I'm Ky, and I'm a cuck-oholic

[txrockdog]

Txrockdog,

When I read your comment, I had to immediately reply. I’ve been thinking about how to best reply, but I don’t think I could have said it better myself. Your thoughts and what you expressed are greatly appreciated.

And you’re right. I’m only human. I try not to let comments hit me too hard. Like I’ve said a few times, I do think the comments are meant to be helpful and not to impune or demean. You captured a lot of what I’ve been thinking about the last few days. There’s a reason I’ve been reluctant to use my safe word. I’ve been the one to use over and over again in the past. And yes, my wife anting to explore this submissive side of her personality is one thing she really wanted. Has it gone further than I’d envisioned? Yes. But I’m not seeing the sky falling yet. And believe me, I’m always watching.

I’ll add more to my comments in an upcoming post. But I had to reply to your comment because I really felt like you hit the nail on the head. Thanks.

You are very welcome Ky. Your thread is the reason I compulsively check this site multiple times a day. Just as Sipho appears to have Jaimee addicted to his cock and she has you addicted to riding the roller coaster along with her; I find myself addicted to your writing, particularly because of the window you give us into these “behind the scenes” interactions between the two of you. It is intensely personal stuff for you I am sure, but it makes for extremely compelling reading for those of us looking through the window. Thanks again for sharing it with us.

[rascalnvixen]

Txrockdog, You took the words right out of my mouth. I find this thread very compelling and is the prime thread I look for every time I check in (usually 2-3 times a day). Ky, keep writing so well about the exciting life you and Jaimee/Lexi are living!! Always looking forward to your next post.

Rascal

[mick_flow]

The other night I was lying in bed, thinking of a number of the comments on this forum. Some comments I disregard because they're off the mark far enough that they don't apply, but some are very insightful and cause me to pause and think. This night, my wife lay close, our conversation a whisper in the dark. It was late and we both needed to be asleep, but sleep seemed to elude us both.

"Jaimee, do you... do you think... have we gone far?" I asked, my voice tentative, worried I was poking the bear by asking what had become by now a now well-worn question.

I swear I felt her stiffen. "You mean have I gone too far?" she said, her voice defensive.

"I'm not trying to pick a fight, Jaimee," I said, trying to keep my voice as placating as possible.

Jaimee let out a long sigh, the sound of frustration mixed with fatigue. "I'm sorry. I know that. It's just we keep circling back to this, so it's clear you feel like I've gone too far."

"Not exactly," I began, the words catching slightly. "Well, maybe..." I paused, knowing Jaimee was ready to interject. I quickly continued, "It's not just the tattoos," I said, preempting her defense. "Or the piercings. And what's happened so far. If it were just those things, I think I'd be okay with it. But I have to be honest, when you add it all up - our neighbors seeing a lot more of our lifestyle, even your mum with her suspicions - it's a lot to handle. Individually, maybe it's manageable, but together, it's overwhelming. This Lexi persona of yours, she doesn't seem to have any limits." I took a quick breath and added, "Lexi scares me a bit."

She scoffed lightly, the sound echoing in the quiet room. "That's rubbish. Lexi is just a part of me, a part we both enjoy. She lets me be wild, lets me push boundaries without losing who I am at my core. I'm still Jaimee, love. I'm still your wife, the mother of our children. Lexi is just the name we give to the part of me that's free, that loves this game as much as you do."

I felt the weight of her words, the dismissal of my fears as if they were unfounded. "But where do we draw the line? When does it stop being fun and start being something else entirely?"

Jaimee shifted closer, her hand finding mine in the dark. "I don't know, Ky. Maybe we don't need a line. Maybe it's about feeling it out as we go. I love you, and I love our life together. Lexi is just... an extension, a way to explore parts of myself I never knew existed. It's not about losing myself; it's about finding more of me." Her voice softened, trying to bridge the gap between us.

"But what if you lose yourself in the exploration?" I asked, my voice betraying my fear. "What if you find you prefer Lexi to Jaimee?"

She squeezed my hand, her tone reassuring. "I won't lose myself, Ky. I couldn't, not with you here. Lexi is fun, exciting, but she's not my whole world. You, our family, that's my anchor. Lexi's just the sail that lets me catch the wind, feel the thrill. But at the end of the day, I come back home to you, to us. I need you to trust that."

I sighed, the tension between us palpable yet somehow comforting, I still felt like we had a willingness to navigate this together. "I want to trust that. I'm just... I'm worried. I'm supposed to be your anchor, but I think I'm being drug along the bottom of the ocean. I'm not being very effective."

Jaimee moved even closer, her breath warm against my cheek. "You're doing fine," she assured me, her voice a calm balm. "And I appreciate you giving me this freedom. I've been thinking a lot about why I'm so into all this lately. Growing up at home, all those years of boarding school... I was in this super strict environment, you know? Layers of rules, and if you stepped out of line, there were consequences. Even at home, my mum was like a bloody sergeant major for propriety."

I smiled at the imagery, understanding her mother all too well. "So this has all been about rebellion?"

