My Cuck Journey
My Cuck Journey
I am writing this to share my life as a cuck with everyone. I will add to it now and again, as and when any significant developments occur. Some of this I have already posted elsewhere, but this is just to draw everything together in one place & keep an occasional diary of anything significant.
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How I became a cuck
I am not married but I am in a long-term relationship with a woman who has made me her cuck. Here I will refer to her as Dot (not her real name) & my name is Paul (my real name).
I dated Dot for a few years before I became properly her cuck. To begin with we had sex fairly often, although she was always insistent that we had an open relationship. After about 2 years we started having sex less and it was obvious she was increasingly spending more time with other men. She had always had a strong sex drive, so I knew it was happening even though nothing was said to begin with. She made more excuses not to have sex with me over time and eventually started overtly saying things like she was seeing another man at the weekend so she couldn't see me.
I suppose once she knew she had the power over me, i.e. that I would stick with her even though she was openly dating boyfriends, things escalated from there. She would email me to tease me about it and in the end suggested that, as she was seeing another guy and I couldn't get to be with her, I ought to relieve my frustration by masturbating.
There was a transitional period of around a year. During that time the number of occasions when I got to see her and have sex with her gradually reduced. At the same time the number of occasions she would tease me about seeing other men gradually increased. To begin with this teasing started in response to me asking her for a date/sex. She would say that we couldn’t meet up because she was fucking another guy & then suggest I relieve my frustration with masturbation instead. At the beginning of this time she’d often promise that we could hook up soon. After a time she grew less and less likely to promise this and it became more and more of a maybe.
After nearly a year of this, things had progressed to the stage where she would tell me when she was seeing someone and encourage me to masturbate alone on that particular night. She would tell me that she wanted me to think about her getting laid by her latest boyfriend and about how I wouldn't be getting any sex with her and then masturbate to relieve myself.
After a while she got confident enough to invite me to her place when she was seeing a boyfriend. This first happened about a year after our relationship started to change. She told me that if I wanted to carry on having any kind of relationship with her, it would be on her terms. She told me it turned her on to think of me hungering after her but remaining sexually frustrated. So she told me that the next time she saw another guy at her place, she wanted me to sleep in the spare room next to her bedroom. I would have to remain there on my own all night and keep out of sight. But, as the walls were thin, I would be able to hear her having sex next door.
The first time it happened she made sure I could hear her enjoying sex. There was plenty of bed squeaking, moaning and banging of the headboard of her bed against the wall. As per her suggestion, once I could hear her having sex I stripped naked and started masturbating. She said it would really turn her on to think of me alone in the next room having beta sex with my hand whilst she was having vigorous sex with an alpha male.
After we did it that first time. I had to remain in the spare room alone until her bull left the following morning. Then she came to get me and took great pleasure in teasing me about what had happened and telling me that it had given her a really powerful orgasm to fuck whilst knowing I was next door having frustrated beta sex with my hand.
I am not married but I am in a long-term relationship with a woman who has made me her cuck. Here I will refer to her as Dot (not her real name) & my name is Paul (my real name).
I dated Dot for a few years before I became properly her cuck. To begin with we had sex fairly often, although she was always insistent that we had an open relationship. After about 2 years we started having sex less and it was obvious she was increasingly spending more time with other men. She had always had a strong sex drive, so I knew it was happening even though nothing was said to begin with. She made more excuses not to have sex with me over time and eventually started overtly saying things like she was seeing another man at the weekend so she couldn't see me.
I suppose once she knew she had the power over me, i.e. that I would stick with her even though she was openly dating boyfriends, things escalated from there. She would email me to tease me about it and in the end suggested that, as she was seeing another guy and I couldn't get to be with her, I ought to relieve my frustration by masturbating.
There was a transitional period of around a year. During that time the number of occasions when I got to see her and have sex with her gradually reduced. At the same time the number of occasions she would tease me about seeing other men gradually increased. To begin with this teasing started in response to me asking her for a date/sex. She would say that we couldn’t meet up because she was fucking another guy & then suggest I relieve my frustration with masturbation instead. At the beginning of this time she’d often promise that we could hook up soon. After a time she grew less and less likely to promise this and it became more and more of a maybe.
After nearly a year of this, things had progressed to the stage where she would tell me when she was seeing someone and encourage me to masturbate alone on that particular night. She would tell me that she wanted me to think about her getting laid by her latest boyfriend and about how I wouldn't be getting any sex with her and then masturbate to relieve myself.
After a while she got confident enough to invite me to her place when she was seeing a boyfriend. This first happened about a year after our relationship started to change. She told me that if I wanted to carry on having any kind of relationship with her, it would be on her terms. She told me it turned her on to think of me hungering after her but remaining sexually frustrated. So she told me that the next time she saw another guy at her place, she wanted me to sleep in the spare room next to her bedroom. I would have to remain there on my own all night and keep out of sight. But, as the walls were thin, I would be able to hear her having sex next door.
