in her bland hotel suite overlooking a gray city, Jill gazed at her phone for a full half-hour before gathering the nerve to dial home. Her thumb hovered next to DAVID MOBILE, veered away, circled back.

It wasn’t about the time zone. David would be awake. He always was, a night owl by inclination and, lately, by default—she suspected he waited up for her, quietly, though he’d never say. Their marriage was a codependent organism: if Jill was absent, David’s sleep wandered like a lost child. The work trip was only two nights, but it gnawed at her, the way these absences had started to accrue, as if each one left a scar that neither of them could quite admit to seeing.

But tonight, she needed him awake. Her hands trembled as she typed the passcode. She told herself it was the wine, only two glasses but she’d been drinking them like gulps of medicine, head tipped back and throat aching, not so much savoring as bracing. The wine made her skin too tight, her cheeks raw. It was the only thing that dulled the memory flickering through her every time she closed her eyes: the stranger’s hands on her waist, the heat of his breath as he leaned in and asked her—Jill, specifically, out of all the women at the conference—to dance.

She had not intended to dance. She had not intended to speak to anyone, let alone the Australian, who was tall and rangy with a crooked tooth and an accent that made even her name sound like an invitation. She’d been standing alone at the bar, picking at the label on her beer bottle, when he materialized with the confidence of someone who’d never been told no. Jack, he said, like it was the only possible name for a man like him.

They talked, in the way people at conferences do—banter about flights and hotels and the misery of canapés. At first, Jill played the part she always did: reserved, observant, amused from a distance. But something about Jack’s presence loosened her. He didn’t push, exactly, but he seemed delighted by every odd thing she said. When she asked how the hell anyone survived 48 straight hours on a plane, he grinned and said, “You have to choose a partner in crime.” When she laughed, it came out higher and stranger than she expected.

Then the music started—there was always a DJ at these things, why was there always a DJ?—and the room’s fluorescent light pulsed with a strange, aquatic energy. Jack extended his hand, palm up, and Jill hesitated for a fraction of a second that felt enormous. Her mother’s voice, her own voice, every voice that ever told her what was and wasn’t appropriate: all of them clamored in her head as she slid her hand into Jack’s and let him lead her onto the dance floor.

He was a terrible dancer. She liked that about him. He didn’t try to impress or seduce. He didn’t grind or press in, just moved in open, exuberant circles, hands in the air, yelping the words to some 90s pop song like it was the anthem of his life. She laughed at him, and then, deliriously, at herself. The music was so loud she could barely think. After a while, Jack leaned in, lips close to her ear, and asked if she’d like to go somewhere quieter. She had said yes.

But she didn’t. Not exactly. She made an excuse about an early meeting. He accepted it with a grin, but not, she realized, without leaving the door open for later. “Maybe I’ll see you up there,” he said, nodding toward the elevators. She’d blushed, hating herself for what she hoped he meant.

Now, hours later, Jill sat at the edge of her hotel bed, staring at the phone, willing herself not to overthink. The whole point was not to overthink. She and David had talked, more than once, about the possibility of bringing a third person into their marriage. It had gotten away from them at one point and it HAD lit a fire to their sex drives for a time, but after a while, the drone of work and kids schedules just kept it something they both circled and retreated from in the safety of their own bed. She’d always assumed it would be theoretical, something to keep their sex life flickering when routine threatened to extinguish it. She’d never imagined she’d be the one—

She pressed dial.

David answered on the second ring, voice creaky and sweet. “Hey, Jillybean.”

She hated that nickname. She loved it. She let herself smile, for him. “Hey.”

There was a pause. “You okay?”

She couldn’t answer that. She could only say, “Weird night.”

She heard him ask curiously “Tell me.”



So she did. She told him about the conference, the bar, the music, the dance. She told him about Jack, about the way he looked at her like she was something urgent, alive, not a task to be managed or a fixture in his day. She tried to keep her voice matter-of-fact, but David heard what she wasn’t saying. He always did. He let her talk, never interrupting, not even when her story slowed and her words got smaller and smaller.



When she finished, she waited for him to fill the silence. David’s voice was husky: “Did you want it?”



Jill stared at the ceiling, the patterned plaster blurred by the wetness in her eyes. “I don’t know. Yes? It was just a dance.”



He didn’t say anything for a while. She could hear him breathing, the small, careful inhale he used when he was thinking about how to say something that mattered. “Do you wish it was more?”



She flinched. “Does that bother you?”



He exhaled. “No. I want you to tell me what you want.”



She couldn’t say it out loud. She couldn’t even say it to herself. There was a knock at the door.



She sat bolt upright. “Hold on.”



Her hand shook as she set the phone on the bed, screen still lit up with DAVID MOBILE. The knock again, louder this time. She got up, smoothing her shirt, heart jackhammering in her chest. She crossed the expanse of the dim room, every step magnified by the hush of the carpet. Through the fisheye of the peephole, Jack’s face was warped and enormous, but unmistakably his. He looked up, caught her eye, and grinned.



Jill opened the door a sliver.

Jack stood in the hallway, hands in his jean pockets, shoulders hunched. He seemed taller in the fluorescent hallway light, slightly awkward now that he wasn’t in motion, like a dancer forced to stand still. He looked at her, then past her, as if he could see into the room. “Did I wake you?” he asked, voice low.



She shook her head.



His smile was sideways, a question in itself. “Can I come in?”



She was aware, suddenly, of every detail: the way her hair was starting to frizz from the city’s moisture, the run in her stocking, the nervous sweat she could feel at the small of her back. She opened the door wider.



Jack stepped inside, careful as a guest, surveying the generic luxury of the room with an amused glance. He looked at her, waiting.



She realized she was still holding her phone in one hand, David’s call still connected, the tiny blue light blinking in the dark. Jack noticed, flicked his eyes from her hand to her face, and raised his eyebrows. “Do I have competition?” he joked, but there was a thrum beneath the words.



Jill brought the phone to her ear. “David?” she said softly.



His voice was steady. “I’m here.”



Jack watched her, fascinated. She could feel the shape of his body in the room, the way he hovered just inside the threshold, waiting for permission. She wanted to say something witty, something to break the tension, but the moment felt like a glass bulb, fragile and bright and ready to shatter.



Jack crossed the room and sat at the edge of the bed, hands clasped between his knees. He looked up at her, eyes gentle. “I can go, if you want.”



Jill shook her head. She didn’t trust her voice. Instead, she lowered herself onto the armchair across from him, curling her legs under her, one hand fisted around the phone.



Jack smiled, slow and careful. “So. Where were we?”



Jill’s mouth was dry. “We were dancing,” she said finally.



“Do you want to dance now?” Jack asked, his tone half-mocking, but there was a longing in it too.



She didn’t answer. Instead, she pulled the phone away from her ear, switched it to speaker, and set it on the coffee table between them. David’s voice filled the space. “Jill, I want you to do whatever you want. I want you to tell me what you’re feeling.”



She rose, slow and deliberate, lifting herself out of the deep scoop of the armchair as if emerging from water. The room felt suddenly smaller; every movement displaced the air, sent tiny feedback loops between her and Jack and the phone, which still glowed with David’s name. She had never stood in front of two men like this, each observing her in their own way: Jack in the flesh, legs spread just slightly, hands drumming on his knees, eyes fixed on her with a curiosity that was somehow both respectful and voracious; David, a disembodied presence, the invisible witness who could hear everything but see nothing.



She crossed the carpet, her knees trembling so hard she barely trusted them. She was aware of her own body—her skirt, the cling of her blouse at her chest, the blood pounding in her temples. She’d expected to feel exposed, or maybe ashamed, but instead there was a kind of gravity to the moment, a sense of being anchored in her own desire.



Jack tilted his head, following her with his gaze as she moved to stand directly in front of him at the end of the bed, only a coffee table and a few feet of air between them. There was a question in his eyes, wider and more open than any question she’d seen in David’s face for years. It was a look that asked permission but also wondered if she even wanted to grant it.



David’s voice cut through the silence, edged with a softness she hadn’t heard in a long time. “Jill? Are you okay?”



She couldn’t bring herself to answer immediately. The word okay was so small, so inadequate; it was the question her doctor always asked at the end of an appointment, the one her mother texted when she hadn’t called in a while, the thing people said when they were already braced for a lie. Right now, she was so far from okay that the concept felt like a country she’d once heard of but never visited.



She looked at Jack, who was still waiting. She looked at the phone, which now seemed less like an object and more like a living line stretching from her heart to David’s. She could feel the shape of his listening in the room with them, the way it charged the air.



“I’m standing in front of Jack,” she said, her voice low but clear. “He’s at the end of the bed. He’s just watching me.” There was an edge to the word just, as if she were warning herself not to read too much into it, but also not to dismiss it too quickly.



Jack smiled, a flicker of relief and nervousness. He shifted on the bedspread, hands now resting flat on either side of him, looking like he was trying not to spook a wild animal.



David asked, “Do you want him to leave?”



Jill bit her lip. That was the question, wasn’t it? She tried to imagine what it would feel like to send Jack away, to watch him pick up his coat and vanish into the corridor, to close the door behind him and retreat to her solitary bed with nothing but the numb hum of regret for company. She tried to imagine the opposite: Jack staying, Jack moving closer, Jack’s hands reaching for her with the kind of intention that her own husband had, in recent years, reserved only for special occasions and only after careful negotiation.



For a moment, she was paralyzed by the options. She could hear herself breathing, light and uneven, and she wondered if the men could hear it too.



Finally, she shook her head, unable to find the right words, so she just said, “No.” The word hung in the air, heavier than she’d meant it, crowding out the next several things she might have said.



Jack let out a breath, and she saw the muscles in his shoulders loosen. For the first time, she realized he was nervous too, that maybe he hadn’t expected to be here either, that maybe they were all improvising a scene with no script, no director, just the raw momentum of wanting something neither of them could name yet.



David was quiet for a moment. She could almost picture him in their dark bedroom, phone pressed to his cheek, staring at the ceiling as he tried to parse what she was saying and what she wasn’t.



“It’s okay if you want him to stay,” David said at last. “I just want you to tell me what you want.” The words were like a hand on her back, gentle and steadying, and for the first time all day, she felt the urge to cry for reasons that were not entirely about fear.



Jack shifted forward, elbows on his knees, the tendons in his forearms tense. For a second, the three of them hung there, suspended in a web of anticipation, the moment stretching out until it was almost unbearable.



Jill took a breath. She didn’t know what to do with her hands, so she let them hang at her sides. She looked at Jack, then at the phone, then back at Jack. “I’m not sure what I want,” she said, “but I don’t want to be alone tonight.”



Jack nodded, once, as if they were agreeing on something sacred. David’s voice was even softer now. “You’re not alone,” he said.



For the first time since she’d left home, she almost believed it.



Jack shifted in his seat, stretching his long arms above his head before leaning forward so his elbows pressed into his knees. There was a puckish glint to his eye, a slight curling at the edge of his mouth: the look of a man who had not come to a hotel room merely to have coffee. He hooked an ankle over his knee, looked from Jill to the glowing phone on the table, and asked, “How about this—we play a game?” His vowels bent and widened in that unmistakable Australian way, as if the idea itself was a new animal he’d brought for her to see.



Jill blinked, the suggestion catching her off guard. So did David’s voice: “A game?” And for a beat, it was as if the two men were in the room together, negotiating her fate with her as the prize.



“Yeah,” Jack continued, warming to his own idea. “A proper game, like back at school. I’ll ask you a question, and if I’m right, you have to do something I say. A dare. You know, truth and consequences.” His gaze was fixed on Jill, but the challenge was aimed at both of them, as if he were balancing on a tightrope between two invisible wires.



Jill felt a hot shimmer run down her neck. She wanted to scoff, to say that games like that were for teenagers, but she could see the way Jack’s jaw flexed with anticipation. She could hear, even, the faint static of her own curiosity. Most of all, she could feel David’s listening, how even from hundreds of miles away, he was drawing the moment tight, making it more real.



She cleared her throat. “I think I know this game,” she said, managing a little laugh that sounded almost natural. “Are there rules?” She addressed the question to Jack, but her eyes flicked to the phone, to the tiny blue pixel that was David’s presence in the room.



Jack grinned, teeth white against the soft scruff of his jaw. “The only rule is, you have to answer honestly. Or pay the penalty.” He seemed lighter now, almost buoyant, as if he had been waiting for her to join him on this higher ground. “And David gets to be the judge. If he thinks you’re fibbing, you have to take the forfeit.”



Jill rolled the words around in her mouth, considering what it would mean to let these two men crack her open with questions, to be the object of their game. She wondered if she would even recognize her own voice under so much scrutiny, or if she would become someone else entirely, someone who could play along without guilt or fear.



She turned to the phone. “Did you hear that?” she asked.



David’s response was slow, as if he was watching her from the far end of a telescope. “I heard. Do you want to play?” His voice was steady, but she noticed a new register in it—a tremor of something barely contained.



Jill hesitated, trying to locate into which of her many selves this desire belonged. Once, she would have laughed at the idea, would have rolled her eyes and called both men idiots. But she was tired of being the grown-up, the reasonable voice, the one who parsed risk and reward until all the mystery had bled out of living. The idea of someone else setting the terms for once was exhilarating, like stepping out of her own small orbit. More than anything, she wanted to see what might happen if she let go of certainty for just one night.



She felt her cheeks flush as she realized it wasn’t just Jack’s suggestion that excited her—it was the fact that David was excited by it, too. That her husband wanted to watch her take these steps, to see her transgress, and maybe even to help her do it. She could almost picture him, on their bed, knuckles white on the phone as he listened for the first crack in the wall she’d built around herself.



She still stood at the foot of the bed, phone still on speaker, and looked at Jack. “Okay,” she said. “Let’s play.”



Jack’s smile widened, triumphant but grateful, as if she had given him a gift he wasn’t sure he deserved. He looked to the phone, then back to Jill, and for a moment, all three of them were bound together by a single, breathless anticipation.



David’s voice came through, softer than before, but unyielding. “Jill, you don’t have to do anything you don’t want,” he reminded her.



She nodded, even though he couldn’t see. “I know,” she said, and for the first time, she realized she believed it.



Jack leaned forward, hands between his knees. “Ready?” he asked.



And she was.



Jack rested both elbows on his knees, threading his long fingers together, and regarded her from beneath a heavy brow. “Are you excited?” he asked, and his voice was low enough to feel rather than hear, almost as if he were conducting an experiment: What would happen if you asked a woman, point blank, to confess her own anticipation?



Jill’s first instinct was to deflect, to make a joke or toss the question back at him, but the way Jack’s eyes held hers—serious, blue and glass-bright in the lamplight—made that impossible. She found herself nodding before she could even think, a small, involuntary motion that sent a heat spiraling up from her chest to her throat. Not trusting her voice, she didn’t answer aloud.



Jack’s mouth curled. “Say it,” he said. “So your husband can hear.” He tipped his head toward the phone, that thin silver line of connection, and the fact of it—their audience, their collusion—made the air between them electric.



Jill hesitated. The word seemed childish, embarrassing. But she remembered the tone in David’s voice, the permission wrapped in his approval: I just want you to tell me what you want. So she looked at the phone, imagined David hunched over in a stranger’s bed, clinging to every syllable, and said, “Yes. I’m excited.”



There was a pause, as if all three of them were checking to make sure it was still real.



Jack nodded in satisfaction. “Good,” he said. “Now for the first dare.” He didn’t preface it, didn’t offer her an out or soften the challenge. “Unbutton the top button on your blouse.” The words were precise, almost clinical, but Jill heard the tremor underneath.



For a second, time seemed to slow. Jill stared at Jack, waiting for him to grin, to say Just kidding, but his gaze was steady, expectant. Then she looked at the phone, at the tiny blue rectangle that was David’s voice waiting on the other end, and felt the flush deepen until it pulsed in her earlobes.



She could have said no. She knew, in some distant, logical part of her mind, that she was entitled to refuse—the game permitted it, David had assured her, but something about the moment, the effortlessness of Jack’s command and the way it braided into David’s silent consent, left her with nothing but the desire to comply. Her hands felt suddenly foreign, too big, as she reached up to the collar of her blouse, fingers trembling so much she fumbled the first time and had to try again. When at last she slipped the smooth plastic disk free, the fabric fell open just enough to expose the sharpest edge of her collarbone and the beginning, only the very top, of the gentle slope of her breasts. She was wearing her favorite bra, a practical nude t-shirt bra, nothing fancy, but the sudden draft of air against her skin made her feel nearly naked.



She could hear Jack’s breath catch. He was watching her, yes, but not in the way men normally watched women—there was no gloating, no predatory hunger. He looked at her the way a scientist watches a rare phenomenon, attentive and reverent and slightly in awe.



Jill glanced at the phone, waiting for some cue from David, but the line was eerily silent. Was he shocked? She tried to picture his face, tried to guess if he was angry, thrilled, or both. She found she wanted—badly—to know.



She cleared her throat. “It’s done,” she said, addressing only the phone. In that moment, the act felt both humiliating and exhilarating. “I unbuttoned it. You can see the top of my, um—” she hesitated, suddenly bashful, “my chest.”



There was a soft, sharp exhale on the line. “I can picture it,” David said, and his voice was shaky, uncertain, the way it had been the night they first met. “Are you cold?”



Jack answered for her, “She’s blushing, mate. Guess that’s what you wanted.”



Jill’s skin did feel hot, as if she’d been caught running in the sun. She was aware of her quickening pulse, the shallow intake of breath each time she remembered how visible the hollow of her throat was, how exposed the spill of cleavage. She kept her palms pressed to her knees, as if to ground herself.



There was a pause—just long enough for her to fear that the game was over, that she’d done something irrevocable. But Jack was already looking for the next move, his mouth twitching as he searched her face for the limits of her permission.



“Your turn,” he said, but this time he didn’t speak to her. He addressed the phone, and by proxy, her husband. “David. You ask something.”



Jill inhaled sharply. The idea hadn’t occurred to her, that David would participate directly. There was a different kind of fear in that—fear of what he would want, and whether she could give it.



On the other end of the line, David hesitated, then said, “I want you to tell me what Jack looks like. Right now. How is he sitting? What is he doing?”



It was such a small thing, she almost laughed. But she understood, instantly, the degree of self-restraint it must have taken for him not to make the dare something physical, something lewd. That he wanted to see the scene through her eyes, to be with her in the room. She wanted it too.



Jill turned, really looking at Jack: the way his shirt had come untucked at the waist, the stubble shadowing his jaw, the faint, nervous crease between his eyebrows as he tried to look casual and failed. She narrated these details to David, careful and deliberate, as if she were painting a still life and not describing a man who had just seen her bare skin for the first time.



When she finished, Jack smiled, a small, private smile, and said, “Not bad.” He looked at the phone. “Your wife’s a good reporter.”



Jill felt something loop inside her, a thread connecting all three points, running through her exposed skin. For the first time, she let herself smile, uncertain but real.



She looked at the phone, then at Jack, then back to the phone. “Now what?” she asked, and the question left her lips lighter than she’d expected.