Jaimee let out a snort of a laugh. "I suppose. In a way, yeah. I mean, sod what society thinks is proper, innit? I want to live by my own rules for once." She paused, her gaze going all dreamy like she was looking into the past or maybe just into herself. "But I know there's got to be limits, right? Can't have everything going tits up, can we? But there's got to be room for a bit of exploration, for pushing the boundaries, for actually living life on our terms."

"But we've been playing this game on and off for quite some time now," I said, my voice gentle, careful not to provoke. "I suppose I thought you'd have explored this rebellious streak of yours a while back. But it seems like it's only grown, like you're really set on doing things your way now."

She laughed softly, a sound that was both wistful and resolute. "Maybe I am. We'll need to find a new center eventually, but I'm not quite there yet. I'm enjoying this, pushing boundaries. And with Sipho... there's this connection, this... I've never felt the things I feel when we play. It's like discovering a whole new part of myself I want to explore."

Her words were a mix of excitement and confession. "But, Ky, I love you, love our family. I don't want to lose any of you. I'm so grateful for your support. If I've gone too far, I'm sorry, love. I want this to be good for you too."

I felt her reassurance, but also the tension of her desire to continue. "I'm doing my best not to end things this time. I've tried to leave the control in your hands. You've liked that, haven't you?"

"Liked it? I've bloody loved it," she admitted, her tone softening. "But I'm not ready to give it up. I worry you'll... you'll want to pull the plug too soon."

I took a deep breath, the conversation teetering between reassurance and risk. "I told you I wouldn't this time - that it would be your call... I just want to make sure we're not losing us in all this."

She moved closer, her hand resting over my heart. "We're not losing us, Ky. We're just... expanding us. But I need to know you're with me, that you'll keep going along."

Her words were a plea, wrapped in the love we shared, yet tinged with the edge of her newfound desires. "I'm here," I managed, though my voice was a mix of commitment and caution. "But we need to keep talking about this, yeah? Keep checking in."

"Yeah, we do," she agreed, her voice a whisper of promise and excitement. "I just... I want to experience all of this while I can. While we can."

The conversation was far from perfect, marked by pauses, corrections, and the raw honesty of two people trying to navigate a complex love and lifestyle. But there, in the intimacy of our shared space, something felt different. I was there with the woman I loved, sharing a moment of intimate conversation. While Lexi was just a name, a sort of excuse for Jaimee to delve into her sexual exploration, it seemed like Lexi was morphing into someone real, almost as if I was lying beside a stranger.

We whispered our goodnights, and soon Jaimee's breathing deepened into sleep, leaving me wide awake, my mind churning through our conversation. Adding to the whirl of thoughts was the fresh image of her latest tattoo work, seared into my memory. She had returned home just yesterday, her skin adorned with new ink.

The tattoo on Jaimee's right breast had evolved. The original spade, inked in black with sharp outlines and shaded depth, now contained a white 'Q' at its center. This addition was subtle yet striking, the white 'Q' contrasting against the dark spade, making the tattoo even more symbolic of her identity within the cuckolding lifestyle.

Around her nipple, Jaimee had further expanded the design. A series of delicate, thorny vines now encircled her areola, the thorns pointed and menacing, interwoven with small, dark roses, each petal meticulously detailed to contrast with the starkness of the thorns. This floral pattern radiated outwards, subtly framing her nipple like a dark, intricate crown. The vines twisted and turned, following the natural curve of her breast, adding an element of danger and beauty to the spade.
The addition of these elements meant that most of her breast was now covered in ink.

She insisted that she had chosen the design herself and paid for it, asserting that Sipho had no hand in it. I wanted to believe her—I did believe her. Yet, I couldn't shake off the concern that, even if Sipho hadn't directly influenced her decision, his presence might have subtly shaped her desires in ways she wasn't fully acknowledging.

Thanks Ky - that's powerful, raw and honest. I know I had to hold back a tear (in a good way) reading that. I think I can see what Jaimee is saying. You see, I recall when my wife and I got into the life style at first and, damn that first encounter hit me hard. I was upset, very upset. Thought I'd lost everything, that my wife was gone. I was a sea of emotions in middle of a hurricane, of fear and uncertainty, of loss, of guilt. Amidst this whirlwind of emotions, my wife took my hand, she held it tight. I calmed, and she looked deep into my eyes and said "I'm still here, I'm still <name>. I'm still your wife. You've just got to come and get me. But I'm here waiting for you to come back". The love in her voice hit me like a tonne of bricks. The winds died down, and I could breath. I realized it was me, and my emotions that were getting in the way.

Jaimee is right, she's still your wife, and the mother of your kids, and you are still her rock.

I can also understand your concern. We all change over time, and its often the people around us who make the biggest impressions. My wife, ever the wine drinker found a partner and discovered IPAs, and then delved into some hard core rock. It was still my wife, but she had new interests and new things to explore. Its just that we didn't find those interests together, she found them with with her lover. But then, that's to be expected. She was spending time with him.... at that same time, she's still my wife. I can see how that might feel with the Jaimee, particularly as those interests include tattoos, a more visible statement about interests! - I've friends who will openly admit to being addicted to tattoos... so I can see the interest and appeal for Jaimee. It might be an interest spurred by Sipho, but it's Jaimee who is exploring it. She's still Jaimee but with new interests, and new experiences.