The first time it happened she made sure I could hear her enjoying sex. There was plenty of bed squeaking, moaning and banging of the headboard of her bed against the wall. As per her suggestion, once I could hear her having sex I stripped naked and started masturbating. She said it would really turn her on to think of me alone in the next room having beta sex with my hand whilst she was having vigorous sex with an alpha male.
After we did it that first time. I had to remain in the spare room alone until her bull left the following morning. Then she came to get me and took great pleasure in teasing me about what had happened and telling me that it had given her a really powerful orgasm to fuck whilst knowing I was next door having frustrated beta sex with my hand.
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How things progressed to becoming ‘officially’ a cuck
For the next year or so, she got me to do this for her a few times, more and more as that year wore on. At the start she made promises that she would thank me at some point by letting me fuck her. But as time wore on she stopped making these promises. Probably at around the end of that time she told me that she never wanted to actually have sex with me again but if I wanted to remain part of her life it would have to be as her cuck, along the lines we’d been living during that time.
Only once I had agreed to see her as her cuck, did she, after a while, actually suggest that we actually live together. It took me a little by surprise since she had made it fairly clear that we should not have sex. But that way I was always sure to be around when her bulls fuck her, thereby maximising my frustration and her pleasure from my frustration.
These days we don't have sex together at all. She doesn't want me to see other women either if I want to stay with her – that was another condition of us being together. It turns her on more to know that she can have as much sex as she likes whilst I am only allowed beta sex and what's more she gets a kick out of teasing me about it.
These days it has got to the stage where she openly calls me "cucky" or "loser" in her text messages and emails, so it is quite clear what I have become. Thing is that the whole situation really turns me on in a way that a normal sexual relationship would not. My beta sex orgasms are very powerful, the best sex I've ever had. I really get off on the humiliation and the feeling of inadequacy.
I never entered into a relationship with her in order to become her cuck but she has made me into one over a period of time. Now that I am a cuck, I know there's no going back.
So, as a result of all that, I have been pussy free for over three years now. I am only permitted solo beta sex these days. The only direct sexual contact I have had with anyone over the past three years was sucking a couple of cocks. This only happens if she happens to be seeing a bull who is bisexual. Then I am invited into the room with her and her bull. I am permitted to stand in the corner naked and masturbate whilst I watch them. Usually, as part of the foreplay in this case she will invite me over to suck the bull’s cock before he fucks her. She usually allows this to go on until she feels he has fully established his dominance over me & I have been suitably humiliated. At that point they get together as a couple and fuck & I go back to the corner of the room and masturbate on my own.
The more recently when this happened (and it has only happened very rarely), she introduced a new rule to the effect that, if I came whilst watching them, I must eat my own cum in front of them. The other recent rule (and we have only really had the chance to do this once so far), was that I should call her bull ‘sir’ at all times if I am in the room with them.
Since I showed I was willing to suck her bull’s cock, she has encouraged me to masturbate watching gay porn (suggested it from time to time). She has also said she prefers it if I only ever masturbate when watching or listening to her fucking her bull or on my own when I watch gay porn. She has told me she thinks it is more suitable for me.
She definitely won't allow me to have sex with either herself or with other women but says I can have sex with men as long as I play a sub role (in fact I think she would like me to do that more). So I have come to accept that I will probably remain pussy free permanently.
But, before covid hit, she semi-encouraged me to visit a gay sauna and have sex with men there. I sucked a few cocks and was masturbated to completion there by an older man. I think she was quite pleased about this. I think she wants me in her life as a sub-cuck whose only real sexual release is gay sex.
For the next year or so, she got me to do this for her a few times, more and more as that year wore on. At the start she made promises that she would thank me at some point by letting me fuck her. But as time wore on she stopped making these promises. Probably at around the end of that time she told me that she never wanted to actually have sex with me again but if I wanted to remain part of her life it would have to be as her cuck, along the lines we’d been living during that time.
Only once I had agreed to see her as her cuck, did she, after a while, actually suggest that we actually live together. It took me a little by surprise since she had made it fairly clear that we should not have sex. But that way I was always sure to be around when her bulls fuck her, thereby maximising my frustration and her pleasure from my frustration.
These days we don't have sex together at all. She doesn't want me to see other women either if I want to stay with her – that was another condition of us being together. It turns her on more to know that she can have as much sex as she likes whilst I am only allowed beta sex and what's more she gets a kick out of teasing me about it.
These days it has got to the stage where she openly calls me "cucky" or "loser" in her text messages and emails, so it is quite clear what I have become. Thing is that the whole situation really turns me on in a way that a normal sexual relationship would not. My beta sex orgasms are very powerful, the best sex I've ever had. I really get off on the humiliation and the feeling of inadequacy.
I never entered into a relationship with her in order to become her cuck but she has made me into one over a period of time. Now that I am a cuck, I know there's no going back.
