Ok, so I've been on the board for some time. Even under an old name (which forget what it was) after I walked away trying to get away from porn and cuckold desires. I wasn't successful.
To share my background...I'm a wanna be cuck, but my wife fully knows my desire and it is a major part of our lovemaking (dirty talk); although I don't think she'll ever agree to it for real. She is a super-faithful wife and a virgin when we met. Literally an old-fashioned woman that most dream of. Over time I've got her to be more adventurous in the bedroom, but that is where it stays.
When I first expressed my desire to be cucked, she did the usual. Anger, disgust...even asked why I was trying to push her away, as if I wanted her to run off with another man. Over time, she has become comfortable with my desire and understands that her leaving me is not what I want, although she tests that occasionally by joking that she'll run off with him. I immediately tell her that is not part of the kink, nor what I want.
It hasn't helped that over the years I've changed my mind about her doing it. Probably killed it for real with that.
So I get lots of cuckold talk in the bedroom now. It turns her on immensely and make her cum hard (especially when I clean up my mess). Sometimes I want a bit of domination, but I've found that she has trouble keeping that in the bedroom. What I mean is that after we've done some mistress role play a few times, she'll be dominating, maybe even rude and mean, outside of the bedroom in front of others.
As much as I want to be cucked, it also scares me to think that she may fall out of love or find me undesirable.. Because of that I encourage the 'mistress' role play only sparingly, which reduces her going too far (from my point of view). I want to be cucked, but have my cake too. No femininization, it is already scary enough thinking that she won't see me as a real man with the cuckold talk, including calling it a pee-pee or cuck clitty. I do lots of cleanup and she'll do the occasional denial of her pussy. Yes, even though we've done the pussy denial at times, I can't see myself not being allowed inside her for real. There is something about keeping that bond going with intercourse and having my cum insider here. She teases me about being a pussy-free cuck, so I fear that becoming permanent should she ever submit to another man on a regular basis.
I know I'm all over the place here. So bottom line, lots of talk but I doubt it will ever happen. Still, it is fun and I love the moderate humiliation at times (I'm average size, not tiny).