Yes my wife felt familiar and foreign at the same time. But that's to be expected, after all she is spending time with Sipho and learning new interests. In my case I had a choice to make, do I enjoy her interests with her, or do I persist with the feeling strange? - Well, I could sample some new IPA's... and I enjoyed it... not all of it, I still can't do the super sour stuff. I'm still not really into heavy rock, but there are songs I love. All of which I wouldn't have discovered if I did make the decision, and the effort to try to enjoy these new interests through her eyes.

I think you are right, keep checking in with each other. I think I understand how you feel, because I can see some parallels. It's normal. Good luck Ky! - Keep us all posted.

PS: Has Jaimee suggested you might enjoy a tattoo as well? - I ask only because the one friend who admits to being addicted, well his enthusiasm spread to his wife who then got her own. But she insisted in a more subtle version. Last time I saw him he was saving for a full roman eagle across his chest, and a intertwining pattern in the background which would lace up with the existing tattoo on his back... it was actually pretty impressive.

[txrockdog]

The tattoo on Jaimee's right breast had evolved. The original spade, inked in black with sharp outlines and shaded depth, now contained a white 'Q' at its center. This addition was subtle yet striking, the white 'Q' contrasting against the dark spade, making the tattoo even more symbolic of her identity within the cuckolding lifestyle.

Around her nipple, Jaimee had further expanded the design. A series of delicate, thorny vines now encircled her areola, the thorns pointed and menacing, interwoven with small, dark roses, each petal meticulously detailed to contrast with the starkness of the thorns. This floral pattern radiated outwards, subtly framing her nipple like a dark, intricate crown. The vines twisted and turned, following the natural curve of her breast, adding an element of danger and beauty to the spade.
The addition of these elements meant that most of her breast was now covered in ink.

She insisted that she had chosen the design herself and paid for it, asserting that Sipho had no hand in it. I wanted to believe her—I did believe her. Yet, I couldn't shake off the concern that, even if Sipho hadn't directly influenced her decision, his presence might have subtly shaped her desires in ways she wasn't fully acknowledging.

Ky, she gave you an opening there. You can point out that going too large on an enlargement would likely ruin the dimensions and aesthetic vision of the tattoos on her breast. Can’t have thorns and flowers that look like they were made of silly putty or a spade that looks like a spacex starship marring her beauty now can we?

[elina]

Thanks Ky,

I truly appreciate your most recent posts. I makes Jaimee more real and, at least for me, creates a better perspective on Her thinking.

Even so, nobody else posting here is living inside Jaimee, not even Ky. And from my reading, I believe even Ky got an update to his perspective on Jaimee/Lexi from that nighttime conversation. Clearly, Jaimee /Lexi is a very special purpose.

What I strongly appreciate with Her is Her desire to shatter all the rules and live by Her own rules. I can share that, but I (and most of us I think) never had the guts to actually disregard the rules to the extent that She is doing.

Sincerely
elina

[mundyman]

“You captured a lot of what I’ve been thinking about the last few days. There’s a reason I’ve been reluctant to use my safe word. I’ve been the one to use over and over again in the past. And yes, my wife anting to explore this submissive side of her personality is one thing she really wanted. Has it gone further than I’d envisioned? Yes. But I’m not seeing the sky falling yet. And believe me, I’m always watching.

I’ll add more to my comments in an upcoming post. But I had to reply to your comment because I really felt like you hit the nail on the head. Thanks.”

This explains a lot Ky about your present mindset and why you are responding the way you are. I still think you need a physical reconnection with your wife, as in PIV sex. But that’s me. What do I know??
Good luck and best wishes on your continued journey in this lifestyle.
I eagerly await your future updates.

[scdiver]

Ky, as mentioned by an earlier post, you should renegotiate with Sipho and Jaimee. Sipho only has power because you let him. You really hold all the power.
It has been 8 months, with one interlude, since you have been with Jaimee. That is too much.
Sipho will probably threaten to end this session, but if you hold strong you will gain your wife again. Sipho wants to play as bad as Jaimee does.

I only post based on my experience that I don't want you to experience.

Good luck.

I will be in London in 2 weeks. Any ideas on sights to see?

[mundyman]

Ky,
With Jaimie having her clit pierced, is she exclusively an oral and anal slut for Sipho and his boys????
Also is he having her service women as part of her submission to him????

[Ky_Da]

Thanks Ky,

I truly appreciate your most recent posts. I makes Jaimee more real and, at least for me, creates a better perspective on Her thinking.

Even so, nobody else posting here is living inside Jaimee, not even Ky. And from my reading, I believe even Ky got an update to his perspective on Jaimee/Lexi from that nighttime conversation. Clearly, Jaimee /Lexi is a very special purpose.

What I strongly appreciate with Her is Her desire to shatter all the rules and live by Her own rules. I can share that, but I (and most of us I think) never had the guts to actually disregard the rules to the extent that She is doing.

