"I never want you to fuck me again"

[realcucklife]

Fantastic, keep the instalments coming!

[mr_slapdash]

X*: I want you to be my boyfriend
X*: Or rather my boifriend

That's how the text message with X* started out of the blue last Saturday. My wife was back home, I was still in New England, and here was X*, talking to me for hours and days, in a way I have never seen. About how he had mistreated me, taken me for granted, and not been reliable. He said he wanted to see me much more often, and to have sexual exclusivity. He would see no one else, and neither would I.

This then also began lots of involved text messages with my wife, who had never even met X* up until that point. X*'s messages really changed the game. They were sweet, loving, caring, while still being Dommy and an asshole. Don't get me wrong, I'm not stupid; I'm fully aware that this could all be bullshit. But he has such a hold on me that I'm willing to give him a chance to prove it, if he could keep his commitments and show up whenever he said he was going to.

My wife said if X* could prove himself to be a good boyfriend to me and be consistent, she was eager to help me explore this. And it shifted her mindset. So we've come to the following agreements:

• This Sunday, X* will come over and meet my wife for the first time.
• The two of them will negotiate together about how my chastity is to be handled, and when I am allowed orgasms.
• I will continue to give my wife oral sex and dildos whenever either of us want.
• I will not fuck my wife FOR NOW, and we will re-assess in a month.
• X* can come over any time he wants, whether my wife is there or not, and use me for his pleasure.
• My wife will get zero pushback from me any time she wants to spend money with A* or go out of town with him.

And that's where we are. Sunday my life is going to take a left turn as the two of them meet for the first time, and I go into "permanent" chastity. We'll have to see how it goes.

As I said, this is not the typical experience of this board. Definitely cuckold, with pussy free living and a wife who vastly prefers sex with her boyfriend. But the bull in this case is not my wife's boyfriend, but mine.

I'll let everyone know how Sunday goes.

[elina]

Dear Mr Slapdash

Really looking forward to hear from you and how this Sunday went.
Hopefully, Your Wife (now more Cuckoldress since She will be in complete control of Her own and your sex-life) will feel the inspiratio to really take charge and train you to become a proper submissive cuck-servant!

Sincerely
elina

[masculinecuck]

A cuck for 8 years this past March, denied for over 5 years now. I got a BJ last February and got 9 bjs last year.
I JO when I clean her, which is multiple times per week . I"m sure I'll never get my cock in her again. I complain but she's sure to remind me I was the one who initiated this lifestyle............

[mr_slapdash]

This is challenging for me to write. Not because I don't enjoy writing about it, but because it feels untrue, or so different from all of the other threads on the Cuckold Forum. My boyfriend is the one driving the cuckoldry, not my wife's boyfriend. But the only things that turn me on are truth and honesty; I don't get aroused or interested by tales that are obviously exaggerated or false. So, as before, I promise to only tell you what actually happened, and let you decide whether you want to keep reading or not.

So Saturday I drove back, but Saturday night I stayed with a friend because my wife wanted to have her girlfriend spend the night. (Yes, she has a girlfriend in addition to her boyfriend, A*.) So Sunday morning I come home, about two hours before X* is scheduled to arrive. We have a conversation that does not go as well as I had hoped it would. I explain to her once again my feelings of inadequacy around fucking her, and how much I would rather just concentrate on giving her oral pleasure and have her seek out PiV sex from A*, and possibly from other men who really fit her body type more than mine. She reiterates that's not really something she's interested in, and she doubts very much that she's actually going to be able to go through with denial. While she agrees that she would gladly stop fucking me if she could fuck A* three times a week, she can't give up fucking me if she can only see A* once a week.

This makes me really anxious about the meeting between my wife and X*. X* can be a real asshole, and I was deeply worried that it was not going to go well. X* has been insisting to me that I had to go completely pussy free with my wife, and that he would not compromise on this point. But my wife was still very much into finally meeting A*. She helped me dress up for X* in a black camisole, black lace thong panties, plaid schoolgirl skirt, chunky leather belt, leather choker with rings, and knee-high socks. (She has a really good eye for outfits.) I was surprised that she wanted to help me dress, but that was the first of many surprises that day. I caged and waited on the couch for X* to arrive.

When X* got there, my wife greeted him at the door. He had brought champagne, and my wife had laid out a nice cheese plate with 2-year-old Vermont cheddar and homemade jam. She sat in my easy chair while I laid in X*'s arms on the couch.