David didn’t answer right away. She could hear him breathing, steady and present, as if he were sitting beside her. At last, he said, “Tell me what you’re feeling.”



Jill closed her eyes, checked the space inside her chest. She was afraid, yes, but she was also alive in a way that felt new, raw, and messy.



She opened her eyes, looked at Jack, and then spoke into the phone, her voice clear and certain.



“I’m nervous,” she said. “But also… I kind of like it.” She could hear David’s smile in his next words.



“Me too,” he said.



Jack leaned back, stretching, and for a moment all three of them sat in the quiet, each breathing their own version of relief.



Jill felt the top of her blouse gape a little further open and saw Jack’s gaze flicker there before he looked away, respectful but hungry. She knew this was only the beginning, that the game could go anywhere from here, but for the first time she wanted to see how far they could push it.



She turned to the phone, and in a voice as steady as she could manage, said, “I did what he asked. The top button is open, and Jack can see the top of my breasts.”



“When was the last time you had sex?” Jack asked.



The question was so matter-of-fact, so unadorned, that at first it didn’t register as real. Jill blinked and looked at Jack, then at the phone, as if she needed to confirm that this was, indeed, what they were doing. She thought about dodging, about offering a coy smile or a clever retort, but the rules of the game had already been established. There was no room for coyness here. Her face grew warm under Jack’s gaze—studious but not quite clinical, a scientist’s gaze with a gambler’s undercurrent—and she felt, for a moment, as if she were opening herself not just to Jack and David, but to some larger, unseen audience.



She cleared her throat. “About a week ago,” she said, and though her voice was steady, the truth of it seemed to hang in the air, heavier than she’d expected. She glanced at the phone, half expecting David to interrupt, to fill the silence with a joke, but he didn’t. Instead, she heard a soft, almost imperceptible intake of breath, and knew he was remembering it, the last time: the way they curled together, the way she’d pressed her face into David’s neck as he whispered her name. She wondered if she would ever tell him, later, what it felt like to confess this with someone else listening.



Jack leaned forward, elbows digging further into his knees, blue eyes intent. “Were you on top?”



The question startled her, but also made her smile—a real, involuntary, lopsided smile, because it was so absurd and so direct and so completely unlike any conversation she had ever had. She nodded, because it was true, and this was a game about truth. “Yes,” she said, and her cheeks reddened further.



Jack grinned, satisfied, as if he was collecting data for a study, and turned to the phone with a brief, deferential nod. “Your husband’s a lucky man,” he said.



Jill smothered a laugh, feeling a ripple of absurdity at the formality of it all, the way Jack could slip between roles: interrogator, commentator, judge. It made her feel both exposed and protected, as if the rules of the game were a kind of shield.



Jack leaned back. “Unbutton another button.” The instruction was crisp, but gentler than before. A test, not a command.



She hesitated, hands hovering over her chest. The fabric strained slightly around her fingers, and she could feel every thread, every tug of cotton against her skin. She swallowed, and tried not to look at Jack’s face as her fingers found the next button. This one was even harder than the first, because there was no ambiguity now: with each inch of exposed skin, she was confessing something more than just a willingness to play along. She was admitting that she wanted to be seen.



The button slipped free with a soft pop. Her shirt parted, and her collarbones were now fully visible, the shallow dip at the base of her throat, the faint shadow between her breasts. Her bra was nothing special, but under Jack’s scrutiny and David’s distant, silent attention, it took on a new significance. She wondered if they were both imagining the same thing: the pale slope of her skin, the slight rise and fall of her breath, the vulnerability of the moment.



“Did you do it?” David’s voice cut in, softer than before, but more urgent.



Jill nodded, as if he could see her. “Yes,” she said, and her voice was barely audible. She resisted the urge to cover herself, to clutch at the open buttons, and instead forced her hands to rest on her knees, palms flat to steady herself.



Jack’s gaze dropped, but only for a second, before returning to her eyes. He looked oddly respectful, as if he understood the magnitude of the moment for her. “Nice,” he said, but without a trace of mockery.



There was silence on the phone, as if David was processing this new iteration of his wife—someone who could sit in a stranger’s room, shirt half open, and not apologize for it. Jill could feel her own heart pounding, the pulse so loud in her ears that she wondered if either man could hear it.



Jack watched her, then asked: “When was the last time you masturbated?”



The word hit like a jolt, and for a second, Jill almost laughed from the shock of it—the audacity, the utter lack of pretense. It was a word she could say to herself, in the dark, but never aloud. Not to Jack, and certainly not to David, who was now a captive audience for her confession. She tried to think of when it had been. Yesterday? Two days ago? The timeline blurred under the scrutiny, as if the act itself had been scrubbed of all meaning until now, when it was being offered up for examination.



“Last night,” she said, surprising herself with the ease of the admission. She’d never even told David, not really, and certainly not with Jack sitting a foot away, eyes locked on hers.



Jack’s mouth curled upward. “Did you think about your husband?” His tone was both playful and curious, and Jill realized, with a strange thrill, that he genuinely wanted to know.



She looked at the phone, at the blinking blue light that was her husband’s presence in the room. “Yes,” she said, and this time, the word was heavy with truth. “I thought about him.”



She could almost feel David’s reaction through the phone—a shift, maybe a smile, or something more complicated. There was a pause, and then Jack said, “You’re honest. I like that.”



Jill felt herself relax, just a little. The fear of exposure had been replaced by a kind of exhilaration, a sense that with every answer, she was stripping away something old and worn, revealing a new layer of self.



She looked down at her open shirt, then up at Jack, then finally at the phone. “Your turn,” she said, and there was a challenge in her voice now, a dare of her own.



David was silent for a moment. When he spoke, his voice was steady, almost gentle. “What are you wearing under the shirt?”



Jill laughed, and the sound surprised all three of them. “Just my bra,” she said, and when she looked at Jack, he seemed to appreciate the simplicity of it.



For a second, they all sat in the hush of the hotel room, waiting to see who would break first.



Jill inhaled sharply, feeling the cold air against her exposed skin, and smiled.



She turned to the phone, and in a voice as steady as she could manage, said, “I did what he asked. The top button is open, and Jack can see the top of my breasts.”



David’s voice was calm, almost casual, but beneath it Jill could feel the tension pulling tight across the ocean, through the phone, and into the room where she sat with Jack. “Unbutton two more,” he said. Not ‘if you want’ or ‘when you’re ready,’ just the instruction, a line to step across. Jill realized now, with a clarity as sharp as cold water, that this was exciting David as much as it was Jack, and as much as it was, in some secret, secret place, herself. She tried to slow her hands, to make the moment last, but her fingers shook and seemed to skip across the buttons of their own accord.



She glanced at Jack. He had gone very still, hands resting tented in his lap, eyes tracking her every movement. There was hunger in his gaze, yes, but also something shy and awed, as if he were seeing not just her body but the enormity of what she was doing, and what it meant to give permission for this. She loved and hated that he could see her nervousness.



The first button came undone with a click, the second with a tremulous slide. The blouse fell away from her chest, the lapels splaying on either side like moth wings. The air in the room felt colder now, or maybe her skin was just more sensitive, but she shivered, not entirely from nerves. She was wearing her most ordinary bra, the one she’d put on without thinking that morning—a pale, seamless thing that was supposed to disappear under clothes. Instead, it made her nakedness louder, the fabric so thin that the shadow of her nipples was visible, the peaks darkening where the cotton pressed against her.



She could feel her pulse in her collarbones, in the soft skin above her heart. With the blouse spread open, she felt not just exposed but somehow remade, a different version of herself, a woman who could be watched and not run from it. “My blouse is open now,” she said, trying to keep her voice even, and heard how it trembled, how the words wobbled with breath.



Jack looked, really looked, but not like a man at a strip show. His eyes flicked from the hollow at her throat to the curve of her shoulder, down to the edge where the bra met her ribs, then up again, meeting her gaze. He didn’t say anything for a moment, just let the sight of her soak in, the silence itself a kind of reverence. Then, softly, he said, “You look beautiful.” It was so simple that it made her want to cry.



On the phone, David’s breathing changed—shallower, more urgent. “Can you take a picture?” he asked Jack, and the formality of it, the way he asked Jack and not her, sent a new, raw thrill up her spine.



Jack reached for the phone, pointed the camera, and said, “Ready?” Jill nodded. She tried not to hunch her shoulders, tried not to cover herself, but her instinct was to cross her arms, or to pull the fabric closed. Instead, she straightened her back, forced herself to sit tall, to let her body be what it was in the open air. The sound of the photo being taken was louder than she’d expected, a little digital click, and she wondered if David would see how pink her ears were, how her hands pressed so tightly to her knees that the knuckles turned white.



Jack sent the picture. He didn’t look at her while he did it, which was a gift, but when he set the phone back onto speaker, she could hear David’s voice—broken, awed, and completely unguarded—say, “Jesus, Jill, you’re incredible.”



The words hit her with a force she hadn’t anticipated. Incredible. Not just sexy, not just good, but something beyond what she’d ever thought she might be. She found herself smiling, really smiling, the way she hadn’t since the night before David left.



Jack watched her with a careful, waiting stillness, letting her be the first to speak if she wanted.



“Sorry,” she said, and laughed, realizing how little she meant it. “I just… This is insane.”



Jack shook his head. “No. It’s brave.” He said it like he meant it, not as a compliment, but as a fact.



Jill felt her breathing slow, felt something settle in her. She looked at her hands, at the splay of fingers, and then back at the open blouse, the way her skin glowed against the fabric. She could feel both men watching her—one in the room, one impossibly far away, but both present in a way that felt real and solid.



“Do you want to keep going?” Jack asked, his voice careful, but underneath it, the question was all hunger.



Jill looked at the phone, at the little glowing circle that was David on the other end, and said, “Yes. But only if he does.”



She waited, the seconds stretching out. David’s voice came through, clear as anything: “I want to see you. Really see you.”



She let out a long, shaky breath, and the sound was half relief, half anticipation.



Jack adjusted his posture, turning his chair slightly so he could see her better, or maybe so she could see him seeing her. “If you want, you can take it off,” he said. But this time, there was no command in it. Only possibility.



Jill reached up, fingers curling at the edge of her blouse. She paused, looked at Jack, then at the phone, then at herself in the dark window glass, a triple reflection. She thought about all the times she’d hidden, all the times she’d said no, even when she’d wanted to say yes.



She shrugged the blouse from her shoulders, let it fall behind her, and sat there in her bra, her ribs rising and falling. She waited for the shame to come, but it didn’t. In the absence of shame, there was only the electric thrill of being utterly, irrevocably seen.



David took the next turn. His voice was softer now, intimate in the way only distance allowed. “Have you ever fantasized, when you were alone, about being the object of desire for two men at the same time?”



The question hung in the air, all the more potent for the way it seemed to bypass language and straight into the center of her chest. Jill had always thought of herself as reserved—prudish, even—but the words drilled into her, not as an accusation but as an invitation. She knew, in some embarrassed, secret way, that she and David had circled this topic before, always at the edges, never naming it outright. They’d talked about threesomes during long, tipsy nights, the subject always safe as a fiction, a spicy garnish to their own life. But she’d never admitted—to herself, let alone her husband—that sometimes, alone in the apartment, or drifting off on a plane, or during the dull ache of a business trip, she’d imagined it in color and sound: two men, wanting her at once, orbiting her like planets caught in each other’s gravity. She’d never said it aloud.



Now, to confess it in front of both her husband and a stranger—one a thousand miles away, the other so physically close that she could see the pulse in his neck—felt unimaginable. The old instinct to lie, to demur or laugh it off, surged up. But the openness of her blouse, the sight of herself reflected in the hotel window, kept her honest. She swallowed, and the word was more breath than sound: “Yes.”



Jack’s eyes flicked up, then back down. There was no judgment there, just hunger, and a kind of quiet camaraderie: See? We’re all admitting things here. But the real connection was with David, whose silence on the line made the air vibrate.



She wanted to fill the void, to explain, to offer context. “Not… not in real life,” she said, voice trembling. “Just, you know. In my head.”



David laughed, but there was nothing mocking in it. “I know,” he said. “That’s where all the best things happen.”



The next instruction came with no warning, the way a command comes from someone who knows you’ll obey. “Take off your bra.”



Jill felt the words cut and fuse her at once. There was no ‘if you want,’ no gentle softening. But she didn’t want a way out. Not anymore. The stakes had changed; she wanted to see how far she could take this, how much of herself she could stand to reveal.



Her hands went to her back, fingers fumbling with the clasp. Every motion felt exposed, as if each second lasted a minute. She could feel Jack’s attention, a physical force. She thought about the camera, the way it captured not just the body but the will—the moment a person decided to let go.



The clasp stuck, of course. It always did. She laughed, the sound too loud for the room, and finally managed it, the elastic going slack in her hands. She shrugged the straps forward, the blouse falling away from her shoulders at the same time, so that for a moment she was wearing nothing but the hush and the expectation.



She let the bra drop to the floor. Her breasts were small, not remarkable, but she’d always liked the shape of them when she bothered to look in a mirror. The nipples were already hard, not just from cold or fear or anticipation, but from being watched. She thought, for a wild second, of covering herself. Instead, she settled her hands on her thighs, palms flat, and waited.



Jack looked, but this time he was careful, almost reverent. He didn’t ogle, didn’t even smile. He just absorbed the sight of her, as if he were trying to memorize the exact color of her skin in this particular light.



On the phone, David’s breath caught, and when he spoke, the words were shorn of ornament. “Take a picture for me,” he said, and even though he was speaking to Jack, she felt the command as her own.



Jack hesitated, just for a heartbeat, then picked up the phone. “Okay,” he said, his voice dropped to a register that sent a shiver through her. He held the phone up, its glassy eye trained on her. “Ready?”



She nodded. She let her back straighten, shoulders pulled just enough to change the line of her collarbone, the way she imagined a dancer would pose before an audience. The moment stretched. She wondered if the phone would capture the flush on her cheeks, the way her body vibrated with a cocktail of terror and pride.



The photo snapped. Jack lingered, thumb poised over the screen, before sending it. He said nothing, just placed the phone back on the table, as if the act itself had cost him something.



The silence was huge. Jill felt as if she could hear the image traveling, pixel by pixel, across the world to David. She wondered what he’d do when he saw it, how he’d react, if it would make him want her more or less. She wondered what Jack thought, sitting across from her, hands folded, face unreadable.



Then David spoke, and his voice was different—rawer, pulled tight by some emotion she couldn’t name. “God, Jill. I wish I was there.” The words landed like a body blow, and for a second she was afraid she would cry. She didn’t, though. Instead, she smiled, in spite of herself, and felt the strange, new power of being the one exposed, the one looked at.



Jack watched her, and in his eyes she saw not just hunger but awe, as if he were witnessing a small miracle.



The world outside was unchanged, but the three of them were transformed—tethered by a thin, invisible thread that ran from the hotel room, through the phone, and all the way across the ocean, binding them together by the force of what they’d just done.



Jack leaned forward, elbows braced on his knees, and asked, “Did you tell your husband we danced together?” His voice was casual, but the question had a weight to it—a slight tremor that made it clear he already guessed the answer.



Jill met his gaze, tried to hold it, but her eyes slid away, landing somewhere near the hollow of his throat. She nodded once, a small, deliberate motion, and then said aloud, for David’s benefit, “Yes.” She spoke to the little glowing circle on the phone, but the words seemed to ricochet between all three of them, the simple affirmation suddenly enormous.



David’s voice came through the phone, a split second delay sharpening the anticipation: “Did you tell him what happened?”



Jill felt the heat crawl up her neck, a ripple that threatened to break over her face and ears. To say she had not intended to go into detail was an understatement; she’d rehearsed a dozen ways to explain the night, all of them trimmed of the truth, none of them close to what she’d actually done. She hadn’t planned to tell David about the moment Jack leaned in close, the smell of whiskey and soap, the way his hand found the small of her back and pulled her into the orbit of his body, the precise moment his mouth found hers. And even more, she hadn’t planned to tell David that she’d let it happen, that she’d tasted the salt of Jack’s skin and the soft, persistent pressure of his tongue before the memory of her marriage, of David, slammed back into her like a collision.



Now she looked at Jack, who hadn’t broken eye contact, and then at the phone, where David’s breath was suddenly louder than the city outside. She considered, for a split second, whether she could lie and get away with it.



But the way the room felt—thick, electric, charged by the surrender of her blouse and then her bra—made it impossible to hide. She was already bare, in every sense that mattered.



“No,” she said, voice so soft that Jack tilted his head to hear her. “Not exactly.”



Jack sat back, arms folded, an inscrutable look on his face. “You want to tell him now?” The invitation was gentle, almost tender, which made it all the more impossible to refuse.



Jill’s mouth was dry. She rolled the words around in her head, tried to find the least humiliating path through them. She swallowed hard, and said, “He kissed me.” There was a pause, a long, precarious balancing act while the words fell from her lips and settled into the new reality they created.



David said nothing for a moment. Jill could hear the faintest exhalation, a sigh or a hiss, impossible to read. She could feel her own heart pounding, fast and scared and thrilled. She wanted to apologize, but also maybe to dare him to ask for more.



“Did you enjoy it?” David asked, finally. The words were careful, but she could hear the trembling wire stretched tight beneath them.



Jill looked at Jack, who sat motionless, eyes lowered. She wanted to hate him for putting her in this position, but instead she felt a strange gratitude: he was the first person in years who’d let her be entirely herself without immediately recoiling.



She tried to remember exactly what she’d felt, that night on the dance floor, the moment Jack’s mouth pressed against hers and the universe shuffled its cards. She remembered the surprise, the jolt of pleasure—and then, a moment later, the guilt that poured in so fast it almost drowned the joy. She remembered how she’d pushed him away, gentle but firm, told him, “I’m married,” and the way he’d smiled and said, “I know. You told me.”



She could have left it at that. But something about the way Jack was watching her, and the way David was silent on the line, made her want to say the forbidden thing, to open the window all the way and let the wind in.



“I pulled away,” she said, “But not right away.”



The silence that followed was seismic. Jack didn’t move, but he looked up, meeting her eyes with an intensity that made her breath catch. On the phone, it sounded as if David was holding his breath, or maybe just trying to swallow every atom of what she’d just confessed.



And then—unexpectedly—David laughed. It was a bright, raw sound, unguarded and full of something she recognized but had never heard from him before: hunger. Not just for her, but for the idea of her, the story of her, the reality of her standing in a strange room, confessing these things with her chest bare and her hands knotted together in her lap.



“God, Jill,” he said, and the laugh was still in his voice, but now it was tinged with something else, something darker. “You never told me that.”



She felt herself wanting to explain, to mitigate, to make it okay. “I wasn’t going to do anything. I just—it caught me off guard. I thought about you, right away, and that’s why I stopped.”



Jack, still watching, nodded as if confirming a fact. “You don’t have to explain,” he said. “It’s not a crime to want something.”



For a moment, Jill felt as if she’d tipped into an alternate universe, one where the rules of marriage and fidelity and self-restraint were suspended, just for tonight, so that everyone could finally admit who they were and what they wanted. She looked at the window, at the city lights below, at her own faint reflection—hair falling in her face, skin lit up by shame and pride in equal measure.



