I need to write and hopefully get people to respond. Long Sorry.

[aguy4pleasure]

SuitterKane, while I share you concern about Carrie's fetish for Air Play, saying she is addicted to the dopamine rush is at best overstating the biochemistry and at worst stigmatizing not only Carrie but many others here who enjoy high risk behaviors. I would suggest her choices as well as yours or mine arise from a much broader foundation than the reinforcement dopamine provides.

Having said that, yes, Carrie, your desires scare me. I think they scare others here. If I had the controls of your life, I would probably be squeezing the brake very very hard. I, however, nor anyone else here has that power. It only belongs to you. I'm pleased you appear to understand the real dangers involved. I'm also comforted by the reservations you tell us you've shared with Anthony and Anthony's reported desire to inform himself and demonstrate some "skill" at knowing how and when to pull back.

Would I still squeeze the brake?

Probably.

Is it my brake to squeeze?

Definitely not!

My real prayer for you is that you and Anthony continue to demonstrate real care as you engage in this very scary looking behavior.

aguy4pleasure

[aguy4pleasure]

And, Carrie, as far as being a "Whiney Little Bitch," where else can you speak openly and get open and supportive feedback. I'm with sadie. I'm glad you have this place. I'm glad you share so openly. I don't see it as "whiney." I see it as smart and courageous.

aguy4pleasure

[DbdChap]

Hey Carrie, it’s so nice to hear you sounding much more positive and upbeat. Sounds like you have lots to look forward to . Will you meet with Anthony while Mike is home over Christmas, or are you going to dedicate your time to reconnecting with your loving husband? I’m sure he can’t wait to be back with you!! Keep smiling

[rascalnvixen]

Whiney?? Ah, NO!!!! How many times have we in this OHW group said that honesty and openness is primary for a good relationship???? Well, I think the relationship we, your fans and readers, have with you, is in fact a relationship that also requires openness and honesty as well!!!! You should express your thoughts and feelings as much as we should. It is how we all keep perspective in the relationships we all have. So, I would encourage you to continue to be open in your comments here, I mean its not like we are physical neighbors or anything like that where we actually know each other, so speak freely!!!!

As for the guy that called you about a date, I would not take that as being weird or anything. You have to understand that many, many men have been watching you for years, just wishing for a chance to be able to ask you out and yes, to try to have sex with you. That goes on EVERY DAY!!! Every time you walk into your office building some guy is looking at your fantastic body and wishing he could fuck you! Evidently the word is getting around that you are living alone now. So, maybe you should consider some of the offers you will undoubtedly be getting to have some HW sex with someone different for a change. If you're not open to other guys, then I think what you are living is hubby in another state and you have a regular boyfriend to have sex with locally. Not saying you should or should not take him up on his offer but I thought you mentioned that you might be open to dating other men when Mike moved out to Cali and before you got back with Anthony.

You want to know what would really turn me on??????? I'm waiting to hear about you and Kelly getting together for some girl/girl evening out followed by a wonderful night of exciting new sex!!! I've been hoping to read about that connection ever since she was first mentioned and that you two seemed to find it easy to talk to each other.

Ok, I'm done, got to get to work!!!

Rascal

[Jcksatter]

Carrie,
While Mike is back, please work on your marriage, and also try to plan a trip for you to visit him in California, if only a few days with what you can do with your work place.

As far as a get together with Anthony, play it by ear I guess while Mike is back.

There are lots of couples that have to live apart for some time because of there jobs. I think of the Military folks husband and wives are apart for a year at a time for deployment. Many others that are gone for long times, on projects. I see them where I work, though I go home every night. Some of these guys are working 7 days a week for month’s while living out of motel.

So that being said it would be nice if after the Holidays that you guys are no longer separated, but now you can say when asked “Mike is working in California for awhile, and one of us travel to visit each other every so often”

And hopefully you could work out some kind of time frame when them visits happen.

Best regards

Jack

[TheHammer]

Are you wearing a butt plug to prepare yourself for anal with Anthony? Maybe buy some anal beads and hand them to Anthony to use on you next time you see him.

When are you getting the tattoo?