So, as a result of all that, I have been pussy free for over three years now. I am only permitted solo beta sex these days. The only direct sexual contact I have had with anyone over the past three years was sucking a couple of cocks. This only happens if she happens to be seeing a bull who is bisexual. Then I am invited into the room with her and her bull. I am permitted to stand in the corner naked and masturbate whilst I watch them. Usually, as part of the foreplay in this case she will invite me over to suck the bull’s cock before he fucks her. She usually allows this to go on until she feels he has fully established his dominance over me & I have been suitably humiliated. At that point they get together as a couple and fuck & I go back to the corner of the room and masturbate on my own.
The more recently when this happened (and it has only happened very rarely), she introduced a new rule to the effect that, if I came whilst watching them, I must eat my own cum in front of them. The other recent rule (and we have only really had the chance to do this once so far), was that I should call her bull ‘sir’ at all times if I am in the room with them.
Since I showed I was willing to suck her bull’s cock, she has encouraged me to masturbate watching gay porn (suggested it from time to time). She has also said she prefers it if I only ever masturbate when watching or listening to her fucking her bull or on my own when I watch gay porn. She has told me she thinks it is more suitable for me.
She definitely won't allow me to have sex with either herself or with other women but says I can have sex with men as long as I play a sub role (in fact I think she would like me to do that more). So I have come to accept that I will probably remain pussy free permanently.
But, before covid hit, she semi-encouraged me to visit a gay sauna and have sex with men there. I sucked a few cocks and was masturbated to completion there by an older man. I think she was quite pleased about this. I think she wants me in her life as a sub-cuck whose only real sexual release is gay sex.
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Developments in 2020 / 2021
Since covid & lockdowns hit it has been strictly solo beta sex for me.
Since lockdown and covid she has not been seeing other guys too often & I have not had the opportunity to visit a gay sauna either.
Since the new year, when the UK went into full lockdown, she has been very careful about it. Before covid she occasionally had a regular bull but mostly preferred to sleep around. Over the past year or so she has limited herself (especially during lockdowns) to just a couple of semi-regulars but in recent months she's just seen the one guy three times (and twice at his place). So the last time I was involved in any way was nearly three months ago, which seems like a lifetime ago.
Most recently she's just told me she's in touch with a new guy online (who is apparently "really fit") whom she intends to fuck the weekend after this one coming.
As it will be their first time, I will be banished to the spare room for the night as per our usual arrangement. I will have to cook their dinner for them before he arrives and then I will be confined to bed for the rest of the night. I will probably be able to hear them laughing and talking in the lounge/dining room if they are loud enough though. Best of all, I will certainly be able to hear them fucking in the bedroom next door! Then, as she herself told me last night 'you can masturbate to your heart's content, like the pathetic, frustrated, loser cuck you are.'
This will be the first time I will have been able listen to her fucking another guy in a while, so I am now really looking forward to it!
Since covid & lockdowns hit it has been strictly solo beta sex for me.
Since lockdown and covid she has not been seeing other guys too often & I have not had the opportunity to visit a gay sauna either.
Since the new year, when the UK went into full lockdown, she has been very careful about it. Before covid she occasionally had a regular bull but mostly preferred to sleep around. Over the past year or so she has limited herself (especially during lockdowns) to just a couple of semi-regulars but in recent months she's just seen the one guy three times (and twice at his place). So the last time I was involved in any way was nearly three months ago, which seems like a lifetime ago.
Most recently she's just told me she's in touch with a new guy online (who is apparently "really fit") whom she intends to fuck the weekend after this one coming.
As it will be their first time, I will be banished to the spare room for the night as per our usual arrangement. I will have to cook their dinner for them before he arrives and then I will be confined to bed for the rest of the night. I will probably be able to hear them laughing and talking in the lounge/dining room if they are loud enough though. Best of all, I will certainly be able to hear them fucking in the bedroom next door! Then, as she herself told me last night 'you can masturbate to your heart's content, like the pathetic, frustrated, loser cuck you are.'
This will be the first time I will have been able listen to her fucking another guy in a while, so I am now really looking forward to it!
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thanks for sharing your story. keep up with the postings.
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She had a new guy round this weekend. So Saturday evening I cooked her and the prospective new bull a meal. Then, before he arrived, she sent me to the spare room for the night.
I stayed out of their way. I heard him arrive & I could hear them talking and laughing whilst they had a romantic meal together (I couldn't hear what they were saying but they seemed to be having a good time).
Later on it went quite & I guessed they were probably kissing/cuddling in the lounge. Then I heard the bedroom door open in the bedroom next to where I had been banished. After a while I could hear the familiar sounds of the bed springs squeaking in the room next door as she got fucked. I could hear moans of pleasure now and then and the occasional sound of the headboard knocking against the wall.
I just lay there quietly next door, naked in the dark, masturbating, knowing I was not good enough to pleasure her in the way in which this new guy was. They fucked for quite a while and were quite noisy too. I had my frustrated beta loser-gasm long before they had finished. I guess that is one of the reasons why I am the cuck. I just can't last as long as her bulls can keep going for.
