While lying in bed we talked openly about her last week's revelation. After 21 years together that she had not 1, but in fact 2 lovers better than me, and one of them had a big cock. Damn, I thought it was only 1. One was a serious foreplay guy, and one was a gentle dominant that made her feel she could give herself totally to him. She craves that feeling of total sexual surrender. It's a bit hard to hear that she has felt this for so long, but it's better to admit it now and do something about it.
She wanted clarification on:
-Her being a hotwife does not give me permission to have another woman.
-she doesn't want me there because she won't be able to let herself go. She will send texts and tell me about it.
-she can stop it whenever she wants to.
She asked "so how do we go about finding someone". I was really surprised how quickly she asked this. Her first reactions are:
-not someone we know;
-she didn't say no to an ex;
-open to a flirt meetup, then a date first to be sure;
-open to dating apps or forums and I said I will research it.
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We were naked in bed for an afternoon nap but not playing around at all. She got horny quickly and asked me to slide into her and she came very quickly. I put on a 9"x7.5" sleeve pretending it was another guy fucking her gently with deep grinding to a crazy intense orgasm. I then slid into her loose pussy and we continued the roleplay. "You are so open and loose after him, she said he came twice in her, and asked me to cum her and she had another orgasm. Wow.
We continued the chat in the kitchen clarifying some things but still have a lot to talk about. This thing of waiting 21 years is grinding a bit. When we met she used to tease me I was the second best, so I really put in a lot of effort in. After 6 months or so I asked, am I the best now and she said yes, for sure. It didn't sit well with me though, a bit of lack of sincerity. She now admits she said that just said that to appease me but now says I never met his level. Hmm, I don't like that though.