[willingtoo]

I will try very hard to respond to the posts from you guys this morning. There is a lot to reply to. You've said a lot of good things.

I think Sutter and Sam are right on the money. I do get a rush from reading how much you get turned on by my posts.

I guess you'd have to be a submissive female like me to totally understand. I actually get a bit excited when I know I am pleasing a man even if it's anonymous like you guys. It doesn't have to be only the men I am sexually serving directly. I've discovered that here.

I am deeper into my sexual self than ever! I have learned things about myself that I didn't realize before. I'm learning what my true sexual self is.

You are men and have no way of understanding why you affect me that way. I've always been a man pleaser. I can't explain why, I just am. This experience has just intensified my desire to please.

But certainly you know how it feels when you know you have given sexual pleasure to woman. Amazing that you could give even a little of that to a woman like me. I know I can please you guys by writing what happens in much more graphic detail than I would for my diary.

knowing that my writing excites and motivates me to make it as real as I can. You are actually turning me on. Not nearly like the real thing but aroused for sure.

It is like a drug. This has been very enlightening to say the least.

Carrie

[willingtoo]

Are you wearing a butt plug to prepare yourself for anal with Anthony? Maybe buy some anal beads and hand them to Anthony to use on you next time you see him.

When are you getting the tattoo?

Yes, I am getting myself ready for Anal. I know Anthony will force it on me at some point soon. I want it to be good for both of us and not too painful for me. He is so Big it's scary. The Plugs are helping, yes.

Tatoo today after work.

Carrie

[rickh57]

Tatoo today after work.

I'm surprised that Anthony isn't going with you when you get your tattoo, Carrie

[willingtoo]

Tatoo today after work.

I'm surprised that Anthony isn't going with you when you get your tattoo, Carrie

He'll be there!

[rickh57]

He'll be there!

That's good. You mentioned Anthony wanting you on Saturday, but I guess I misunderstood about the tattoo.

[subtoall]

Nothing would turn me on more than knowing that Mike's visit home went a long way towards healing the wounds and bridging eliminating the rift between you.

Yeah, I know that's not what you're asking for with that question...but that doesn't mean I don't want it for you both.

Stories of a big scary man consuming a helpless, innocent little girl, stretching her boundaries, teaching her how to trust him to see into the abyss...that definitely turns me on!

[conflictedhubby]

Anyone else think Anthony couldn't resist taking her once the tattoo was on?

[rickh57]

Anyone else think Anthony couldn't resist taking her once the tattoo was on?

I had the same thought!

[ResponsibullCummings]

Eagerly awaiting the update too. I had an interesting thought. When you met Aaron he wanted to control you too. For him he bought his money was the way to do it. He tried doing some of the same things you are now willing to let Anthony have but he didn't take the time and effort to determine what really motivated you. He was pretty stupid especially since you tried to refuse his money. Anthony heard what Aaron did that drove you away and then asked you the right questions to figure out what you wanted. He listened and when the chance came he gave you exactly what you want and as a result you will do pretty much anything he asks to please him. He has all the control that Aaron wanted because he figured out what he needed to do to get it. Bravo to Anthony. I think there might be a lesson there for the rest of us.

[DbdChap]

Nothing would turn me on more than knowing that Mike's visit home went a long way towards healing the wounds and bridging eliminating the rift between you.

Yeah, I know that's not what you're asking for with that question...but that doesn't mean I don't want it for you both.

Stories of a big scary man consuming a helpless, innocent little girl, stretching her boundaries, teaching her how to trust him to see into the abyss...that definitely turns me on!

Perfectly put, many of agree I’m sure

[samlowen]

Nothing would turn me on more than knowing that Mike's visit home went a long way towards healing the wounds and bridging eliminating the rift between you.

Yeah, I know that's not what you're asking for with that question...but that doesn't mean I don't want it for you both.

Stories of a big scary man consuming a helpless, innocent little girl, stretching her boundaries, teaching her how to trust him to see into the abyss...that definitely turns me on!

Perfectly put, many of agree I’m sure

I agree.