David’s voice was gentle, but iron underneath. “What did it feel like?” he asked. “When he kissed you.”



Jill closed her eyes and told the truth. “It felt like being wanted. Like being the center of gravity.”



Jack’s lips quirked, the first real smile he’d shown since the conversation began. It was not a smile of victory, but of understanding.



“Do you want to do it again?” David asked. The question sounded rehearsed, as if he’d been holding it back for years.



Jill stared at the phone, at the blinking LED, and wondered if it was her turn to say no. She didn’t want to say no. Not tonight.



Instead, she drew in a breath and said, “Only if you want me to.”



The line was silent for a moment, and then David said, “Yes.” It was not a request, not even a command—a simple, devastating agreement.



Jack stood up, walking around to her side of the table. He was careful not to touch her, as if waiting for explicit permission. She tipped her chin up, met his eyes, and then, with a slow, deliberate motion, reached for his wrist and guided him closer.



She could feel her heart in her throat, beating so hard she thought it would bruise her. Jack leaned in, not the way he had in the club—furtive, apologetic—but with a certainty that made her ache. She felt the heat of his breath, the barest brush of his lips over hers, and for a second she let it hang, the impossible tension of it, before closing the last distance.



The kiss was soft, exploratory, and when she opened her mouth to him, she realized it wasn’t about Jack at all. It was about being seen, about being wanted, about letting David watch her do the thing they’d always talked about but never dared admit they both wanted to see.



When they broke apart, Jack stepped back, breathing hard, and looked at the phone with a kind of reverence, as if waiting for further orders.



Jill felt dizzy, weightless. She brushed a strand of hair off her cheek, and for the first time in years, she didn’t second-guess the way she looked or sounded. She was present, alive, a thread of electricity running between the three of them.



David’s voice came through, lower now, almost a growl. “Take off the rest of your clothes.”



Jill’s skin felt as if it had been brushed with static, every nerve ending awake and quivering. She watched Jack as he took in what David had just said, his eyes flicking up to her face and then down again, and she was startled by the gentleness there—like he was witnessing something holy, or dangerous. The hotel room was suddenly smaller, the air heavier, the lights from the city outside painting shifting patterns on the thin curtains. She wished for a split second that she could close the curtains, be alone with only herself, but the mere fact of being watched—by Jack, by David—wound itself around her stomach in a hot, insistent spiral.



Jack, for his part, didn’t touch her, only watched as she reached behind her and unhooked the small, stubborn clasp of her skirt. It caught once, and she wondered if he would offer to help, but he only waited, hands folded as if to keep from interfering. The skirt came loose, a sudden slackening of pressure, and the fabric slid down over her hips, pooling soft and helpless at her feet. She stepped out of it and straightened her spine, not hiding, not shrinking, just standing there in the plain, inexpensive cotton underwear she’d pulled on that morning before she could have guessed any of this would happen.



She looked at herself, then at the phone, where David’s presence hovered in a glowing circle of digital light. “I took off my skirt,” she announced, trying to keep her voice flat, not let the tremor in her chest slip out. “I’m standing here in just my underwear.”



There was a silence, almost reverent, before David’s voice replied, “Describe it.” He sounded farther away now, as though the words cost him something.



Jill glanced at Jack. His mouth was slightly open, his eyes fixed on the small triangle of white between her legs. She felt embarrassed, but also—unexpectedly—pleased. “They’re white. Cotton. They’re old, honestly,” she said, letting herself laugh, “and a little bit see-through. I didn’t know anyone would be looking.”



Jack finally spoke, his voice low and careful. “You look beautiful.”



Jill looked away, but she felt the compliment settle somewhere deep, a tiny light in her gut. She was conscious of how plain her underwear was, how utilitarian—and yet the way Jack’s eyes lingered made her feel more naked than if she’d worn nothing at all.



She turned back toward the phone. “Are you there?” she asked.



A shallow breath from David, like he was steadying himself. “I’m here. Keep going.”



She hesitated, then cupped her hands over her breasts, partly to shield herself, partly to give her hands something to do. Jack saw and almost smiled, but then the moment passed, and the tension was back.



“Take off the rest,” David said, voice firmer now, urgency threading through the calm. “I want you to stand there completely bare.”



Jill’s hands shook as she hooked her thumbs under the elastic. She watched herself in the window’s reflection: her ribs, the space between her thighs, the outline of her own fear. She paused, dragged it out, felt the heat in her cheeks and between her legs, and thought about all the times she’d undressed for David at home, in the soft familiarity of their bedroom, never like this—never in a strange city, with another man just feet away, hands politely folded, pretending not to watch her every move.



She slid the underwear down inch by inch. Even after everything, she couldn’t bring herself to just let them fall in a heap—she eased them down until they hung at her knees, then to her shins, then slipped one foot out and then the other, as if every stage of nudity was a new test. She stood, entirely bare, hands instinctively covering herself for a moment, then letting them fall.



She looked at Jack, then at the phone. “Are you happy?” she asked, and for the first time it wasn’t a rhetorical question.



Jack’s breath caught. “You’re incredible,” he said, so quietly she wasn’t sure if David could hear.



The phone was silent for a beat. Jill wondered if the call had dropped, but then David’s voice came back, stretched taut with longing. “I want you to show him everything. Don’t hide. Not from me, not from him.”



Jill felt a flush rise up from her chest to her scalp. She straightened her posture, shoulders squared, and let Jack look—really look—for the first time. She felt a thrill, equal parts shame and pride, as his gaze traveled down, lingered, then flicked back up to her eyes. She didn’t think she’d ever been looked at that way, with so much hunger and almost no judgment at all.



“Turn around,” David said.



She did, slowly, aware of every muscle in her legs and back. She thought about David seeing her from across the world, and Jack seeing her from three feet away, and how the room held both their desires at once.



“Touch yourself,” said David. “Just a little.”



Jack shifted on the bed, as if the command was for him, too. Jill felt her own hand move, almost independent of her brain—she slid it down over her stomach, pausing just above the place she’d always avoided touching herself in public, then let her fingers rest against the soft hair there. She could feel how wet she already was, and the realization sent a jolt through her. She glanced at Jack, who looked as if he were holding his breath, and then closed her eyes and let herself do as she was told.



It was nothing, just a delicate, experimental press of her fingertips, but it felt as if she were lighting a fuse. She moved her hand away, embarrassed, but Jack reached out, catching her wrist, holding it there for a heartbeat before letting go.



Jill held her hand steady, fingers gliding in slow, deliberate circles around her clit, the sensation sharp and prickling, electric in her pelvis. Jack sat just beyond the edge of the bed, resting his forearms on his knees, his blue eyes fixed on her with an intensity that was part hunger, part awe, as if she were a painting he could not look away from. The phone was propped between them, David’s voice a constant, crackling presence, instructing her, guiding them both.



“Take another picture,” David said, and the line glitched, stuttering, emphasizing the command. Jill’s body tensed at the thought, at the knowledge that David was somewhere—his office, a car, maybe the bedroom at home—watching her through the lens of Jack’s phone, piecing her together from pixels and light.



Jack picked up the phone, switched to the camera, and raised it to frame her in the shot. For a heartbeat Jill thought about refusing; another heartbeat and she realized she wanted it, wanted to know what she looked like through Jack’s eyes, through David’s eyes, stripped to nothing but her own want. She parted her knees a little wider, arched her spine, and let her left hand drift up to push her hair back from her face. The room was silent but for the faint hum of traffic outside and the phone’s click as Jack snapped the photo.



“Send it,” David said, and Jill watched Jack’s thumb move across the screen, the digital intimacy of the act making her tremble more than the exposure itself. She pictured David, wherever he was, opening the message, seeing her body naked, face flushed, fingers still wet and moving. The delay was excruciating.



Then: “Mmmm, wow, Jill, you look incredible.” The words landed like a hand at the back of her neck. She almost thanked him, but Jack spoke first.



“She’s beautiful,” Jack said. He did not look away from her, even as he sent the next photo, even as Jill’s breath hitched in her throat.



David’s voice came again, low and rough. “Are you wet?” It was not a question so much as a challenge, as if he needed her to prove something, to admit it as a condition of her next command.



Jill didn’t hesitate. She slid two fingers inside herself, feeling the heat, the slickness, the way her own body yielded under her touch. “Yes,” she said, and the word came out as a gasp, then a whisper, “Very wet.” She met Jack’s eyes as she said it, saw the way he swallowed, the way his hands flexed on his knees, as if restraining himself from reaching out to her.



Jack set the phone down, slowly, with care, like it was fragile or sacred. He looked at her, really looked, and Jill felt her insides flutter with a strange mix of power and vulnerability. The moment stretched; her fingers still worked themselves in slow, insistent circles, her other hand splayed across her stomach, drawing the skin tight.



David’s voice was a slow drip in the background. “Show him,” he said. “Show Jack how wet you are.”



Jill cocked her head, a challenge of her own, and withdrew her hand from between her legs. She held it up in the air, trembling, slick with her own arousal, and Jack’s breath caught in his throat. The light from the city made her fingers shine, and for a second the whole room seemed to tilt around the axis of her hand. Jack reached out, tentative, and brushed the tips of her fingers with his tongue. He didn’t just touch her—he drew her hand closer, easing it toward his mouth, as if he could taste her trepidation as well as her arousal. The heat of his breath sent a pulse up her arm, and Jill was startled at how intimate it felt, stranger and somehow more charged than if he’d kissed her lips. He licked the length of her first finger, slow and careful, then closed his lips around the tip and sucked, just once, as if sampling the flavor of her before deciding whether to commit. The shock of being consumed—her own wetness, remade and offered back to her—nearly made her laugh. Instead she let out a strangled sound, a cross between a sigh and a gasp, and felt her knees wobble.



“He licked my fingers,” she said, her voice a shade above a whisper, hoarse and breathless. “He’s tasting the wetness on them.” She could barely believe she was narrating this, could barely believe she was living it. Somewhere in the background, the phone made a faint electronic fizzle, and she could almost picture David gripping the device, so close to the sound, so far from the heat.



There was a pause, a nearly reverent silence, before David replied, his voice lower, as if the phone itself were pressed against his lips. “Good girl.” The words dropped into her chest like a pebble into deep water, sending ripples through all the places she’d once thought private. She realized then that she wanted to please him—both of them—even as the urge to hide ran parallel in her veins.



David continued, and the command in his voice became unmistakable. “Now,” he said, “stick your fingers in again. Gather some more wetness. Put it on your nipples. I want him to lick it off.”



Jill’s body responded even before her mind could catch up. She brought her hand between her legs, this time without hesitation, and let her fingers find the soft, slippery heat within. The sensation was hotter now, edged with a kind of performative urgency, as if her body had become a conduit for the will of two men, distant and near. She spread her knees a little wider, braced her feet on the cold hotel carpet, and pressed her palm in hard enough to feel herself clench in protest. She drew out her fingers dripping, shining, and for a moment she simply stared at her hand, marveling at the way her own arousal reflected in the lamplight.



Then, with a kind of ceremonial slowness, she reached up and touched her left nipple, circling it with the tip of her slick finger. The sensation was so sharp it was almost painful, and she bit her lip to keep from making a sound. She repeated the gesture with the right, feeling both nipples stiffen, throb, and bloom under her touch, the contrast of wet and cool air sending lightning through her chest. She waited for the shame to crest, but it didn’t—it just blurred into a lightheaded rush, as if she were climbing out onto a ledge with no intention of coming back.



Jack was watching, his eyes wide but not mocking, mouth open as if he’d forgotten how to swallow. Jill turned her body toward him, presenting herself as David had instructed, and let her hand rest over her left breast, fingers splayed and glistening. She felt, for the first time in years, truly seen.



“Do it,” said David, the words almost a growl now. “Lick it off her.”



Jack leaned in, his movements deliberate, as if he’d been waiting for this moment all night. He took her nipple between his lips, tongue flicking over the wetness, gentle at first and then more insistent. Jill inhaled sharply, the sensation strange and electric, and she gripped the back of his head to keep herself upright. Jack’s tongue was rough, his mouth hot, and the way he sucked her made her feel not just wanted, but necessary.



She heard herself make a sound, something raw and ragged, and she didn’t care whether it was for Jack or for David or for herself. The pulse between her legs was relentless now; she could feel herself gathering, cresting, the hunger in her chest spilling over.



Jack switched to the other nipple, repeating the ritual, and Jill felt her head tip back, the ceiling blurry and spinning above her. She clung to him, to the moment, to the strange triangulation that tethered the three of them together through air and glass and light. All the while, David’s voice remained in her ear, guiding her, reminding her that this was not a dream, not a performance for no one.



“Tell me what it feels like,” said David, and the line sizzled, as if he could barely wait for her answer.



Jill had to force her voice through the haze, her lips barely forming the words. The sound of her own breathing seemed to blot out everything but the wet, insistent press of Jack’s tongue against her nipple. She struggled to remember what she was supposed to do, what David wanted, why she was narrating this when all of herself wanted to collapse into sensation. Still, she managed to choke out: “Jack’s tongue…it’s like a shock, like a sharp jolt of hunger…going straight to my—” Her throat closed up, just for a second, and she remembered the phone, the other listener. She met Jack’s eyes, saw the question there, and then she closed her own as she whispered, “to my pussy.”



There was a stutter of static from the phone, a gasp that might have been David’s breath. The room felt like a vacuum, every molecule charged with her admission. Jack didn’t stop; if anything, he pressed in harder, mouth and tongue working her as if he intended to leave a mark. Jill’s body jerked in response, and she found herself holding his head, clinging to the evidence of his desire.



David’s voice cut through the fog, shaking with a kind of repressed need. “Say it again,” he commanded, and Jill felt her own wetness pulse between her thighs. She understood now that the words mattered, that the act of voicing her pleasure—of naming the thing, of refusing to hide—was part of the contract she’d signed with her own surrender.



She tried, but her breath kept getting tangled in the sound of Jack’s mouth. “It goes straight to my cunt,” she managed, the word shocking her even as she said it. She could hear the way the syllable fractured the air, how it echoed back off the walls of the hotel suite. She wondered if the front desk could hear her, if anyone would ever guess that the woman in 1729 was being orchestrated from afar, her body a mouthpiece for someone else’s hunger.



Jack’s hand slid up the inside of her thigh, and Jill realized she was trembling, not just from nerves but from the way it all coalesced—the attention, the touch, the instructions. She was dizzy with it, and she let herself drift, the world narrowing down to just the next command, the next thing she would be asked to do.



David’s voice was next to her ear, urgent and unyielding. “Describe how it feels. Don’t hold anything back.”



David’s voice was a coil around her ear: “Take a picture of his mouth on your pussy and tell me how much you are enjoying it.” There was no room for ambiguity, no mistaking the urgency laced through his words. Jill’s hand hovered, uncertain, over the phone where it lay, the display still glowing with the open line. She could feel the pulse of her heart in her fingertips, a scattershot flutter that seemed to echo the tremor of Jack’s tongue still working its slow, greedy investigation of her nipple.



She met Jack’s eyes, searching for permission, or maybe for the courage she could borrow. His expression was raw, lips parted and slick, the heat of his breath fogging the space between them. Without averting his gaze, he let his palm slide higher up her inner thigh, as if to anchor her here, in this moment, and Jill’s hesitation dissolved. She snatched up her phone, hands slick with sweat, and switched to the camera. Her body folded forward, the angle awkward, but she was determined—no, required—to fulfill the command. The lens framed Jack’s face: eyes dark, jaw tense, mouth poised just above the place where her thighs met. He glanced up, almost shy, then dipped his head and pressed his tongue along her fold, slow and heavy, a deliberate show for the eye of the phone.



Jill bit down on the inside of her cheek to keep from making a sound that would break the fragile privacy of the act. She snapped the photo: Jack’s chin wet with her, his hands holding her open, her own fingers white-knuckled on the edge of the seat. She didn’t look at the image, just sent it, a direct beam of her present self through the ether to David, who waited godlike and invisible on the other end of the line.



“Sent,” she said, her voice unsteady. She felt the air shift in the room, as if the act of transmitting the image had altered the pressure, made everything sharper, thinner, more exposed. Jack’s tongue resumed its work, slow at first, then faster, a rhythm that made her legs clench involuntarily. She tilted her head back, eyes squeezed shut, and let the sensations stack inside her: the rough of his stubble, the warm drag of his lips, the steadying weight of his hands on her hips. With the phone pressed to her ear, she knew David could hear the small, helpless sounds spilling out of her, could imagine the picture matching the live audio.



“Jack’s licking me now,” she managed, her words thick with the effort of speech. “His tongue is inside. It’s—God, it’s so fucking good. I can’t—” Her knees buckled, and she nearly dropped the phone, catching it just in time. “He’s eating me like he can’t get enough. Like it’s the only thing he’s ever wanted.”



On the other end, David’s breathing was louder now, a ragged undertone that made her want to open herself further, to perform better, to become exactly the woman he wanted on the other side of the line.



David’s voice was a thick rasp now, scraping the back of his throat raw, barely contained by the circuit of the call. “Tell me how much you want to come,” he said, the syllables pressed out with the force of a hammer stroke, as if he could graft his own need onto Jill’s bones. She could picture him—alone at his desk or in a shadowed hotel room, phone pressed white to his ear, maybe his hand already working at his zipper, the image of her wide open and hungry still burning behind his eyelids.



The words landed on Jill like the lash of a whip: an order, a dare, a summoning. She felt the heat coil up her legs, pooling behind her navel, a pressure that climbed with every swipe of Jack’s tongue. It was so easy to want, so much harder to say it, to make her own hunger audible. For a moment she tried to imagine what David expected, what he wanted to hear, what version of herself would be the most obscene, the most compliant, the most alive. She wrestled with the old reflex to be coy, to let her body speak while her mouth stayed shut, but the situation left no space for that kind of retreat. The phone was a recording angel, capturing every breath, every admission, every shiver of weakness.



She drew in a slow, shaky breath, letting her mind wrap around the feeling of Jack’s mouth on her—how he lapped at her with a kind of worship, how his tongue darted and curled, how he moaned against her skin as if tasting her was a kind of prayer. She pressed the phone harder against her ear, wanting to be sure that David heard everything, that nothing about this moment was lost or ambiguous.



“I want it so bad,” she said, her voice barely more than a whimper, but the microphone caught the jagged edge of it, the way it trembled with need. She heard David’s breathing hitch, count the seconds as he waited for her to go on. Jack’s mouth—to her astonishment—grew even more insistent, as if he were feeding off the words, tuning his movements to the pitch of her confession. She could feel herself opening, melting, her body bracing for the next shock.



“It’s all I can think about,” she managed, and the effort to keep talking made her lightheaded, her thoughts spraying in all directions. “I want to come for you. I want you to hear it. I want Jack to see it.”



She felt a flare of humiliation, but also a reckless delight: to speak the thing, to make it real, to let the men—both of them—know that she was past the point of pretending. There was nothing left but want, raw as an exposed nerve.