My friends... I was shocked at how well X* handled the whole conversation. Gone was the Dom persona that I had known. In his place was a charming, suave, articulate man who was saying all the right things to charm my wife. While I remained completely silent (X* had told me I was not to talk during this conversation) the two of them discussed my sexuality, my wife's needs and what she was and wasn't getting, X*'s need for control and my chastity, my wife's need for fucking, and how the two of them could compromise on their needs.

To my complete and utter amazement, the two of them agreed on a number of things:

• My wife and I would use condoms from now on if we engaged in PiV, and I would not cum inside her under any circumstances.
• I would tell X* any time she and I engage in intimacy.
• My wife will limit the fucking to no more than once per week, and only she will initiate it.
• X* controls when I am allowed to cum.
• I will cage every day and my wife will confirm this with X*.
• X* and my wife will have their own private communications to discuss how to handle my sexuality from here on out.
• X* can come over whenever he wants to have sex with me, whether or not she is there, and she can decide if she wants to watch or not.

X* then asked if I could give him a blowjob while she watched. She agreed, and I sucked him off on the couch. He came all over my face and clothes. All in all he was there about an hour.

I can't explain how huge of a deal using condoms is; my wife has always been adamantly against using condoms with me, because she loves being fucked bare and having cum inside her, something she can't yet do with A* because A*'s wife won't allow it. This led to long conversations on Sunday evening and Monday about de-fluid bonding, what it means for our marriage after 28 years of being fluid bonded, and her admitting that she would far rather fluid bond with A* instead of me. I think this is a great step towards me being pussy free, and I will take the win.

I was also really surprised how into watching me with X* she was. She said she enjoyed it, and was turned on by it as well, watching me be dominated by X*. She even said she might be into participating in the future. Whether that means her masturbating while she watches, me orally serving her while X* is there, or even X* fucking her while they humiliate me, I don't know. We shall have to see. But I was really surprised and happy to hear that she was even entertaining the option.

So that's where we are. All in all, a very good day, even if it didn't quite end up where I originally thought it would. I'll let you know how things progress as they move forward. I hope some of you enjoy this different take on the typical cuckold progression that we all read and enjoy on this board.

[Dream Weaver]

Great update Slapdash. The paradoxes are mind boggling. You want to to be pussy free, yet when you explain it to your wife, she doesn't want it, isn't "into it". You tell her you feel inadequate. I mean, most women when their men start talking like this, their pussy dries right up, they don't want that type of guy. And it's not like she isn't getting it somewhere else. This isn't Ward and June Cleaver.

And yet your male lover talks her right out of getting your bare dick. What? It makes sense in a very Yogi Berra sort of way. (sorry for the referencse, I'm old)

[Flint]

mr_slapdash, yours is such an incredible story, really stimulating! I can't wait to hear your progress and I am most envious.

[mr_slapdash]

Great update Slapdash. The paradoxes are mind boggling. You want to to be pussy free, yet when you explain it to your wife, she doesn't want it, isn't "into it". You tell her you feel inadequate. I mean, most women when their men start talking like this, their pussy dries right up, they don't want that type of guy. And it's not like she isn't getting it somewhere else. This isn't Ward and June Cleaver.

And yet your male lover talks her right out of getting your bare dick. What? It makes sense in a very Yogi Berra sort of way. (sorry for the referencse, I'm old)

I don't feel like it's a paradox. She really likes getting fucked, and it's not that she thinks I'm inadequate, or that she's un-attracted to me. She just thinks her boyfriend is so much better.

This is an important step. The next one that I hope happens is that she's able to go bare with her boyfriend. Perhaps A*'s wife will agree to it now that she's not fluid bonded with me anymore. She's told me that she would far rather be fluid-bonded with A*, so maybe no longer having my cum inside her will give her the impetus she and A* need to push the issue with A*'s wife.

Eventually I think my wife will stop fucking me. It might take a while, and it also might take her finding another lover or a way to see A* more often. But this is a slow line of progress to her not seeing my cock as an object worthy of her attention anymore. It can't go too quickly, because she can't be pushed into something she doesn't want. So I need to play the long game here. Real life unfortunately doesn't often go as quickly as I might like! Personally I'm thrilled that it's gone this far, and while I want it to go much further, I'm very happy to be here right now, in real life, not in fantasy.