[willingtoo]

Hey Guys,

I met Anthony at the Tatoo Parlor or whatever it's called. He picked out the Shamrock design and I liked it too. A very dainty, colorful little tatoo perfectly placed on my inside heel. It hurt a little. More like a sting. But I love it and so does he.

You're prediction was correct. He wanted to take me back to my place (It is closer to where we were. Honestly I didn't expect it. Guess I'm still pretty Naïve. I couldn't say anything but "Sure" I'm incapable of saying no to Anthony. The Tatoo is appropriate because right now I am his and can't say no to him. He makes me nervous and I'm always aroused when I'm near him. He knows it. It's so obvious.

We got back to my place in separate cars and went straight into the bedroom. I just timidly followed him like a Lamb going to be Slaughtered.

It wasn't a long session, but it was very intense. I think he just wanted to get off and wasn't much into frightening me. It was all about his pleasure, not the excitement of my Erotic Fear.

He ordered me to strip. He took his clothes off after he watched me strip. He told me to sit on the edge of the bed, lay back and lift my legs so he could my feet in his hands. He first looked at the tatoo and said, "Now you're mine" I shivered at that statement. It seemed real, like I really was branded and owned.

He made love to my feet as usual and saying how beautiful and sexy they are. I was getting very wet and very aroused. He adores my feet as much as Mike or more.

I could see that his cock was fully erect. Big, Rock Hard and beautiful. I think any girl would tingle and gasp at the sight of it. Rock hard and veins gorged with blood. Imagine how much blood it takes to make a cock that size fully erect and keep it that way. It's intimidating and I love surrendering to his power. I was so wet by then.

He quit with me feet after 5 minutes or so and said, "Suck my Cock"

I started with his ball sack and he moaned as I did. I slowly and teasingly worked my way up his long shaft licking and kissing as my mouth got closer and closer to the Head.

I used my tongue rapidly swirling it around the head making sure I hit his most sensitive spot often. He moaned and groaned in absolute pleasure and it made me even wetter.

Then I started taking him a little at a time stroking his shaft with one hand as I swirled my tongue on his prominent, sensitive nerve. He was getting my best effort. I've said before, I make love to his cock like he makes love to my feet.

I took him deeper and deeper into my mouth until I reached the Gaging point about 3/4 of the way down. I could never take his whole cock without choking. I don't believe any girl could.

His cock was pulsating in my mouth and I couldn't wait for him to be inside me. But I that's up to him.

He was getting closer and closer to climax and he stopped even before the pre-cum.

He positioned me in the doggie position with a pillow under my head. My legs and feet were off the edge of the bed. He started probing my ass with his finger. I naturally clinched and he sternly told me to relax. I tried as best I could, but it became obvious that I wasn't ready for it. He used two fingers then three, but I just wasn't ready.

He said, "I warning you, you'd better get ready and soon."

I said in usual soft submissive voice, "I'm trying and I promise to be ready soon."

"You better be because your Ass is going to be fucked a lot" he growled sternly.

The he entered me vaginally. He went in pretty fast because I was so wet. He pumped hard and rapid as he grabbed my hair and pulled my head back with no concern for my comfort at all. My head was pulled so far back that I had pain in my neck. My comfort was the last thing on his mind.

I was able to stimulate my clit with one hand and there was some pleasure. Again, my payoff is pleasing Him.

I moaned submissively and never complained. I just took was he was giving.

He brutally fucked me this way for a long time until he was, again ready to cum. But he pulled out. I was thinking if he fucks my ass like that, I'd better be ready.

He flipped me over, lifted me and positioned me longwise on the bed. He got between my legs and put his finger into my vagina to see how wet I was. I was very, very wet.

He placed a pillow under my ass to elevate my hips and position my pussy for easy penetration. The he pushed my legs back toward my head and slammed into me, I was thinking, "Why the pillow, he can get so deep already.

But it did go deeper. Thank God my Cervix is small. On a normal girl the head of his cock would be painfully punishing her Cervix.

As he fucking me he whispers in my ear, "There are so many things I want to do to you. You have no idea."

The Fear Factor rose significantly, adrenalin rushing through my body. The Fear/Pleasure thing at it's best. What would he do to me?