He stayed overnight so I knew I wasn't allowed out of my room until she gave me the all clear. Sunday morning I was allowed out after he'd gone. She told me he was really hot and had fucked her really vigorously for ages, satisfying her as only a real man could. She says she'll definitely fuck him again but they haven't fixed a date yet. She asked me if I'd had frustrated beta-sex whilst I was listening to her getting fucked & I admitted I had. She just smiled a self-satisfied smile and nodded approvingly when I told her.
I stayed out of their way. I heard him arrive & I could hear them talking and laughing whilst they had a romantic meal together (I couldn't hear what they were saying but they seemed to be having a good time).
Later on it went quite & I guessed they were probably kissing/cuddling in the lounge. Then I heard the bedroom door open in the bedroom next to where I had been banished. After a while I could hear the familiar sounds of the bed springs squeaking in the room next door as she got fucked. I could hear moans of pleasure now and then and the occasional sound of the headboard knocking against the wall.
I just lay there quietly next door, naked in the dark, masturbating, knowing I was not good enough to pleasure her in the way in which this new guy was. They fucked for quite a while and were quite noisy too. I had my frustrated beta loser-gasm long before they had finished. I guess that is one of the reasons why I am the cuck. I just can't last as long as her bulls can keep going for.
He stayed overnight so I knew I wasn't allowed out of my room until she gave me the all clear. Sunday morning I was allowed out after he'd gone. She told me he was really hot and had fucked her really vigorously for ages, satisfying her as only a real man could. She says she'll definitely fuck him again but they haven't fixed a date yet. She asked me if I'd had frustrated beta-sex whilst I was listening to her getting fucked & I admitted I had. She just smiled a self-satisfied smile and nodded approvingly when I told her.
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Dottie has arranged to see her new BF again next weekend. She will be spending the night at his place, so I won't be involved. She says she will get a photo of him, so I can see what he's like. If things go well she says she might take a selfie of herself sucking his cock to send me on the night for a bit of a humiliating tease.
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Dottie had her date with her new BF this Saturday and, as planned, stayed the night at his place getting fucked.
She sent me a photo of them together eating a meal in his dining room, cuddled up and smiling, side by side. I could see he was her type, a strong, athletic guy - everything I'm not really. I know he'd be much better in bed with her than I could ever hope to be. I now know his name - I will call him 'Phil' in this account (but that is not his real name).
Later that night Dottie sent me a photo of her sucking Phil's cock with a note 'Wow! Want a man! I'll give Phil as many BJs as he likes! You'll never get any! Frustrated? Time you had some beta sex with your hand I think... go on loser, you know you need to!'
As instructed I then spent a good hour masturbating alone in bed, looking at that photo and thinking about Dottie's humiliating words.
Phil does not yet know the full score about Dottie and me. But Dottie says he now knows I exist. He knows she is two-timing me with him and she has told him that she thinks he is much, much better in bed than me. She told me he has a big cock and is a very vigorous lover - just the kind of man she wants.
They have another date planned but I have not been told the details yet. It looks like this new bull will become a fairly regular thing.
She sent me a photo of them together eating a meal in his dining room, cuddled up and smiling, side by side. I could see he was her type, a strong, athletic guy - everything I'm not really. I know he'd be much better in bed with her than I could ever hope to be. I now know his name - I will call him 'Phil' in this account (but that is not his real name).
Later that night Dottie sent me a photo of her sucking Phil's cock with a note 'Wow! Want a man! I'll give Phil as many BJs as he likes! You'll never get any! Frustrated? Time you had some beta sex with your hand I think... go on loser, you know you need to!'
As instructed I then spent a good hour masturbating alone in bed, looking at that photo and thinking about Dottie's humiliating words.
Phil does not yet know the full score about Dottie and me. But Dottie says he now knows I exist. He knows she is two-timing me with him and she has told him that she thinks he is much, much better in bed than me. She told me he has a big cock and is a very vigorous lover - just the kind of man she wants.
They have another date planned but I have not been told the details yet. It looks like this new bull will become a fairly regular thing.
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Welcome and thanks for sharing your story here! I hope you'll keep on...I'm in a situation very similar to yours and it's hot to read your story.
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I would love to hear that you once spent a while, lying flat on your back, naked on the floor, while they made out, with Dottie's foot being worshipped by your tongue, while you watch and masturbated frantically using the bull's cum as lube (he had creampied her a few mins before, and she scoops it out, feed s you some, and the rest you use as lube)Loserpaul wrote: ↑Mon Jun 07, 2021 2:12 amDottie had her date with her new BF this Saturday and, as planned, stayed the night at his place getting fucked.
She sent me a photo of them together eating a meal in his dining room, cuddled up and smiling, side by side. I could see he was her type, a strong, athletic guy - everything I'm not really. I know he'd be much better in bed with her than I could ever hope to be. I now know his name - I will call him 'Phil' in this account (but that is not his real name).
Later that night Dottie sent me a photo of her sucking Phil's cock with a note 'Wow! Want a man! I'll give Phil as many BJs as he likes! You'll never get any! Frustrated? Time you had some beta sex with your hand I think... go on loser, you know you need to!'
As instructed I then spent a good hour masturbating alone in bed, looking at that photo and thinking about Dottie's humiliating words.
