Hotwife going out alone/why is it too difficult for me?

[mrs_reese]

I need to get something off my chest.
I had a choice to make over the past year.
I refused to share this with anyone but my hubby.
But as time has moved past, I feel more comfortable sharing something very personal with my friends here.
Let me collect my thoughts and I promise to write more!

[mrs_reese]

I need to get something off my chest.
I had a choice to make over the past year.
I refused to share this with anyone but my hubby.
But as time has moved past, I feel more comfortable sharing something very personal with my friends here.
Let me collect my thoughts and I promise to write more!

[mrs_reese]

It's about my most recent lover I shared on this thread in April.
I have to get this off my chest but I am somewhat apprehensive to discuss

[Mr1SexyGILF]

It sounds like something you want to deal with. I hope you will be comfortable sharing.

Mr GILF

[54321]

It's easy!

It goes like this:

Mrs Reese
"Hi, everyone. I'm Mrs Reese and ... I'm a hotwife"

Group
"Hi, Mrs Reese."

Then you 'share'... and WE LOVE IT!!!!

Welcome back, Mrs Reese. I've missed you

54321

[mrs_reese]

Lol, ok guys!
First I am gonna post a pic of Steve from April!
Look for it in Hotties please!

[mrs_reese]

I just posted a pic of Steve entering me in hotties,
I am very sorry to admit, he caused a serious problem with my marriage.
I wanted his baby as hubby had was snipped years ago!
I have always wanted another baby to go along w my daughter and OMG this created huge problems with hubby and Steve.

There is so much to talk about and i promise to tell more later.

We took some time off, and I just want to say Steve is out of my life and hubby is more than excited to have e come back to out marriage probably bc he wants nothing more than for me not to ever think of Steve again.

More later!
Promise

[54321]

Dear, fabulous Mrs Reese,

The snip can be reversed.

Here's a hot scenario... A reconnected hubby and Steve both fucking you without protection... sperm wars agogo!!!

54321

[mrs_reese]

54321, your bad!

[mrs_reese]

I want to share this:

Steve feel head over heels in love with me and while hubby was traveling setting up a business in NewYork, he encouraged me to be with Steve as much as I wanted to.
For some reason I let my guard down and call it my biological clock and early signs of menopause but I suddenly had this intense desire to have a baby and Steve seemed like the logical choice.
I discussed in detail with hubby this desire to have Steve's baby.
Hubby did not want a reversal bc we researched this method and discovered the longer the wait the less chance of reversal success, (12 years).

I am embarrassed because I know I lost my composure and while hubby was away, I fantasized being pregnant with Steve's child.

More soon!

[BallSpanking]

Hello, Ms Reese!
It's sweet to have you back on the forum.

I doubt early menopause is in store for you any time soon, but I thought it was sweet that you surrender youself so completely to your lover.

Are you still wanting to have Steve's child?
If they could be on the same page it could be very cool for you. Presumably you and Mr Reese have dicussed this during your pillow talk, but it has to be a clear understanding for this not to be a problem.
If Steve and Mr Reese are on the same page, that would definitely be an ultimate cuckolding!
Party on!!

[MrsTruckstar]

It's a perfectly normal fantasy when one is used to pushing the boundaries. But once it becomes a reality it is often not so great as it tugs on everyone's heart strings. Did you fall in love with Steve?

[bubbajack]

Sorry to hear about your emotional turmoil, Mr & Mrs Reese - but thank you so much for sharing some of it with us.

I think we can sometimes forget, as our mood alternates between the excitement of the fucking and the tedium or annoyance which sometimes accompanies our efforts to get to the fucking part, that we are playing with fire in our asbestos suits - and that the asbestos suits are not perfect.

It is important to know that a couple of veteran hotwifers who seem to have done it all and done it very well - can anyone name another couple who has a record of successfully taking it to the limit like the Reeses? - can have an unexpectedly intense emotional collision which overwhelms our defenses!

I guess the pic of Steve about to shoot his cum into Mrs Reese portrays very well the title of the pic - "my problem in April".

Love and Sex are simply NOT orderly -

[mrs_reese]

Part2

It's easy for me to fall in love w a hot sexy male if he understands his role and how impt my marriage is to me!
It was a combination of hubby being gone for 15 days and anytime day or night sex w Steve.
He thought it would be the ultimate thrill to make me have his baby, and as he realized how I am a loving mother and my desire to have a baby- it was easy to seduce me into wanting his baby.
I asked hubby to think of the baby dilemma we faced while he was away!
He freaked out once he realized I was serious.
His alpha kicked in and we had a very difficult
Time working through this.

More later

[luvMyHotwife]

I am embarrassed because I know I lost my composure and while hubby was away, I fantasized being pregnant with Steve's child.

Are you pregnant?

I wanted my wife to ALMOST fall in love with her FBs so that she would have very strong feelings for them, and I the greatest amount of jealousy for her, but not so much that she would free fall into love with one of them. It is a fine line to walk, especially if she sees them on her own and has only one FB at a time.

[Treborn]

Mrs R. I love your honesty. You are so incredible.

[Mr1SexyGILF]

I asked hubby to think of the baby dilemma we faced while he was away!
He freaked out once he realized I was serious.
His alpha kicked in and we had a very difficult
Time working through this.

I can easily see and understand all three of the viewpoints here. You have shown the ultimate Love and Devotion to your husband. It could not have been easy to walk away from the intensity of that situation. It sounds like this is non-negotiable with Reese. I hope that sharing your dilemma here helps you to find peace with it and makes it easier to resume your sexy games.

