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by Breaker445 » Thu Oct 12, 2017 5:57 pm
Hey everyone sorry for the lack of updates, just been busy lately and nothing much has happened just little bits and pieces throughout days. We still have not had our domme session just because the nights it looks like we are going to do it plans just fall through with something else coming up, so nothing going on there. She knows I really want to do it and she feels bad because it hasn't planned out yet.
Like I said nothing major but just little bits and pieces since I last posted. She will say some things that are somewhat about the fantasy that makes me think things have not progressed like I think, then she will say other things at different times that make me think maybe things are progressing. One little conversation we had that was brought up because she loosely brought up something about this other women wanting to openly date other men and I in a somewhat jokingly manner showed her I thought it was hot to hear. The conversation went on that she said, "I know you'd like for that to happen." I agreed with her and she asked me, almost in a way of double checking, "So you wouldn't be worried that I'd get emotionally attached to another man?" I told her I wasn't concerned about that, thinking back to when she has made comments that deep down she should be happy I am not super jealous and also to let her know I have enough confidence in our relationship. She sorta gave me those "What am I going to do with you" eyes and slowly shook her head. So I continue when the opportunity arises to reassure her that I do want it to happen and it sometimes feels like she is gauging to see if I really would be comfortable with it. Yet sometimes she will say things that make me think she isn't thinking of this fantasy at all.
One thing she is definitely getting more comfortable with is her femdom side on out of the bedroom stuff. The last few nights where we are lounging on the couch she will as usual place her feet on my lap. I usually, almost immediately, go into rubbing her feet when she does that. It's become this non verbal communication that she places her feet in my lap and I massage them right away. Well the other night I decided I was not going to massage her feet when she placed them in my lap. She first placed them on my lap with her socks on and I simply ignored them. A few minutes past and she took her socks off and re placed her feet on my lap, it was like she was trying to get my attention with taking her socks off, but I continued to ignore them. She finally told me in a stern voice, "Massage them" and without hesitation I went right to massaging her feet.
Like I said she feels bad we haven't gotten around to our Domme/sub session, but we also haven't had much bedroom play at all and although she knows I want it and knows I haven't "relieved'" myself in awhile she hasn't seemed to be in the mood. I had been checking her toy to see if it was getting a lot of use, but her toy seemed to be getting as much action as me lately. I brought up to her that I wanted her and acted confident saying I would do her good. She gave a little chuckle and made a "yeah right" face and told me, "You wouldn't have what it took to last to do me like that." The challenge was super hot, but maybe hotter was I never got a chance to prove myself.
Yesterday I ordered a new dildo for her that is a little bigger and thicker then the one she has now. I figured 1.) she might be getting bored of the one she has and 2.) she might be comfortable now or wanting to try something bigger and better. I also ordered a little bdsm accessory for our hopefully soon D/s session and I also got her a book about introduction to femdom lifestyle that looks to be a short read and maybe will get her some understanding or give her ideas to the lifestyle. After I ordered them I sent her a text that a package will be coming soon and to not open it. She responded with, "Uh oh hahaha should I ask what it is?" I told her it was naughty things and left it at that. So she doesn't know what is ordered. I don't know if it was her imagination or if the short little tease got her in the mood but when I got home I checked her toy and found it had been used.
Tonight she went to her girlfriends place for some sort of exchanging things gathering. This is one of her friends who is a bit on the wild side. Anyways, after she got ready she came out with her make up looking great, wearing super tight jeans with holes in them, but not giant holes, just enough holes on the thighs and knees to give anyone looking a tease, and black leather boots. I could hardly keep my eyes off her and she took notice and walked around with very great confidence as she got the remaining things she needed to leave. As she was getting ready to leave I asked her again about what type of get together this was and she told me, then she made the comment, "I wish it was a sex toy party." I perked up with excitement and said "They have those!!!??" She replied, "Yeah women have them all the time." I told her that was hot and told her she needed to get invited to one of those. She laughed and said back to me, "Lots of women have them." I told her I am surprised the friends house she is going to hasn't had one before (because like I said she is a bit on the wild side) and my wife responded, "Maybe I'll be surprised and tonights get together is really a sex toy party." I told her that would be hot and would wish for that. She smiled and left for the evening.
There is probably more things that have been said or done over the last few days that I have forgotten, but I am excited with seeing if she enjoys her new toy and if she takes a liking to the book reading. Whether or not progress is made on the cuckolding side of things, one thing is the discussion of cuckolding or cuckolding type topics are way more easy to talk about and feel far more comfortable to talk about, whether it is me or her bringing it up, and they seem to come up way more naturally.