Again he moved his hand close to my mouth. In that position he could easily stop my breathing and I was petrified. This time he placed his hand over my mouth, but didn't pinch my nose. Didn't matter, I was scared to death and extremely turned on at the same time. There it was, Fear turned into Erotic excitement like I've never known until this Breath Play started.

I was totally pinned down with no way to avoid him hurting me. 250 lbs. vs 100lbs there was no way out.

He fucked me tis way for a long time until he finally made that deep drive into my pussy and I erupted in unbelievable ecstasy. Full Body, indescribable pleasure, erotic pleasure head to toe. Convulsing and shaking uncontrollably.

I feel sorry for girls that never experience the mind blowing feelings of a Full Body Orgasm. It's beyond description.

He kept pumping at slow pace as I came and continued until I eventually calmed down.

Then it was his turn and he stiffened and exploded inside me. He moaned with obviously great pleasure.

He lay on top of me for awhile, but this time he tried to keep his full weight off me. Both were exhausted and breathing heavily even though this wasn't the usual Marathon.

Finally he got off me and began to dress. I just continued to lay there with my legs still apart.

He said he wants to see me on Saturday Night and he would pick me up at 6:00. So early, but I didn't ask. He told me to wear a short skirt, no panties (I rarely wear a bra), a skimpy top and Flip Flops.

Right away I realized I no longer had that kind of super short skirt. But I'd get one for sure before Sat, Night.

He said, " Stay in bed, I'll show myself out. Keep working on your little ass, it's coming soon."

He left and I stayed there in a kind of Foggy state thinking about Sat. Night and what was in store for me.

Carrie

[sadie]

Sounds lovely Carrie, question, are you enjoying your anal practice? You'll remember my partner loves being DPed (I do also) and it's how she orgasms hardest.

I know I got wet when you described Anthony checking and if he's able to fill you with 3 fingers before he had penetrated you vaginally, I think you're well on the way. Every partner I've had has been either into anal from the start or come to love it when I've introduced it.

I suggest as soon as you think you're able, ask him to take you anally and beg for it to be after he's fucked you vaginally.

I don't suppose you've had an anal orgasm yet, it's an amazing and different flavor of whole body orgasm, I can't wait to hear how that goes for you .

Right now I'm kinda stuck on the image of you exhausted and well used with your pussy full of Anthony's semen. That's exactly how I'd like to take you, already well fucked by a guy and stoned / willing.

[willingtoo]

Eagerly awaiting the update too. I had an interesting thought. When you met Aaron he wanted to control you too. For him he bought his money was the way to do it. He tried doing some of the same things you are now willing to let Anthony have but he didn't take the time and effort to determine what really motivated you. He was pretty stupid especially since you tried to refuse his money. Anthony heard what Aaron did that drove you away and then asked you the right questions to figure out what you wanted. He listened and when the chance came he gave you exactly what you want and as a result you will do pretty much anything he asks to please him. He has all the control that Aaron wanted because he figured out what he needed to do to get it. Bravo to Anthony. I think there might be a lesson there for the rest of us.

He tried doing some of the same things you are now willing to let Anthony have but he didn't take the time and effort to determine what really motivated you. He was pretty stupid especially since you tried to refuse his money. Anthony heard what Aaron did that drove you away and then asked you the right questions to figure out what you wanted. He listened and when the chance came he gave you exactly what you want and as a result you will do pretty much anything he asks to please him. He has all the control that Aaron wanted because he figured it out.

I couldn't have explained it any better. The context makes all the difference. Aaron did what he did to me because he was frustrated that he couldn't control me with money like he does with the other girls he "Owns" I know why Anthony is doing what he's doing to me.

Anthony is a very smart man.

Carrie

[willingtoo]

Sounds lovely Carrie, question, are you enjoying your anal practice? You'll remember my partner loves being DPed (I do also) and it's how she orgasms hardest.

I know I got wet when you described Anthony checking and if he's able to fill you with 3 fingers before he had penetrated you vaginally, I think you're well on the way. Every partner I've had has been either into anal from the start or come to love it when I've introduced it.