Sincerely
elina

Thanks for saying that about my wife. I completely agree! and it’s nice that some are willing to give her the benefit of the doubt. She not perfect, but I love her flaws and all.

[Ky_Da]

Ky, as mentioned by an earlier post, you should renegotiate with Sipho and Jaimee. Sipho only has power because you let him. You really hold all the power.
It has been 8 months, with one interlude, since you have been with Jaimee. That is too much.
Sipho will probably threaten to end this session, but if you hold strong you will gain your wife again. Sipho wants to play as bad as Jaimee does.

I only post based on my experience that I don't want you to experience.

Good luck.

I will be in London in 2 weeks. Any ideas on sights to see?

I know there are dozens of recommendations for tourist spots in London. I’ve done a handful of the most popular, but the crowds of people drive me a little nuts. I kind of like the more obscure things like Dennis Severs’ House. It’s a cool little museum. You feel like you’re stepping back into the 18th century. Another one I really liked was the Postman’s Park. it’s a quiet park behind St. Paul’s Cathedral. It’s a cool, peaceful place in the middle of all the chaos. Those are my two recommendations. They’re not for everyone, but I tend to seek out the quieter spots if I can. I have a hard time with large crowds.

[veub]

Ky, you and Jaimee have both stated many times that, in the past, you put the brakes on her relationships. In reading your story I don't see where you did that. Maybe Derrick, I can't access that story, but with Wade you didn't put the brakes on and actually invited him back into your life after his kids were born. With Matt, she was deeply involved without any interference from you and only dropped him for Sipho.
Can you give some indication of when you stopped things?

[David52]

Ky, Another post request...

Your thread can be read as a classic romance story with you as hero of course and Jaimee as your beautiful love interest. Sipho however is the villain, though seems you maintain respect for him. I hope that sometime you can describe your interactions with him and your understanding of his motives. He must be more than a wealthy sex fiend.

[Ky_Da]

Ky, Another post request...

Your thread can be read as a classic romance story with you as hero of course and Jaimee as your beautiful love interest. Sipho however is the villain, though seems you maintain respect for him. I hope that sometime you can describe your interactions with him and your understanding of his motives. He must be more than a wealthy sex fiend.

I think I can fulfill with that request. Or at least part of it. I realize now that by not writing much about Sipho, I’ve allowed readers to paint their own pictures of him, and almost all are not flattering.

I don’t know where the line is between well-to-do and wealthy. Sipho is somewhere in the very-well-to-do column, but I’m hesitant to call him wealthy. But then again, I only see a part of his life. He could be one of those guys who has all kinds of hidden assets. Who knows exactly.

I am working on an update where I dive more into Sipho and what whole dynamic. I guess I should manage expectation though and just let everyone know I won’t get that out until next week sometime - lots going on this weekend. I have a date with Joanna ironically enough. My wife and Joanna decided to mix things up this weekend, so Jaimee will be home with the kids, and I’ll be taking Joanna out for an evening. Crazy.

[David52]

Have fun!

[scdiver]

I would love to land in London in two weeks and find an update about you and Jaimee getting intimate.

[scdiver]

I say this with respect, Jaimee trying to put you and Joanna together might be dangerous. Jaimee is a slut, any dick will do. I think that you are wired much like me. A one woman man. Getting intimate with someone else could lead to problems.
Enjoy your date with Joanna

[all4fun]

"Maybe I am. We'll need to find a new center eventually, but I'm not quite there yet. I'm enjoying this, pushing boundaries. And with Sipho... there's this connection, this... I've never felt the things I feel when we play. It's like discovering a whole new part of myself I want to explore."

"I'm doing my best not to end things this time. I've tried to leave the control in your hands. You've liked that, haven't you?"

"Liked it? I've bloody loved it," she admitted, her tone softening. "But I'm not ready to give it up. I worry you'll... you'll want to pull the plug too soon."

I took a deep breath, the conversation teetering between reassurance and risk. "I told you I wouldn't this time - that it would be your call... I just want to make sure we're not losing us in all this."

She moved closer, her hand resting over my heart. "We're not losing us, Ky. We're just... expanding us. But I need to know you're with me, that you'll keep going along."

While Lexi was just a name, a sort of excuse for Jaimee to delve into her sexual exploration, it seemed like Lexi was morphing into someone real, almost as if I was lying beside a stranger.

Yet, I couldn't shake off the concern that, even if Sipho hadn't directly influenced her decision, his presence might have subtly shaped her desires in ways she wasn't fully acknowledging.

Ky, how much do you know of Jaimee's (or Lexi's now) time with Sipho. Does she talk about her experiences in depth. Have there been any conversations of a dream like state or loss of time. Not all of the time, of course, but when she's been in these states of sexual bliss, when she is gone for extended periods of time or involved with BDSM play. This might shed more light on what Sipho has done to "modify her behavior". Whatever he is doing it has been scarily effective.

My strong assumption is that Sipho is of African-Zulu heritage. You said he is South African and that is a Zulu name.

