Before jumping into the point of my post if anyone (admin?) knows how to find some of our old posts on here...our account was either under 2fun42xo or wayway2fun42xo. It has been so long I can't recall and I have apparently forgotten our passwords so we started a new account.
Anyway, back to the point of this morning's post...does anyone find themselves "waffling" back-n-forth from wanting to be a "good cuck" locked in a cock cage and there to clean up their wife when she returns from playing...to wanting to be more "dominant" and just use their wife like the amazing whore that she is?
As mentioned, we are "back" mostly due to the Mrs' new found interest in sex (and ALOT of it). Either her doctor has gotten her hormone treatment just right or she has created a monster and needs to tweek the formula a little
The Mrs has been online looking for well-hung guys she can meet. She started her search just a little over a month ago...and in the past (5) weeks has done (2) gang-bangs. The first one had (5) guys using her and the second one she fucked/sucked (14) guys
This was a first for us...years prior the most she had ever been with at one time was (3). For both GBs the "moderator" took pics/videos which the Mrs has since shared with me and have provided countless jerk-off sessions 
The GBs certainly showed the Mrs had a new found "awakening" but as much fun as they were for her she was more focused on finding guys for one-on-one play. Since the 1st of May (yes, I am keeping a scorecard of her activities
) she has met with (11) new guys. None of which include the GBs or anyone from the GBs. Sorry, I haven't posted on here in forever and just noticed I'm turning this post into one about all of my wife's recent whoring activities...and not the real reason I logged in to post today.Back to the point. I have spent the better part of the past (2) weeks going on first "dates/meet-ups" with the Mrs for safety reasons. Just to make sure the guys she was meeting for a drink or coffee weren't weirdos. Most of those dates then include the Mrs (and myself) and her new gentleman friend walking to our car where the Mrs and her friend get in the backseat and she gives her new friend one of her amazing BJs...while I watch some of the action from the front. On a couple of occasions the cock was so impressive (her words...not mine) that the Mrs abandoned the BJ at some point and begged her well-hung friend to fuck her brains out. After he leaves the car, everyone has said their good-byes and the Mrs has made tentative plans for their next meet-up...the Mrs lays herself back in the backseat and tells me to get to work cleaning up her nicely fucked pussy. Yes, she insists on a creampie when she is playing or of course, swallowing the guys load...but mostly she loves having a guy cum in her pussy (or ass) when she is feeling like anal.
I find myself (finally getting to my point) struggling between wearing my cock cage and eating cum out of my wife's pussy after she plays with one of her friends..and NOT being allowed to fuck my wife or get blow-jobs from her to wanting to just fuck my wife silly, treat her like the whore she is (she lovees that) and making her suck my cock forcefully (she loves that too). I can't seem to decide if I want to be the "cuck" being denied sex with my wife while she gets to play whenever she wants (she literally has a date lined up for EVERY day this week...and two on Wed...no joke) and I am there only to clean-up....OR...just having an amazing and extremely active sex life with my wife using her daily and enjoying sloppy seconds (which is one of my favorite things in the world) her world-class BJs and both of us just getting off on her whoring activities.
Does anyone else struggle with the waffling back-n-forth like this? How do you handle it? And, for those that have committed to one side over the other...how do you come to that decision (understanding full well you can change course anytime). My Mrs is fine with me playing either role...so whatever direction I choose to go is really up to me. The Mrs gets off on the denial and making me be her clean-up...but after an afternoon of being fucked by one of her well-hung dudes (she is seeing one of them today at his house. BBC that fucks (and cums) several...think 4-5x...in a 1hr to 1.5hr session together) by night-time when she and I are lying in our bed and we are still talking about how great the sex ways and how hard the guy fucked her...she struggles with staying the course on the denial part because she wants a cock inside her so bad. Even though my cock (size wise) is a big disappointment when compared to the very large hog that she got fucked with earlier that day.
Sorry for the almost short-story...once I get to writing my mind just takes me to several things that I feel might be useful to the post. Anyway, glad to be back (in so many ways) and looking forward to hearing any thoughts you guys might have.