elina wrote: ↑Wed Aug 23, 2023 11:42 amDear Flrmatz
First I am very sorry that I have not discovered this thread untill today.
Second, I think you are an incredibly fortunate man to have found the Perfect Dream Lady for you!!!
Obviously, you are submissive by nature.
Now Fiona is very gently leading you down the path of teaching you how to be the Perfect Submissive Partner for Her!!!
I am really happy for you and wished the same thing had happened to me when I was your age.
I have a very strong interest in Female Domination. One of the key lessons for these relationships between a loving Female Dominant and loving male submissive is that:Flrmatz wrote: ↑Wed Aug 23, 2023 9:29 am..............
. Now it is with Fiona but more and more so that I am almost treated like a slave by her. I feel her love. But at the same time also her power. And this dominance of her makes me more and more submissive. It's not just that I let her treat me like a slave, no I even love it.
The more submissive the male becomes and behaves, the more Dominant the Lady wants to be and find it natural to be.
When that happens, the submissive male senses how much his beloved Dominant Dream Lady enjoys it when he serves Her and acts more submissive to Her. It seems to me that this is exactly the dynamic you are describing here. I think this will contribute to both of you becoming even more in love and happy with each other. I especially loved the the part I put in italics here; Fiona is taking you where you did not think that you wanted to go, but when She does, you discover you love it. This is the most erotic thread of all
I think you did explain it. There is poem by a Norwegian poet that I love, the ending is ".. the discovery that you loved pleasing another person, that is the purest pleasure of all". It sounds to me that you are learning more and more about yourself, so is the case with Fiona. You should cherish Her and recognize that you will never find another Lady like Her and you are doing the right thing by focusing on pleasing Her and discovering how much it pleases you.Flrmatz wrote: ↑Wed Aug 23, 2023 9:29 amSo I can't explain it at all why I am so happy in this situation. In the end, it almost doesn't even matter. I am happy and Fiona is happy too. I love it more and more to submit to her. She loves to extend her power over me more and more. I've even thought at one point about extending our arrangement of no sex until Halloween, as she originally thought, until the end of the year.
I think you should tell Fiona about your thinking about extending the No-sex arrangement. Remember, Fiona originally proposed that this should last untill the end of the year, When you objected to that, She gave in and agreed to Halloween because She did not want to push you outside of your comfort zone.
I suggest that you consider if you should buy Her some nice flowers, and present these to Her with a nice card. You should off course be nude and kneeling in front of Her sitting on a sofa when you very humbly present this and tell Her you want to share something with Her. In the card, emphasize your ever deeper love for Her and how much you love to be Dominated by Her. Confess how you felt when She used the term "Mistress" when She was drunk at Her birthday. Tell Her that you remember that She originally wanted the No-sex arrangements to last till the end of the year, but that She shortened that period since you objected. Now you have realized that this was selfish of you, you now realize that it is more important to you to Please Her and you appologize for not accepting Her proposal in the first place and will be happy if She now reconsiders what will be the most appropriate date for ending the no-sex period.
But don't be surprised if your Mistress decides on a new date even further into the future. Regardless of what She says, thank Her for the decision and swear to Her that you will allways obey Her.
Sincerely
elina
(submissive male)
Hello Elina,
thank you very much for your deep thoughts. I don't think I can disagree with you on any point. Especially, the point that the more submissive I become the more dominant Fiona becomes is 100 percent true. And also that I enjoy it more and more.
At the weekend I think something happened that absolutely underlines your theory. I arrived too late at Fiona. She hates unpunctuality. That I basically could not help it at all, because just before me was an accident and the road was closed and I stood in a traffic jam counted for them not. She said that I had ruined the evening with my unpunctuality and she will teach me to be punctual. I had to lay naked over her legs and she gave me armed with a hairbrush a few really painful blows on the ass. Fiona has spanked my ass before. However, that was usually not at all as hard as this time. And also so far only with the hand. Otherwise, I was even horny by this treatment. But this time it hurt and I was not really horny. I liked somehow though this consequence and their strictness. But with each hit my horniness immediately evaporated again. It hurt, but she has not seriously hurt me. It was just more than that it was just unpleasant. It really hurt.
But the crazy thing was that I was even disappointed in myself. I knew that I basically could not do anything for it. And yet I was angry with myself that I had disappointed Fiona.