The name Sipho is of African-Zulu origin and means "gift" in English. It's a name with significant historical and cultural meaning. This name reflects the African belief in the importance of bestowing blessings and nurturing relationships through the exchange of gifts.

There is a long history of South African culture and trance states, most notably through dance, but in other forms as well. There is a long study from 1998 titled A PSYCHOLOGICAL STUDY OF SHAMANIC TRANCE STATES IN SOUTH AFRICAN SHAMANISM.

Some excerpts from this.

The ASC Models of Trance States

Various models of trance have emerged in the literature. The classic definition of an ASC by Ludwig [1969] (1990) describes an ASC as including (1) alteration in thinking, (2) disturbance in time sense, (3) loss of control, (4) change in emotional expression, (5) change in body image, 6) perception distortion, (7) change in meaning and significance, (8) sense of the ineffable, (9) feelings of rejuvenation and (10) hyper suggestibility.


More.

The researchers (Erwin et al, 1988) conclude that in trance state;, the entire behavioral, autonomic and endocrinological syndrome is consistent with a state of cerebral organization that is governed by the limbic system, as shown by tire euphoria or ecstasy and analgesia typical for the basolateral amygdala activation. The amygdala is the key point of control for cortisol and endorphin levels, both being shown to be raised in trance states.

Part of me wonders if Shipo may have shaman ancestorial heritage in his bloodline and have a natural ability. I know a psychic, and her ability to communicate with spirits has long run in her family. Much like western psychics, shaman are believed to be born with abilities. This is believed across many cultures across the globe.

I understand that this may sound crazy to some people, but this shit is as real as it gets. Supernatural abilities exist and are documented.

I am not saying that Sipho is some magic spellcaster scheming to turn Jaimee into his slave. It is more nuanced than that. What I think is in play is that he possesses a natural ability to be persuasive, and given the right subject, as you would have with someone susceptible to hypnosis, that subject can be controlled.

I had mentioned DDNOS before. So many of the effects described above with ASC Trance models and DDNOS are similar, it is impossible to deny the connection. Some of the DDNOS effects. Sense of detachment from your emotions, impression of watching yourself as if in a film, feeling unreal, out-of-body experiences, loss of feeling in parts of your body, distorted views of your body, sense that what is happening is unreal, being unsure of your boundaries between self and others, feeling like a stranger to yourself, and feeling like there are different people inside you.

These things are all closely related. Sipho flat out told you he was into behavior modification. These are real changes that happen to ones brain.

Jaimee was first with Sipho just over a year ago, around NYE, correct. He quickly "hooked" her on his big dick and dominating personality. It was just over a year ago you posted this. It has all come true, and then some.

I half snorted a laugh, “Yeah, same. But I’d like to know what Sipho has in mind.”

“A lot of that will depend on us. He has loads of suggestions and ideas, but he wants to know how far he can push things. He wants this to be good for all of us.”

“Sounds reasonable,” I said.

“I think so, too,” Jaimee agreed but then made a sort of derisive/sarcastic laugh, “but some of his ideas, his suggestions… they’re definitely ones that would push me way out of my comfort zone. To be honest, I’m terrified just thinking about them.”

“Oh really?!” I sat up a little straighter. “Like?”

Jaimee’s face reddened a deep scarlet, the color going clear into the roots of her hair. She looked away, unable to hold my gaze. She took another deep breath, as if she were struggling to find enough oxygen in the room.

“Many of them are what you might expect—what you read in the stories, but Sipho likes a bit of bondage. He likes to push boundaries in general, but he likes bondage to be a part of it – it’s kind of his thing.”

I sat and studied her face for a moment after she stopped speaking, but I felt like there was more. I pushed, “You blushed pretty hard there, what else did Sipho want? Something’s causing quite the reaction.”

Jaimee had a hard time meeting my eyes, “What he really likes is transforming a housewife into a…”

“…A cock slut?” I finished for her after she paused for a long few seconds.

“A black cock slut,” Jaimee added. “It’s ridiculously cliché, but the way Sipho talks about it…” my wife stopped speaking, pulling her knees together and hugging her legs. “It’s not a game to him—or maybe it is—but it’s not the way we think of a game. He enjoys provoking that transformation, orchestrating it.”

“Okay, there’s a lot to unpack there… but why’s it causing you to blush like that though?” I asked. “You’re not exactly a novice to this.”

“This wouldn’t be like anything we’ve done before,” my wife began to explain. “He’s not into breaking up a marriage, but he absolutely believes he would make me his…” Jaimee paused, bit her lower lip briefly, but finally said, “cock slut.”

“And what? You’re worried he might actually be able to do it? Like he’s some magical sex wizard?”

Jaimee laughed and shook her head, “No, he’s not a hung black Gandolf.” Her features then grew more serious. “But he is into the psychology of it all, using the brain’s reward system. As in releasing dopamine, creating associations between interracial sex and feeling pleasure… it’s basically behavior modification.”

I leaned back against the headboard and sighed, “Fuck,” I swore softly, feeling a wave of cuckold lust. What she was describing was, and has been, one of the things that never fails to get me off. The thought of my wife only desiring someone else’s cock, a black cock. “And you’re worried it might actually work?”