Mr GILF

PS I just realized that my 100th post (from trainable to expierienced) was to this thread. How appropriate, since my first post ever to this forum was to this thread, after I had read all 146 pages (with a different username). Then again, my first post with the Mr GILF username was to this thread. The Reeses are HotWifing Superstars in my opinion and they have shown once again why they Rock.

[mrs_reese]

So I feel silly for falling for Steve while hubby was away.
I've never ever let my guard down.
I played, teased and even wrote things on this thread all with the intention of totally teasing the hell outta hubby. I have always and will always go gaga teasing hubby and as much as he gets off knowing he owns this this Hotwife, I am so turned on when I drive him crazy!

While he was away in April, omg he said GO FOR IT... What was I supposed to do?
To his credit, he was completely understanding with my dilemma.
Some here think hubby is totally a sub chuck.
But I can't tell more that he is the master manipulator and he gets off being denied but ultimately he always gets his girl!

Then there was Steve.
I'm tired- need to sleep!
More later

[54321]

You Reeses really are incredible!

Like so many on here, I love it that you are so creative!
You access your fantasies freely, extemporise on them and act them out together
with terrific style. Having pushed the envelope as far as you can,
and even a tad further just to be sure you regroup and become
what you've always been, a loving couple who clearly adore and respect
one another.

You really do rock!

And the next adventure will be... ?

54321

[mrs_reese]

I will finish this finally!

Hubby away, Steve and I were seeing each other almost every night, sometimes at lunch.
What can I say? His penis was amazing and it kind of was the most wonderful I've ever felt inside of em.
Just like the way a male says "I love you" to a woman as he is fucking her, my emotions overcame me as I felt this tremendous urge to have his baby.
I sometimes believe I should have been a man because
I get have these sudden urges of emotion as I am feeling an amazing penis inside is me!
Lol, that sounds silly.

I was not taking birth control because of hubby's vasectomy.
Once Steve and I met, I was being very careful but there still was a chance.
After I lost control, w hubby gone, I felt so much desire and love for Steve.
I wasn't trying to replace hubby but at that point, I felt a need to be in a poly relationship I believe.
I called hubby and told him about my confusion and after his need to have phone sex from my descriptive sex talk about Steve, hubby to his credit told me that this is our life and we are always in for adventures so if that was the path I was taking, we would work together as long as we were honest with each other!
Hard to say when he was 1000 miles away!
Hubby is amazing!

Moving forward, I lost control.
The next night as Steve was making love to me in married bes( my rules w him),
I blurted out, " I want to have your baby"
Instead of freaking out, we talked all night about the pros and cons.
Discussions all the legal aspects as everything else.
He wondered about hubby's reactions.
He was also into cucking hubby!

I called hubby the next day and from talking about poly to pregnancy, he was initially all for having a baby.
Well guess what?
I didn't realize that he was being manipulative and was trusting me, believing we were in the hot wife mode- how can his HW totally cuck hubby.
He seriously thought I was playing w him like we done in the past.
This time he was miles and miles away and I was very vulnerable with my desire to have a baby.

Steve and I proceeded to have unprotected sex.
Many many times, this happened.
I kept telling hubby that Steve was Orgasming in me deeply and that I was holding my legs so that Steve's cum wouldn't leak out of me.
Hubby was losing his mind texting me throughout the day all the time asking me if I was pregnant.
I would tease him and tell him "not yet", but Steve would be over soon to make love to his Hotwife.
We would video chat, w Steve fucking me.
I would send hubby Pictures and videos of sex all the time.

I am sure you can guess what happened next?
I was late with my period and I felt confident that I was pregnant.
I called hubby, I was excited and scared to death!
Hubby freaked out!!
He canceled his work and flew home almost immediately!
We fought, I cried, he freak out on Steve and they had a confrontation.
I hated hubby for destroying my world w Steve!
Like I said before, I was in a very weird state of mind!
A few days later, hubby and I spent all day with the phones off, talking and trying to sort out all the shit that just happened!

Oh, during this time I had a few pregnancy tests- all NO'S!
Anxiety would prove the winner as I ended up w my period about 10 days late.
It was a false alarm.
This was a good thing!
It brought me back to reality as I realized having a baby with another man other than my hubby was not in the plans!
Honestly, I think hubby and I would've lost the magic that we seem to have as man and wife.

We are in a good place again.
I am trying to work on playing w E.
Just HW fun!
I think my "having a baby" urge passed and there are days I have a hard time believing I wanted a baby from Steve.

Oh bout Steve? I had to end it!
He was also manipulating me, a baby he agreed to but in the end I believe he was thinking w his penis!
He acted childish when hubby wanted to talk and in the end I realized and accepted the fact that my hubby wanted to challenge him as men sometimes do.
Steve told both of us to fuck off and that we were fucking freaks- his words.
He tried calling a few times since, one VM he apologized and asked to talk- the 3 of us.

I told him in a text, it's better we move on!
I have not heard from him since early June.

This was my life over the past 4 months!

Xoxo

[bubbajack]

Whew! Close one!

Sometimes it is just as important to be lucky as it is to be good - I would say you and Reese have certainly been both - lucky with the non-pregnancy - and DAMN GOOD with each other at handling the crisis and its aftermath.

My admiration for you both is complete! I hope you realize with appropriate pride that you have exhibited ideal devotion to each other and your marriage and that it did not fail when some heavy (but not unpredictable in a hotwife role-playing life like yours) chips were down.

Maybe some light-hearted fucking for fun with E would be just the right recreation break about now!

[mrs_reese]

Bubbajack,do you that I luv u?
Your always so thoughtful and kind.

[mrs_reese]

54321- get some sleep sweetie! Xoxo

[luxxluthor]

wow. roller coaster ride.

[SmilingHusband]

thanks for sharing these private matters Mrs. Reese. I think it's important for us all to read about, learn and think about.

thank you.