David groaned, a sound that was nearly a word. “Don’t stop. Say more. Tell me everything,” he pleaded, and Jill, already trembling, felt something inside her give way—a last defense, a final outpost surrendered.



Jack’s hands tightened on her hips. The rhythm of his mouth became merciless, relentless, a steady sucking pulse that blurred the line between pleasure and pain. Jill’s back arched, her legs trembling as the world shrank to a single glowing point, the voice in her ear and the tongue between her legs and the shame and the sweetness of being used—all of it fusing into a need so pure it made her dizzy.



She fumbled for words, anything to keep the connection alive, to feed the fire. “Please,” she whispered, “I’m so close, I can’t…I need you to let me, David, please—” The last word came out as a sob, and she didn’t care if it sounded desperate, didn’t care if that was the point.



She could hear his breath catch, the sound of his own surrender barreling down the line. Jack’s tongue flicked hard, once, twice, and Jill heard herself cry out, the sound ringing in her own ears, surely bleeding through the phone to wherever David was.



She felt her body seize, then float, every muscle tightening and then dissolving in a wash of heat and release. Her voice, ragged and unrecognizable, spilled out of her in a rush: “I’m coming—I’m coming—oh, fuck, I can’t stop—”



And in her ear, David’s voice came back to her, feverish and triumphant, as if he alone had orchestrated this collapse:



“Yes, excellent. Feel all the sensations, my love.” The words dropped into Jill’s ear like a balm, but the heat humming beneath them made her tremble all over again. David’s voice—tender, almost reverent—seeped through the phone and wrapped her in something both intimate and deeply exposed. She lay there, legs slack against the armrests, head tipped back, everything awash with the aftershocks of her orgasm and the echo of Jack’s tongue still pressed against her. She could hear the wetness of her own body, a sound she would have found obscene only hours before, but now it struck her as a kind of evidence, proof that she’d given up every last defense in the presence of these two men.



There was a hush, a suspension, as if all three of them—Jill, Jack, and David—had been briefly flung into orbit together, untethered from anything as small as embarrassment or shame. She thought she even heard Jack hum in appreciation, his breath warm and playful against her leg as he slowly surfaced from between her thighs. He looked up at her, lips glossy with her, and for a fleeting moment she saw herself through his eyes: ruined, exultant, utterly transparent.



But David’s voice, still piped directly into her ear, was not finished with her. He lingered over the moment, savoring the way her breathing stuttered back into rhythm, the microtremors still racing up her thighs. “I want you to lie there,” he said, softer this time. “Don’t close your legs. Stay wide open for me. Let him see you—let him know exactly what he’s just done to you.” The command was less a demand than a benediction, but Jill felt the force of it root her in place, arms slack at her sides, chest rising and falling in shallow, eager breaths.



Jack, apparently understanding his role in this tableau, did not move to cover her or tidy up the scene. He just watched, eyes hooded, one hand still resting on her knee as if to remind her that she hadn’t dreamed any of this. Jill’s body felt foreign, newly-minted, every nerve ending still raw and oversensitized. She tried to imagine what it looked like from David’s end—his wife splayed out and spent, her pulse still thrumming from pleasure, her voice flushed and unguarded through the phone.



“Do you feel it?” David’s voice grew more urgent, the excitement bleeding through his attempts to sound calm. “All that heat, all that mess? That’s for me. You don’t come down yet, Jill. Not until I say so.”



She swallowed, throat dry, but managed a hoarse, “Yes.”



She lay there, legs spread and trembling, as her breath slowed enough for the heat of the room and the thrum beneath her skin to become two distinct sensations rather than just a single fire. Jack’s hand lingered possessively, unmoving on her thigh, his thumb idly stroking her as if he could keep her in this state indefinitely. The phone, damp now from her grip, was clammy against her cheek; she pressed it tighter anyway, desperate for David’s approval, his absolution for whatever happened next.



For several long seconds, David said nothing. Jill’s mind raced: Was he angry? Jealous? Was this too far? She wanted to ask but found herself paralyzed, throat still raw from her own cries, her body loose and useless. Then, finally, his voice, lower than before, syrupy with want: “Do you want to see his cock?”



The question landed with such precision it almost hurt. It was so brazen, so baldly direct, that Jill could only shudder. Of course she did—wanted that, and more, had wanted it since Jack first touched her, maybe since before—but the admission caught on a splinter of shame, and she hesitated. She didn’t want to say yes and have David hear it as a confession of some ancient, marital failure. She didn’t want to say no and lose the chance to claim this new animal part of herself that had been sleeping for years.



She looked at Jack. He was still fully clothed—jeans, t-shirt, a plaid overshirt that made him look like the world’s tamest lumberjack. But the outline of his erection was obvious, straining against the fly, the rough denim unable to disguise his arousal. She bit her lip, half-embarrassed for staring, half-furious that she’d never allowed herself to look at anyone this way, not since she and David had started their life of careful, courteous sex, never even in the privacy of her own mind.



David was still waiting, expecting her to answer, to own her hunger, to let him guide her into something riskier and more exposed than anything she’d dared before. She closed her eyes and tried to find words that wouldn’t shrivel on her tongue.



“Oh God, David, yes,” she said, and the sound was shocking even to her. “But only if you’re okay with it. I don’t want—” She faltered, throat tight with a sudden, childish fear. “I don’t want to hurt you. I just can’t help it. I can see how hard he is through his jeans, from looking at me, and now I want to see him. Please tell me that’s okay.”



Her plea hung in the air, as naked as her body. She could hear David’s breathing, the keen edge of it, and though he didn’t speak for a moment, she felt the charge through the line: he was with her, not in opposition but in some wild, frayed communion, holding her at the edge of the thing she wanted most.



Jack’s hand tightened, not hard, just enough to remind her that he was there, listening to every word. He looked at her with an almost cartoonish hopefulness, as if he needed her to say yes even more than David did. For the first time, Jill realized that this wasn’t just a performance for her husband’s benefit—Jack’s need was as real as hers, and maybe as dangerous.



David’s answer came at last, and it was unlike anything she had ever heard from him: “I want you to see him, Jill. I want you to look, and describe everything. You’re allowed to want this. I want it too.”



At that, Jack’s eyes met hers, and she felt her whole body go tight, as if anticipating a blow. But there was no violence, just the slow, careful movement as he stood up, his knees brushing hers, and reached for the button on his jeans. There was a ceremony to it, an absurd delicacy, as if undressing in front of her was an act of supreme vulnerability rather than aggression. His hands shook a little—she could see it plainly—and that detail, more than anything, made her wet all over again.



He hesitated just before lowering his zipper, looking for her gaze, waiting for permission. She gave it with a nod, too stunned to do more. The zipper came down, the waistband opened, and Jack’s cock, thick and ruddy and already glistening at the tip, sprang free with a relief that was almost comical.



Jill laughed, a wild, unselfconscious sound, and immediately covered her mouth. She was absurdly grateful that David wasn’t there to see the mess of herself, but also, she realized, even more grateful that he could only hear her—no distractions, no ambiguity, just the truth piped straight into his ear.



“Describe it,” David said. “I want you to tell me everything. Don’t leave anything out.”



Jill swallowed, sat up a little straighter, and searched for words.



Jill had seen a handful of men naked in her life—not many, and never under these circumstances—but even so, she had never seen anything quite like Jack’s cock. In any other context, she might have laughed at her own awe, or at the fact that her first thought was to compare it, instantly and involuntarily, to her husband’s. But the contrast was impossible to ignore: Jack’s was not only longer, but thicker, the head larger and darker, flushed with blood and slick already at the tip. Even at rest it curved slightly up, a subtle question mark that seemed at once vulnerable and cocky. She half expected it to twitch with some in-joke it shared only with her, which made her want to both giggle and gasp. Instead, she just stared at it for a long, silent moment, fixating on every detail: the vein that ran like a river up the shaft, the way his pubic hair was trimmed but not barbered, the way, even now, he looked almost sheepish about exposing himself. Underneath the bravado, Jack’s hands shook, and she wanted to take them in hers, to let him know she was just as nervous as he was.



Her silence stretched. The words formed in her throat but wouldn’t cross her lips. She was terrified of getting the description wrong, of saying something that would wound David, or worse, disappoint him. Her brain split into factions: the part loyal to her husband, the part loyal to her own body, and the new, reckless part that wanted to see how far she could go before the world snapped back into place. Even now, with her legs still spread and her body soaked and open, she couldn’t decide which part she wanted to betray.



David’s voice was still in her ear, the echo of it making her pulse race. She could almost imagine his expression: hungry, calculating, maybe a little scared, all of it hidden behind the mask of a man in control. He wanted the truth, but he also wanted to see if she could give it to him. She sensed that the real test wasn’t about Jack at all—it was about whether she could admit what she wanted, and why.



Jack, for his part, kept his eyes lowered, as if afraid to meet hers until she gave some kind of sign. His cock was the only part of him that seemed fully present, jutting out from his jeans with the unselfconscious pride of a flag on the moon. It was not delicate, not elegant, but so obviously functional that it took her breath away. She tried to remember the last time she had looked at a man this way, as an animal rather than a puzzle to be solved.



She wanted to touch it—God, she wanted that more than anything—but the phone pressed to her ear reminded her that this was not just a moment for her. It belonged to David, too, and the only way to give it to him was to find the words.



She cleared her throat, would have laughed at the absurdity if she weren’t so close to tears. “He’s… it’s beautiful, David,” she said, voice barely above a whisper. “I didn’t think I’d ever use that word, but it is—he is. It’s bigger than yours, but not in a way that makes me want it more, just… different. I can see the head, it’s really dark, and the skin is so tight it looks painful. There’s a vein, and I want to touch it so badly, to feel if it’s as hard as it looks.” She listened to her own voice, wondered if she sounded clinical or hungry, decided it didn’t matter. “He keeps looking at me like he’s waiting for permission, like he needs me to say it’s okay. I want to say yes. I want to see what it feels like in my hand. I want to know everything about it. Is that okay?”



Jack exhaled, a sharp, relieved sound that made her realize he’d been holding his breath for the entire length of her description.



David’s voice on the line was low, almost a rumble, and the words struck Jill as both command and plea: “Yes, reach out and touch it with your fingers, tell me what you feel.”



She froze, the phrase echoing inside her head, setting off a thousand alarms and tiny, traitorous thrills. She could sense Jack watching her, not directly—his gaze was fixed somewhere a little to the left of her face, as if looking straight at her might short-circuit the whole experiment—but every muscle in his body was quivering with anticipation. Jill’s own hand trembled, just slightly, and she felt an absurd urge to wipe her palm on her dress, as if she needed to clean herself before touching him even though—especially because—she was already filthy, her fingers sticky and slick from her own arousal.



She waited, stubbornly, for David to say something more, to clarify or backpedal, maybe to tell her this was all part of a larger test and she had already passed. But the silence on the line was absolute, electric, waiting for her to take the next step. She could hear her own breathing and, faintly, the background hum of traffic from the phone, all of it underscored by Jack’s shallow, panicked breaths beside her.



She thought, wildly: This is the moment. This is where it changes. Not just the arrangement of their bodies, but the arrangement of trust, of power, of permission and offense. The thought made her giddy and nauseous by turns. She hesitated, stretching the silence until it nearly snapped, and watched her own hand as if it belonged to someone else.



Her fingers hovered over Jack’s thigh, and she realized she’d never seen a man so vulnerable. Not even David, who was so careful in his love, so strictly contained. Jack’s cock was huge and strange and, up close, almost comically urgent, but the rest of him was trembling, his face locked in an expression of hopeful dread. She wondered what it felt like to be him, to be so exposed and so completely at the mercy of someone else’s judgment.



She pressed the phone hard against her cheek, as if trying to fuse David into her skin, and let her hand drift higher. Her palm landed lightly on Jack’s thigh, hot through the denim, and she felt his whole body tense. She looked at him, searching for any sign that he wanted her to stop, but he just nodded, a barely perceptible movement that said: Please.



She moved her hand, slowly, deliberately, until her fingertips brushed the soft skin at the base of his cock. It was shockingly warm. She wrapped her fingers around the shaft, tentative at first, and felt it twitch in her grip. It was heavier than she expected, but alive, responsive to the tiniest movement of her hand. She marveled at the texture, the intricate latticework of veins, the soft-slick skin that barely disguised the steel-hardness beneath.



She could feel Jack’s pulse hammering in his cock, racing against her own heartbeat. Her thumb slid up, almost by accident, and found the bead of moisture at the tip. She smeared it with the pad of her finger, curious, reverent, and immediately felt Jack shudder, his whole body buckling with the effort of holding still.



Jill let out a shaky laugh. “It’s… Christ, David, it’s so hard. It’s almost hot. I can feel it pulsing. He’s shaking, and so am I.” She closed her eyes and gripped harder, letting herself feel the full reality of the moment. She had never touched anyone but her husband like this, not since she was a teenager, and the memory came to her in a rush: sweaty hands in the back seat of a car, the thrill of discovery, the terror of being caught. Only now, she was supposed to be caught. The whole point was to be seen.



She opened her eyes, looked at Jack again, and was startled to find him staring back, fully there, the mask gone. There was no bravado, no smirk, just a raw, wordless need.



“I’m holding it, David,” she whispered. “It’s in my hand.”



Jack exhaled, a sharp, relieved sound that made her realize he’d been holding his breath for the entire length of her description.



“Give the phone to Jack,” David said, his voice sharp-edged and hungry, cutting through the room’s shallow, panting silence. “Tell him to take another picture of you holding it. Send it to me. And Jill—look at the camera like you fucking want it. Not ashamed. Show me what you look like when you need something. With your eyes.”



Jill froze, startled both by the speed and the audacity of the command. Her hand was still curled around Jack’s cock, feeling it pulse and twitch in her too-tight grip, like some animal she’d captured and didn’t dare let go. For a second she wanted to laugh, to say something sarcastic, but her mouth knew better now than to shape protest. Instead, she glanced up at Jack, whose eyes had grown enormous, pupils blown out with adrenaline and disbelief, his lips parted in a silent question.



She pressed the phone against her cheek, hearing the faintest sizzle of skin on plastic, before lowering it slowly toward Jack’s waiting hand. She tried to steady her voice, but the tremor found its way in anyway: “Jack? David wants you to… take another photo. Me—like this.” She let the words trail off, embarrassed to spell out what was already obvious.



Jack reached for the phone, his knuckles brushing her thigh as if by accident. His hand was slick with sweat, and she could feel the shiver that ran through him as he took the device, careful not to drop it. There was a strange, almost sacred hush on the other end of the line now that David wasn’t speaking, as if the entire universe had gone on mute to let her perform this tiny, obscene sacrament.



Jill shifted on the couch, drawing herself up so she was sitting taller, squaring her shoulders like she was about to walk on stage. She imagined David somewhere in a dark room across town or across the world, eyes narrowed, waiting, and willed herself to become the thing he wanted to see. Her left hand stayed at the base of Jack’s cock, fingers spread so the shaft arched up and outward, impossible to ignore. With the other, she smoothed her hair behind her ear, as if posing for a passport photo, but then let her hand drift down to rest on Jack’s thigh, pressing herself closer.



Jack held up the phone, angling it with the awkward precision of someone who had never, in his wildest fantasies, expected to be conscripted into this kind of theater. His face was a mix of shame and awe—he looked at her, then at the phone, then back at her, waiting for some final permission. Jill didn’t say anything. She just looked straight into the camera’s little black eye, wide open, her expression stripped of pretense.



She heard the electronic click, a tiny sound that seemed to ricochet off the walls. In the instant before, she let her mouth part, tongue barely visible, and stared up at the lens with a longing so raw and dangerous she almost scared herself. There was nothing bashful in her face now; she wanted the image to be burned into David’s memory, to haunt him, to make him understand that she was not afraid to want what she wanted.



Jack fumbled with the phone for a second, then looked at her for instructions.



“Send it,” she said, her voice low but steady.



She watched him compose the text, attach the image, and hit send. The picture would arrive in David’s inbox in three, two, one—and even before it did, she could already sense the way it would detonate in him, the way it would ripple outward and change the whole shape of their triangle.



Jack’s cock was throbbing now, dark and angry in her hand, and Jill marveled at the fact that she didn’t feel disgust or even guilt, only a kind of cold, almost mathematical wonder at how easy it was to slip into this new role. She stared at her own grip, at the impossible contrast of her pale fingers and his mottled, flushed flesh, and wondered what her mother or her best friend would say if they saw her now, sitting on a stranger’s couch, posing for her husband’s instructions.



She waited for David’s reply, the phone trembling in Jack’s hand, and realized she was desperate to hear what he would say next.



David’s voice poured out of the phone with a kind of greedy urgency, as if he’d been bracing himself for the photo and was already half undone by it. “God, you look so beautiful, Jill,” he said, his words pitched low and vibrating in her ear. She could hear him breathing—the unmistakable rhythm of it, jagged and unsteady—and imagined his hand working between his legs, the way he always did when they watched each other through their screens. “So hot, so wanting.” The words seemed to land directly in her spine, pooling there, and for a moment she forgot to breathe at all. She could see Jack watching the effect the phone had on her, saw the little flash of something like delight on his face as the power shifted, again, back and forth between co-conspirators.



Jill glanced at her own hand, still wrapped tight around Jack’s cock, and felt a pulse of arousal so sharp it made her dizzy. The surrealness of the scene—Jack’s body trembling beneath her grip, David’s voice instructing her from some unseeable distance, her own body strung taut between the two—felt both criminal and inevitable, as if her entire life had been pointing toward this one impossible tableau: his cock in her hand, her husband’s voice in her ear, and a thread of anticipation pulling her forward into the next, unknown moment.



David, emboldened, pressed on. “Does stroking him excite you? Does it make you wet, having someone else’s cock in your hand for the first time?” There was an edge of incredulity in his question, and Jill knew, without needing to be told, that he was picturing her exactly as she was: perched on the couch, posture regal and desperate both, holding another man’s erection while she listened to her husband beg for a description of her own excitement.



Jill hesitated, the words catching in her throat. She wanted to say something clever, something that would give her the upper hand, but the truth was molten and unmanageable inside her. She squeezed Jack’s shaft, just a little, and felt him buck softly into her palm. She wondered if he was listening, if he understood the full extent of what she was being asked to admit, to perform.



Her cheeks were burning now. She thought of high school biology class, the dissection of a frog, how the demonstrator’s hands had trembled with some mixture of fear and reverence when she slit open the pale underbelly. That was how she felt now: electric, dangerous, violating some sacred boundary. The part of her that was supposed to feel shame instead felt a kind of euphoria.



She closed her eyes, gathered herself, and let the answer tumble out of her:



“Yes. I can’t stop thinking about it. It’s different, it’s huge, and I keep getting wetter every time I touch him.”



David’s message hit Jill like a needle full of adrenaline, every syllable of it sharp and imperative. “That’s so hot, Jill,” he said, “I want you to want him.” She heard the words, mouth dry, aware of the way Jack’s cock still flexed in her grip while her thumb hovered at the tip. The next line appeared with merciless swiftness: Take some of your wetness and apply it to the head of his cock, then you can taste it. You can only lick his cock where you have applied your juices. Tell me everything.