“I’m sure it would if I allowed it. If I really let myself fixate on it… dwell on it… want it. Probably, yeah.”

I sat there in silence for a time, imagining my wife addicted to a black man’s cock. The images saved in my memory of her last hookup with Sipho came to mind, seeing the intense look of pleasure on her face, watching as perspiration dripped from her skin, as her pussy stretched around another man’s cock. It twisted me up in knots but the feelings and emotions it generated were so powerful.

“You like the idea?” Jaimee asked, one brow arched high on her forehead.

“You know I do,” I admitted. “It’s basically what you were teasing me about, you, getting your satisfaction from your lover instead of me.”

“No,” Jaimee declared forcefully. “This isn’t just a game. This is serious, it’s behavior modification. You really want me, your wife, to be addicted to black cock?”

I tried to stifle the laugh that boiled from my throat. She shot me a very cross look. “Addicted seems a little overstated, but fuck if it doesn’t turn me on,” I said.

“Ky, this is serious,” Jaimee said again. “I can see it turns you on, but I don’t know if we can do this without hurting you, like really hurting you.”

“I’m not made out of paper mâché,” I said defensively.

“I know that,” Jaimee said, a frustrated edge to her voice. “But this… it’s pretty extreme, even for us.”

“We don’t have to do this,” I reminded her. “If you’re feeling uncomfortable—.”

“—That’s just it,” my wife interrupted. “Part of me wants to be uncomfortable, to feel that excitement. Part of me wants to do this—for a time anyway.”

“Last time was pretty exciting,” I admitted. I studied her face carefully, looking for any tales that might not align with her words. “So… are you looking for me to give you a push?”

“Or talk me out of it,” she said quickly.

“I get the feeling you don’t want me to do that,” I said.

Another shrug. “Maybe,” she said, and then added, “Sipho overwhelms me, and what he wants definitely pushes my boundaries.”

“This is probably one of those pivot points where I should say let’s tap the brakes, but fuck if I don’t want to do that. I’m so turned on by the idea that it’s impossible to get out of my head.”

We sat there in silence for a long moment, each processing what had just been said. Finally, I said, “Let’s meet with Sipho and talk.”

Ky my worry is that Jaimee is not under her own free will anymore. While she is telling you she wants to continue, and this is what she believes, I just don't think she steering the ship anymore. This would explain the disassociation of Lexi from Jaimee.

The changes this past 6-8 months, or since whenever she got her first tattoo, have been both rapid and drastic, not just in her appearance, but in her attitude, behavior, and the creation of Lexi. I think when he put his initials on her, there was a seismic and irreversible shift. Do you even know her body count anymore and who she has had sex with? Month's ago you were surprised it was in the dozens. This is not meant to be a negative thing. Many couples on here set personal goals of many men in year. I find that aspect of the lifestyle hot, and would like to know myself, but I do feel the husband should know who and how many the wife has been with.

Sipho was experienced with this already, and he knew exactly what he what he planning to do. He laid out his plans for you. What I don't think is that he ever had this level of success before. He is probably even like "holy fuck, I can't believe she is allowing me to do this".

His plan was to take an adventurous, but still in many ways, conservative, upscale, higher class wife, and turn her into his personal sex toy, one who is marked by him, and looks the part.

I'd bet she will be getting the implants, and they will be huge, and possibly lip filler while she is in there, and she will continue to get tattoos, even more and bigger QOS tattoos. Why would he stop now? Will she be black only, I don't think so since Sipho benefits from sharing her with all races, but who knows, he did say early on that was in his plans. Maybe he makes anyone who is not black wear a condom or something to that effect, and there is a possibility you are not allowed to have sex with her.

If this continues, who know, she may even have a black baby, Sipho's or someone else. There had been talk of this. What if she just does it like the tattoos and piercings, and a few months later when her belly is swelling, you find out. I'd be very wary if he invites he away, especially on a trip to South Africa with him.

This is a prefect storm of circumstances. Both you and Jaimee appear to be boundary pushers as well, always willing to push more, and further, and more extreme. The perfect couple for this, the perfect puppet master in Sipho. All signs point to classic mind control. He is beyond behavior modification and has moved onto body modification, a sign of absolute control.

I am not telling you to use your safe work and stop. This is a decision that only Ky and Jaimee can make. The concern is that Jaimee is being led by Sipho and Lexi, and only believes she wants this. I would not feel right if I did not point this out to you. Lust can cloud judgement. On the contrary, you discussed and agreed to letting Sipho do this. So, from that aspect, you are getting exactly what you asked for and wanted. I think you, and all of us, are just a bit shocked at what it actually looks like.


I think there is room in this world for both Jaimee and Lexi, they can co exist, and she can be Jaimee the majority of the time. I just worry what the long term effects to do Jaimee. What happens on your first family beach vacation when the tattoos can no lover be covered up?

We are all here rooting for you, for you happiness, whatever that may look like.

Whatever decisions you make, I pray they are the right ones for you. In an odd way I am envious, curious to know if my own wife would follow a similar path if given the opportunity. We have delved into her submitting to other men, but it is child's play compared to you to.