Phil does not yet know the full score about Dottie and me. But Dottie says he now knows I exist. He knows she is two-timing me with him and she has told him that she thinks he is much, much better in bed than me. She told me he has a big cock and is a very vigorous lover - just the kind of man she wants.
They have another date planned but I have not been told the details yet. It looks like this new bull will become a fairly regular thing.
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I have not been invited to watch Dottie get fucked by Phil yet. I am not sure that I will. That decision is entirely down to Dottie and Phil; they call the shots 100%. As I am a beta cuck it is not my place to have any say in it or even to ask. It is none of my business until Dottie and Phil decide that it is; then I will be told what to do as is only right and correct.
However, Dottie has invited Phil around for sex again this weekend. As before I will be expected to cook a romantic meal for them and tidy up the house that afternoon before Phil arrives. Dottie does not want me to meet Phil in person yet, so I will be expected to spend the night in the spare room away from Dottie and Phil and keep a very low profile. I will be banished to the spare room from the time he arrives until the time he leaves in the morning. I am not even allowed to leave the room to use the toilet, so I have to make sure to go before he arrives. I have an emergency bottle I can piss into that we keep in the spare room for that purpose. If, however, I need to have a shit, I must use a toddler's trainer potty that Dottie bought for me & we keep in the spare room, just in case of a real emergency.
As usual I will be able to hear them fucking in the room next door but that will be the extent of my involvement. Dottie has instructed me to listen to the sex noises from next door when Phil is fucking her and to relieve myself by having plenty of loser beta sex with my hand. She likes to think of me doing that whilst Phil fucks her - she says it helps give her much more intense orgasms.
However, Dottie has invited Phil around for sex again this weekend. As before I will be expected to cook a romantic meal for them and tidy up the house that afternoon before Phil arrives. Dottie does not want me to meet Phil in person yet, so I will be expected to spend the night in the spare room away from Dottie and Phil and keep a very low profile. I will be banished to the spare room from the time he arrives until the time he leaves in the morning. I am not even allowed to leave the room to use the toilet, so I have to make sure to go before he arrives. I have an emergency bottle I can piss into that we keep in the spare room for that purpose. If, however, I need to have a shit, I must use a toddler's trainer potty that Dottie bought for me & we keep in the spare room, just in case of a real emergency.
As usual I will be able to hear them fucking in the room next door but that will be the extent of my involvement. Dottie has instructed me to listen to the sex noises from next door when Phil is fucking her and to relieve myself by having plenty of loser beta sex with my hand. She likes to think of me doing that whilst Phil fucks her - she says it helps give her much more intense orgasms.
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Dottie got fucked by Phil again this weekend just gone. Before he arrived for his date with her, I cleaned the house for them and cooked them a romantic meal. As soon as he arrived at the door I was then banished to the spare room for the rest of the night. I could hear them laughing and talking as they ate their romantic meal (although I couldn't catch the details of what they were saying). Eventually all went quite as they made out and then I heard the door to the bedroom next door open as they went into Dottie's room for sex.
Soon I could hear the bed squeaking and Dottie & Phil moaning and grunting as they fucked. They went at it fairly vigorously & the head board of the bed was knocking quite hard against the wall as they did it for a good long while. All the while I was tugging away at my beta dick as I listened to them, knowing full well they were enjoying something I could never have. As usual I had my beta-gasm long before Phil was finished fucking Dottie, but I didn't mind. He was at it so long in fact that I was able to get hard again and cum for a second time.
Late the next morning Dottie came to release me from the spare room after Phil had gone. She confirmed that the sex had been fantastic & she would be fucking Phil again at his place next weekend. She said that maybe, the next time Phil comes around to fuck her, they might permit me to watch and masturbate in the room with them - as long as I remain in the corner of the room and keep quiet and out of their way. She has not yet decided, so it is just a maybe. She will speak to Phil about it next weekend. IF I am permitted to watch there will be two conditions. First I will need to call Phil 'Sir' and do whatever he says, showing the necessary respect a beta cuck should show any Alpha male. Second, if I cum I must eat clean up any mess by eating my own cum in front of them on the spot. She says Phil half doesn't believe her when she told him that she has such power over me that she is able to restrict my sex life to purely masturbation & in particular she thinks that Phil thought she was joking when she told him that she makes me eat my own cum & that she can make me do it in front of her lovers. I think she seems fairly determined to prove to Phil that she meant what she said, so maybe in a couple of weeks I'll get to watch, masturbate & eat my cum in front of them.
Soon I could hear the bed squeaking and Dottie & Phil moaning and grunting as they fucked. They went at it fairly vigorously & the head board of the bed was knocking quite hard against the wall as they did it for a good long while. All the while I was tugging away at my beta dick as I listened to them, knowing full well they were enjoying something I could never have. As usual I had my beta-gasm long before Phil was finished fucking Dottie, but I didn't mind. He was at it so long in fact that I was able to get hard again and cum for a second time.