[Flint]

mr_slapdash, I'd love to hear whether you have made any progress in your situation - as I'm sure would many others.

[mr_slapdash]

mr_slapdash, I'd love to hear whether you have made any progress in your situation - as I'm sure would many others.

Good on some levels, but not good on others. Unfortunately, my "boyfriend" (still feels like a weird word for me to use) and I broke up in late May. He decided that the situation was just too much for him to handle, and I'm pretty sure he was cheating on his wife, so that went out the window.

However, I am still pussy-free, for the most part.

My wife and I took a trip to the Pacific Northwest for two weeks for our anniversary, and we talked a lot about what we had been through over the recent weeks. And after a great deal of conversation, we decided that we would continue the PF lifestyle for now. Here's how we led up to that.

So the first time she and I decided to have sex on the trip, she had just stepped out of the shower, and she was warming up this glass dildo that she loved. It was rainbow colored, and hit her G-spot in just the right way. Unfortunately, it fell off the side of the bathtub and shattered on the floor when I walked past it. She was pretty upset about it, and she just had me give her oral instead while I masturbated.

The next day, we went to a sex shop in Vancouver and got two things. First, we got a replacement glass dildo for her. (I don't know why she likes glass so much, I think it just gives her a different feeling that she enjoys.) Second, we bought a latex "real feel" dildo that most approximated the size and shape of her boyfriend's cock, plus a pair of underwear that I can wear and have the dildo strapped in. When we returned to the hotel room, I warmed up both and pleasured her with the glass dildo for a while. Then at her request, I strapped on the underwear and new latex dildo.

Bluntly, I have never heard her cum so hard, not when I've been fucking her. She was out of her mind loud, to the point that I was worried about other guests in the hotel hearing. After she tapped out, she admitted that she couldn't tell any difference between that and her boyfriend's real cock.

I did not orgasm then, because I wanted to keep the feeling of what had just happened fresh. We went out to dinner (two nights before our actual anniversary) and talked about the experience. She told me that no question, the dildo felt better than my real cock. However, she still had this emotional connection, this barrier that she had to overcome. She liked the IDEA of being fucked by a real cock over a fake one. Yes, absolutely, she would choose his cock over mine every time, even if it meant never fucking again. But she still needed to get fucked more than once a week, and she couldn't see her boyfriend more than once a week.

I told her that it was also an emotional thing for me. I know she liked fucking a real cock. But I had just heard her cum harder on the boyfriend-shaped dildo than she had ever cum on mine. This showed me how inadequate I was (she hates when I use that word) compared to him. And for me, there's no question, I enjoyed fucking her MUCH more with the strap-on than I did with my real cock, and I loved making her cum so hard. And if it felt better for her to use the dildo, why wouldn't we do that instead?

She spoke with her boyfriend that evening over FaceTime, and managed to wrangle an agreement from her boyfriend's wife that she could see him twice a week two times a month (so six nights a month total instead of four). And that between the two dildos and my tongue, she would likely have enough stimulation to last her during the six-night stretches when she doesn't see him.

So our agreement is now that I am pussy-free unless she and I are out of town for more than a week, or her boyfriend is out of town for more than a week, in which case she reserves the right to use my real cock (her choice). We sealed the deal two nights later, on our actual anniversary night, when I fucked her with my real cock for what might be the last time in quite a while. There are only two week-long stretches for the rest of the year when she might not be able to see him, and those are likely the only two other times that she might (might) ask for my real cock.

So things continue to evolve. I know this is a messy story, and I know it's not quite the straight-line tale that people are used to hearing on this forum. But it's what has happened, and we'll see how it evolves from here.

I'm keeping track of the number of times I fuck her and her boyfriend fucks her. They had a number of times already this year that they were able to spend three-night stretches together, so they've had more than just once a week. And since we only just recently came to the agreement, my number is high but it won't get much higher. Currently it's boyfriend 30, me 13!

[venus-can99]

Would her boyfriend be able to take your wife on a vacation - for a (long)weekend perhaps? Maybe with his wife?

[Flint]

Thanks for the update, an interesting life you lead, though for someone with a PF lifestyle you're also doing quite well - in comparison I've not had sex even 13 times in a whole year since 2013! Look forward to hearing how it all goes, I'm finding it most exciting.

[mr_slapdash]

Would her boyfriend be able to take your wife on a vacation - for a (long)weekend perhaps? Maybe with his wife?