[Cuckcuckgoose1]

That was one hell of a post all4fun. Very interesting. I see it playing out this way. But I could be wrong about that.

[scdiver]

Allforfun, you post is right on target. This is what I have been trying to say. According to your post Sipho warned Ky and Jaimee what he would do.
Sipho took big advantage of Jaimee when Ky had enough and fucked Jaimee.
Ky, in the past you stopped the game when you felt Jaimee was getting too involved. You have posted that you are getting that same feeling.
I still feel that your marriage is in the most danger than it has ever been.
I know I am doom and gloom but I don't want you to go through what I did so long ago.
When you first visited Sipho over a year ago, Jaimee got agitated just being around him. She could feel the alpha male then. Despite her warning you, in the beginning, that you could get real hurt in this, you thought with your little head and went into this situation. Try to think with your big head now and put emotions out of this. Think logically, now is the time.
I agree that Sipho has never met a woman as susceptible as Jaimee.
I know you are writing a post about Sipho, but I really feel that he won't want to give up control in.May. I really feel that Sipho will ratchet up the mind control in the next few months. What has he got to loose?

[mundyman]

All4fun,
I said it earlier, I think Jaimie is going Bimbo big with her tits. Bolt-ones, ridiculously large. As in “Go big or go home!!!”
I also think she’ll eventually get her lips done.
I totally agree with your assessment that Jaimie is willingly being brain washed into her actions. I think it’s more an addiction as she enjoys the adrenaline and endorphin rush she gets from her activities. As we know tattoos also become an addiction for some people.
I just think that whoever Jaimie is coming out the other side of this will be someone not many of her friends or Ky will recognize.
Jaimie has been smart enough to keep the changes hideable. But that line is soon to be crossed. How long before the first neck tattoo or face tattoo, or tattoo higher in her cleavage appears?
And the summer is coming as well.
Time will tell……

[venus-can99]

I think y’all are making wild assumptions and accusations about Jaimee and Sipho and Ky’s marriage. It really is an insult to intelligence of Ky and Jaimee. I suggest we refrain from being armchair psychologists knowing only what Ky is sharing in his posts. As Ky has mentioned a few times his family is very important to both of them and subjecting the couple to ridicule is a turn off

[walter2000uk]

Even so, being Lexi and becoming a whore more and more often for a Dominant man like Sipho is very addictive for a wife-next-door like Jamie/Lexi , just knowing other men will pay to use her in ANY way Sipho dictates is very thrilling and the sex gives her so many orgasms too.
Sipho will in no way relinquish his firm hold on Jamie/Lexi and Lexi will not want to b released anyway, so Ky has to learn to enjoy being the cuckold hubby with a whore wife that he no has become.
My wife. Lily, is a Hotwife, has boyfriends, and is a whore too, and I have learned to enjoy the situation that is never going to end now.
Sincerely, wimp hubby walter and whore wife Lily xxxx
walter2000uk@yahoo.co.uk

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My Wife Lily, From Naïve Wife to Whore and Then Hotwife, with cuckold hubby Walter.

[Serrand]

Hi Ky. I have been inactive here for a very, very long time. You certainly won't remember me, I did write to your old thread and we did exchange some private messages with each other many, many years ago, when you and Jaimee were still living in California and the thing with Derrick were just unfolding and later with Wade and everything in between. In the past days I have catched up what has happened to you and Jaimee in the past 12 months. WOW, ot's quite a rollercoaster, and I just pray that in the end everything will be fine between you and Jaimee

Like others I'm also concerned that you and Jaimee are pushing the bondaries too far, and that especially Jaimee could loose herself in the end. You choose to share here on your thread important events and conversations with Jaimee, and that's absolute great, you're a fantastic and exciting writer, certainly one of the best in this forum. But maybe in a way to calm some of our fears and to put everything more into perspective could you maybe give us a little overview what are you and Jaimee actually doing normally in a week from monday morings to sunday evenings? I mean how many hours does Jaimee/Lexi actually really spend in a week normally with Sipho and/or his associates?? A while ago you mentioned that Jaimee works about 20-30 hours a week for Sipho. How does this work out, I mean does she go each day from mondays to fridays to the office for 4-5 hours? Or maybe only on three days of a week for 7-8 hours? Does Jaimee have always sex with Sipho or with one of his associates when she meets him and goes to the office, on every occasion? Or does it also happen that on some days Jaimee simply goes to the office and does her work and then returns home, and absolutely nothing sexual happens between her and Sipho, not even a blowjob? How many complete nights until the next mornings does Jaimee actually spend with Sipho in a week? Is there a certain day or days in the week that she spends the night with Sipho, or does this always differ from week to week? Are there still days where Jaimee has absolutely no contact with Sipho, not seeing him and also no phone calls and no exchanging messages between them? Or has Jaimee contact with Sipho on every single day, if not seeing him directly, then there are phone calls and messages exchanged between Jaimee and Sipho on every single day? I think that would be indeed concering. I think there should be at least 2-3 days in a week where there is no contact at all between Jaimee and Sipho.