Late the next morning Dottie came to release me from the spare room after Phil had gone. She confirmed that the sex had been fantastic & she would be fucking Phil again at his place next weekend. She said that maybe, the next time Phil comes around to fuck her, they might permit me to watch and masturbate in the room with them - as long as I remain in the corner of the room and keep quiet and out of their way. She has not yet decided, so it is just a maybe. She will speak to Phil about it next weekend. IF I am permitted to watch there will be two conditions. First I will need to call Phil 'Sir' and do whatever he says, showing the necessary respect a beta cuck should show any Alpha male. Second, if I cum I must eat clean up any mess by eating my own cum in front of them on the spot. She says Phil half doesn't believe her when she told him that she has such power over me that she is able to restrict my sex life to purely masturbation & in particular she thinks that Phil thought she was joking when she told him that she makes me eat my own cum & that she can make me do it in front of her lovers. I think she seems fairly determined to prove to Phil that she meant what she said, so maybe in a couple of weeks I'll get to watch, masturbate & eat my cum in front of them.
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I would love for her to make you sit on the floor, and masturbate naked and worship her foot, while she lays back on the couch in his arms and they look down at you, as they erotically neck and caress each other.... as a sign of her power over you and your helpless mesmerised lust for her and submission to her bull.Loserpaul wrote: ↑Tue Jun 15, 2021 7:46 amDottie got fucked by Phil again this weekend just gone. Before he arrived for his date with her, I cleaned the house for them and cooked them a romantic meal. As soon as he arrived at the door I was then banished to the spare room for the rest of the night. I could hear them laughing and talking as they ate their romantic meal (although I couldn't catch the details of what they were saying). Eventually all went quite as they made out and then I heard the door to the bedroom next door open as they went into Dottie's room for sex.
Soon I could hear the bed squeaking and Dottie & Phil moaning and grunting as they fucked. They went at it fairly vigorously & the head board of the bed was knocking quite hard against the wall as they did it for a good long while. All the while I was tugging away at my beta dick as I listened to them, knowing full well they were enjoying something I could never have. As usual I had my beta-gasm long before Phil was finished fucking Dottie, but I didn't mind. He was at it so long in fact that I was able to get hard again and cum for a second time.
Late the next morning Dottie came to release me from the spare room after Phil had gone. She confirmed that the sex had been fantastic & she would be fucking Phil again at his place next weekend. She said that maybe, the next time Phil comes around to fuck her, they might permit me to watch and masturbate in the room with them - as long as I remain in the corner of the room and keep quiet and out of their way. She has not yet decided, so it is just a maybe. She will speak to Phil about it next weekend. IF I am permitted to watch there will be two conditions. First I will need to call Phil 'Sir' and do whatever he says, showing the necessary respect a beta cuck should show any Alpha male. Second, if I cum I must eat clean up any mess by eating my own cum in front of them on the spot. She says Phil half doesn't believe her when she told him that she has such power over me that she is able to restrict my sex life to purely masturbation & in particular she thinks that Phil thought she was joking when she told him that she makes me eat my own cum & that she can make me do it in front of her lovers. I think she seems fairly determined to prove to Phil that she meant what she said, so maybe in a couple of weeks I'll get to watch, masturbate & eat my cum in front of them.
Imagine if she also had her sexy Girlfriend come over, during this episode, watching in amazement at yoour naked emasculation and humilation... maybe dotyie even makes you suck Phil's dick in front of her GF, to rub it in even more...
(Being that the GF is totally unavaillable and untouchable to you,.. but may even be intrigued and attaracted to phil, because of his dominance over you, and may fuck him if Dottie feels like it).. that is almost like double cuckold angst
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Thanks Paul, an interesting and no doubt intense relationship!!
You must have had many memorable sessions with Dottie... can you recall that first time you were present, or any particular times when things became really intense?? I may have missed it but do you luck Dottie clean after her bull has made a deposit???
You must have had many memorable sessions with Dottie... can you recall that first time you were present, or any particular times when things became really intense?? I may have missed it but do you luck Dottie clean after her bull has made a deposit???
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Please post pics of Dottie pleasuring Phil
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Home alone this Saturday night / Sunday morning as Dottie spent the night with Phil at his place. Spent the evening masturbating alone in bed knowing that Phil and Dottie were fucking whilst I, as usual, was denied any sex.
Next weekend Phil will be visiting for sex on Saturday night again. I will be expected to cook for them. Dottie says that this time I can join in, in a limited way. I must serve them as a waiter whilst they have a romantic meal together first though and I must bring them breakfast in bed on Sunday morning. I am to be on my best behaviour and address Phil as 'Sir' at all times.
Next weekend Phil will be visiting for sex on Saturday night again. I will be expected to cook for them. Dottie says that this time I can join in, in a limited way. I must serve them as a waiter whilst they have a romantic meal together first though and I must bring them breakfast in bed on Sunday morning. I am to be on my best behaviour and address Phil as 'Sir' at all times.
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Ask her for the masses!
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This weekend Phil came around to our place for a romantic evening with Dottie. Before he arrived Dottie made me clean the house and prepare a romantic meal for the two of them. I was not allowed to share in the meal as I was to be their waiter. Instead I had to make myself a ham sandwich before Phil arrived.