Yes they're going to North Carolina for a week in September. Looking ahead, I think they will probably be able to fuck another forty times this year, and she will likely only want my real cock twice more. If those numbers hold, then maybe at the end of the year I'll be able to propose going completely PF in 2026.

It's really astonishing how much this turns me on. I never thought I would be more aroused by not fucking her than by actually fucking her. They fucked last night and he spent the night. They're going on a hike today and I'm hopeful they get some outdoor action. He's very big into outdoor sex.

[Barti]

Pussy free for 11 months.
1 time i fucked her in august 2024.
She fucked 720 times with 610 different guys since that moment. She will keep me pussy free for at least 6 next months

[venus-can99]

Yes they're going to North Carolina for a week in September. Looking ahead, I think they will probably be able to fuck another forty times this year, and she will likely only want my real cock twice more. If those numbers hold, then maybe at the end of the year I'll be able to propose going completely PF in 2026.

It's really astonishing how much this turns me on. I never thought I would be more aroused by not fucking her than by actually fucking her. They fucked last night and he spent the night. They're going on a hike today and I'm hopeful they get some outdoor action. He's very big into outdoor sex.

Is this the first time they are going away on a vacation? Will his wife be with him as well?
Going completely PF in 2026 will be a big step.

[mr_slapdash]

Is this the first time they are going away on a vacation? Will his wife be with him as well?
Going completely PF in 2026 will be a big step.

This is the first time they will have gone out of town together for a week. His wife will not be with them. They've had three-night stays before, but always at his house when his wife was out of town.

I don't think PF in 2026 will be a big step. If I'm only going to get twice in the next seven months, that's a pretty short hop to nothing in twelve months. But as always, it's her needs that matter. If she wants my real cock, who am I to say no?

[mr_slapdash]

The guy that I was seeing before is meeting with my wife, alone, at our house this afternoon. I feel very nervous about them having a conversation without me, but we will see how this goes. He's been trying to worm his way back into my life over the past few weeks, but he always acts like such an ass that I haven't let him.

She is going to explain to him how our marriage has evolved over the past few months, especially on our big trip. I'm curious how he's going to react to this. He seems to be fascinated with our marriage, that we can have such an open and honest relationship, that she can have her own boyfriends.

Meanwhile, my wife is becoming more and more comfortable with the pussy free angle. We played on both Tuesday and Thursday this week. On Tuesday she told me that she had decided that we would remain permanent de-fluid bonded, forever. That I would have to wear a condom if she ever did fuck me again, and that the next man to go inside her bare would be her boyfriend (though that still does not seem like a possibility that will happen soon). Then on Thursday, we had a very long, intimate session of me eating her out and then talking while she gently stroked me. She said that it's been hard for her to come to grips with something, but it really has become true: she truly does not desire to have my cock inside her anymore. She's not saying that it will never happen, she might still need that real cock when she can't see her boyfriend for long stretches. But she told me that she is at the point where she could honestly see herself never fucking me again.

That's amazing progress after all of these months. The big test is going to come from July 21 to August 10. Her boyfriend is in Europe. If she can get through those three weeks without fucking me, which she says is possible but uncertain, then I think it will be a done deal, I'll be permanently pussy free.

It's crazy how happy this makes me. I still don't quite get why this turns me on so much. I want to fuck her, my desire for her pussy only increases as she wants to fuck me less. And it's driving me crazy with lust. Lying next to her on Thursday when she admitted to the possibility that ourJune 3 fuck might have been our last one, ever... That was the single hottest moment of my life.

[parklife]

It's crazy how happy this makes me. I still don't quite get why this turns me on so much. I want to fuck her, my desire for her pussy only increases as she wants to fuck me less. And it's driving me crazy with lust. Lying next to her on Thursday when she admitted to the possibility that ourJune 3 fuck might have been our last one, ever... That was the single hottest moment of my life.

I am not PF and my wife even has a hard time with denial of any length, but I can still relate to what you’re saying. As I’ve asked held to actively deny me, I’ve tried to explain that I absolutely LOVE the feeling of desire and lust. I love wanting to fuck her as it leaves me on cloud nine for an extended period of time. The actual fucking part, is anti-climatic.. don’t get me wrong, I have a climax and orgasms are great but ultimately it’s over too quick, I hate the drop I feel afterwards and the letdown. She’s never say she was let down, but personally i feel bad about myself after we fuck. My wife prefers I cum quickly (she already has her orgasm and she’s one and done) but I hate that it’s over so fast. I far prefer not orgasming and staying on the lystduk high or masterbating/handjobs that extend the feeling of pleasure far longer than fucking.