To make matters worse, my punishment was not yet complete. I had to go to her bedroom for the evening. However, I was not allowed to sit on the bed, nor was I allowed to lie down in the bed. It was almost 2 hours until she finally took me out of the bedroom and allowed me to kiss and caress her feet. In these 2 hours I noticed myself how my thoughts became more and more submissive. I did not want her to be disappointed. And that I had messed up our evening was an incredibly bad feeling. I really wanted to show her that I was really sorry. Until now, I had never really knelt before her. So like a slave, or a subordinate. Therefore, I knelt at some point in front of the door, so that when she opens the door finds me at least in a submissive position and I can apologize to her again.
For the weekend after next I had given her for her birthday a city trip to Amsterdam in a spa hotel including massages and sauna and so. The idea originally was that we can look at Amsterdam together, and relax together. And I admit I had hopes to see her naked in the sauna.
I thought that I could offer her to make the trip with her sister instead of me. So she can be sure that I can not see her naked. Now that I'm alone again I think it was an incredibly stupid idea of mine to offer her that. But in that situation I was completely in my submissive attitude that I had the need to offer her that.
When I offered it to her during the foot massage, Fiona actually reacted very enthusiastically at first. She liked that I expressed my understanding that she might not want to go to the sauna with me. And that she might prefer to take her sister with her. Of course, I told her that I'd had the idea for a few days, not just since I'd disappointed her. She liked the idea, but checked a few times to make sure I was serious. She also said that she would like to go on a city trip with me because she also likes to spend time with me. But I would be right, the sauna with me together will not happen. She even said that I was not allowed to go to a sauna at all. Except maybe if it is a pure men's sauna.
I could really notice how her mood had clearly improved again. She agreed and asked her sister by message if they both wanted to make the trip. I continued to massage her feet. And then came something that I had not expected. She withdrew her feet from me and was suddenly really strict again.
Fiona: Was that your plan from the beginning? Is that why you gave me the spa vacation? Just to see me naked in a sauna?
I was so surprised and caught off guard by the sudden severity in her tone and choice of words. This resolute manner of hers triggered all the submissive points in me that I really didn't dare to lie to her.
Me: The vacation should not be just to see you naked. But I admit it that I had hoped a bit when I booked the sauna that we go together darein and I see you naked.
Fiona: Are you totally crazy. I've told you before that my body is not there for your satisfaction. I thought you would have learned that by now. There will be consequences for you.
I then got my ass handed to me again that evening by her with the hairbrush. This time it was even more blows and I was actually close to safeword. But I somehow knew that I had earned these blows.
Afterwards we have made us bed ready. In bed Fiona then said to me:
Fiona: You know that I love you?
Me: Yes, I know. I love you too.
Fiona: And because I love you I have to be strict with you, you know that too?
Me: Yes, I know. I am so sorry.
Fiona: I have to be hard on you now. You can't see me naked. It's better for both of us. You like it so much when I have an orgasm. And my orgasm is much more intense when I know that you concentrate only on me. And how will you concentrate on me if you try to satisfy your own lust for me?
Me: I really won't try to see you naked by such a trick anymore. I'm sorry.
Fiona: At least I give you credit for being honest and for giving me the gift of taking my sister. That's why your punishment is much smaller than you deserve.
Me: Okay, I am so sorry.
Fiona: Until I come back from Amsterdam you are not allowed to touch me sexually. You may massage my neck and back and also my feet. But until I come back you are not allowed to lick me or touch me. Did you understand that.
I really had to swallow when I heard that.
Me: Um, yes, okay um, but isn't that also a punishment for you? I can also do something that only hurts me?
Fiona: Haha, do you think that I can only have fun when you satisfy me? You are doing a good job, no question. But I was single before you. I will do it myself. And you must not disturb me. I'm going to do it myself. And if you even think about touching me, I swear you won't be allowed to touch me at all this year.
She was so incredibly dominant in this situation. I didn't know what to say anymore. Although it was dark in the bedroom I offered her that I could put on my blindfold which she wanted in any case. And then I heard how she undressed and did it herself with her hand. The feelings were indescribable in me. It was horny to hear them. It was also kind of horny to hear how she enjoyed your sexuality without me. But at the same time it was also a feeling of shame. I had disappointed her for the second time in one evening. And now she had to make do with satisfying herself instead of me spoiling her.
Well, now I'm going to help watch her sister's kids while they go to Amsterdam. At least I can look forward to when she comes back I can lick her again. Even if it will probably be again only lick over the panties.