She almost laughed at the absurdity—the cruelty and the precision of it—but the laugh caught in her throat and became something else, a kind of wild, manic focus. She wanted to do exactly as he asked, not because she had to, but because the act of obedience made her feel powerful and dangerous. She was the one being watched, but she was also the one orchestrating the entire obscene ritual.



Jack, for his part, had gone utterly still, as if sensing a fundamental shift in the air. He watched her, waiting, his eyes searching her face for a signal. Jill inhaled through her nose, slow and deliberate, and let her hand travel downward, skirting the length of Jack’s shaft and then curving between her own thighs. She discovered she was soaked, embarrassingly so, the slickness sticky against her skin. She hesitated for a moment—how many times had she fantasized about something like this, how many times had she been stopped by shame?—but then she dipped two fingers into her heat and drew them back, wet and glistening in the lamplight.



She watched Jack’s eyes flick from the movement of her hand to her face, then to the phone—remembering, again, that this was all for David, that every movement, every gasp, was being relayed to a distant, ever-present witness. It was almost funny: Jack was right here, completely at her mercy, but the real audience was her husband, transformed by distance and technology into the most perverse kind of omnipotence.



Jill smeared the wetness along the crown of Jack’s cock, painting it with slow, concentric circles, until the bead at the tip was mingled with her own arousal. The gesture felt both obscene and tender, a ritual of ownership, and she was startled by how much she wanted David to see it. She wanted Jack to see it too, to understand how much of her body she was willing to give away.



She glanced at the phone, then at Jack, and found herself narrating aloud, her voice steadier than she expected: “I’m doing it, David. I’m using my own wetness, just like you said.” She heard Jack exhale shakily at the sound of her words, as if the act of narration was what made the moment real.



Her hand trembled as she leaned forward. The head of Jack’s cock was shining now, streaked with her own fluid, and she thought for a split second about all the invisible lines she’d just crossed—wife, lover, performer, confessor. She brought her mouth close, close enough to smell the mingled musk, and then let her tongue flick out, tasting the salt and the unfamiliar tang of her own desire.



She felt Jack tense beneath her, but she didn’t stop. Instead, she pressed her lips to the place where her wetness glistened on his skin, licking it off in slow, deliberate swipes. She wanted David to hear every wet sound, every hum of pleasure she made, so she didn’t hold back. She sucked, licked, described the taste, described the way it felt to have both men—one present, one remote—watching her every move.



She pulled back for a moment, catching Jack’s gaze, daring him to say something. But he was wordless, lips parted, eyes wild. She looked into the phone, into the black pinhole of the camera, and said, “I can taste it, David. I want more.”



She went back in, tongue working in slow circles around the head, careful to keep to the boundaries David had set: only where she’d left her mark. It was a game, a test, a sacrament. She felt the room contract around her, every sound amplified by her own heartbeat.



Jill’s head was spinning. She had never felt so visible, so raw. She glanced at Jack, at the way his hands twisted into the fabric of the couch, and realized she was guiding him as much as he was guiding her. She was guiding David, too, giving him exactly the performance he needed.



She closed her eyes and let the narration tumble out of her, half confession, half challenge: “I’m licking it off, David. It tastes like both of us.”



David’s response was immediate and ferocious, his breath caught in a noise that was neither a word nor a moan but some desperate hybrid of both. “Yesss,” he said, and Jill could hear the way the word fractured in his mouth, splintered by the sheer physicality of what he was seeing and hearing. He didn’t hesitate, didn’t bother with pleasantries or incremental escalation. His next command arrived with a pulse of digital insistence, like a needle stitching the three of them together in a private, expanding circuit of need.



“Jack, take a picture. I want to see Jill’s mouth on him—right on the head, just like that. Get closer so I can see her lips.”



Jill felt Jack’s thigh tense at the words. He fumbled with the phone, angling for a shot, his other hand hanging strangely at his side as if unsure whether to steady her or himself. Jill hesitated for only a heartbeat before leaning in, pressing her tongue flat to the shimmering crown, then opening her lips and letting them part around the head of Jack’s cock. She heard the wet click of the camera app, a little digital shutter that sounded heartbreakingly ordinary, out of place in the fevered hush of the room.



She wondered if David was watching in real time, if he was using the front-facing camera as a window or if he was simply tracking each new image as it landed, building a sequence he could replay and re-inhabit later. The thought made her shiver, and she felt her grip on Jack’s shaft tighten, almost involuntarily. The taste was strange but not unpleasant—salty and foreign, overlaid by the faint tang of her own arousal.



The phone cracked with another command, nearly tumbling from Jack’s hand. This time the urge in David’s words were edged with both gratitude and disbelief, as if he was both conductor and audience for his own private symphony of humiliation and delight. “Take some more of your juice and spread it along the length so you can lick the shaft,” he wrote, and Jill felt her pulse spike at the absolute clarity of the instruction. There was nothing hypothetical or abstract about it. He wanted specifics. He wanted evidence.



She pulled back, letting the cock rest against Jack’s belly, and reached again between her own legs. She didn’t need to imagine the slickness; it was there, immediate and overwhelming, a sign of her own complicity that she couldn’t hope to hide. She gathered it on her fingers, not delicately but with intention, wanting the camera to catch every movement. She smeared it along the length of Jack’s cock, making a show of it, painting the skin in slow, deliberate strokes.



Jack’s breathing had gone shallow, his face a mask of anticipation and disbelief. Jill wondered if he’d ever imagined himself in this kind of tableau, if he’d ever been the instrument of someone else’s marriage, someone else’s kink. She looked up at him, searching his eyes for shame or doubt, but found only hunger, raw and uncomplicated.



She bent forward again, this time dragging her tongue along the new, slick trail she’d left behind. She made sure to keep her eyes locked on the phone, on the tiny lens that connected her to David, so he’d see the way her mouth worked, the way her tongue flicked and curled and tasted the evidence of all three bodies at once. She felt the power of it, the way her own submission had become its own kind of dominance—how each act of obedience was also a dare, a provocation.



She narrated again, her voice thick and unsteady: “I’m spreading it for you, David. I’m licking the shaft, just like you said.”



The screen stayed silent for a moment, the silence deepening the sense of occasion. Jill kept at it, tongue and lips and fingers working in concert, until the pretense of self-consciousness fell away and was replaced by a kind of shameless, muscular joy. She wanted David to see everything, to know exactly what she was giving him, to understand how far she would go.



She braced herself for the next command, already hungry for the escalation.



The next command was longer, his mind barely keeping pace with his need: “If you tell me how much you want his cock, what it feels like, how different it is, how it compares to mine, you can take the entire thing in your mouth.” Jill stared at the phone, at the demand so bald it nearly stopped her heart, and she felt a slow, illicit pride bloom in her chest. She was steering them now, the whole tableau moving forward on the momentum of her own surrender.



She glanced at Jack, at the sweat beading along his temple, at the muscle jumping in his jaw. He didn’t look away. He was waiting for her answer, too.



Jill thought about all the times she’d lied, or softened, or withheld, the times she’d made her own appetite small so David wouldn’t feel threatened. Now he was asking for the full, ugly truth. She wanted to make it count. She let her fingers drift down Jack’s shaft, gripping it at the base, holding it up like a specimen for both men to see. She stretched her thumb along its length and marveled at the weight, the color, the pulse that beat just beneath the skin.



“It’s so big, David,” she said, her words tripping over themselves, half-laughing with disbelief. “It’s nothing like yours. It’s thick, and when I hold it, I can barely get my hand around it.” She glanced at Jack, who looked stricken and exultant at once, as if the confession was both a benediction and a punishment. “It’s soft, but so hard at the same time. The skin is different, it’s darker. It smells like nothing I’ve ever smelled before. When I put my tongue on it, I can feel the heat, and it makes me want to swallow it whole.”



The line hung in the air, obscene and electric. Jill saw the way Jack’s hips jerked minutely, the way his stomach tensed as if he’d been struck. She wanted David to hear everything, to see every inch of what she was doing, to know she was not pretending, not sparing anyone’s feelings. The power of it made her reckless.



She went on, pushing into the humiliation because she could see how much it aroused them both. “It’s better,” she said, almost a whisper. “It fills my whole mouth. I can feel it on my tongue, at the back of my throat. It’s heavy, David, and I want it so badly. I want you to watch me take it.”



Jack let out a noise, low and involuntary, and his hand finally found her head, fingers tangling in her hair but not pushing, just holding her there. She looked up at the phone, made sure her mouth was close to the tip, and let her lips part, tongue flicking out to taste the mingled salt and want. “I want you to watch me take it all,” she repeated, her voice thick and wet.



For a moment, the only sound in the room was Jack’s breathing, ragged and desperate. David said, “Do it. I want to see it disappear.”



Jill grinned, wild and unrepentant, and opened her mouth wide, guiding the head inside. She moaned low in her throat, letting the sound vibrate all the way through Jack’s body, and then began to take more of him, inch by inch, never once breaking eye contact with the phone or the man in front of her.



Jill rode the length of Jack’s cock with a focus so intense, so unyielding, it left her oblivious to everything else in the world. She let her cheeks hollow, her lips forming a tight ring around the heat and salt and strange, living heft of him. She went up and down, again and again, drawing from Jack a litany of gasps and strangled syllables that made her want to show off all the more for the camera’s eye. Each time she reached the base, she flexed her tongue, curling it to gather every drop and taste and texture, letting herself be the vessel for both men’s desires at once.



She didn’t know if she was performing for Jack or for David or both, but she locked her gaze on the little black circle at the top of the phone, daring it to catch every nuance and every loss of inhibition. She wanted the lens to see her, not just as an object but as an author of what came next, as someone who had made this happen by saying yes, by not blinking, by not letting go of the dare. She wanted David to see it—really see it, see her tongue working, see her cheeks bulge, see the way her jaw flexed, see that she could take all of Jack again and again and never once flinch. She wanted him to know she was doing it for him, and because of him, and because she liked the power of it.



Jack’s hips started to meet her mouth, small urgent thrusts, desperate but respectful, like he’d been told he could go only so far and was determined to test the boundary without breaking it. Jill found she liked the way his restraint made her feel even more in control: he surrendered to her pace, her pressure, her ability to slow it down or speed it up, to stop or to swallow him whole. She felt the tension in his thighs, the way his hands balled into fists at his sides, and she smiled with her lips still tight around his shaft, letting the smile telegraph itself to the men in two different rooms.



She kept at it until she felt her mouth go numb, until saliva and precum pooled at the corners of her lips and she had to fight to breathe through her nose. She liked the messiness, the evidence of her own hunger, the look of it on her face and on Jack’s stomach, smeared and shining and real. She heard the camera click again and drained the moment for everything it was worth, letting herself play the part of the woman who wanted to be seen, who wanted to be remembered like this, on her knees, owning the scene.



Then David’s voice came through the phone, a raw, almost boyish whine of pleasure and disbelief. “God, Jill, you are absolutely amazing,” he said, and she could hear the tremor in his voice, the way it vibrated with too many feelings to sort through. “I can’t believe we’re doing this. You look so hot. I’m going to come,” he croaked, and Jill could picture him on the other end, wild-eyed and desperate, as much a hostage to the moment as she was.



She wanted to say something, but the words got lost in the heat and wetness of Jack’s cock in her throat. Instead, she just hummed, letting the vibration of her pleasure carry through her mouth and into the length of him, making Jack shudder and arch and let out a long, low moan.



Then, as if David couldn’t stand another second of helplessness, he issued a new command, the next link in a chain he’d started without knowing where it would end. “I want you to come with me,” he said, the words tumbling out without preamble or shame. “Reach down and play with yourself as you suck his cock. See if you can get him to come at the same time.”



For a split second, Jill froze, startled by how much the idea sent a jolt through her. She was not surprised by the instruction—she’d been waiting for it—but by how fiercely she wanted to obey. She felt her free hand tremble as she let it drift between her thighs, skimming the inside of her knee, the slippery heat of her own cunt so ripe and ready it made her gasp. She pressed two fingers to her clit and found herself already close, the nearness of climax like a live wire under her skin, needing only the smallest touch to set off a chain reaction.



She moaned around Jack’s cock and let the sound build, let it fill the air for both men to hear. She matched the rhythm of her fingers to the rhythm of her mouth, feeling the world shrink to the points of contact, the places where she was stretched and filled and raw. She wanted to do it—to come for David, for Jack, for herself—and she wanted to do it perfectly.



She started working Jack’s cock even harder, using the full strength of her jaw and the skill of her tongue.



She could feel it building in waves—first in the tension of Jack’s thighs, then in the desperate, animal thrust of his hips, then in the helpless groan that rolled up through his chest and crashed down into her mouth. Jill stroked him with everything she had, salt-slick and aching, and let herself be devoured by the heat of both men’s attention, both men’s need. She was vaguely aware of the camera trembling in her hand, the way she held it up to make sure David saw every second, every detail—her lips stretched wide, her cheeks hollowed and raw, her whole body shaking with the need to finish this, to do it right, to make the moment unforgettable.



Her own climax hit without warning, sharp as a slap, so sudden she cried out around the girth of Jack’s cock, the vibration of her scream making him shudder and pull her down even further. Her free hand was a blur, knuckles white as she pressed and circled, pressed and circled, the sound of her own wetness obscene and unignorable in the hush of the hotel room. She didn’t care who heard. She wanted everyone in the world to know what was happening: that she was on her knees, mouth full, cunt clenching so hard it nearly knocked her off balance; that she was a woman made of nothing but want.



Just as her vision went white at the edges, she felt Jack seize, every muscle in his body tensing for a single, perfect instant. She could taste the change in him, bitter and urgent, and then he was coming, jets of his orgasm flooding the back of her throat. Jill swallowed, not out of duty but out of instinct, greedy for the taste and the power of it, the proof that she’d won. She hummed low, letting the sound ride up into Jack’s cock and then up into her own skull, the echo of it making her tremble with a second, smaller wave of release.



Through the blur, she registered David’s voice, thin and ragged from the speaker: a strangled gasp, then a series of half-formed syllables, then nothing but the slap of his own hand and the hitch of his breathing as he lost control. For a second, Jill imagined him in his office, tie loosened, pants pooled around his knees, body shaking with the force of his own climax. She wondered if he’d timed it to hers, if he’d waited to let go until he saw her mouth fill up and her eyes squeeze shut. The thought made her want to laugh, or maybe cry, or maybe just keep going forever.



Jack’s grip on her hair loosened, and he sagged, spent and shaking, onto the edge of the bed. For a moment, the three of them floated in the quiet aftermath, connected by nothing but breath and the memory of what they had made together. Jill wiped the corner of her mouth with the back of her hand and looked up into the lens, making sure David saw her, saw all of her, even now.



She let the silence stretch.



They all just breathed in the air for a moment, Jack’s hands and fingers gently fondling Jill’s breasts, the breasts that were supposed to be meant for only her husband, but this wild night actually just happened.



Jill, on her knees, felt the sweat cooling on her skin and the lingering hum of her own ferocious climax reverberate through her bones. Jack’s hands, trembling and reverent, cupped her breasts as if they were some rare and precious artifact he’d been permitted to touch only in a museum—his worship contained, but unmistakable. She leaned into his hands, letting herself be held, letting him press his forehead to the top of her head, letting the strange tenderness of the moment override any urge to flee or cover herself. She thought of David, of the way he’d watched her through the pixelated eye of the phone, the way his voice, thick with awe and delight, had guided her through the last impossible minute.



The world was all post-coital hush, the three of them floating in a quiet suspended between cities, between rules, between the old world and whatever came after. The room itself seemed changed: less a place for sleeping and more a temporary home for people who dared to say yes instead of no. Jill blinked and looked around, half-expecting the walls to be painted with some secret message or warning, but all she saw was Jack’s hunched, grateful form and her own reflection in the edge of the television. She was a mess, a beautiful, ruined thing, and for the first time in her life she didn’t care who saw her like this.



She reached for Jack’s hand and guided it up to her collarbone, letting him feel her heart slamming against the cage of her chest. He looked at her—really looked at her—and she saw tears at the corners of his eyes, but he didn’t say anything. There was nothing to say. The admission was in the way he held her, the way he still shook, the way his body finally let go of whatever had kept him stiff and upright all these years. For a long time, they just knelt together in the tangled sheets, breathing in and out, in and out, the air still thick with sex and ozone and the electricity of rules broken.



On the phone, David’s face hovered in the dark. He was grinning, but there was something a little lost in his eyes, too—a bewildered gratitude, as if he were stunned to find himself both a participant and a witness. Jill realized she wanted to reach through the glass, to wipe the sweat from his brow, to kiss the hollow at his throat and tell him that none of this made any sense but all of it was real. She wanted to tell him that she’d done it for him, and for Jack, and for herself, and that she couldn’t wait to see him again, to see what happened when they were finally together in person. Would he still love her the same?



Jack kissed her shoulder and squeezed her hand. “Are you okay?” he whispered, and she nodded, not trusting her voice to hold steady.



Then David, as if he, too, had been waiting for the right moment to break the spell, cleared his throat and said, “Well, that was new.” His voice was sheepish, a little shaky, but utterly sincere, and the sound of it made Jill laugh so hard she nearly collapsed onto the sticky carpet.



They all laughed.

Wow!!! What a fabulous story! Thanks for creating this - I couldn't, and didn't want to stop.

kiwiRob wrote: ↑

Thu Nov 20, 2025 1:40 am

Wow!!! What a fabulous story! Thanks for creating this - I couldn't, and didn't want to stop.

Thanks so much! I have the next part ready where David picks her up from the airport

Wow, the slow burn here is incredibly well done and the idea of having the phone connection was wild. very hot, very imaginative. I was a "satisfied" reader.

Ha, glad I could help

Jill emerges through the airport's sliding doors to find David waiting, his familiar silhouette sending a pang through her chest. Tears threaten at the corners of her eyes. This morning's attempted call plays in her mind— she let the phone ring and ring, but it was not answered, she knew he was probably busy with the kids at that time, so he didn’t answer, she had to make a decision on her own.

The confession sits like a stone in her throat as she approaches him. David's smile falters when he notices her expression. The memory of Jack's hotel room—the tangled sheets, the whispered conversations—pulls against her love for the man standing before her.

"I need to tell you something," she says, voice barely steady. "About Jack. At the hotel."

David's forehead creases, but his eyes remain soft. He reaches for her hand. "When we get home," he says. "Whatever it is—I love you. Try not to worry."

But worry floods her anyway. Last night had been electric—laughter, connection, freedom she hadn't felt in years. This morning's desperate choice, however, casts a shadow over everything.

She manages a nod and forces her lips into something resembling a smile. As they walk toward the parking lot, his fingers laced with hers, her mind spins with questions. How will he look at her once he knows? The mixture of guilt and yearning makes her pulse quicken beneath her skin.