She doesn’t understand any of that…. To her, the orgasm is the end goal and whatever gets you, no matter how long or not so long it takes is irrelevant.

[mr_slapdash]

I am not PF and my wife even has a hard time with denial of any length, but I can still relate to what you’re saying. As I’ve asked held to actively deny me, I’ve tried to explain that I absolutely LOVE the feeling of desire and lust. I love wanting to fuck her as it leaves me on cloud nine for an extended period of time. The actual fucking part, is anti-climatic.. don’t get me wrong, I have a climax and orgasms are great but ultimately it’s over too quick, I hate the drop I feel afterwards and the letdown. She’s never say she was let down, but personally i feel bad about myself after we fuck. My wife prefers I cum quickly (she already has her orgasm and she’s one and done) but I hate that it’s over so fast. I far prefer not orgasming and staying on the lystduk high or masterbating/handjobs that extend the feeling of pleasure far longer than fucking.

She doesn’t understand any of that…. To her, the orgasm is the end goal and whatever gets you, no matter how long or not so long it takes is irrelevant.

Yes, exactly! On Thursday I didn't cum at all, and I held on to that erotic feeling all night and the next day. The glorious ache remains. I desperately want my bare cock inside her, but the desperation is greater than the act itself, and lasts far longer. And since she decided that condoms are permanent, I will never again feel that warm wetness. Her pussy truly belongs to someone else now, and I am demoted. And best of all, she is now finally enjoying my demotion, and reveling in the power and control it gives her. She owns her body and does not have to give it to anyone except the man she wants the most. Incredible.

[venus-can99]

When her bf is away and she wants some "action" can she wear a strapon and take your ass ? That would increase your submissiveness to her and bring her excitement at the same time

[leander99]

Mr SlapDash, how is she doing while he is away?

[Caribwaters]

slapdash

Your initial posting on this thread, while quite long really resonated with me. It is amazing as to how you describe the dynamics in your marriage is in many ways so reflective of ours. Thought I really found a "kindred spirit" on this forum.

The early hot wifing, the eventual cuckolding, the need for balance by her taking complete sexual control due to pressures from work, the accommodation towards her boyfriend/s, the influence he holds over the activities in your marriage bed, being submissive when communicating with him, you wife's willingness to jump when he calls her and to engage in activities that she would never consider doing with you, wife going away on long weekends (or vacation) with boyfriend, your desire for her to keep you in long term in denial, the need for regular verbal, but honest humiliation concerning your inadequacies when compared to the performance of other men in your wife's past and current boyfriend, the need to always try to give your wife oral pleasure while not getting any release, her somewhat reluctance to not allow you to climax, but sometimes gives in when you sincerely plead for permission, then only allowed to masturbate in front of her.

Couple of topics I never connected with, such as being locked in a cage, an attractive idea, but never experienced.

Then subsequent postings, you just go off the rails with Mr. X, etc

[mr_slapdash]

So we're only three days out from my wife's boyfriend returning, and to my great surprise, we have not fucked. We continue to play every few days, but she has not begged me to fuck her. I'm surprised by this; I honestly expected for her to give in. But she decided that she would hold out for him, as a sign of her "devotion" to his cock. She told me something yesterday while we were playing that turned me on, but also stopped me cold, when I asked her when she thought we would next fuck again.

"I honestly don't know. That time in our life might be over."

At this point, I think we are done fucking, which is both painful and erotic. The last time we fucked was June 3, our 24th anniversary, and I think it's possible that we're going to go an entire year, until our 25th anniversary, without fucking again.

Absolutely crazy.

Caribwaters, sometimes real life is messy. I wasn't expecting what happened with Mr. X, it was strange and unique and interesting, and very different from most of the experiences on this forum. But it was real, and that's what matters.

[SensualDeviant]

It's a shame to see weak men in here willingly sacrifice their manhood for a fetish.

[wannabecUKold]

It's a shame to see weak men in here willingly sacrifice their manhood for a fetish.

It’s surely a delight? Otherwise why visit?
This fetish is a joy, especially for real men. Having the balls to surrender and see your wife be taken by another. What sexual pleasure.