When Phil arrived, I could see he was more athletic and muscular in real life than I’d thought from his photo. A lot taller than me too. It was quite clear he was a sporty alpha – a keen rugby fan. Dottie introduced ‘this is my faggot ex, who I told you about’. Phil said ‘So, you’re a pussy free faggot these days eh?” I said what Dottie had told me to say “Yes Sir. I’m not capable of satisfying women.” As instructed I referred to Phil as Sir all night. I brought their dinner to them and served them wine & watched in silence. Occasionally they asked me for something & called me ‘faggot’ all night. “More wine faggot!” “Yes Sir.”
As they got merry they teased me about being a pussy free faggot more and more before we all went to the bedroom.
In the bedroom I had to stand in the corner on my own whilst they made out, groped and undressed each other. Dottie looked over at me at one point and teased “you don’t ever get this do you.” And Phil asked “Do you really eat your own cum fag?” & when I replied “yes Sir.” They both laughed.
Then, once they were naked and seriously making out, Dottie allowed me to strip whilst I watched. But I wasn’t allowed to touch my dick to begin with.
Once Dottie had got Phil fully aroused, she called me over and said “Now it’s time for you to show Phil what a faggot beta you are. Kneel in front of him and suck his dick to show him your respect.”
I did as I was asked and Phil stood up and presented me with his big, thick dick. Obediently I took it into my mouth and looked up at him submissively as I sucked his cock.
“That’s it. Suck that dick. Let Phil know he’s the boss.” Said Dottie as Phil shafted my mouth slowly and steadily. Both Phil and Dottie watched me suck him with amused smiles.
They teased me that sucking dick is all I’m good for, which is true of course.
After a while Phil sent me back into the corner of the room to masturbate on my own whilst he mounted Dottie and the two of them began vigorously fucking. A couple of times they looked over at me and laughed/sniggered as I stood alone in the corner tugging on my dick.
“If you cum you must eat it remember!” Dottie called over at one point, which made both of them laugh.
Phil was still shafting her when I came (ages before Phil) & as I’d been told I ate my cum in front of them. They both saw me doing it and smirked as they kept fucking & Phil said “Now go to your room, you pathetic cum-eating fag, while I fuck your ex.”
“Yes Sir.” I replied and went to my room. They both laughed as I closed the door behind me.
I spent the rest of the night alone in bed, listening to them fuck next door. They were at it so long I got aroused again and masturbated for a second time.
I set the alarm for the next morning so I could get up in good time and make them breakfast in bed before Phil left. I am pretty sure they had sex again early in the morning before I brought them breakfast.
Next weekend Phil will be coming round again & I will be expected to serve them once more.
When Phil arrived, I could see he was more athletic and muscular in real life than I’d thought from his photo. A lot taller than me too. It was quite clear he was a sporty alpha – a keen rugby fan. Dottie introduced ‘this is my faggot ex, who I told you about’. Phil said ‘So, you’re a pussy free faggot these days eh?” I said what Dottie had told me to say “Yes Sir. I’m not capable of satisfying women.” As instructed I referred to Phil as Sir all night. I brought their dinner to them and served them wine & watched in silence. Occasionally they asked me for something & called me ‘faggot’ all night. “More wine faggot!” “Yes Sir.”
As they got merry they teased me about being a pussy free faggot more and more before we all went to the bedroom.
In the bedroom I had to stand in the corner on my own whilst they made out, groped and undressed each other. Dottie looked over at me at one point and teased “you don’t ever get this do you.” And Phil asked “Do you really eat your own cum fag?” & when I replied “yes Sir.” They both laughed.
Then, once they were naked and seriously making out, Dottie allowed me to strip whilst I watched. But I wasn’t allowed to touch my dick to begin with.
Once Dottie had got Phil fully aroused, she called me over and said “Now it’s time for you to show Phil what a faggot beta you are. Kneel in front of him and suck his dick to show him your respect.”
I did as I was asked and Phil stood up and presented me with his big, thick dick. Obediently I took it into my mouth and looked up at him submissively as I sucked his cock.
“That’s it. Suck that dick. Let Phil know he’s the boss.” Said Dottie as Phil shafted my mouth slowly and steadily. Both Phil and Dottie watched me suck him with amused smiles.
They teased me that sucking dick is all I’m good for, which is true of course.
After a while Phil sent me back into the corner of the room to masturbate on my own whilst he mounted Dottie and the two of them began vigorously fucking. A couple of times they looked over at me and laughed/sniggered as I stood alone in the corner tugging on my dick.
“If you cum you must eat it remember!” Dottie called over at one point, which made both of them laugh.
Phil was still shafting her when I came (ages before Phil) & as I’d been told I ate my cum in front of them. They both saw me doing it and smirked as they kept fucking & Phil said “Now go to your room, you pathetic cum-eating fag, while I fuck your ex.”
“Yes Sir.” I replied and went to my room. They both laughed as I closed the door behind me.