I suggest as soon as you think you're able, ask him to take you anally and beg for it to be after he's fucked you vaginally.

I don't suppose you've had an anal orgasm yet, it's an amazing and different flavor of whole body orgasm, I can't wait to hear how that goes for you .

Right now I'm kinda stuck on the image of you exhausted and well used with your pussy full of Anthony's semen. That's exactly how I'd like to take you, already well fucked by a guy and stoned / willing.

Thanks Sadie. I love you and your interest in me.

Love Carrie

[willingtoo]

Nothing would turn me on more than knowing that Mike's visit home went a long way towards healing the wounds and bridging eliminating the rift between you.

Yeah, I know that's not what you're asking for with that question...but that doesn't mean I don't want it for you both.

Stories of a big scary man consuming a helpless, innocent little girl, stretching her boundaries, teaching her how to trust him to see into the abyss...that definitely turns me on!

Perfectly put, many of agree I’m sure

Thank you for your genuine interest and concern for Mike and me. I'm anxious for his return and even more, our return to our happy (Not Perfect by any means) life together.

Carrie

[willingtoo]

Are you wearing a butt plug to prepare yourself for anal with Anthony? Maybe buy some anal beads and hand them to Anthony to use on you next time you see him.

When are you getting the tattoo?

Yes I am getting ready. I got my Tatoo last night.

Carrie

[conflictedhubby]

I knew he wouldn't be able to resist after the tattoo was on! I kind of think its almost ritualistic, the tattoo is only half the ritual and he needed to claim you immediately. Love it!

I'd love to see a pic of the tattoo, can you find a close match online and link it?

I reallllllly want to know what he has planned for you Saturday, you don't mention him demanding outfits often...I feel like he's going to share you, maybe somewhere outdoors. I have this fantasy lately where he's holding your mouth and fucking you, and just when your at the height of your fear someone else comes in dragging a coffin, once you see it your panic just SURGES and they proceed to fuck you on it together.

I'm going to be late for work now after reading this, not like I can do anything until I take care of this hard on.

[willingtoo]

Whiney?? Ah, NO!!!! How many times have we in this OHW group said that honesty and openness is primary for a good relationship???? Well, I think the relationship we, your fans and readers, have with you, is in fact a relationship that also requires openness and honesty as well!!!! You should express your thoughts and feelings as much as we should. It is how we all keep perspective in the relationships we all have. So, I would encourage you to continue to be open in your comments here, I mean its not like we are physical neighbors or anything like that where we actually know each other, so speak freely!!!!

As for the guy that called you about a date, I would not take that as being weird or anything. You have to understand that many, many men have been watching you for years, just wishing for a chance to be able to ask you out and yes, to try to have sex with you. That goes on EVERY DAY!!! Every time you walk into your office building some guy is looking at your fantastic body and wishing he could fuck you! Evidently the word is getting around that you are living alone now. So, maybe you should consider some of the offers you will undoubtedly be getting to have some HW sex with someone different for a change. If you're not open to other guys, then I think what you are living is hubby in another state and you have a regular boyfriend to have sex with locally. Not saying you should or should not take him up on his offer but I thought you mentioned that you might be open to dating other men when Mike moved out to Cali and before you got back with Anthony.

You want to know what would really turn me on??????? I'm waiting to hear about you and Kelly getting together for some girl/girl evening out followed by a wonderful night of exciting new sex!!! I've been hoping to read about that connection ever since she was first mentioned and that you two seemed to find it easy to talk to each other.

Ok, I'm done, got to get to work!!!

Rascal

Thanks for all of the above.

I don't know that there are that many men that want me, but I've always felt like I was cute and attractive, but now I feel genuinely sexy and attractive. At least to the men I have been with lately. My feet and submissiveness are apparently exactly what they want.

Kelly and Zach are not living together right now. I have no idea what broke them up. That's no doubt why Zach is going to be part of the things Anthony has planned.


I have no idea who the other three men are or when I'll meet them. All are into feet and submissive women and are part of the group of like men Anthony told me about long ago. We agreed on four only and I'm holding to that until further notice.