You said that currently you don't have any penetrative sex with Jaimee, and continue not having it until end of May. Please could you tell me to concrete date when you will have full sex with Jaimee again? Don't tell that you haven't a concrete date? And on July just you, Jaimee and the kids will go on vacation to Florida? You continue to play the adventure with Sipho until July, until you will go on vacation to Florida, but you will start to have sex with Jaimee at the end of May, am I right? Sipho will certainly try to sabotage this, so that you won't have sex with Jaimee with regularity again from May on onwards. I hope you and Jaimee are aware that Sipho will try to prevent this? Please tell me that you're aware of this?

And in May it will be then 7 months where you and Jaimee haven't had any sex with each other. So the the last time you had sex with Jaimee was in the end of October 2024, and about that one occasion you also did post about here. But can I ask before that occasion at the end of October 2024 when did you have full sex with Jaimee before this event the last time? Do you remember the date? Can I ask how often did you have full penetrative sex with Jaimee in the past 9 months or so, actually??

Of all the things that I worry about, the thing what concerns me the most, and I have the impression that I'm not the only one who is especially concerned about this aspect, is that you and Jaimee don't have any sex with each other while you two are playing this risky game with Sipho. I mean it's not only about the pure phyisical connection between you and Jaimee, it's even more about the emotional connection that you and Jaimee share together when you two have sex with each other, when your cock is penetrating Jaimee, and that is totally missing between the two of you currently. Under no circumstances, I can imagine that this is something positive or healthy for the relationship between you and Jaimee. Excuse me if I'm all doom and gloom, as some here expressed it, but you and Jaimee not having sex for all this time, I think you will see this later as an immense mistake that never should have happened. I think you should have full sex with Jaimee at least once or twice a week also during this "adventure" of Jaimee with Sipho. He really couldn't do anything about this, if you really would stand up to him. He certainly don't want to end this adventure with Jaimee already now, even if he would threat to do this, I'm sure this would be only façade on his part. He is maybe even more dependent on Jaimee than Jaimee is on him at this stage. So you actually have the power. In any case, to wait until end of May to have full sex with Jaimee again, not having the full emotional connection with Jaimee, than comes when you and Jaimee are making love with each other, until then this is simply not good.

And are you not also concerned about, that the kind of love Jaimee is feeling for you could change when you and her don't have sex with each other for such a long time? I mean, I'm absolutely sure that Jaimee will always feel love for you. But aren't you afraid about that Jaimee's love for you could change in this way in the future, that she no longer loves you and desires you as her man and lover, but that she more loves you and adores you in a kind of way like often a "little sister loves and adores her big brother"? It still would be love that Jaimee is feeling for you, but of course a very different kind of love. Aren't you afraid about this development, when you don't have sex with Jaimee for such a long time? I strongly assume you never want to happen that Jaimee's love for you changes in this way? In your place this would excactly be one of the biggest fears for me, that the love my wife is feeling for me would change in this way I described.

And one last point, maybe I'm way of the mark here, but have you ever viewed from that perspective that Jaimee is pushing your boundaries exactly because she desires that you finally start to fight for to have full sex with her again? To show to her how much you love and desire her in this way, that you stand up against Sipho on this specific aspect, and that you no longer can go on one more day without having sex with her very regularly again? If you're accepting not to have sex with Jaimee for such a long time, not standing up against this, Jaimee could get more in more the impression that sex with her is actually not that essential for you? I mean I get more and more this impression.

Please excuse my very long text. What you and Jaimee do is of course only your decision. I simply don't want that anything bad happen to you and Jaimee and your marriage. Therefore, I recommend to, if you and Jaimee continue to explore all this thing with Sipho, also you have sex with Jaimee regularly during this time. And I really recommend to you and Jaimee to indeed cut everything with Sipho in July going forwards. Please forgive me if I have been too presumptuous in this message. I hope you can respond to my questions?

[scdiver]

Ky, you are getting warnings from some very diverse people. You will always have your backers but you need to listen to the warnings.
Jaimee absolutely wants to continue as things are. She is even pushing Joanna at you again. Jaimee has separated her love from her sex and probably doesn't understand that you would have a problem separating love from sex. You have said that you are feeling NRE with Joanna.
Please, renegotiate with Sipho and Jaimee. If Jaimee really loves you like she claims, and I think she does, then they will give in. Use the art of negotiation.
You won't be sorry if you do.

[scdiver]

Ky, have you to read familycucks thread. His family breaks many of society taboos. Yet it is a compelling and hot read.
What makes it hot to me is that all members participate in most of the sex. Even if it is being locked up and watching. When was the last time Jaimee included you or even told you a to all that was done to her.
The other thing is the women aren't tatted with slave and come fuck me tats that need to be hidden from the kids.
If you get to go to Florida with your family, is Jaimee going to the beach in long pants and a sweat shirt? I know you are raising your kids as you think is correct, but as someone that has made some of the mistakes you two are making, I don't want you to go through the pain that I have.
I could go on but I won't
Good luck Ky, I pray for you.