That night, after the kids are asleep and the house is finally quiet, Jill slips into bed beside David, the clean sheets cool and smelling faintly of detergent and something that echoes her childhood home. She feels the heat of him before she even slides under the covers. He is propped up against the headboard, scrolling through his phone with a half-lidded gaze, and when she slides in, he sets the phone aside and turns toward her, his body already forming the familiar curve, the parentheses that define their marriage.

For a long moment neither of them speaks. Jill stares at the low ceiling, counting the shadows cast by the streetlight, and tries to steady her breathing. David’s hand finds hers without searching. His thumb works a slow, reassuring circle over her knuckles, and for a moment the gesture is a balm—she can almost believe that, with enough time, this warmth will dissolve what sits between them.

But the bed is not a shield. The silence stretches, elastic, until David fills it. “You’ve been quiet all evening,” he says, softly, as if afraid to spook her. “Are you…was it too much? Last night?” His voice is hesitant, but there’s a gleam of worry beneath the surface, as if he is bracing for the worst.

Jill bites her lip. She remembers the night before: the laughter, the wine, the way the three of them—her, David and Jack had circled one another, drawn together by novelty and mutual curiosity. They all knew it was only for that night, a brief collusion before real life resumed. Still, the memory of Jack’s hands on her, the low rasp of his voice in her ear, is a live wire under her skin. And David had been there (remotely) too, his voice with something like delight.

But this morning had been different. This morning she had crossed a line, alone.

She swallows. “No, I’m not upset,” she says, and the words almost surprise her with their honesty. “Last night was—” She stops, searching for the right adjective. “Exciting. I haven’t felt that… alive, in a long time.”

David’s face opens up, relief like sunrise. “Me neither,” he says. “I love you, you know. I love us. I love that we didn’t let routine take us down. It was fun, right? You’re still my favorite person. Nothing’s changed.”

He kisses her, softly, and she feels his sincerity in the way he cups the back of her head, the way his fingers tremble just a little. She wants so badly to let herself be held together by his optimism.

But there is unfinished business. There is a truth that is hers alone, and it festers.

She sits up, wrapping the sheet around her, and meets his eyes in the dark. “Something happened this morning,” she says, and her voice is so small, she almost doesn’t recognize it. “I need to tell you about it.”

The suspense is killing me, Don't stop now. This is a marvelously told tale!

guitarman wrote: ↑

Sat Nov 22, 2025 1:28 pm

The suspense is killing me, Don't stop now. This is a marvelously told tale!

Ask and ye shall receive.

She starts with the smallest thread, not sure how to tug at it. “After you hung up and I went to bed,” she says, voice choked to a reed, “I thought it would be over. I thought I’d sleep it off like a hangover.” Her hands worry the edge of the comforter, twisting the seam between her thumb and knuckle. “But when the sun came up, I was still buzzing. I woke up and everything—the sheets, the pillow, my whole body—felt like it was still happening. I couldn’t stop thinking about you. Or him. About how it felt to be wanted like that.”

David blinks, his pupils two black pinholes in the dim bedroom, but he doesn’t interrupt. She senses him tensing, bracing, like the moment before a wave hits.

“I tried to read the news,” she says, laughing thinly. “I even did yoga on the hotel carpet. I told myself that if I could just act normal, it would go away. But it didn’t. I kept replaying it. Over and over. The way you told me what to do, the way Jack touched me. The way he looked at me, like I was the only thing in the world.”

She searches his face for a flicker of anger, but finds only curiosity, a hunger she recognizes from the night before. She is grateful for it, in a terrible way.

“I started touching myself, David. I couldn’t help it. It was like my hands were acting on their own. I kept going until my whole body felt raw, and I was still…hungry. I wanted more. I wanted you, but you weren’t there. So I just—” She cuts off, her throat closing around the next words.

David leans in, the bedsheet falling away from his chest. His skin is pale and freckled in the scattered spill of light from the hallway. “You just what?” he asks, voice shaped like a hand, steady and careful.

“I got up, I realised I didn’t have time to really enjoy finishing, and I was shaking,” she says. “My legs were jelly, and my teeth were chattering like I’d gone swimming in the Atlantic in November. I walked to the window and pulled open the curtain, and I just watched the parking lot fill with people leaving for the airport. I thought about packing, about getting dressed and coming home, but then I saw him. Jack. He was on the phone, pacing by his car. He looked up at my window and waved, like he knew I was watching.”

She laughs again, this time brittle. “I felt so exposed. I pressed my body against the glass, and I was naked, and he just stood there, still talking, but staring at me. I was mortified, but also—I don’t know. I felt powerful. Like I could make something happen with just a look.”

David’s breathing grows louder in the quiet. “Did he come up?” he asks, the words barely more than a whisper.

Jill nods. “He came up. Knocked on my door with his knuckles, real gentle. I almost didn’t answer. I put a towel on, and I just stood there listening to him breathing on the other side. I tried calling you first, but you didn’t pick up. You were probably with the kids, and I didn’t want to wait any more, didn’t want to lose the feeling. So I opened the door.”

She closes her eyes, and for a moment she is back in the hallway—her hair damp from sweat and sleep, her feet sticking to the threadbare carpet. The corridor is lined with doors, each identical, each hiding its own dramas and secrets. The air is tinged with the scent of reheated eggs from the breakfast bar, a chemical tang from the maids’ carts, and a faint hint of last night’s aftershave. She remembers the precise feeling of the towel cinched tightly under her arms, the way her heart stampeded in her chest when she heard the knock, gentle but precise, and how her hand hesitated over the plastic handle. How she’d stood there, breathing through her mouth, caught in a rip current of excitement and guilt.

She tries to explain this to David, how it felt: “I opened the door and there he was, still in his clothes from last night, and he looked so tired and alive at the same time. His t-shirt was inside out, and I could see the tag sticking up against his collar. He smiled at me, but it was almost shy. He said, ‘I’m sorry to bother you this early, but I wanted to see you before I go.’ He had this look, like he was trying to remember everything about me, as if he was committing me to memory in case we never saw each other again.”

She pauses, and David doesn’t say anything. He just blinks slowly, his face unreadable. Jill can’t tell if he’s hurt or curious or both—maybe it’s her own feelings she’s seeing reflected, doubled back at her.

“I stepped aside, and he came in,” she says, her voice cracking a little but steady enough to go on. “It was awkward at first, like we weren’t sure if we were still supposed to be the people from last night, or if the spell was broken. I could feel him wanting to touch me, but there was this new carefulness to it—like he was afraid I’d vanish if he got too close.” She remembers shivering, the air-conditioning chilling her wet skin, the way her nipples tightened under the towel, and how Jack’s eyes dropped there, then snapped back to her face. “He just stood there, and I realised I hadn’t said anything, so I blurted out that I was about to take a shower. I don’t know why I said it. Maybe I wanted him to leave, or maybe I wanted him to stay and see me. I just knew the idea of being alone in that room suddenly felt unbearable.”

She draws a breath, shakes her head, and looks at David, searching for some signal to stop or go on. He nods, barely perceptible, as if encouraging her to keep digging. His hand is still on hers, not gripping but anchoring.

“So I told him I needed to shower, and he asked if he could watch me,” Jill says. She’s surprised to hear the words aloud, but also relieved, as if each confession is a pebble moved from the weight in her chest. “He didn’t say it in a creepy way. He just… he looked at me like he was starving, but also like he was grateful for the chance to even ask. I said I didn’t think it was a good idea, but I didn’t really mean it. I just wanted to see what he would do. I tried calling you again, hoping that, I don’t know, you’d give me a sign, or permission, or something to make it feel less like cheating.”

She glances at David, expecting to see betrayal, but finds only a sharpened interest. There’s a flush on his cheeks, and his breath is coming a little faster, though his touch on her hand is as steady as ever.

“I waited, holding the phone, listening to the dial tone, hoping you’d answer,” she says, her voice barely above a whisper. “But you didn’t, so I just stood there, in my towel, watching Jack watch me. The silence was so loud I could hear my own pulse. I don’t know what came over me, but suddenly I just… I let go. I dropped the towel. It slid down and pooled at my feet, and I stood there, naked, in front of him.”

She closes her eyes again, remembering how exposed she felt, but also how strong.

“He looked at me like I was a miracle,” she says, turning back to David. “He didn’t move. He just stood there and studied me, not like a man sizing up a lover, but like someone who’d never seen a naked woman before, or at least never seen me. He started at my face, then my shoulders, then my chest. I could see his eyes cataloguing every part of me, like he was trying to absorb it all in case it was the last time.”

She hesitates, then continues, her voice growing low and secretive. “I let him. I let him look, and it felt good, but not in the way I expected. It was like I was both there and not there, like I was watching myself from the outside. I felt embarrassed at first, but then I saw how much it was hurting him, wanting me but not touching, and it made me feel powerful.”

David’s breathing is ragged now, his body tense beside her. She can sense the arousal in him, the way it mirrors her own memory of that moment, and also the guilt that underlies it.

“So I stood there, and he just… he just took it in. He said, ‘You are so beautiful,’ but it wasn’t a line. It was like he meant it for the first time. I could see his hands shaking at his sides, but he didn’t try to touch me. He just looked. And for a while we just…stayed like that.”

She remembers the chill in the room, the heat of Jack’s gaze, the strange comfort of being seen so thoroughly. She remembers thinking of David then, wondering if he would be angry or thrilled, if he would have wanted to watch, too.

She lets the memory spool out like a ribbon, unsure when it will run out or if it will ever knot up and choke her. The story moves through her in a sequence of acutely rendered images: the rough seams of the hotel towel under her arms, the vacuumed hush of the hallway, the precise rectangle of late-morning sun falling through the parking-lot window. She remembers watching Jack in the glass, the way his hair stuck up at odd angles, salt-straight and reckless even after a shower, the bruised shadows under his eyes, the way he stood a little off-balance, as if already ready to run. She remembers the cold, taut feeling in her own body, the sense of wanting to hide and wanting to be seen, both at once.

She is ashamed by how much she wanted him to look. She is even more ashamed by how easy it was to let go of the towel and stand there, skin prickling with goosebumps, heart doing a jazz solo in her chest, and just wait to see what he would do. She expected a lunge, a wolfish grin, something movie-dumb and masculine. Instead, he just looked at her. Not up and down, not eating her with his eyes, just: looking. As if she were the only real thing left in the world and everything else—her regrets, her marriage, the ugly conglomerate hotel, the threadbare carpet, last night’s spilled gin—was just a backdrop, a set piece. She remembers the silence between them, more complete than any silence she'd ever known, not even the hum of the wall air conditioner or the distant rumble of vacuums on other floors to break it.

She was the first to move, sidestepping around him toward the bathroom, and she remembers the hot, electric panic of moving past him naked, expecting a hand to reach out, a word to stop her, but he did nothing. She glanced over her shoulder and saw him, still standing in the middle of the room, still fully clothed, but his hands were open and empty, held awkwardly at his sides.

“I was so nervous, I started to laugh,” she says, and at first it sounds flippant, but her voice cracks in the middle, betraying her. “He smiled at me and still examined me as I walked to the shower. So, the hotel has one of those giant glass showers inside a huge bathroom with a vanity and a chair. I opened the glass door and reached in to turn on the water, just letting it run, my hand shaking like crazy. Jack steps into the bathroom behind me, and he doesn’t touch me, doesn’t say anything, but just sits down in the chair. He just sits there. Like he’s waiting for me to either kick him out or let him stay and watch.”

She stops, uncertain, suddenly aware of her own heartbeat. David isn’t looking at her. Or maybe he is, but she can’t meet his eyes, so she looks at the ceiling, at the seam in the drywall, at the bent lamp on the dresser, at her own hand resting on the sheets.

“I didn’t know what to do,” she says, voice softer now. “I just stood there, with my back to him, waiting for the water to heat up. The room was so brightly lit, and I could see both of us in the mirror over the sink. He looked so large and intimidating but he wasn’t at all, more like a kid waiting for the principal. I thought about telling him to leave. I thought about wrapping the towel back around me and locking the bathroom door. But I didn’t do any of that. I just… let him stay.”

She glances at David, uncertain if he wants her to stop, or continue, or disappear. He’s still and silent, except for the slow drag of his breath. She finds it in herself to keep going.

“I stepped into the shower,” she says, and then, almost to herself, “still naked with Jack watching me the entire time.” The memory is so tactile she can feel it all again: the cold shock of the tile, the sting of hot water on her skin, the slow fogging of the glass as steam rose around her. “I have to confess there was something very exhibitionist about it, something that was really turning me on. It was very unlike anything I’d ever experienced.”

She pauses, checking David’s reaction. His eyes are closed. He’s breathing through his nose, slow, as if he’s fighting to stay above water and not drown in her words.

She holds the pause between them, daring it to grow so large it becomes a fourth body in the room, before she gives a short, exhausted laugh and starts up again. “He just sat there, David, just like I’m telling you, on this weird little red pleather chair, staring at me through the glass. I kept telling myself just do everything like you would if I were alone, but that was impossible, because alone is a myth. There’s always someone watching. Always. Even if it’s just a future version of you, replaying it.” She swallows. “I tried to be clinical, practical, but my hands were shaking and I could smell the scent of him, even through the rainfall of the shower, like pepper and pine needles and I could see him shifting in the chair and the way his thigh muscle flexed through his pants. It was the way he looked at me, like he’d never seen anyone naked before and like he’d never wanted anything so much in his life. Maybe I was imagining it, but it felt like he was looking for something, like he needed to memorize every inch of me because he was sure he’d lose it. Lose me. His eyes were so blue they looked fake.”

She brings her hands together in her lap as she speaks, squeezing her thumbnail into the flesh of her palm until it nearly breaks the skin. “At first, I followed the same routine I’ve had since middle school. Shampoo, rinse, repeat, like I’m covered in instructions. But I couldn’t concentrate, not with Jack’s reflection just behind my left shoulder. He was so still, but the energy coming off him was like radioactive. I tried pretending that I was at home, that you were somewhere just down the hall, or in the kitchen making coffee, but it didn’t work. I was in this lavish hotel bathroom, and Jack was on the other side of the glass, and the fact that there was no physical barrier, just steam and condensation, made the whole thing more obscene.”

She stares down at her hand, the print of her thumbnail already fading, and starts to tremble just a little. “I could feel my heartbeat everywhere. My cheeks, my breasts, my nipples, between my legs. I started to soap myself, and I tried to do it quickly, practically, but the more I touched myself the more aware I was that he was watching. I turned around a few times, just to see if he was still there, and every time he was, eyes locked on me, breathing heavier. I could see the outline of him under his pants, and at first I tried not to look, but then I just… let myself. I wanted him to see me. I wanted to know what it would feel like to be observed like that, to be wanted that much, even if it was wrong. Especially if it was wrong.”

Her voice is softer now, almost lost in the memory. “At one point—I think I was rinsing conditioner out of my hair—I looked through the fogged-up glass and saw that he had unzipped his pants. He was touching himself, slow at first, just through the fabric, but then he slid his hand inside and started to stroke himself for real. I should have felt disgusted or ashamed, but I didn’t. It was the opposite. I felt like I was in some kind of play, like an actress with a single audience member, and the only way to keep his attention was to keep going, keep performing. I knew I was being watched, and I wanted to put on a good show. It made me bold, reckless. I started to touch myself, too, not just for hygiene, but for pleasure. I didn’t even try to hide it.”

She looks up at David, finally, her eyes glassy but direct. There’s a challenge there, a plea for understanding or forgiveness or both, but also a kind of pride. “I wanted to see if he’d keep going if I did. And he did. He did not look away, not for a second. I started to moan a little, not even on purpose, just because it felt good and I wanted it to sound like it felt good. The water was so hot it almost scalded me, and I could feel the glass heating up, and the whole room filled with steam until it was hard to see him anymore, just the outline of his body, the movement of his hand.”

She takes a breath, pushing herself further, as if compelled to lay out everything, to scrub the last specks of truth from herself. “He stood up. He just stood there, in front of the shower, and dropped his pants. He wasn’t playing games anymore. He stood there stroking himself, and I watched him, and it was the most animal thing I’ve ever seen, but also the saddest. He looked so desperate, but also grateful, like he couldn’t believe his luck to be in that room with me.”

She stops and glances at David, and for the first time she notices the bulge in his boxer briefs. He isn’t looking away, either. He isn’t moving, but everything about him is tense and vibrating, every muscle and tendon strung tight. She reaches over, tentative at first, and places her hand on him, feeling the heat of his arousal through the thin cotton.

“It’s turning you on, isn’t it?” she says, and it isn’t a question. She gives a slight, bitter laugh, but it’s not cruel. “It turned me on, too. More than I thought possible. I wanted to see how far it could go.”

She slides her hand along David’s erection, slow and deliberate, as she keeps talking. “Jack had the most amazing cock. I’m not saying it to be mean, or to hurt you, or to be dramatic. It was just true. He was beautiful, and he knew how to use it. I could see him watching my every move, waiting to see what I’d let him do next. But I didn’t want him to do anything except watch. That was the whole point. I wanted him to hunger for me and suffer for it.”

Her grip tightens, and David shivers under her hand. She leans in, her hair falling over her shoulder, her gaze never leaving his face. “

“The shower door opened and Jack looked at me for permission. The two of us suspended there, steam rising from the marble. I remember thinking, in that elongated second, how every romance novel I’d ever secretly read as a teenager, every telenovela, every bored daydream in the carpool lane or the back row at church, had all pointed to this one moment—the moment of giving in to something you know you shouldn’t want. But I wanted it. I wanted it so badly that my hands shook as I reached for the glass, not to shut Jack out, but to beckon him in. My heart was hammering against my ribs, a tiny bird gone wild in a cage.

He stepped in, slick with sweat and anticipation, and for a half-second we just stood there, the sound of water pounding against tile the only music. The heat was suffocating. My face felt scalded, my chest flushed, and my cunt—there’s no other word for it—my cunt throbbed with a need I’d never admitted, even to myself. I was a married woman. I was a mother. I was supposed to be above this, or at least immune. But it was like my whole body had been waiting for this exact eventuality, and now that it was happening I couldn’t get enough oxygen. My mind screamed, Stop this, you’ll regret it forever, but my lips parted and I let the steam and Jack and the possibility fill me up.

Jack was tentative, almost apologetic, as he stepped forward and put his hands on my hips. He was shaking too, which made me feel both powerful and very, very young. I remember feeling a sudden rage at how little power I had in my life, and how at this moment, when I was at my weakest, I also felt invincible. I grabbed his cock, hard, and the sound he made was so raw it echoed off the glass. I stroked him, squeezing and releasing, watching the way his head rolled back and his jaw clenched. The water sluiced over us, hotter than I could stand but I didn’t care; pain was part of the pleasure, and I wanted to remember every single detail.

The guilt didn’t vanish, but it receded, replaced by something I can only describe as hunger. I wanted to eat him alive, and also have him devour me. I stroked him faster, my other hand pressed against the flat of his belly, feeling the muscles tense under my palm. He kissed me, open-mouthed and desperate, and I bit his lower lip so hard I tasted blood. We slid down to the floor, the tile cold on my knees, his hands everywhere at once, not groping or fumbling but holding, reverent, as if he’d never get another chance to memorize this body.