I spent the rest of the night alone in bed, listening to them fuck next door. They were at it so long I got aroused again and masturbated for a second time.
I set the alarm for the next morning so I could get up in good time and make them breakfast in bed before Phil left. I am pretty sure they had sex again early in the morning before I brought them breakfast.
Next weekend Phil will be coming round again & I will be expected to serve them once more.
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elina
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Thanks Paul
Will Dottie allow you to lick Her Pussy, or clean Her up after Phil has taken Her?
Sincerely
elina
Will Dottie allow you to lick Her Pussy, or clean Her up after Phil has taken Her?
Sincerely
elina
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I am not allowed to touch Dottie sexually any more. Sir came round to see Dottie again this weekend, so I cooked/waited on them again.
Following hwfanatic's request for a photo, I plucked up the courage to ask Dottie about that last week. She said she would need to discuss it with Sir.
This Saturday I got their answer after their meal. We went to the bedroom & Sir told me to strip naked whilst he and Dottie remained fully clothed. I did so & then Sir told me off for asking for the photo & said it was not my place to ask for such things & how dare I. Sir said that I needed to be taught my place & I would need corporal punishment to correct my behaviour.
He then got me bend over and hold onto my ankles whilst he thrashed my bum with his belt. Dottie draped herself over Sir as he was lashing me and started humping him, saying she'd always like to fuck the school bully back in her school days after watching him bully a wimp & how much it turned her on and made her red hot for him to watch him thrash me and fully assert himself as the dominant male.
Once my bum was thrashed red raw, Sir sent me to my room for the rest of the night. As soon as I left the room I could hear them both laughing and joking about what a pathetic wimp I was. It wasn't long after that, that I could hear Sir fucking Dottie really vigorously in the room next door. They were fully at it for ages afterwards. I had to spend the rest of the night alone in the spare room nursing my stinging bottom and masturbating. Although my bum really stung for ages & was even still sore in the morning, I knew Sir was right and I'd completely deserved it.
Following hwfanatic's request for a photo, I plucked up the courage to ask Dottie about that last week. She said she would need to discuss it with Sir.
This Saturday I got their answer after their meal. We went to the bedroom & Sir told me to strip naked whilst he and Dottie remained fully clothed. I did so & then Sir told me off for asking for the photo & said it was not my place to ask for such things & how dare I. Sir said that I needed to be taught my place & I would need corporal punishment to correct my behaviour.
He then got me bend over and hold onto my ankles whilst he thrashed my bum with his belt. Dottie draped herself over Sir as he was lashing me and started humping him, saying she'd always like to fuck the school bully back in her school days after watching him bully a wimp & how much it turned her on and made her red hot for him to watch him thrash me and fully assert himself as the dominant male.
Once my bum was thrashed red raw, Sir sent me to my room for the rest of the night. As soon as I left the room I could hear them both laughing and joking about what a pathetic wimp I was. It wasn't long after that, that I could hear Sir fucking Dottie really vigorously in the room next door. They were fully at it for ages afterwards. I had to spend the rest of the night alone in the spare room nursing my stinging bottom and masturbating. Although my bum really stung for ages & was even still sore in the morning, I knew Sir was right and I'd completely deserved it.
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Hi Paul, lovely update thanks..
Dottie's comments about the school bully were supremely arousing, it must have been hot to see her so 'in heat'!!! Does she wear nice lingerie for her bull also??
One issue that leaps out at me... how is it that you're not in a chastity cage?? Surely Dottie deserves to have you fully caged up to control your urges and serve at her pleasure???!
Dottie's comments about the school bully were supremely arousing, it must have been hot to see her so 'in heat'!!! Does she wear nice lingerie for her bull also??
One issue that leaps out at me... how is it that you're not in a chastity cage?? Surely Dottie deserves to have you fully caged up to control your urges and serve at her pleasure???!
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elina
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Hi Paul,
Thanks for this update,
For a submissive wannabe like me (My Wife was on the way to establish an FLR, kept me in chastity and whipping me with a riding crop regularly; having declared that She was entitled to cuckold me .... Then She decided that we could not live this lifestyle with kids growing....) This is a highly stimulating update.
ANd of course Sir is correct, you should not ask for pictures, yuo are there to serve Your Superior Wife and Her Bull.
Vey good to hear that you fully accept Sirs judgement, your punishment.
Must have been extra hot for you with Your Superior Wife edging Her Bull on to make you submitt fully.
SIncerely
elina
Thanks for this update,
For a submissive wannabe like me (My Wife was on the way to establish an FLR, kept me in chastity and whipping me with a riding crop regularly; having declared that She was entitled to cuckold me .... Then She decided that we could not live this lifestyle with kids growing....) This is a highly stimulating update.
ANd of course Sir is correct, you should not ask for pictures, yuo are there to serve Your Superior Wife and Her Bull.
Vey good to hear that you fully accept Sirs judgement, your punishment.
Must have been extra hot for you with Your Superior Wife edging Her Bull on to make you submitt fully.
SIncerely
elina