I remember looking up at him, water running down my face, and thinking: you will ruin yourself for this. You will never be able to go back. But I didn’t care. I wanted more, not less. I wanted to see how far I could push both of us before we broke.

She stops, breathless, her cheeks burning. For a moment Jill can’t believe she said all that out loud, but then she looks at David and sees his chest heaving, his jaw clenched so tightly she worries his teeth might crack. Jill’s hand keeps stroking him, deliberate, rhythmic, and she feels him tense under her palm. The air in the room is electric, every molecule charged and humming.

Davids breathing is even more ragged now, Jill continues to stroke him. “Are you sure you want to hear this?” she askes. David nods his head vigoursly.

Jill licks her lips, suddenly thirsty, her tongue scraping the roof of her mouth as if the words themselves might be enough to slake her. “I told Jack he couldn’t fuck me,” she says, letting the F-word hang in the air between them, charged, forbidden, a detonator. “I said I was married, that my husband was the only one allowed inside me. I think I wanted to hurt him, actually, or maybe just see if he’d listen. He looked at me like a kicked dog, but he nodded. He said, ‘I get it. I understand.’ And I believed him. I think he actually did.”

She watches David as she says this, her hand never breaking rhythm, slow and deliberate, a metronome ticking off the seconds. “But I still wanted him. I wanted to keep going. The part that surprised me was how much I wanted to break my own rule. I could feel it, like a virus mutating inside me: the need to cross every line I’d ever drawn for myself. But I didn’t. At least, not that one. I got on my knees, right there on the marble floor, and I took him in my mouth again.”

The memory is so strong she can almost taste it, chlorine and soap and salt and the faint bitterness of pre-cum. “His cock was huge. Not just big, but almost… aggressive. I could feel it stretching my jaw, hitting the back of my throat, making me gag a little. I liked the feeling of surrender, the fact that he was too much for me. It made me feel small, powerless, but also in control, because every time he groaned or shivered, I knew I was the one doing it to him.” Her hand tightens involuntarily on David’s shaft as she speaks, matching the rhythm of the story to the pulse of his arousal.

“I did everything I could to make him lose it. I sucked and licked and jerked him with both hands, like I was starving and he was the only meal left in the world. I wanted to swallow him, all of him, and I wanted him to know it. I didn’t care about dignity. I didn’t care about shame. I wanted to see if I could make him come without even letting him touch me.”

She pauses, the air thick and close, her own arousal rising like a tide. “He almost did. I could feel it, the way his legs tensed and his hips jerked, the way he started to moan my name. But then he stopped me. He pulled me up by my hair, really gentle, and kissed me, his tongue soft and slow. He tasted like toothpaste and desperation. For a second, I thought he was going to beg, but instead he just looked at me, like he was memorizing my face.”

Jill shivers, the memory as sharp as a blade. “He turned me around, so I was on my hands and knees, facing away from him. I thought he was going to try to fuck me anyway, and I was ready to let him, but he didn’t. He just pressed his cock between my thighs, sliding it up and down along my lips, using my body like a toy. I could feel the heat of him, the pulse. It was torture, in the best way. I tried to keep quiet, but I couldn’t. I started to whimper, a little, and then more, until I was practically crying. It was filthy and humiliating and so fucking good.”

She glances at David, her cheeks flushed, her hand still moving. “I wanted him to take me. I wanted it so much I thought I’d die from it, but I also wanted to keep my promise to you. It was like holding two live wires at once, the pain of wanting and the pride of not giving in. But the thing that really killed me was how gentle he was, how careful not to hurt me, how he kept stopping to ask if I was okay. It made me hate him, a little, because it would have been easier if he’d just been a monster.”

Jill lets the silence settle for a moment, then pushes on. “He started to move faster, grinding against me, rubbing his cock over my clit, until I couldn’t think anymore. I came. Harder than I ever have, except maybe the first time with you. I screamed. I think I actually screamed, and the sound echoed off the tile like an alarm going off in a bank vault.” She laughs, a sharp, self-mocking sound. “He came too, all over my back. I felt it, hot and wet and sticky, and I loved it. I wanted him to mark me, so I’d remember.”

After her words fade, the room is silent but for the sound of their breathing and the frantic, wet noises of her hand on David’s cock. She looks him in the eye, daring him to judge her, to punish her, to save her from herself.

“I didn’t let him inside,” she says again, quieter this time, almost a plea. “But I let him do everything else. I wanted it. I wanted him to want me so much that he’d settle for whatever I’d give. That’s what I wanted you to know.”

She leans over and kisses David, open-mouthed and hungry, tasting the salt of her own confession on his tongue. When she pulls away, she keeps her grip on him, steady and relentless.

“Do you want me to keep going?” she whispers, and this time she lets herself hope he’ll say yes.

David’s answer is a growl, low in his throat, and Jill smiles, triumphant and guilty and alive.

She shifts position, kneeling on the bed, and guides him to her mouth, not with shyness but with purpose. She takes him in slowly at first, savoring the taste of him, the way he fills her, the way his hands twist in her hair. She wants to make it last, to drag out every second, to show him how much she can take. She remembers Jack, remembers the craving, and lets it fuel her now, a fire at the base of her spine.

She looks up at David as she works, eyes wide and unblinking, and sees the way he watches her. There is hunger there, but also grief, and something else—something like gratitude. She doubles down, sucking him harder, licking along the underside, letting her teeth graze just enough to make him shiver. Is this what she did with Jack he wonders. He’s close; she can feel it in the way his thighs tense, the way his breath comes ragged and desperate.

David’s jaw is tight, his cheeks red with humiliation or maybe something far more complicated, and his voice cracks the room like a whip: “You wanted him to fuck you, didn’t you?” He’s not asking; he’s demanding, as if the honesty will cauterize something inside him. Jill freezes for half a second, heart pounding so hard it drowns out the wet, obscene sounds of her mouth on him. She pulls off, gasping, spit running down her chin, and locks eyes with him, no trace of shame in her stare.

“Yes! I wanted him to fuck me so badly!” she screams, the words ricocheting off the walls like a confession in a cathedral. The admission burns, but it’s a purifying fire, scorching through every layer of doubt and denial. Her hands are trembling, but her grip on him is ironclad, and she strokes him harder, faster, as if the friction might strip both of them raw enough to start again.

David’s body jolts; he’s breathing in short sharp gasps now, the whites of his knuckles glowing as he fists the sheets. Jill can see the shift in him, the way her words sear him from the inside out, the way pain and pleasure spiral together until they’re indistinguishable. “Say it again,” he hisses, his eyes wild. “Tell me what you wanted.”

Jill bares her teeth in a grin that’s almost feral. “I wanted him to fuck me. I wanted him to split me open and ruin me. I wanted to feel him inside me and know that you’d never forgive me for it.” The words come out in a torrent, each syllable sharpening the edge of desire in the room until it feels like they’re both about to bleed. She doesn’t break eye contact, not even as she slips him back into her mouth, sucking hard, tongue curling and twisting with practiced cruelty.

David is shaking, every muscle pulled taut, but he can’t look away. The dynamic has flipped: Jill is the one in control, riding the knife’s edge of their mutual destruction. She slides her mouth up and down, letting the friction intensify, the rhythm building, relentless. He’s making noises now, strangled and desperate, and with every bob of her head she can feel him teetering closer to the brink.

“Do you wish it was his cock in your mouth right now?” he growls, a last gasp of ego before the flood.

Jill lets him slip free, pausing just long enough to lock eyes again. “Truthfully…yes, I would like him in my mouth again,” she says, her voice a blade, “But, I also want yours. I want you to know what you do to me when you make me admit all the things I’ve done.” Then she devours him, deep and unforgiving, until he’s right there—right on the edge of obliteration.

When he comes, it’s with a violence that surprises them both. She swallows it all, every bitter drop, and sits back on her heels, licking her lips clean. For a moment they are both silent, spent, tethered together by the barest thread of what they used to be.

Jill wipes her mouth with the back of her hand, then looks at David, her eyes glassy but defiant. “That’s what happened,” she says. “That’s everything.”

David just nods. There’s nothing left to say.

The sex life between David and Jill didn’t so much improve as detonate in the weeks that followed. Jill’s cheeks seemed to glow with residual heat, her energy sharpened and refocused, and each night after the children were asleep, the two of them found new reason to collide. Sometimes Jill would begin by straddling him and recounting exactly what happened with Jack, this time emphasizing a detail she’d left out before, or adding a new twist to the narrative that set David’s imagination aflame. She built anticipation like a master, breaking off the story at a cliffhanger, or using her mouth to illustrate a point the story left vague. Their habits changed. David, who once begged off after a long day, now found himself hungry, almost desperate, for her, and she for him, as though something essential in their biology had been awakened and now could not rest. They talked about it constantly. Sometimes, in the glow after, Jill would ask him what he thought Jack looked like naked, or whether he believed she’d been telling the whole truth about how many times it happened. She had a way of rolling over, chin propped on her palm, and prodding him with questions, some of which were impossible to answer and all of which seemed to turn her on.



But at some point, the stories began to repeat. They found themselves hungry for another encounter, and Jill would joke about it, asking if he was bored of her already. David protested, of course, but it was clear she wanted the question asked, and even more clear that she wanted him to propose the next experiment. For days, they played the game of hypotheticals: who would it be, when, how. Sometimes, after a glass of wine, Jill would even ask if he’d considered anyone at the office, and David would admit to the occasional crush, which would lead to a night of frantic, wordless sex that left them both bruised and elated.



But with who?



This became the fire around which their marriage now circled.



They made a game of vetting candidates, drawing up elaborate, tongue-in-cheek lists and rating them under categories like “plausible deniability,” “risk to reputation,” and “wow factor.” It was a kind of intellectual sport, pursued over beers on the patio or while folding laundry, half-joking but never quite joking enough to forget the stakes. Forensic attention was paid to the boundaries between fantasy and the small, electric possibility of the real. They agreed, at some point, to rule out anyone within the school system; nothing could be allowed to ricochet back to the kids. Jill’s yoga instructor was an early front-runner, but there was a scheduling snag and the added complication of a pending divorce. David proposed a massage therapist, someone who’d been recommended in a whispery tone at a faculty party, but Jill laughed and pointed out that most male masseuses in their town were more likely to cultivate beards and talk about spirit animals than offer the kind of rough handling she craved.



“Besides,” she said, “if we’re going to do this, I want someone we can actually talk to afterward.”



That eliminated another swath of the population. They went through a phase of “what if we found a stranger online?” but both were too cowardly, or too practical, to take even the first step. In bed, the scenarios ran the gamut from the barista with the meaningful tattoo to her old college roommate who now lived three towns over and posted suggestive photos with alarming frequency. Sometimes the exercise led to sex, sometimes laughter, sometimes—rarely—an argument. But it always led somewhere.



It was in the spirit of this ongoing project that, one Tuesday morning, David stood at the kitchen window and watched Tyler, the neighbor kid, mow the grass in the back lot next door. Tyler had been their go-to for yard work, odd jobs, even brief stints of babysitting, for four or five years now. He was the son of the couple two doors down, a known quantity: polite, sturdy, always on time. Over the years, David had watched him grow from bashful freshman to broad-shouldered college-bound senior, his face losing the last traces of childhood every summer. Jill sometimes called him “our other kid,” a joke that had become less funny after their oldest, Grace, left for college.



David’s first impulse was to feel parental, to frame Tyler in the safe, neutral light of neighborliness. But that morning, as Tyler peeled off his sweat-darkened t-shirt and wiped his forehead with it, David found his mind wandering in a way that startled him. It wasn’t lust, not exactly. It was curiosity, a professional detachment, like a zoologist observing an emerging specimen. He wondered if Jill had ever noticed Tyler’s transformation, and if so, whether she’d filed it away as he had: a trivial footnote, the way one might notice a new make of car or a particularly symmetrical stack of apples at the grocery store.



But the thought stuck. For the rest of the morning, David found himself catching glimpses of Tyler out the window—pushing the mower, collecting clippings, bending to tie a broken shoelace—and each time, the image acquired a new, illicit charge. He tried to reconstruct the ethical firewall: Tyler was barely nineteen, freshly graduated, headed to the state school in the fall. Jill was, by any account, absurdly out of his league. There was no reason to entertain the possibility, and every reason not to.



Still, when Jill came home from her run and caught David still at the window, he couldn’t help himself.



“Tyler’s putting in the hours today,” she said, grabbing a bottle from the fridge and pouring half the contents down her throat.



“He’s saving for college,” David replied. “The usual hustle.”



Jill leaned over his shoulder, catching sight of Tyler as he powered the mower along the fence line, bare skin gleaming. “He’s gotten…big.”



David shrugged, trying for nonchalance. “Yeah, I guess. It’s weird, watching him grow up.”



She gave a little laugh. “Sometimes I forget we’re old enough to be nostalgic about that.”



The conversation drifted, but the thought did not. That night, after the kids were in bed and they’d finished their customary late show, Jill crawled into his lap and started the familiar game. She asked who he’d been thinking about. David almost said “nobody,” but the truth was sitting so close to the surface that it emerged before he could stop it.



“Tyler,” he said, and waited for the reaction.



Jill went still for a moment—just a beat, enough for him to brace for the laugh, the no, the are you insane?—but instead she tilted her head and said, “Really?”



David nodded. “He’s…you know. He’s legal. He’s mature for his age. Just a thought experiment.”



“I’ve never thought of him that way,” Jill said, but her voice was quieter than usual, more inward. “Wouldn’t it be, I don’t know, weird? He’s practically family.”



“We could set rules,” David said. “Keep it professional. Just—see how it feels to even talk about it.”



They spent most of that night in an earnest, circular debate, dissecting every angle, every possible consequence. They agreed it was a bad idea, then agreed again that bad ideas were often the most fun. They established imaginary boundaries—no emotional entanglement, no crossing over into the personal, no possibility of it being more than a one-time thing. Jill suggested that if they ever did it, it had to be in a hotel room, far from the neighborhood. David agreed, but added that they’d have to find a way to make it Tyler’s idea, somehow, so no one could accuse them of grooming or coercion.



For nearly a week, they let the subject lie dormant, as if by mutual, unspoken agreement. The unthinkable had been voiced, laughed off, and ceremonially exiled to the same vault as all their other forbidden hypotheticals—safely locked, a fantasy. They returned to the routines of their lives, shopping for groceries, attending PTA meetings, debating takeout options, and making the necessary arrangements for the kids’ summer camps. David, for his part, found the Tyler conversation both ridiculous and exhilarating in retrospect, but also impossible to erase. At first, he expected it would fade. Instead, it began to operate as a silent current beneath his interactions with Jill. He noticed the way she watched him watching her, the extra beat of silence when the neighbor’s mower started up, the way he could feel her thinking about it even when she was across the room. It was less an idea now than a private weather system, a disc of low pressure hovering over their marriage.



Jill, for her part, found herself experiencing a kind of double vision. She would drive the kids to swim practice or prepare sandwiches for lunch, and yet somewhere in the back of her mind she’d be running through permutations of the Tyler scenario. It wasn’t that she was attracted to him, not in any real or dangerous sense. He was a kid. He had grown up in their neighborhood, played with their daughter, once spilled a can of orange soda on their bathroom rug and left it, sticky and reeking, until she found it days later. But he was also not a kid. His voice had dropped, his posture straightened, the muscle in his arms and shoulders now well-defined by years of manual labor. He was a grown man, technically, and she realized that, over the course of his adolescence, she had never once recalibrated how she looked at him. David’s confession had done that for her, and now she found herself newly attuned to all the ways Tyler moved through their world, all the subtle ways his presence had changed.



None of this was conscious, precisely. When the text arrived that Tyler would be coming by to collect payment for the lawn, Jill was genuinely surprised by her own immediate, involuntary excitement. She spent an extra minute in front of the mirror before he arrived, checking for stains on her shirt and then, absurdly, for any sign of crow’s feet. She debated putting on lipstick, decided it was ridiculous, and then did it anyway—just a touch, just enough to be plausible as everyday wear. She poured two glasses of lemonade, one for him, one for herself, and set them on the counter like a mother welcoming her child home from school, which, in some sense, she was.



He arrived on time, as always, hair damp from the shower and t-shirt clinging to his upper body in a way that suggested he’d only just toweled off and thrown it on. He was carrying a battered backpack slung over one shoulder and a manila envelope, presumably with his invoice or some other piece of collegiate bureaucratic debris.



“Hi, Mrs Stone,” he said, smiling sheepishly. His face, so familiar, had a post-high-school confidence that was still settling into place. “Got your text.”



“Hi Tyler,” she replied, matching his smile. “Come in, please. It’s hotter than hell out there. Want something to drink?”



He hesitated, then nodded. “Sure, thanks.”



She handed him the sweating glass of lemonade and gestured toward the kitchen table. He sat, cradling the glass in two hands, like it might shatter if handled carelessly. She sat across from him, noting the lines of sunburn peeking out from his sleeves, the band of pale skin where his watch must have been, and the stubble that had begun to darken his jawline—another sign of adulthood, or at least its dress rehearsal.



“So, you’re off to college soon,” Jill said, folding her hands in her lap. “Excited?”



He smiled again, this time less forced. “Yeah, I can’t wait. Nervous though. Never really left home before.”



“I remember that feeling,” Jill said, and it was true. Her own first semester away had been a mixture of terror and exhilaration, a memory she’d not revisited in years. “What are you thinking of majoring in?”



Tyler took a careful sip of his lemonade, then set the glass down and hunched forward, elbows on knees. “Photojournalism, or maybe just photography. There’s so much you can do with it now, with all the AI stuff, but I want to learn the real thing before it becomes obsolete.”



“That’s ambitious,” Jill said, tilting her head. “You’ve always been into that?”



He nodded. “Always liked taking pictures. I got a camera for Christmas last year. Been trying to teach myself. Mostly I end up taking pictures of my dog or my little brother, but it’s something, you know?”



She smiled at the thought of Tyler, the same kid who once broke their screen door with a soccer ball, now spending hours crouched in the grass, angling for the perfect shot of a dandelion or a sleeping pet. She wondered if David had remembered that detail when he’d said Tyler’s name.



“Do you have a portfolio yet?” she asked, genuinely curious.



He reached into his backpack, fingers fumbling for a moment before producing a battered, spiral-bound sketchbook, the kind you could buy at Target for five dollars. He handed it across the table, and she took it, careful not to smudge the glossy prints taped inside.



They were good. Not professional, maybe, but there was an eye for composition and timing that caught her off guard. Black-and-white portraits of kids on bikes, a close-up of rusted playground equipment, a series of candids at what must have been a family reunion. A few pages in, she found a photo she recognized instantly: her own house, taken from the far end of the street, the maple in full autumn blaze, a rainbow-colored blow-up dragon leftover from some forgotten birthday visible in one corner. She remembered the day, the way the kids had screamed when the wind picked up and threatened to carry the dragon away.



“These are really good,” she said, meaning it. “You have a real talent.”



Tyler ducked his head, bashful but pleased. “Thanks. I don’t know if I could ever make a living at it. My parents think I should go into computer science, something with more jobs.”



Jill closed the portfolio and handed it back, deliberately brushing her fingers against his. “That’s what college is for. To figure out what you’re actually good at, not what your parents want.”



He smiled, a little crookedly. “What did you major in?”



“Chemistry,” she said, and laughed at the absurdity of it. “But I only lasted two years before I switched to teaching. I was terrible at math, but I loved blowing things up in lab.”



He laughed, and she was struck again by the fact that, despite his size and the new gravity of his features, he was still so young. Not a child, but not exactly a peer, either. The dynamic was unsettling, but not unpleasant.



They talked for a while about college, about the town he’d be moving to, about the impossibility of finding a decent apartment on a student budget. It was easy, almost too easy, to fall into a rhythm of conversation, the boundaries of adult and child shifting minute by minute as the lemonade pitcher emptied. Jill realized, about half an hour in, that she was flirting with him—not recklessly, not in a way that would alarm anyone watching, but unmistakably. There were touches to his arm, laughter a shade too loud, stories she shared about her own youth that she might otherwise have withheld. And Tyler, for his part, was equally game. He held eye contact, returned her jokes, picked up on her cues, and once or twice let his gaze linger a second too long on the neckline of her shirt when he thought she wasn’t looking.



The entire interaction felt like walking along the edge of a rooftop, thrilling and dangerous, but never quite in danger of tipping over. When she handed him the check, she noticed his hand shake, just slightly, as he took it. She wondered, briefly, if the thought experiment she and David had entertained was not so far-fetched after all.



As Tyler stood to leave, he hesitated at the door. “Hey, Mrs. Stone? If you ever need someone to take pictures, for, like, family events or whatever, just let me know. I’ll give you the neighbor discount.”



She smiled, biting the inside of her cheek to keep from laughing. “I’ll keep that in mind. And it’s Jill, by the way. You’re not a kid anymore.”



He smiled, nodded, and let himself out.



After the door closed, Jill stood at the sink, replaying the conversation in her head. She wasn’t sure if she should feel guilty, or proud, or both. She’d tested the waters, and found them warmer than expected.



That night, when David came home from work, she poured him a drink and told him everything. Not every detail, but enough to see his interest sharpen, his posture shift from casual to attentive.



“How did it feel?” he asked, voice pitched low.



“Exhilarating,” she said, truthfully. “But also…strange. Like being a teenager again. Like having a secret.”



David grinned, slow and feral. “Did you want to kiss



Jill laughed, the sound a little too bright, echoing between them on the kitchen tile. "Ha," she said, the syllable crisp and dismissive, but her eyes—wider, dilated now, her pupils dark coins—lingered on his face, inviting him to keep the game alive. She set her empty glass on the counter with a deliberate clink. "Not exactly. But there is something there that I can't deny," she admitted, her voice lowering as if the walls might be listening. "Something forbidden, something you only see out of the corner of your eye. Maybe that's why it's exciting—it's like a dare you don't know if you actually want to take."



David arched an eyebrow, but didn't smile. He was watching her closely, she realized, weighing her words as if they were dangerous objects. Jill felt her skin warm under the scrutiny, and she wondered if this was what Tyler had felt, sitting in their kitchen, caught in the gravitational pull between adulthood and whatever came after. She stretched her neck until it clicked, then folded her arms loosely, suddenly self-conscious about the neckline of her shirt, the way her collarbone cast a small shadow in the overhead light.



"Why?" she asked, feigning indifference, but unable to suppress the nervous energy vibrating in her chest. "Do you think I should?" She let the question hang, ambiguous; should she what? Push further, test boundaries, break a rule just to see if the world would end? "Should I set up a photo session for him? Really give him a lesson?"



The way she said "lesson" made David's mouth quirk at the corner, but he didn't laugh. Instead, he stepped closer, the air between them suddenly charged with all the things they weren't supposed to say.



"I think," David said, "that you're enjoying this more than you want to admit."



Jill shrugged, feigning nonchalance, but her face was hot. "I think you are too," she countered, and the game was real now, the escalation both of them too invested to call off.



They stood like that, for a long moment, neither breaking eye contact, until the sound of the dishwasher's rinse cycle snapped the spell. The energy in the room shifted, the unspoken possibilities fanning out like the branches of a river delta. Jill felt the brash impulse to text Tyler right then, to say yes, let's do a session, let's see what happens when you bring your camera and your new, grown-up self into my house again. But she didn't. Not yet.



Instead, she let the silence settle, let the tension braid itself into something denser, more substantial. She turned away, busying herself with the clutter on the counter, but David's presence behind her was as steady and certain as gravity. She could feel his gaze tracing her movements, reading her body language the way he used to when they had first met, before children and mortgages and years of practiced civility had muffled their instincts.



For a moment, Jill allowed herself to imagine the next steps: a staged photo shoot, an exchange of glances more charged than before, the possibility of a line being crossed and what it might mean—for her, for Tyler, for the marriage that had already become an elaborate exercise in controlled trespass. She didn't know if she wanted it, but she knew she wanted to think about it, to let the fantasy run its course.



In the quiet that followed, Jill felt a strange sense of power, as if she had briefly become the protagonist of her own life again, the main character instead of the supporting cast. She wondered if this was what David had intended by telling her in the first place, by dropping the secret into their lives like a stone into a pond, watching the ripples spread outward in ever-widening circles.



She wondered if it had worked.



The next morning, Jill woke with her husband's arm draped over her waist, as heavy and inert as a stray branch. She wormed out from under him with the practiced grace of long habit and padded to the bathroom, twisting the shower knob until the water scalded her skin. As the glass fogged and steam rose, she tried to let her mind go blank, but instead all the events of the previous day came flooding back—Tyler's uneasy smile, his hands trembling when he took the check, the way he'd looked at her when he thought she wasn't looking. The memory replayed in her mind over and over, the details sharpening in the clarity of morning.



She stood under the spray, letting it needle her shoulders, and thought about Tyler's portfolio—the pictures of small sweetnesses, the black-and-white portraits, the shot of her own house that seemed so heartbreakingly candid. It would be easy, she realized, to ask him to take more. She could text him an invitation for a photo session, make it sound like the most innocent thing in the world. A gift for her husband, perhaps, something sentimental for their anniversary. The lie would come as naturally as breathing; she could already hear herself composing the message, tweaking each word until it hovered perfectly between suggestion and pretext.



She lathered her hair, but her thoughts kept circling the same point: Would she actually go through with it? Would she stand in front of Tyler's lens, a willing subject, a knowing conspirator in the game they'd started together? The idea made her skin prickle, and she imagined the session in steadily more lurid detail—first in the living room, then in the sunlit kitchen, both of them making small talk as she posed, at first demure, then maybe a little more daring. What if she wore something she wouldn't normally wear? What if she let herself cross a line, just to see what would happen? He was so young, but also not—his gaze yesterday had proven that much. He'd learned to look at women, even if he hadn't learned to hide it.



Jill rinsed the lather from her scalp and pressed her forehead to the cool tile. Her mind conjured a dozen possible futures, each more dangerous than the last: Tyler snapping candids as she pretended not to notice, her own laughter echoing off the walls, the charged silence when he asked her to turn just so. She'd seen the way he hid his eyes when he got nervous, the subtle twitch in his jaw as he tried to hold her gaze. Would he flinch if she posed for him? Would he blush, or would he rise to the moment and meet her challenge head-on? The thought sent a shiver down her back, and she found herself cupping her breasts, thumbs brushing over nipples made sensitive by heat and forbidden anticipation.



She wondered what David would say if he knew how far her imagination had already traveled. Whether he'd be angry, or aroused, or both. The idea of confessing it to him later, over drinks or in bed—of letting him in on her secret—was almost as thrilling as the fantasy itself. Maybe that was the real allure, she realized: not the act, but the anticipation, the slow burn of possibility.



She let her hand drift lower, her body responding in ways she hadn't expected or intended. She pictured Tyler again, camera raised, the infinite patience of the observer. Would her nervousness show through in the images? Would he notice the way her mouth parted, the flush creeping up her neck, the subtle tension in her thighs as she shifted her weight from foot to foot? Would he capture all of it, or would he only see what she allowed him to see?



Jill bit her lip and let herself imagine it fully, the moment suspended in air, a secret just for them. She moaned softly, half in pleasure and half in disbelief at herself, then forced her thoughts to stop, to recede, to let her regain control before she was too far gone. The sound of the water filled her ears, a white noise steady enough to drown out anything else, at least for now.



She turned off the shower, stepped into the cloud of steam, and wrapped herself in a towel. The mirror was fogged over, but she could just make out the shape of her face, flushed and bright-eyed, a stranger and not a stranger. She dried herself briskly, then dressed in the first clothes she found, trying to anchor herself back in the routines of the day.



But as she poured coffee and started breakfast for the kids, she kept glancing at her phone, the idea of texting Tyler a persistent itch she couldn't quite scratch. She knew she would do it eventually—it was only a matter of time. The only question was, how far would she let it go?



She carried the question with her all morning, through the dull errands and the casual conversations at the school drop-off line. It stayed with her as she loaded the dishwasher, as she fielded a call from her mother about weekend plans, as she tried and failed to focus on the book she'd been reading for weeks. It was there in the background, humming with electricity, a promise she hadn't yet made but already intended to keep.



By noon, she had decided. She would text Tyler, just a simple invitation, nothing overt—unless he wanted it to be. She rehearsed the words in her head, finessing the balance between innocent neighbor and something more. She might even tell David about it, just to see the look in his eyes, to watch him wonder how much of it was real and how much was just another layer of their ongoing dare.



It was almost enough to make her feel young again, the way she used to before everything settled into predictability. She liked the feeling. She wanted more of it.



So when she finally sat down at the kitchen table, phone in hand, she didn't hesitate.



She hovered over the contact, thumb poised, a bead of sweat slicking the glass where her fingerprint hovered. Her heart beat a little too quickly for something as trivial as a text—it was just a neighbor, just a favor, just a little game. Yet she found herself frozen, the cursor blinking at the edge of her thoughts. Whatever she sent would be on record, a digital artifact—flimsy, but undeniable, subject to interpretation and retrieval. But the anticipation was part of the thrill, wasn’t it? She wanted Tyler to read between the lines, wanted to see if he’d pick up what she was so carefully not spelling out.



She started with Hi Tyler, then deleted it. Too casual. She tried Hello, then erased that too; it sounded like she was scolding a dog. She typed "This is Jill," then added a smiley and deleted it again. Was that too obvious? Or not obvious enough? Maybe she should be direct, or maybe she should play coy—it depended on the effect she wanted, and she didn’t quite know, herself, until she saw the words in front of her.



What ultimately appeared on the glowing screen was something measured, a little formal, but just skewed enough to keep things off-balance: “Hey Tyler, This is Jill. About that photo offer. Would love to create a gift for my husband. Can we schedule a date?”



She read it over, imagined how it would sound in his head—her voice, but slyer, more knowing. She pictured him reading it, pictured the flicker of surprise that would turn into recognition, then maybe calculation. She wondered if he’d show it to anyone. She wondered if he’d show it to David. The circularity of it made her dizzy, but she let the message hang there, her thumb hovering over Send.



For a long moment, she considered not sending it at all. She could still back out, could delete the whole draft and return to the safe, shallow current of her usual life. But that wasn’t really an option, not anymore. She’d already drifted too far.



She pressed Send.



The reply came almost instantly.



There was almost no pause between her sending the message and the reply that shot back—barely time for her breath to even out, barely time to reconsider the wisdom of her own impulsiveness. “Sure thing Jill. Would be very happy to help.” The words appeared on her screen crisply, unadorned by emoji or excess punctuation, the plainness of them somehow amplifying their intimacy. She read it three times, then a fourth, as though expecting the tone to shift, or more to unfurl in a second text; but that was all there was.



She imagined Tyler, wherever he was—in a classroom, maybe, or at his apartment, or hunched over a table in the campus coffee shop—seeing her message and responding without hesitation, as though he had been waiting for it. Maybe he had. She pictured him telling a friend, a roommate, maybe even a girlfriend she didn’t know about, “You’ll never guess who just texted me.” Or maybe he’d keep it to himself, savoring the secret the way she did. The thought made her flush, a ache blooming in her chest that she couldn’t quite name, but that left her feeling almost buoyant.



She started to type a reply—“When works for you?”—but deleted it. She didn’t want to seem overeager, didn’t want to surrender the upper hand so soon. Instead she put the phone facedown on the countertop, as if that could shield her from the knowledge that something irreversible had just happened.



She spent the rest of the afternoon in a kind of electric suspension, every ordinary task charged with the knowledge of what was coming. She made lunch for her younger child, folded laundry, fielded another call from her mother, all the while playing out the coming encounter in her head. Would it be at her house, or his? Would she wear something deliberately appropriate, or deliberately inappropriate? Would she tell David after, or before, or not at all? She realized, with some surprise, that she was counting on the session being more than what she’d pretended to request—that she was already drafting the script for a very different kind of photo shoot, one that had little to do with gifts or anniversaries.



By the time her phone buzzed again, she nearly fumbled it in her eagerness to see the message.



“Would next Saturday work? I have a couple lawns to take care of in the morning, but by the afternoon I can be cleaned up and over there with some equipment.”



The text made Jill’s breath catch with a jolt of adolescent anticipation, as if she’d just been asked to sneak out after curfew. The innocence of Tyler’s message—no winks, no coyness, just a straightforward plan—had the opposite of a cooling effect. “Some equipment.” What did he mean, exactly? She let her mind linger on the phrase, imagining not just the camera but whatever else a nineteen-year-old thought necessary for a “session.” She pictured him carrying a battered backpack, maybe even a tripod, or a duffel bag with cords and chargers and mysterious attachments. Or maybe that wasn’t what he meant at all; maybe it was a ruse to set her on edge, to see if she’d rise to the implication. Were boys his age even capable of such slyness, or was that just her own projection—her own wishful, insatiable reading into every word and punctuation mark?



She covered her mouth with her hand, partly to stifle a laugh, partly because she needed to physically contain the giddiness that threatened to spill over. For a moment she debated whether she should show the text to David right away, just to let the fizz of it escape into the open air, or whether she should keep it to herself, let it build up like static until she felt safe discharging it. Wasn’t that the fun of it, after all? Not the act, but the hoarding of possibility, the slow climb up the rollercoaster before the inevitable drop.



She could already feel the tectonic shift in her body—her heart thudding just a little too loud, the way her cheeks colored even though she was alone in the kitchen, the way her knees touched under the table as if they were trying to steady her. For a woman who prided herself on her composure, on her ability to manage all contingencies, this was both a mortification and a delight. She closed her eyes for a second and saw herself as Tyler might: not as a neighbor or a mother, not even as an authority figure, but as a subject, someone worth framing and capturing on film. That was the secret engine of the whole thing, she realized—the notion that somebody might see her as something other than what she’d become, or, more accurately, as the fuller version of who she still was, under everything.



She tapped back a reply with a kind of theatrical decorum: “That sounds great. One thing, this is a surprise for my husband, so please don’t mention it to anyone. It will be our secret.” There it was, out in the open: the shared secrecy, the implied trust, the confirmation that this was not business as usual. She reread her message for hidden meanings, for subtext she might later deny having intended, but she noticed that her hands shook just a bit. She pressed Send before she could overthink it.



The euphoria was immediate, a serotonin surge that made her want to run laps outside, or maybe just pace circles in the tight little kitchen, taking bites of cold toast with every revolution. She poured herself another mug of coffee, but the taste was sharp and metallic on her tongue. She was suddenly and acutely aware of her own body in space: the way the waistband of her jeans cut into her, the way her shirt clung to her damp skin, the faint quiver between her legs that seemed to have nothing to do with sex and everything to do with the thrill of near-miss danger. She wanted to tell someone, needed to tell someone, but she wasn’t ready to break the spell just yet.



Instead she set the phone down and walked to the window, looking out over the subdivision’s endless grid of roofs and driveways. It seemed ridiculous, impossible, that anything illicit could happen in such a careful world, where everything was always scheduled, accounted for, run past the proper committees. And yet, here she was, plotting a secret with a boy who mowed lawns for pocket money and took college classes online, a boy who hardly knew her and yet had already occupied more of her mind than any grown man she’d met in years.



Her phone buzzed again. “Understood ” Tyler had added a smiley this time, a tiny break in his stoic tone. The sight of it made her chest tighten with something perilously close to longing. She typed back, more quickly now: “You don’t need to bring anything too fancy. Just whatever you’re comfortable with.” She debated adding an extra sentence—“I’m not a model, so you might have to coach me”—but left it unsaid, letting the possibility dangle instead.



She spent the next thirty minutes rehearsing how she’d tell David. She imagined blurting it out over dinner: “Guess who’s coming over to take pictures of me?” Or maybe she’d wait until they were in bed, until the lights were off and their feet tangled under the sheets, and she’d let it slip as if it were only a passing thought. She pictured his face, gauging whether he’d be amused or unsettled. Maybe both. She was torn between wanting to play it as a harmless prank—Look, aren’t I so spontaneous, aren’t I still full of surprises?—and wanting him to sense the real undercurrent, the one she herself hadn’t quite named yet.



She could sense, in the way her thoughts circled and recircled, that the whole thing was less about Tyler than it was about herself, or about the marriage, or about some part of her that had gone dormant and was now waking up, blinking in the sudden light. She didn’t know where the line was between honesty and performance anymore, but she suspected it didn’t really matter.



By the time the kids got home from school, she was already planning what she’d wear for the shoot. She told herself it would be something demure, maybe even frumpy, to keep things safely in the realm of “gift for my husband.” But in the back of her mind she could feel the gravitational pull of a different wardrobe, something reckless or revealing, something that would startle even herself. She thought about texting Tyler again to clarify—“Just to be clear, nothing racy, okay?”—but she knew that would only draw more attention to what she was trying to deny.



At dinner she was attentive to her children, asking about their day, helping with homework, setting the table with a care that bordered on compulsive. But all the while, she was acutely aware of the phone in her pocket, the date now inked into her calendar, the secret that sat coiled in the space between her ribs.



She washed dishes with deliberate slowness, prolonging the last quiet moment before David came home. She imagined his car pulling into the driveway, the sound of his key in the lock, the way his whole face would brighten when he saw her. They were good together—solid, unbreakable, or so everyone said. But she found herself wanting, for the first time in years, to shock him a little. To show him a version of herself that didn’t just play by the rules, that was still capable of upending the ordinary.



She dried her hands, checked her reflection in the kitchen window, and waited for the familiar jangle of keys that would signal his return. The secret inside her burned, not with guilt, but with something sharper and sweeter, something she hadn’t tasted in a long, long time.



She did know one thing for certain: this was not going to be a surprise to David, other than when she told him about it tonight.

Ready for Saturday!

Ha, working on it.

Ha, working on it.

Amazing story

Rogermaris wrote: ↑

Wed Nov 26, 2025 7:49 am

Amazing story

Thank you very much! Would love to get the opinion of any females on here.

Great tale. Can’t wait to hear more.

Loving this. Very well written and I especially like stories where we get to know the characters.
Looking forward to reading more.